Monday, May 11, 2009
The seasons revolve and the years change
With no assistance or supervision.
The moon, without taking thought,
Moves in its cycle, full, crescent, and full.
The white moon enters the heart of the river;
The air is drugged with azalea blossoms;
Deep in the night a pine cone falls;
Our campfire dies out in the empty mountains.
The sharp stars flicker in the tremulous branches;
The lake is black, bottomless in the crystalline night;
High in the sky the Northern Crown
Is cut in half by the dim summit of a snow peak.
O heart, heart, so singularly
Intransigent and corruptible,
Here we lie entranced by the starlit water,
And moments that should each last forever
Slide unconsciously by us like water.
-- Kenneth Rexroth
(One Hundred Poems from the Chinese)
Feeding the spirit and soul definitely frames me for creating a day of grace and beauty.
First I want to reflect on what I did well yesterday, my first day of renewal of loving self-care:
~ strength training
~ hatha yoga
~ moderate eating
~ started entering foods in Nutrition Tracker (I plan to enter more foods in the NT each day until it's up-and-running)
Where I need to improve:
~ I didn't do any cardio...my excuse is my plan was to hop on my bicycle and head out into nature. With the torrential rains (AGAIN!) yesterday that plan fell by the wayside.
Lesson: BACK-UP PLANS are essential! I could have used one of my many cardio DVDs or SP's many cardio videos.
~ I finished input for yesterday's meals, and it indicates I went over on calories. I need to get back into awareness and planning on food intake.
~ I want to research protein and fiber dietary needs further --SP says I went over on fiber and that I need more protein and calcium. I have no problem with increasing calcium, but I want to get further data on fiber and protein needs.
Today I intend to ~~
~ hatha yoga
~ attend tai chi class
~ do 20-min. of cardio at fitness center
~ spend at least 1/2 hr. hour entering data on NT
~ investigate dietary protein and fiber needs
~ eat mindfully
Sunday, May 10, 2009
...and startin' all over again!
Last night's Scorpio Full Moon provided the *kick start* --"If your goals require a change of mind, of heart, and/or of action, this is the night to successfully tackle fears that could impede the ability to fully embrace change. Scorpio seeks deep truth by peeling back layers of lies and half-truths within us and without us. This is a Full Moon to see things as they truly are, not as you wish them to be. The intense planetary configurations on this Full Moon will be a great help in this regard."
I like this paragraph from the "Today's Feature" article today by Dean Anderson, one of my SP heroes : "In the long run you'll do better if you acknowledge that the choice is yours to make. You can choose either option, without making excuses or inventing a theory like 'lack of motivation' to justify it. Then, pay attention to how you feel about the choice you made, and decide whether that is how you want to feel most of the time."
Yikes! It's all about my CHOICES...taking responsibility for and being aware of the consequences of each of my choices.
It's simply a cop-out when I say to myself that I'm not motivated. It's about CHOICES. And "as long as you and the world remain less than perfect, you will have to struggle with this conflict between immediate and long-term gratification. No amount of motivation will make it go away."
So we're back to the basics...ONE MORE TIME:
~ have a plan, simple though it may be, for daily exercise
~ measure everything that goes into my mouth
It's nothing mysterious, but neither is it glamorous or fun. It's simply the reality of responsible self-care...and it's time to get back ON the program, since I'm UP 4 more pounds. Though it wasn't at all hard to swallow that Haagen Daz Butter Pecan Ice Cream the other day, it's indeed a hard pill to swallow that I've picked up 14.7 pounds over the last eight months.
Yes, it's time for brutal honesty with myself and my SparkFriends. The scale fairly BARKED at me this morning -- 144.3 pounds. I'm embarrassed and ashamed that I've let this happen, but I REALLY want to be healthy in this unhealthy world of instant gratification and lack of consciousness, so it's time to quit making excuses to myself and *Just do it!* already.
I'm dropping out of the Bootcamp. I got off-track and I think I need a simpler approach for now. Wish me luck! Check in with me if you want. I'm not going to set myself up for failure, just move ahead slow and easy...and CONSISTENTLY.
Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds.
-- Bob Marley, Redemption Song
Monday, April 27, 2009
I know my blogs are often unrelated to wellness issues in the most literal sense. But because of my belief that we are a body-mind-spirit entity and that all parts affect all others, I firmly believe that my sadness about what I see around me impacts my total state of well-being.
The tie-in between factory farming and the swine flu is sad and scary... and makes sense really. The runaway violence of the planet is no better characterized than in our treatment of animals over which we have the power. It says very little about our development as a species, but the karmic retribution for this treatment is unfortunately just in a cause-effect reality. www.organicconsumers.org/articles/ar
I'm especially aware today of the world's social, economic and environmental plight. Our inhumanity to one another and to the earth is beyond understanding to me...and my own unloving and unconscious behavior is very disturbing to me. I practice daily to become more conscious, and present, and filled with kindness and compassion.
The world is rapidly spiraling downward and not the least of the critical concerns is the manner in which we treat Mother Earth, Gaia. For some reason the devastation of Gaia has been especially on my mind today. One of my teachers, Thich Nhat Hanh, has written an amazing book about the crisis: www.amazon.com/World-We-Have-Buddhis
Here is an excerpt that encapsulates where I'm at today:
"The life of a civilization is like the life of a human being. This is birth and there is death. And this civilization of ours will have to end one day. But we have a huge role to play in determining when it ends and how quickly. If the human race continues on its present course, the end of our civilization is coming sooner than we think. The way we drive our cars, the way we consume, and the way we exploit and destroy the planet's natural resources are swpeeding up the end of our civilization. Global warming may be an early symptom of that death. If we continue consuming in the way we have, the majority of the planet's human beings may die and our ecosystem will be damaged to such an extent that it will be difficult to support human life as we know it. The world has known many other civilizations before ours, and many civilizations have already perished. Everything is impermanent."
I feel like I do so little to aid dear ailing Gaia. Today I promise Her that I will continue my efforts to find new lighter ways to *be* on Her.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
I have wrestled with control of the will for as long as I've begun to lead a more conscious life. It is definitely at the crux of maintaining a healthy lifestyle. This "Thought for the Day" by Eknath Easwaran is really juicy in the way it gets at the heart of the matter --
Thy desire is thy prayer; and if thy desire is without ceasing, thy prayer will also be without ceasing. . . . The continuance of your longing is the continuance of your prayer.
-– Saint Augustine
I once had a physicist friend who would gladly discuss electric power; but harnessing the power of a passion or a craving – well, that was not dynamics; that was poetry. “Power,” he told me sternly, “is the capacity to do work. Work is the energy required to move a definite mass a definite distance. No movement, no work. No work, no power.”
Day or night I had never seen my friend far from his desk. Then late one evening I came out of a movie theater and saw him striding along like an athlete, several miles from his office. “What got you up from your desk?” I asked. “You’re breaking the habits of a lifetime.”
“Coffee,” he muttered. “I ran out of coffee.”
“Here,” I said, “a very definite mass has been propelled at least three miles, simply by one little desire for a cup of coffee.” He got my point.
Every deep desire is a prayer. Every desire also contains a certain quantum of energy – energy to grasp the desired goal.
-- Eknath Easwaran
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