Thursday, May 13, 2010
I went to Dr. yesterday, and yes I gain 4 pounds, not what I want to heard, but not as bad as I was thinking it would be. Everytime I drop the weight my DH bring in more junk food and start telling me I am not eating(or making what he wants). I am starting to heard what he is saying, I am taking care of myself putting myself ahead of him. Finally told him he is right. I am the only one who can, and if I don't he will be alone.
When I get up in morning I stopped making food for myself and waiting for him and this is one of my trigger, I graze all day when I do that. So this morning I got up and made some noise. His comment was how do I expect him to sleep, told him I was taking care of myself and sorry if he wakes up when I move around house, but want to do what is best for me. I was just doing my early morning care. Started to feel upset and went to look for something to clam my nerves. As I was putting something in mouth, though I need to eat better and made small bagel and peanut butter with glass of milk. What I am saying is instead of reacting I took charge of myself and had breakfast wentonto;my computer are started reading here on sprakpeople. I am calmer I need to do this more often. Not react and not put him or myself down, we are who we are.
Feeling a lot saner, like I can handle this day. Thanks all for reading. God Bless and take time for yourself. If you don't who will you have time for. Pat