Monday, April 15, 2013
This idea is from operationbeautiful.com, a great site introduced in SparkBlogs!
Keep a list of 10 positive things about yourselfĖwithout mentioning your appearance.
1. I have a big, warm heart; I am very empathetic.
2. Kids like me because Iím always ready to play with them.
3. I am good at my job and my boss wishes I could clone myself.
4. I am tenacious.
5. I am a good reader.
6. I can play piano.
7. I make very beautiful greeting cards.
8. I am a committing partner.
9. I am smart.
10. I love learning.
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Went to see my diabetes doctor the other day. Before that, I had just completed my first run for the longest time - at last my legs allowed for running, and I was so happy! But then, the doctor told me I am not allowed to run at the moment because my kidneys are in too bad condition. They cannot take the shaking and tremor that running causes, so my body retains a lot of fluid; my kidneys cannot handle their job properly. That was rather depressing news to say the least. My system is breaking down at the age of 25...
I must change, and I must do it now. I have no time to waste. I must get my blood glucose levels down and I must control my eating better, I mustn't give into bingeing, I must be tough... The fight is not over yet!
Monday, March 04, 2013
Oh how the time flies... Nowadays, it feels like days go by so quickly that I can hardly keep track on them. The spring is nearly here (well, minus twenty celsius this weekend, but it was sunny), but to me, instead of spring being a thing to expect, it is a thing to be dreaded. And not because of upcoming swimming suit season (don't you just hate the lady mags every year telling you how the bikini season is soon here, and with these diets/tips/exercises you will look great in one this summer?), but because the deadline for my master's seminar paper is on May, on top of other school work that needs to be done. It means that I need to have at least sixty pages of my master's thesis ready for commenting. Well, I met with my professor a couple of weeks ago and he asked me am I going to hire a ghost writer for my thesis since working at the gas station so much I won't have the time to make it myself. He was only kidding, of course, but there was truth there as well.... The fact is, I need to go to work in order to finance my studies. However, this winter I've been working very much because there has been a shortage of employees and I have been needed more than usually. I have made the extra shifts, but now I realised I must tell my boss I cannot do that anymore until June.
Well, that didn't go well with my boss. She was all rage! She cursed and told me they couldn't make it without me since there is no one else to do the work and on and on it went... Granted, I knew in advance what to expect, since my boss is not at all competent as a boss - she is the owners' daughter, and somehow she thinks she can talk to her employees as she likes, and if someone calls in sick, everybody will hear about that because she gets so mad about it. Anyway, I agreed to do all the shifts she had planned for me until week 11, but not after that. After all, I have been working there for six years now, the whole length of my studies, and always given in to them, but it would be time for me to graduate at last... I guess my boss thinks that I should own my whole life for them
Anyway, so I have been very stressed lately because of these things. Time goes too quickly...
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Since I always seem to complain about myself, I decided to compile a list of things that I do well regarding to my health. So, here:
Things that I am already doing regularly that are good for my health:
- I exercise five times a week
- I donít eat processed foods, I cook my own
- I sleep well
- I drink plenty of plain water
- I donít drink sodas or juices
- I check my blood glucose five times a day
- I write in a journal
- I meet my friends
- I donít smoke
- I use good fats
- I only drink two cups of coffee a day
- I walk everywhere
Not bad, is it?
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
When I was a teenager and my doctors recommended insulin pump for me, I always said no, because I hated the idea of having a huge machine attached to my body, where everybody could see it Ė and, so, everybody could see my illness. Of course, I had heard good things about it, but I refused to even consider it. Until August 2011, when my gastroparesis started really to mess with my blood glucose, and I heard that insulin pump would be the best way to try and control the ups and downs irregular digestion causes.
First, I got a feeling for the pump by censoring; I didnít have any insulin in the pump, but its function was to censor my blood glucose levels 24/7 for one week. This censoring period convinced everybody about gastroparesis, and let me practice having a pump attached to me all the time. After this, in October, I went to hospital for a couple of days.
That was a decision I have never regretted! Firstly, the pump isnít a huge machine, itís only the size of a cell phone. I can easily carry it in my bra. It doesnít bother my sleep, either, because Iím so used to it. Secondly, it doesnít prevent me from doing anything and I can take it off anytime. Also, I am not ashamed of showing it to others. Of course, there is nothing to be ashamed of, but it was still a hard issue for a young woman to consider. However, now that Iím familiar with the pump, I donít care whether people see it or not, and I donít hesitate to use it in public. It is my pancreas, a gift and a miracle, and Iím happy to have it. My two nieces and two nephews have been very curious about it, and the three-year-old niece wants to wear a fanny back to pretend that she is having one of those ďbleeping inselemen thingsĒ as well. I wouldnít give up my pump for anything, and I am very grateful to have it as I know it costs a lot to society to fund.
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