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Friday, February 04, 2011

I think I had too much of an endorphin high from exercising. I'm crashed and depressed. I hate it when this happens. It seems that if I ever get too exuberant, for too long, I'll have a sad spell afterwards. Kind of manic. But not extreme enough that I want to do anything about it. Maybe I'm just hormonal. It's probably getting to be about that time.

Guess I should exercise again to try and kick it.


Lol, distractable

Friday, February 04, 2011

I keep meaning to blog, then I keep getting distracted by my new boy. Texting, talking, reviewing old texts or e-mails....silliness


I like it.

But, fitness wise, since this is a fitness website, want to report that I have restarted P90X after being sick WAAAYYY too long. This is day two, plyometrics. Definitely kicked my butt, as I remember happening before. Nice thing about Todd is he's so into fitness that I'm driven to catch up (lol, though I never will as he casually bike rides 46 miles in a day :p). Lol, he has a shirtless picture of himself on Facebook, which is my inspiration. Not that I want to look like HIM per se, just fit like him.

Still love P90X though, so I'm glad to be getting back into it. The Wednesday following the Tuesday of the first work out, I felt amazing. I was happy and chipper all day :). Felt the ache of it today. It was good because I think I felt it more in the appropriate places than I did last time I did this, which means my form was probably improved.

As expected, my weight loss stalled out. I'm burning significant calories, but I'm punishing my body enough that it's water logged. I can tell that I'm all bloated. But, this too shall pass, if I just remain committed. Time to take a shower though, and head to bed. Work comes too early. Catch you all latuh.

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TRACIE52 2/4/2011 7:55PM

    Yikes. I don't drive my car 46 miles a day if I can help it. I am so happy that you have found such happines.

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GRANNYS5 2/4/2011 6:47PM

    I'm with VAMANOS emoticon emoticon emoticon
46 MILES A DAY! WOW!!! hang onto him:)
glad you have gotten yourself back into a routine


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VAMANOS 2/4/2011 9:43AM

    OK, grab that picture off of FB and post it! I like to look at shirtless boys, too. LOL, I'm a dirty old woman.

You know what I love about you? You pick yourself up and start over again without complaining. And you understand that a bump in the road isn't the end of the road. Love reading about your doings!

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Tuesday, February 01, 2011

Descriptive title eh?

Not actually sure what I want to blog about. Had all kinds of ideas, but got distracted texting with my young man (whom I feel somewhat silly over these days ;p) and things kinda drifted out of my brain. But, I'm stubborn, so I'm blogging anyway.

Hmm...well pleased with my progress. Had a big loss this week. At least in part due to the fact that I am now weighing in NEKKID! So lost a little over a pound there, lol. But still, 153, given that I haven't seen that weight since 15, is not bad. Overall, about 8 lbs lost in the last three weeks. Which is a bit fast, but not unreasonably so.

It's primarily due to the fact that I haven't been eating I think. Duh, right? Oh well. It worked for me. But I'm done with it. Starting P90X up again this week (theoretically today though it's now past 10 PM). Decided to try it with the suggested diet, see how that does me. That means 1800 Cals of healthy food. Which means, being healthy and low fat, it takes a lot of mass to make up the same cals that a nice juicy cheeseburger would've given me. During the first part of the day I had a hard time forcing enough food down me. But by the time I got home I was really hungry for some reason. I still had food allotted for the day, some veggies, some peanut butter, and some milk with protein powder. I ate the veggies, and substituted two egg whites for the peanut butter (primarily cuz I accidentally cracked the eggs.) I seem to be less hungry now. But weird that I get hungry, for the first time in two months, when I start eating.

My measurements haven't really gone down at first glance. My bust maybe by half an inch. BUT! A visual examination of my belly pooch says that it's diminished. Lol, it's not really one of the measurements they have you take, but I wish I had. I CAN see the loss, but it'd be nice if I could measure it.

PLUS! I now have this really pretty size Medium shirt that I can wear :) I've watched as my pants became more comfortably sized, and then until I dropped a size, but I hadn't thought to try a smaller sized shirt until today. Of course, I then tried a different brand of medium and it made me look like a sausage, but whatev. That particular brand of shirt always runs small on me. They make it for women with no bosoms apparently, which does not describe me.

Hmm. Don't think I'm going to do the P90X. Because I ate the egg white instead of peanut butter, am short a bowl of veggies, didn't have the milk and protein powder, I'm only at about 1520 Cals today. That's not unreasonable for maintenance. If I don't exercise, I won't have over eaten. And I'm really tired. I calculate I wasted over an hour today though, which is inexusable if I actually want to do this. Was just fiddling around on Spark. Which was fun, which was inspiring, but which will not burn the blubber.

Going to go to bed I guess, and try to wake up early to do it. Didn't have any success with that this morning, but I have absolutely NOTHING planned for tomorrow evening, so even if I don't wake up early I should be able to force myself to get started in the evening.

Night all. *YAWN!*

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VAMANOS 2/4/2011 9:40AM

    Is this a new young man, or the one you went to meet while still sick? Sounds like he's got you giddy (reading ahead to the next blog), which I love!

You stop feeling hungry when you're sick, and after a long while of starvation you don't feel hungry anymore, either. Now that your body is getting some food, you've awakened the sensation again. It's actually one positive thing that comes out of being sick for so long. Most of us never allow ourselves to actually feel hunger, we eat out of habit and by the clock. Knowing what hunger feels like helps you when you're trying to lose weight, because you can distinguish when you SHOULD eat from when you are just eating from habit or some other reason.

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CALTRIN 2/1/2011 10:03AM

    Great to hear that you are feeling better and doing so well with your weight loss.

