Saturday, February 01, 2014
Okay - if you've read many of my blogs - then you probably already know that I don't really "get" the gym. It's a leap for me to feel like sweating in a room full of strangers is somehow fun-ish. I just don't get that. I'd rather work ... as in "toil" to get exercise - like dig in the garden, hike up the bluff, go snowshoeing ... But that's not too easy this winter. It's just no fun to play outside in the snow when the temps are constantly very near, at or way way below zero. My can freezes - and takes forever to thaw.
And - besides - there are all these awesome toys at the gym. Like a pool, and racquet ball courts and yoga classes and some of the machines are okay. I really like the gym best in winter.
But ... I've never felt at ease there. Ever. The closest I ever came was back in college when I swam 1-2 miles 3-4x /week. I got really good at swimming - down to 31-32 second splits on a 25m pool. But that was like - a hundred years ago. Believe it or not - I even get an upset stomach as I drive there. Doesn't matter if I'm meeting a friend. Under the surface - I'm a wreck. Of course - nobody would know that though because that would be terrifying.
But ... the unfit thing has to stop. Spring is really really far away. I need the gym. So ... this month I'm going to try to go to the gym every single day. That's not my long term goal. But I do want to break this thing ... so there it is. Gym-fear has to finally die for once and for all this month.
This morning I went in and started chipping away at the indoor-triathlon thing - and used the treadmill & rode the bike - and left after about 45 minutes. But ... I really felt like a cat in a dog-kennel. I'm counting on the gym-fear croaking one way or another.