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I have a confession

Thursday, August 21, 2014

I'm not going to lie. I have been severely lacking on keeping up with the program. Somewhere along the line I just stopped. Stopped tracking, stopped intentional exercise, stopped eating even remotely healthy. And I am ashamed of myself. emoticon

I'll make up a lot of excuses. "My back hurts", "I'm too tired", "I'm too busy to put in the effort". But you know something? That's what they are. Excuses. Yes, it is true that I have been experiencing a lot of back pain, and I've been looking for options to help me with that. In fact, I start physical therapy in 2 weeks. And for whatever reason I'm nervous as hell about it. As for "I'm too tired, and too busy", well, maybe I wouldn't be so tired if I did put in the effort and bang out those workouts. Even if it's just those 10 minutes. And I'd have more time if I included the kids in it. Hell, maybe it'll even tire them out and they'll take a nap. emoticon

But the truth about all of this is, I'm not happy. And I want to be happy. Who doesn't, right?

I'm telling you all this hoping that maybe, just maybe, it'll keep me more accountable to myself. Because I don't want to put on the charade of talking the talk if I'm not walking the walk. I'm counting on myself to not only do it for myself, and my family, but also for you.

On that note, I'm going to go get a good night's rest so that I can start fresh and get myself back on track, first thing in the morning.

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4MYLILLYBEA 9/8/2014 11:39PM

    Everyone has good days and bad days. When you see yourself going through bad days with relapses just know that tomorrow is a new day. You can start fresh and give yourself a break. Just keep a positive attitude.

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JAROL7 8/21/2014 7:37AM

    Ah ... but you have discovered the secret to weight loss .. tracking every bite that passes by our lips. Now head for the the 5% club. See the link in my blog on my SparkPage.

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GRANDMAFRANNY 8/21/2014 1:46AM


BY THE WAY I AM 74 YRS. YOUNG emoticon

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JIBBIE49 8/21/2014 1:45AM

    As Eckhart Tolle says "We live only in the NOW'. We can never go back to the past and start anything. TODAY, this day is all we have and is all we will ever have. When tomorrow arrives it will be the NOW.
Do this for you.
I watch videos on YouTube of a Chinese man whose channel is Luo Dong and he is a Spiritual Healer in the Chinese tradition. He does massage and he never charges anything as he does it for his spiritual sake. He says he has done it for over 40 years, and he works at a paying job and lives in Flushing New York. I find him a very interesting man as he says ALL people have pain because they have sickness in their bodies. One woman he was giving a massage to had pain in her side and he told her she had a tumor on her spleen and she should see a doctor. He can feel pain and the Aura of others. When I was a child my father went to an old man who did massage and he could feel pain with his index finger. He was a "Faith Healer" who had first saved a girl from bleeding to death when he was 3 & she was cut by flying glass during a tornado. Luo Dong really reminds me of "Dr. Jim" So, I'm sure your therapy will be painful, but you know you keep to work out that part of your body. We have so many toxins now and we really need to stay healthy. Our water has fluoride which is poisonous, etc.

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Well that was a dumb move

Wednesday, March 05, 2014

Run or Dye Philadelphia 2014

That's the goal. This is the reality.

My workout consistency sucks... majorly. I did the first week's worth of training over the first 3 weeks of the year (Weather and a severe cold set me back) And then I didn't get time to workout until the Sunday before last. Well we're in the crunch here (38 days to go as of today) so I decided "screw it" I'm gonna try to run this shiz. Well, I did... kinda. 5 minute warm up then I gave it my all... for 5 minutes. My HR was skyrocketing! 4 minutes later it was down to a semi decent range, so I went at it again... for another 2 minutes. At this point my back and knees are screaming at me. But I said NO! I am not getting off this treadmill until I'be completed 5k (past my warmup distance). So I kept going. Running for shorter amounts of time and increasing my "resting" periods with each go. But I did do it. Right around 51 minutes. And then my 5 minute cool down period. Overall, I did 4 miles in one hour on the treadmill. Not bad considering.

By the end of the day I was regretting my stupidity. My muscles and joints stopped listening. It's fortunate I have muscle relaxers for my back or I'd never have gotten comfortable enough to sleep. And it was like that over a week. Today's the first day my body isn't demanding a new operator.

So, moral of the story. Don't "Just Do It". Work up to it. Train. Take it slow.

So wish me luck!