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Hehe, starving myself becomes me

Friday, January 28, 2011

Lol, obviously not really. I am not deliberately starving myself, and I'd say most days I'm getting adequate calories. But, due to how busy I've been at work, probably 4 days out of 5, I haven't had time for breakfast or lunch. No breakfast cuz I'm too tired to get up in the morning, no lunch cuz I didn't plan well, and even if I had it, I haven't had time to eat it.

Not the healthiest or wisest way to go about things, since I'm probably not getting enough nutrients.

That said: I'm past my halfway point! I have officially lost half the amount of weight that I've been shooting for.

Now, admittedly, I've been seriously slack on the exercise portion of things. Likely part of this weight loss is muscle loss. No good. Really need to start ramping that up again.

But, still, stoked. I haven't been this light since high school. It was always a gradual creep up, and now it's a gradual creep down. But, by golly, gradual or not, I'll take it.

I'm particularly pleased because I lost even after being on vacation. Of course, everything was so expensive to eat I was trying to buy as little as possible, and thus ended up eating less than usual, so I guess that makes sense.

Anyway. My roommate is coming back home with his girlfriend. If she wasn't going to be here, I'd probably celebrate by restarting P90X. But she is. And I HATE exercising in front of strangers. Especially skinny 19 year strangers who can't gain weight if they try. Can't even tell my roommate about it, (want to cuz he's been supporting me this whole way), because she's going to be sitting right there. Oh well. Told my mom. That's enough.

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JUSTSHORT 3/1/2011 4:45PM

  i didn't know you had p90x, i was looking to get one from ebay!

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VAMANOS 1/29/2011 6:08PM

    Yay for the weight loss, boo for the way it's happening. Sure would hate to see you sick again...but you know what's required, and you're an adult. So I'll just be happy for your progress and you'll take care of the rest.


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TRACIE52 1/28/2011 10:08PM

    And you told us. YAY for you. One day I hope that I can say the same thing.

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Freshman weight

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Weighed in at 161.3 today. That's about what I was going into Freshman year of college. Which of course, I haven't seen since about the first month of Freshman year of college.

So what did I do? I ate three cookies and a bowl of ice cream tonight. Good job Tiana.

But, I am, as always, encouraged that my lazy, fat eating ways have not totally sabatoged me, yet. Hope spring eternal that someday I will get off my lazy butt and do something about actually proactively losing weight.

I did have some excuse of being sick for over two months. And when I went on a hike with my roommate the other day (who has no idea how to pace himself with a woman 8 inches shorter than he is), I was super out of breath the whole way. It was pathetic. I feel I haven't been this out of shape in forever. Unfortunately, it aggravated my lungs enough that I was coughing for the next two days. Not promising, as that was only last Sunday. I feel recovered, I? Guess I won't know until I push myself again.

Blah. I'm totally making excuses though. I haven't even tried. I did NOTHING today. I mean, don't get me wrong, I worked hard all day (just one of those days where everything seems to be time sensitive.) But when I got home...nothing. Took a bath, cuz I helped chop up a three-day dead elk today, leaving me somewhat pungent. Got all relaxed. Had to get up cuz the dog was out of food. Ended up at my gram's house cuz she said she had some extra (which I couldn't find). Ended up talking to my mom for like an 1.5 at least over my relationship issues. As much as I ramble about them here, I have a hard time bringing them up to real people. But, my mom is my mom, and I don't really think there's much I can't tell her.

No real solutions, but it's good to get your confusion out. I've thought my issues through in my head, multiple times, but it's different to say them out loud, even if there's nothing fixed by it. Don't know why. I'm less worried about things. In fact, I'm resolving to worry less in general.

I've now been on three dates with the new boy. He's nice. I find nothing objectionable about him. He's respectful, which I appreciate, like, a lot. But do you stay with a guy because there's nothing objectionable about him? No initial spark for him. But then, I don't really, ever, spark on guys. The one time I fell in love I knew the guy for a year before my feelings changed. And, I've gotten to the point where I wish I could spend more time with him. His name's Todd btw. Dunno. One of the issues I have is dating around. I know they say, especially if you're in the early stages of seeing someone, you should keep your options open, date others if the opportunity arises. I just feel weird doing that.

After only three dates, to say I think he and I are exclusive just seems silly to me. At the same time, I don't feel comfortable dating anyone else while I'm still seeing him. Which is kinda the definition of exclusive. This is a new feeling that has come with having a third date with him. Which is entirely contradictory to my initial statement, I know.

Blah. Blah Blah Blah. No answers. Sleepy. Guess I'll go to bed.

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JILLIANPRNCSS 1/15/2011 12:25PM

    My husband of 14 years had to really grow on me while we were in college. It was not till I saw this other girl trying to date him that I realized I didn't want him dating other people so we needed to have a talk.

As for the exercise, I am learning that I can't think about it any more. I have my week scheduled with what exercises I do each day. I don't always do what is planned but if I did not have any plan then I know that I would do nothing.

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VAMANOS 1/13/2011 7:31PM

    I love that you feel there's nothing you can't tell your mom. My kids are beginning to tell me things they kept secret when they were still in their teens, and it's hair-raising, but they survived emoticon

If you feel that you are sabotaging relationships because of your 'issues' as you call them, perhaps you should seek counseling. Otherwise, go with your gut. You don't have to commit to an exclusive relationship to choose not to date others while you're seeing Todd. You don't have to expect him to. You're not a giddy kid anymore, you can trust yourself to make wise decisions.

PS, My freshman weight was about 105 pounds...don't think I'll go back there!

And I would think that helping cut up an elk would burn enough calories for one day...

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