Friday, March 30, 2012
I see or hear
that more or less
that leaves me
like a needle
in the haystack
It was what I was born for -
to look, to listen,
to lose myself
inside this soft world -
to instruct myself
over and over
Nor am I talking
about the exceptional,
the fearful, the dreadful,
the very extravagant -
but of the ordinary,
the common, the very drab,
the daily presentations.
Oh, good scholar,
I say to myself,
how can you help
but grow wise
with such teachings
as these -
the untrimmable light
of the world,
the ocean's shine,
the prayers that are made
out of grass?
~ Mary Oliver ~
(Why I Wake Early)
I awoke after 7:00am after bedding down late last night...I had a sense of urgency of "I have so much to do today" of "I'm so behind I'll never catch up" and then I opened the door...and stopped dead in my tracks. I looked out and listened to the quiet beauty of nature in the springtime and realized that I, like nature, have this amazing PRESENT to fill with mindfulness, and my sense of quiet desperation diminished and I began looking at how to approach the day in grace and beauty.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
One of our national treasures, poet and essayist Adrienne Rich, died today. She was one of America's foremost public intellectuals.
by Adrienne Rich
In the old, scratched, cheap wood of the typing stand
there is a landscape, veined, which only a child can see
or the child's older self, a poet,
a woman dreaming when she should be typing
the last report of the day. If this were a map,
she thinks, a map laid down to memorize
because she might be walking it, it shows
ridge upon ridge fading into hazed desert
here and there a sign of aquifers
and one possible watering-hole. If this were a map
it would be the map of the last age of her life,
not a map of choices but a map of variations
on the one great choice. It would be the map by which
she could see the end of touristic choices,
of distances blued and purpled by romance,
by which she would recognize that poetry
isn't revolution but a way of knowing
why it must come. If this cheap, mass-produced
wooden stand from the Brooklyn Union Gas Co.,
mass-produced but durable, being here now,
is what it is yet a dream-map
so obdurate, so plain,
she thinks, the material and the dream can join
and that is the poem and that is the late report.
If you would like one more, this was just shared by a former classmate of mine:
WHAT KIND OF TIMES ARE THESE
There's a place between two stands of trees where the grass grows uphill
and the old revolutionary road breaks off into shadows
near a meeting-house abandoned by the persecuted
who disappeared into those shadows.
I've walked there picking mushrooms at the edge of dread, but don't be fooled
this isn't a Russian poem, this is not somewhere else but here,
our country moving closer to its own truth and dread,
its own ways of making people disappear.
I won't tell you where the place is, the dark mesh of the woods
meeting the unmarked strip of light--
ghost-ridden crossroads, leafmold paradise:
I know already who wants to buy it, sell it, make it disappear.
And I won't tell you where it is, so why do I tell you
anything? Because you still listen, because in times like these
to have you listen at all, it's necessary
to talk about trees.
And this *postscript* from her:
What would it mean to live
in a city whose people were changing
each other's despair into hope? --
You yourself must change it. --
what would it feel like to know
your country was changing? --
You yourself must change it. --
Though your life felt arduous
new and unmapped and strange
What would it mean to stand on the first
page to the end of despair?
RIP Adrienne Rich
Here is today's article from the Los Angeles Times:
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Blogging is not looming in my Spark reality these days...actually, to turn it around, Spark reality is not looming in my mind these days.
Life is getting in my way in a BIG WAY. I'm not navigating it as well as I'd like. But I'll get through this patch (or not, as Horace reminds me), just like I've gotten through all the others. Using strength of will to better care for my body through this is the ideal that always lurks, even when I don't attain it. The resources are there, the knowledge is there, all I need is the strength of will to access them.
This is a difficult time in the history of this country and the world. And I am also grieving the serious challenges a dear friend is facing as I write this...it tears at my heart.
Horace knew all of this, and here is what he admonished to Leucon and to me:
Ode I. 11
Leucon, no one's allowed to know his fate,
Not you, not me: don't ask, don't hunt for answers
In tea leaves or palms. Be patient with whatever comes.
This could be our last winter, it could be many
More, pounding the Tuscan Sea on these rocks:
Do what you must, be wise, cut your vines
And forget about hope. Time goes running, even
As we talk. Take the present, the future's no one's affair.
