Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Whether I wanted it to get here or not, I must say, I'm glad that the holiday season is coming to an end. I had a few bad weeks with Christmas and New Year's being back-to-back holidays, but oh well. I said I'd get right back on track beginning the 2nd. That's today, and here I am. I didn't doubt that I would be able to do it, but I guess I'm a little sad that I put on 4 lbs over the last few weeks. But I'm gonna get it off, and my start is what makes me certain that I will.
I got on the treadmill today, and walked/jogged for 60 minutes, going 4.2 miles and burning a little over 400 calories. I really couldn't feel more proud. I talk to my mom and sisters and explain how I just feel different this time. I don't doubt myself, and I just move forward even through the not-so-good times.
My goal for the year is to lose 30 lbs. That's just a little over .5 lbs a week, and my average, before my hiatus, was more than that. That encourages me, and I'm looking to lose 10 of it by my birthday at the end of February (since the first lbs are easiest to lose for me). After that 10, though, I know it will slow down, and I will not get down about it. That gives me 10 months left to lose the other 20...very doable. I have to continually remind myself that I'm in it for a new wonderful lifestyle and the joy that exercise gives me. The weight loss is just a bonus.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
With the new year, I hope that I can finally feel normal again. I hate this time of year. I wish I could enjoy it the way I once did. I loved the lights and Santa and the Christmas songs and midnight mass (getting to stay up way past my bedtime), and TAMALES >:-). Now, with so much sadness surrounding this time of year, how can one really enjoy it?
Besides that, I have to say, I have been reaching for more fruits and veggies. Still working on getting it to that "five a day," but before, I would ignore them even as they screamed my name from the countertop.
I exercise more, and I actually want to exercise. I had a bad night, and so, I decided to take a walk. It was a short walk because so many things were running through my head, but still something I would have never done before. I know that my body is getting healthier, and I hope that the mind will soon follow.
Monday, December 10, 2012
I am so excited to say that I have finally dropped my first ten pounds. I have set a new goal for another 10 by birthday in February. What I really am excited about, even more than losing weight, is that I stuck with this for a full seven weeks and never gave up on myself. I am doing things that I never thought I'd be doing.
Today, I was lying in bed and thought to myself that I needed to get some strength training in today. I have not done any since last Sunday, and I am ready to add an extra day this week. I thought so many things. I said that I could just wait until tomorrow. Then I said I have not taken a break from working out, and this should be the day. After that, I said honestly, "I just do not want to do this today." All that crazy talk! Finally, I reminded myself that I love the way I see myself after a good strength workout and the fact that I just won't feel great if I don't do it. I DID IT! An hour and 16 minutes later, I feel like I can conquer the tasks that face me.
I worked out for 76 minutes, and it didn't feel like it. I mixed it up with some cardio between sets. So, I got some cardio in too. I find exercise to be something that is now a part of my life. I just love the way it makes me feel. I had a bit of a bad weekend. Personal problems that made me feel blah! But things are seeming much more tolerable now. I am in my eighth week, and I live on this program day to day, but I am excited to see what the next seven weeks will bring. Maybe another 10 lbs? We'll see. Though it would be nice, I am really excited to see an even healthier and more confident me.
Monday, December 03, 2012
I am so sore from yesterdayís workout, and I guess I chalk up my small weight gain to water retention? Maybe muscle? I donít know, but itís ok. I know I did everything right yesterday, so there is no reason for feeling bad.
Today has been an interesting day. I have had a ďbad foodĒ day. Let me explain. I have not eaten anything too high in calories nor have I gone over my calorie allowance for the day. I have just been wanting different foods (JUNK!!!), and I guess this is when my will is tested. I love when I feed my body and not my emotions, and I had a really good week of doing that, but today, after a few days of major depression, I just want to calm these feelings.
Now, because I have been having these thoughts, Iím feeling as though I have done something wrong. I feel guilty. I assume that has to do with all the years of beating myself up for the things I was doing to my body and not DOING for my body. Itís another habit Iím going to have to learn to give up. I have no reason to be feeling as though I did something wrong. Even if I had, I am not perfect, and forgiveness of self is how we keep living a positive life.
Sunday, December 02, 2012
Good news at the scale today. I have .3 lbs to go to my first goal of 10 lbs. I'm very happy about it, but some things are getting in the way of really celebrating this success. I know how hard I'm working to reach my goals, and I should be jumping up and down, but I hate that my sadness gets in the way.
On the brighter side, I have not done any emotional eating. I went walking last night even though my husband was caught up in his work. He told me he was proud of me. That was nice.
Well not much to say today. I committed to blogging as often as possible in December, so some things won't be much worth reading, but doing this helps me.
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