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Stress blog day 12 - tired

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Worked out with my trainer this morning, which was good. Also walked the dogs and did the dishes although as I write this I realize I forgot to do the kitty litter. Will do that after lunch. Had to drive 25 miles each way to my doctor's office to pick up a prescription; it was nice to have some alone time but on the way back I realized that I am pretty tired. I think (actually I know) that I am not getting enough sleep. Partly this is because I just don't sleep well these days, but partly it is because I don't get to bed early enough. So I will work on that.


Stress blog day 11 - chemo

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Today was Frank's second chemo session. They are still waiting to start the Avastin (which they will do in two weeks), so today was just the Folfox. Frank is doing pretty well; his blood work still looks ok which is good. He's lost weight since two weeks ago, but is eating a little better so that is good too.

After the chemo I went to Costco and got some fruit (among other things). Unfortunately they didn't have the mango slices, so I got pineapple instead. I also got strawberries and raspberries.

Now we are home; Frank is resting and I am playing computer games and doing a bit of origami. This is nice and relaxing :-)


Stress blog day 10 - doing ok

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Today was one of the days I work out with my trainer. She comes Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. This may sound extravagant but in fact she is a student and charges me $10 per session - an amazing bargain! So I got lots of good exercise today, and ate well too.

Frank is still having a hard time; he had to change his ostomy bag twice today, and the skin around it is getting all irritated. His incision is still not completely healed, although it is doing pretty well, and it is quite close to the stoma, making it hard to put the bag on so it doesn't leak. He's gradually getting better about it but he really hates the whole thing, which doesn't help. He got a bit upset with me this morning; I've been trying to get him to eat more but I guess I have been too heavy-handed about it, and on top of the leaky bag it was just too much for him. So I will back off. I want to be supportive and helpful, not another source of distress for him!

Chemo tomorrow, early, so time for bed now!

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Stress blog day 9 - better

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Yesterday wound up being a better day; I didn't get much exercise but I ate to plan and read through some of the stress-relieving tips, which I found quite helpful. Today we went to church - we are Unitarians - and the message was about matching your actions to your beliefs. I thought about how I have been successful in doing that in the past, and how my life now is a reflection of what is important to me. And then we stayed for a couple of hours talking to friends; Frank really thrives on this kind of interaction, and it was good to see him energetic and talking to people.

I have a morning routine now, and if I stick to it, I find it very helpful (this morning I did everything but the kitty litter). Now I am enjoying a big bowl of what I call chopped salad - lots of vegetables and herbs from our weekly veggie box, garnished with some high-protein snack chips. Yum!

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THOMS1 8/17/2014 3:08PM

    emoticon Keep on doing. Take it just one day or even one moment at a time, sometimes that's all we can do. Have a great week. emoticon

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Stress blog day 8 - more stressed than ever :-(

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Obviously I haven't blogged in a few days. Yesterday was particularly bad; I didn't record any of my foods, and didn't check in with spark coach either. (I did record my workout). I am feeling pretty overwhelmed right now; another box of vegetables came yesterday so I have to figure out what to do with it; one of my dogs bit another dog (not anyone's fault, they encountered each other by surprise while walking around a car blocking the sidewalk) and the other dog's owner wants me to pay the bill (which I can't afford); Frank is really sick and doesn't want to eat the things he's supposed to eat, or take the medicine the doctor prescribed. I am really scared that he won't survive this bout with cancer. I know he says he wants to fight but I see him giving up a lot.

So meanwhile I just sit at the computer and play games. OK, to be fair, I also walk the dogs, feed the dogs and cats and Frank and myself, wash the dishes, and so on. But I am not really taking care of myself, and I need to do that.

I often read for pleasure but find that I can't focus for more than a few minutes. I'm bored with the computer games but I have enough of them that I just keep doing a different one.

So I guess what I will do right now is finish getting dressed, brush my teeth, and do something with vegetables. Also the kitty litter needs doing.

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BERGBA7 8/16/2014 1:58PM

    To see someone you love fighting cancer and having all those bad days is very hard on you. Don't be even harder on yourself. Take care of yourself. Love yourself and your lovedones and don't stress about other things.
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