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THROOPER62 8/10/2014 5:58AM


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JAWATKINS 3/6/2014 5:09AM

Just take it one mile at a time!

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ANGELICAHNAGY 3/5/2014 10:51PM

    Good luck

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Hello 2014

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

So the new year has dawned, and while I've come a long way, I'm not 100% satisfied with where I am now. There is definitely room for improvement. Not that I'm beating myself up over it. Quite the opposite. I see my own shortcomings and can recognize where there is room for improvement. The obstacles that prevented me from reaching those goals last year aren't completely out of my view, but I know how to tackle them now. And I'm ready to do it.

I'm starting the new year out with a brand spanking new gym membership. And I've already used it once (WOOHOO!) That will definitely give me a leg up training for my 5k, and surprisingly enough, it's easier to get to the gym than it is to walk out the door and run through the neighborhood (I can't be the only person not wanting to run outside in below freezing weather, or just barely above when it's pouring rain, or that lives in a city that has beaten it's record number of homicides this year).

I know where things are going with my back, so that's a plus (Though I do need to call a chiropracter)

I have an appointment with a surgeon this month for a consultation about my gallbladder, though the doctor thinks that the stones should resolve themselves on their own and not require surgery.

I'm not pregnant anymore, so that's not limiting me.

All in all, I think it's going to be a good year to reach my goals.

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ANNESYLVIA 1/12/2014 8:43AM

    Well sounds great! You figure out your obstacle and found a solution. Best if luck on your journey.

Congrats on being a new mom!!!

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Still breathing

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Here I am, 12:30am, and what am I doing? Eating a bowl of bananas and peanut butter and simply listening to my kids breathe. I wish that I were sleeping like they are. So why aren't I? Well, because my toddler keeps trying to kill my newborn. I was getting the 3 of us ready for bed when I had to run in the bathroom to put on deodorant. Generally, I keep it in my nightstand, but I ran out, so I had to steal some of the hubby's. When I left the room, Xena was laying under the blanket with her head on the pillow. Isis was laying at the foot of the bed in the opposite side. She was crying. I left the door open and just ran down the hall, the 10 feet to the bathroom. Only a couple of seconds. But by the time I got back, Xena was in the middle of the bed with Isis in a choke hold on top of her. So that leaves me here now, laying awake, listening to both of them breathe but mainly paying attention to Isis hoping she hasn't been injured and paranoid that she's going to stop breathing (really not helping that I have a friend who list her daughter to SIDS this morning and she was just 10 days younger than Isis), and eating because that's what nervous mothers paranoid that their kids are going to die do. However, I'm going to look at the bright side of things. Of all the things in the kitchen and pantry, I went for the peanut butter and bananas. There's a gallon sized Ziploc of Halloween candy and 3 cans of Pringles in the pantry with the peanut butter. Just a few feet away from the fruit bowl is the freezer with 3 cartons of ice cream, all sorts of sundae toppings in the fridge, and ice cream cones. That's pretty darn good of me, don't ya think? I mean, yes, I am emotional eating, but I chose something healthful. And besides which, I was feeling hungry anyway. If I had actually been intending on still being awake, I was actually leaving more towards a sandwich, but I'm not really starting awake... even though I am. A technicality, ya know. Technically awake, but not accomplishing anything. On a brighter note, I can read some emails and charge my Fitbit without missing a step. Ugh. So tired though. I wish these kids could just get along (or more so, that Xena would behave and not try to hurt her sister who is to young to protect herself).

Anyone with tips on quelling sibling rivalry?

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ALICIALYNNE 11/18/2013 8:30AM

    I am dreading dealing with this kind of situation after the baby is born. My son is very possessive.

No advice for you, just lots of hugs.

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    Wow! You showed strength under pressure. Give yourself a pat on the back!

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URBANAUDREYE 11/16/2013 2:22AM

    We've definitely had that talk with her, and whenever possible, I make sure to get some alone time with her, as does my husband. Easier for him than myself because I'm nursing. I feel bad for Xena because even she isn't nice to her sister I get so upset with her. I try not to, but it's not easy, especially days like today. I do think she does need to see a counselor. Unfortunately it's a subject my husband and I don't see eye to eye on. We both agree that we need to get her into the sibling class given by our hospital though. We tried taking her while I was still pregnant and she just ended up throwing a tantrum and we were asked to leave.

