Wednesday, February 16, 2011
My roommate, Samir, was in a bad accident today. Slid on an icy road. He lacerated his liver, punctured a lung, and broke his neck in three places. He's still alive, and was awake when I saw him, but things aren't good. At this point he's paralyzed from the neck down and they don't know if he'll make it.
They flew him up to Portland, but I haven't heard anything new since I left the local hospital.
I'm not really looking for sympathetic comments, though I appreciate them if you think them. Just, if anybody has a spare moment to say a prayer for him, I would appreciate it.
We weren't right for each other as a couple, but we're really great for each other as friends. I love him. I don't know what I'll do if he dies. And I can only imagine the hardship if he makes it, but is paralyzed for life, especially having such vivid dreams for his future.
Please. Anyone with a spare moment. Pray for him.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Did kickboxing tonight. A lot easier than the last time, which was like three months ago. I don't know if my physical fitness has improved, or if it's the weight loss making everything easier. But, it was hard to maintain my aerobicism if I paused at all. Which I did to text. I'm seriously addicted to this activity.
I was hoping it could be my indoor aerobic activity when it was raining, but I don't know that it can be at this point.
I recently realized, however, that the Tribe has a corporate account with one of the gyms around here, for $35 per member. Which, for around here, is about the best price that can be found. I think it's one of the bigger gyms, so perhaps I could join, have access to treadmills and such, and maybe they have circuit training as well. I'd need to look into it. Just something for me to think about.
But wow, midnight has hit me hard. I was going to blog about some other random stuff. but I'm beat. Need to get up early tomorrow too, so I guess I'm too bed.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
So, I've been thinking about this P90X thing. I love it. No change in that.
But I'm not sure I'm ready for it. I think I might want to actually lose some more blubber before I go for it. Now, it is hardcore, and it does give you a cardio workout. But, I feel it is more geared towards ST and making your muscles pretty.
Which is a fine thing.
However, I think I have too much fat for that. As pretty as my muscles may get, I think they'll still be covered by too much fat at the end of my 90 days.
Plus, now that I'm getting sunlight again after work, I'm finding, yet again, that I like running. I'm really bummed that I didn't get off work 'til 9pm today (started at 8:45 am), which is much too late for me to be running outside. I'm kind of thinking about doing my kickboxing DVD, but I'm so tired from not sleeping last night.
At the same time, tiredness should almost never be an excuse, especially since tomorrow is Saturday and I can totally sleep in.
But, the point is, I think I'm going to focus on diet and cardio to burn off some fo the fat before getting back into P90X. I definitely need to do some cardio tonight, regardless of sleep deprivation. Working for a tribe, there are way too many Indian taco sales for my own good. And then my grams cooked ravioli for dinner. No excuse, but I was sooo weak today, lol.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
I tried blogging earlier today, but work kept distracting me. What's up with that, haha? So I try again.
First things first, I ran a slightly faster than 10 minute mile today, so just over 6 mi/hr :) Given that I have run for real exactly twice prior to this since October, due to the sick, I think that's pretty dang good. Lol, I know that other people out there can do much better, but this is good for ME, and I'm the only one I have to hold myself comparable to, really. I forsook my P90X leg workout for running but my legs are tired, and I think happy with me and well used. And P90X is just postponed. I'll get back to it :) Overall I ran 1.5 miles, and walked an additional mile.
I did run a 10 minute mile back in late September, but it took a lot more build up and practice to get there, and it hurt more to do. Haha, my mom pointed out, I've lost almost 20 lbs since then, which probably made things MUCH easier. She asked me to imagine carrying a 20 lb pack on my back and doing it again, and yeah, that'd kinda make a difference :p
Plus, I felt amazing when I got done, and continue to feel great. I had actually been craving a run since about 1 pm and I had to rush home to get dressed and out the door so I could have half an hour before the sun set. Left work 10 min early and everything. Funny how much easier it is when it's something you WANT to do. Again, if I can only remember how good I feel afterwards the next time I don't want to do it. Seriously, I need to exerise just about every day. It always makes me feel great for the rest of the day, I sleep well, and I usually feel pretty good the next morning too. And of course, lol, there's the physical benefits of exercise that we all know and love, e.g. increased health and fitness.
On to the second joy of the day. Did my taxes! Getting a nice refund! Will be able to pay my property taxes in April! Stoked! Lol, I'll come out with $7 remaining, but +$7 is much better than not being able to pay my prop taxes at all, right? Totally. So relieved. I've been stressing about every expenditure since before Christmas. I still overspent on Christmas, haha, but I stressed over it. Yay for itemization deductions :) Of course, I'm going to continue to try and save, cuz, well, duh. But this is huge for me.
As to the last Blog, less stressed over the Todd situation. I'm still wary, still have taken a step back to re-evaluate, but really, it's one mistake so far in three months. In all other ways he's been super sweet, supportive, and makes me feel good. Because we only CAN see each other once a week, I haven't had a chance to discuss my upset with him. As fas as I know, he has no idea I WAS upset. And I agree with the advice given me, he's going to have to work a bit to get back into my completely good graces.
Unfortunately, and I hate to pull this card, but the extremity of of my upset was in part due to hormones. Last week was the WEEPIEST week I think I've had in forever. Everything was making me cry. The news was depressing and violent, so I cried. My friend was lonely and not making friends, so I cried. Nobody loved me or cared if I dropped off the earth, so I cried. Which of course was just silly. So when Todd didn't meet with me, it was devestating.
In actuality, not so much. I actually had a pretty productive, unwasted day. It wasn't how I expected it to go, but it was still good. That doesn't negate the fact that he kind of flaked, but then, I've flaked on him too. Never when he specifically came up to see me, but twice now I've been down there, said I wanted to meet, and then let other responsibilities get in the way. And, thinking back on things, I HAD said that he disdained TWO opportunities to see me, but I think I'm going to reduce that to one. He really SHOULD have left watching Sparticus to come hang out with me at dinner, no mistake. But, with the way the convos went about me shopping for my mom, and his plans with Ed, I think I can take 50% of the blame for not meeting, if blame there has to be.
So...still wary, but definitely giving him another shot. And I will discuss this with him, in a calm, non-confrontational, lets communicate sort of way, because I think there was some miscommunication that needs to be cleared up. And I do think it was a not-right-thing-to-do on his part that needs discussion. One thing we might do in the future is to actually make specific plans of what we're going to do, since it's such an investment to visit each other, so this sort of thing doesn't happen again.
But, need to go in to work early tomorrow, so I'm going to call it a night. *yawn* And I just got super sleepy :)
Saturday, February 05, 2011
I. LOVE. P90X.
I KNEW it would make me feel better. The ab work out particularly, completely slays me. I typically lay on the floor giggling for like two minutes after, so completely wrung out and spent, like a wet noodle, unable to even do a crunch so that I can stand up. And today was arms and shoulders too, so I couldn't even push myself off the ground to stand up, lol. Had to lay there for a full five minutes, laughing, until I managed to roll myself up on my knees and stand up that way, which also hurt cuz yesterday was plyometrics.
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