(The Essential Horace, edited and translated by Burton Raffel) www.panhala.net/Archive/Ode_I_11.htm
Saturday, March 03, 2012
My dear friend and SparkBuddy, SANDRA5898, hosted a wonderful coming-together of women to celebrate this rite of passage.
Sandra's invite said: "Maha is turning 70 and she wants you to help mark this milestone in community with others of her dear friends. We will come together to celebrate her life until now and her re-commitment to a long and vital life ahead. We will celebrate Sunday, February 19, starting at 5:00 pm. It will be a potluck. In recognition of Maha, please bring vegetarian offerings. No presents please only your presence and your gift of wisdom. In terms of wisdom, please share with this community of friends a poem, a funny or poignant story, some piece of wisdom for Maha's years ahead, a blessing, a photo or whatever the spirit compels. We will meet at my small, but cozy home. I have lots of floor pillows."
The wondrous song, "She Who Hears the Cries of the World," from _She Carries Me_ by Jennifer Berezan, edgeofwonder.com/ , greeted each friend as they entered. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. I have already gifted it to two dear friends. From the words was extracted the meal offering which we all invoked:
Hail Mother full of grace, power is with thee
Blessed are you, Queen of the universe
and blessed is all of creation
Holy Mother, maker of all things
Be with us now and always
Vivian, aka MISS_VIV, offered the special birthday blessing of introducing me to the music of Jennifer Berezan by sending me two of her CDs.
Goddess only knows what I was saying with such conviction!
Sandra at the cupboard, Jody finishing the salad...ALL from her garden except for the organic strawberries sliced on top!
Fritzie's grand entrance, having driven 4 hrs. to be with us
Six foot tall Judy and Leslie look on as Fritzie dishes up the tasty Vietnamese spring rolls she brought. Later, Judy played a recording of her sister and my beloved friend, Janice, playing the guitar and singing one of her original compositions (a favorite of mine)...what a surprise! The presence of Janice, who lives on Vashon Island, WA, through the gift of her music
This mystical image is of Janice with her guitar, playing at my 68th birthday party at Fritzie's home...and somehow seems just right!
Leslie is obviously saying something very profound (she did a ritual for the occasion later on) as Camille looks on and a partial profile of Johnye
Robin, aka GENKIWARRIOR, and Jody
Sandra is swept away by a segment of Leslie's ritual
Pamela is offering some vision of truth as Johnye, who later shared some of her amazing haiku, smiles beside her
Marilyn, seated, and Bailey. Marilyn read the children's book, _On the Day You Were Born_, by Debra Frasier, an exquisite prose-poem volume, beautifully illustrated, that she read repeatedly to each of her children, including Bailey, when they were young
All eyes on Sharon, while Jean takes it all in
Marilyn making a point
Sharon is delighted and Pamela is reflective listening to Leslie read Rumi
Sandra got a delicious carrot cake from Silvek's European Bakery
On the day of my birth, Feb 23, six of us, including Melissa who had missed the earlier festivities, gathered for dinner at Zaza Fine Salads + Wood Oven Pizza Co. and to go hear Rev. Jesse Jackson, who was wonderful
Melissa with Jody, who scrunched up her face saying, "I'm not ready yet!"
Me and dear friend Robin
Not ANOTHER photo, Sandra!
My friend Jean, though blind, a woman of great vision
Though it needed flash, you can see how Sandra's face is slimming with her weight-loss success! Jean's licking her fingers and I'm chowing down on a slice of pizza
I created a birthday card/gift for each of my friends, which included this poem I wrote for them on Feb 15. It is shaped (when centered -- I tried to do it manually to no avail) like an exclamation point, adding further emphasis to the love I wished to share:
THE IDEA OF FRIENDS
The awe of "Ah!" voiced in unison while watching an exquisite sunset
Dancing like no one is watching as we are shooing the blues away
Whooshing through mud puddles, bikes on a country road
Enjoying good home-brewed cappuccinos on the porch
Moving from misunderstanding to mutual healing
Belly laughs at the movies and sharing treats
Simultaneously thinking the same thought
that the other says -- a thought-dream.
To unite so as to form one mass --
coalescence, community of two
or three. Or even more.
It's joy personified.
That's the idea!
Feb 15, 2012
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