I'm sorry that you've been put in a similar situation. It's scary. Hopefully I won't wind up in that same boat next summer. I don't even know if I'd be able to mentally handle that situation. That might break me. I'm already seeing a counselor myself, and we've been working through ways to handle these situations. I'm starting to feel hopeless though because nothing seems to be working. Both positive and negative reinforcement for any of the issues we've been having with her just don't work (taking things away or time it's as punishment or washing out her own diaper (we're using cloth) if she poops in it instead of using the potty, and using rewards for good behavior, helping out, and successfully using the potty). She was so excited to be a big sister when I was pregnant. I guess it just isn't living up to her expectations of what it was going to be like. I'm sure it will be better when Isis is older and can actually play with Xena and be her friend, but the time until then scares me right now.

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ONLYTEMPORARY 11/16/2013 1:32AM

    I am so sorry! It has to be rough to see that. It appears that she is feeling quite jealous of her sister and the attention she needs. Have you tried letting her know that no matter what, she is always going to be your little girl and you won't stop loving her. Let her know too that her sister is also developing love and trust for her, that she needs her sister to help and protect her and that as Isis grows up, she will look up to her and admire her. So, she needs to start being that older sister now and treat her with love and care. Xena may have to see a counselor a couple of times if she doesn't listen to you. Hang in there, you made great choices for your snack. Both are more healthy for you.

My oldest son at age 5 1/2 refused to pick his younger brother up after taking him into the center of the kiddie wading pool at the park and dumping him in. J couldn't get his feet and was drowning and I had to dash in shoes and all and get him. His eyes were rolling back in his head when I got him out of the foot high water. His brother 'wanted him to do it himself'!

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End of Leap into Fall Challenge

Sunday, November 03, 2013

Today is the last day of the fall challenge, and I feel like it has been successful for me, at least for the purposes I joined it. I didn't expect to "do well" or to lose a lot of weight. I just wanted some motivation to keep me off my butt through the last weeks of pregnancy and postpartum. It's been successful at that., What's more, I'll credit it for making my labor and delivery so easy and my recovery so quick. (20 minutes later I was jumping out of bed to use the bathroom. Totally flabbergasted the nurses.) I've come to learn that I'm capable of a lot more than I thought I was. I even signed up now for Run or Dye in April. (I'll admit that I'm a little nervous about that because I am definitely NOT a runner... YET, and it's going to be darn cold out when I should be training for it and it's not going to be easy for me to drag myself outside to run.)

So here's the questionnaire we were asked to complete as part of the final challenge.

1) What was your start weight? 234.5
2) What was your end weight? 206.6
3) Did you reach your ending challenge weight?
4) Did you reach your goals? Well, yes. And no.
5) If so, which ones did you meet? My main purpose for joining was to keep myself active and off my butt during the final weeks of pregnancy and postpartum, which has been successful. I kept moving in some way shape or form the last 2 weeks of the pregnancy, and even postpartum, have beaten some of my previous fitness bests. (Hello finally reaching a 10,000 step day!)
6) If not, which ones did you not meet? I haven't been meeting the challenge goals, which is disappointing, but it's definitely not easy with both a toddler and newborn. The fact that I don't feel like a complete failure for missing what I did, to me at least feels like I really did give it my best.
7) What did you struggle with? Time. Energy during week 2. But most definitely time… I need there to be more than 24 hours in a day.
8) What did you do well on? Honestly, I feel like I didn't do particularly well on anything but Week 1 cardio, Week 1 & 2 ST, and Week 1 of Get Extreme
9) What challenge did you like best? I actually think the Get Extreme. Even though I only completed the first week, doing it really made me feel good.
10) Which challenge did you hate? I think the challenge of the 10's. That was the week that I had the baby, so I really had NO TIME whatsoever. The doctors/nurses sure wouldn't let me exercise in the hospital the way I would have liked to. I was a "disease control risk" so I couldn't leave my room to walk the halls. And when I got home, I was on my own with 2 kids and no real help.
11) How was your nutrition during this challenge? Eh, it could have been better. I kinda used the whole I'm pregnant/breastfeeding as an excuse to pig out
12) What suggestions do you have on future challenges? Honestly, I don't know...
13) Are there topics/threads that you wish were included and weren’t? Not really.
14) Did you have fun? Yes
15) What did you learn about you? That I can do anything I put my mind to

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 11/4/2013 4:58PM

    Pretty darn good considering !!!! You can do it!

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