Tuesday, January 08, 2008
No, I haven't gained weight. It's just a funny thing about losing it. :)
Every time I go to put on clothes, they're too small.
Oh sure, they go on fine, they fit right, and they look nice. That's not the problem.
The problem is in my head. When I put the first foot into a pair of jeans and start pulling them up, I get a mental "There's no way that's going all the way up and over my thighs/hips!" When I grab a tee shirt from the pile and unfold it to put it on, I think "This is a slip of a little thing, this is never MY tee shirt!"
I have spent so long knowing exactly what fits right, how to tell if something's gonna go over my hips or not, that I'm being duped now. I start to get dressed and it's like I've grabbed somebody else's clothes. I don't know who this mystery woman is, but she snuck in and replaced all my nice comfy big clothes with tiny little things at least 3 sizes too small for me!
At least she's out there somewhere, waddling around in my three-sizes-too-big-for-her comfy clothes! LOL :)
Thursday, January 03, 2008
I think part of the problem is that I know that one little high-cal day isn't going to spoil overall progress. One 'piece of cake' isn't going to undo everything I've done and halt all future progress.
But applying this thinking Every Single Day is NOT good for me!!
Today has been bad. Okay, yesterday and the day before were pretty good, but today bad.
I picked up a scone to have with lunch, as I sometimes do. That's not so bad. That would be my 'treat' for the day. Then I found a gingerbread man in the supermarket too. I've been looking for one and have had it on my "allowed when found" list. So I got one of those, too.
Still not too bad.
Those corn chips though. When I walked past them they called to me. They sung my name. In a beautiful lilting melody. I couldn't resist.
Neither did I successfully get through the checkout without a chocolate bar.
I brought it all back to work, and now it's all gone. The corn chips and chocolate bar did last a while, and I was actually considering not having them. But that destructive "one day won't hurt" mentality just wouldn't let me.
Now I feel like crap.
I've eaten it all, and stuffed my calories for today. I've failed to meet my goal for today, which was to eat to plan. I feel like such a hypocrite spending half the day on Sparkpeople welcoming newbies - while here I am stuffing my face with corn chips while I do it!
And my tummy feels oogly now. :(
Sunday, December 30, 2007
It's the end of 2007.
Every year, in January, I would say to myself "If I'd lost weight last year I'd be where I want to be now". In 2007 that finally motivated me to do something about it.
I'm not quite where I want to be, but I'm loving where I am! I'm slimmer. I'm healthier. I have better balance and grace. I can wear a mini skirt. I shop in regular size clothing stores.
I'm so glad that in 2007 I decided to do something about the weight. I'm a bit bummed that I didn't do it earlier, but I don't let myself go down that track. We do what we do when we're ready, and I clearly wasn't up till then.
2008 Is approaching. This will be the first and only year of my adult life that I am not fat. It is the start of a new era.
Roll on healthy life.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
... a new goal! I still haven't quite made it to 75kg, which was the initial goal (75kg by Christmas). However, I have a clearer idea of where I think I'd be happier to settle at now, and it's not 75kg.
Also, I am travelling to Australia in April to have a holiday and see my brother. So that gives me a natural new goal date.
So I've adjusted my goals. It's now 71kg by April 15th. Why 71? Because 71kg is 24.9 on the BMI scale, and 25 is the upper limit for the 'healthy' weight range. Seventy-one kilograms will put me in a healthy weight for my height.
It's only 9kg, and there's about 15 weeks or so to do it in. Nice, slow loss. Of course, if I've got to 71kg before April 15th, that would be nice too. :)
So to celebrate the new goals there's a new ticker, new background, new colours. All new spark page!
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Yeah, it's a dull blog. I don't really have anything to say. Christmas was, of course, over-indulgence. I'm just not concerned about that. Any gains made over this time can be lost again in future. Pick up and carry on, and all that jazz.
On the bright size, three people signed up to SP tonight because of me. :) So hopefully they'll stick around and get some encouragement and support and reach their goals.
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