Monday, December 06, 2010
Skipped a day yesterday of P90X. Didn't finish up with stuff until 1:30 in the morning Saturday. No excuse. But I missed it. As in, I failed to do it, and I pined for it.
Today I was all jittery from not doing it. All adrenalated as my body revved up for action in the evening, which is when I've been doing it. It made me irritable. Not...grouchy? But, edgy with a somewhat pessimistic twist. Bummer for my roommate who had to talk me down from my negative energy high. Focus of my too-racing thoughts today was again, lack of masculine prospects around here, and the unlikely event that I'll ever find anyone. What can I say, I just really don't like meth, and that severely cuts down on the possibilities.
We're so weird together, he and I. We dated right? We're exes who were very unhappy with each other by the end of things. But somehow, after a break apart, we're now fabulous together. Not as boyfriend/girlfriend (neither one of us wants to go there), but as really good friends. We totally build each other up in our soft spots. His weak spot is planning for his future and sticking to it, mine is living in the now and not stressing about the future. Mine is getting a boy, lol, his is obviously getting a girl. And not just any one, but the right one. Neither of us wants to settle, and neither of us have patience with drugs, otherwise we'd probably both have relationships. One of the common conversations we have is me trying to help him understand how girls think, and vice versa. It's weird. But it's super comfortable. Lol, he always offers me distraction from exercise if I want it, but he always accepts and doesn't press when I say "no, I have to do this" even if it puts dinner off by 1.5 hours. He supports my goals and compliments me on the progress I make.
Anyway, that was a total tangent there. The point was, he reiterated my good points, pointed out where I need to be stronger (like smiling at guys and talking which I totally agree with).
We both agreed that if I did my exercise tonight, I'd probably feel better and work my way out of my funk. It was unfortunately put off due to a mutual nap, so I didn't get started until 11 pm, but then I did my p90X yoga. I was a bit afraid to do it, because it's a full 1.5 hours long and yoga is not my strong point.
Somehow, yet again, I managed to get through it all (though didn't quite make all the poses, I did do SOMETHING for each of them). Definitely worked the lower body well, and the abs. Managed to maintain my calm through most of it, and breathe, which I ususally can't do. Came out feeling TOTALLY chill. Just chill. No other word for it but chill. And oh my goodness but did I perspire! It was disgusting! I was dripping! Good stuff. Went and took a soak in the tub, followed by a scrub in the shower. I LOVE getting clean after I get dirty. So satisfying.
I'm having a bit of mixed feeling about this P90X though. It definitely works me, everytime, and my muscles ache afterwards for the next few days. But a.) I find it enjoyable, which exercise is not generally to me and b.) I can actually do most of it. Not to the level of the people on the screen, but I can do it. So I feel like maybe it's too easy? But at the same time, I can definitely see room for improvement, as I progress and am able to do higher weight, with better form.
I think it's good. The thing of it is, it just might be perfect for me, which I, negative as my mom says I am, inherently distrust, haha. I'm going to keep going, and I hope that I see improvement. I already feel like I'm getting stronger, but that's probably just vanity on my part. All in all, a good experience today.
But, alas, it's almost 3 am and I must work tomorrow. So I guess I'll close this rambling blog and go to bed.
Saturday, December 04, 2010
Wow my arms hurt. Like a lot. And they're very tight. I'm talking about the muscles around my elbow, just above, and just below. I'm a little afraid I've strained the tendon, but it feels more like a muscle burn out. If I stretch that particular batch of muscles, the pain is relieved, but it comes back quickly.
It comes of having sissy arms going into the first day of chest and back exercises. Lots of push-ups, lots of pull-ups, both of which put a lot of strain on that bending joint. It ached going in to today's workout, arms and shoulders being the emphasis. I decided I'd start it out, and see how they felt. After a few minutes of exercise, they started feeling significantly better. Hair of the dog I guess.
But now that I stopped again, ouch. I'm hoping they recover before I'm forced to use them again. Pretty much my whole body aches by this point. Lol, I dropped my pen twice today, and nearly killed myself squatting down to get it after yesterday's plyometrics.
Still pleased, but definitely achy. Leaves me feeling good about myself every time though, so I keep going.
Gonna help my mom clean house tomorrow, because she has a guy coming in to hopefully repair her floor this weekend. Haha, I hope I'm up to it.
In other news, I've overeaten all three days of this P90X. I don't know if it's cuz it's new, and my body is compensating. P90X wants you to eat 2400 Cal, with a focus on protein. I've had too much fat the last couple of days, and came out on average at 2100 Cal. I should still have a deficit, but I feel I may let my Biggest Loser challenge team down. Not only is my deficit only okay (about 250 average a day), people say that in the beginning stages your body might freak out and take in water to combat the damage you're inflicting on it. Plus, it's that magical time that every female goes through for me soon, so I'm bloating for that too. Bummer. Point is, probably going to gain.
We'll see :)
Friday, December 03, 2010
Ha! Lol, literally. For some reason, I can't stop laughing. Hahahahahahaha. I hurt so much. Oye. Ha. My back and shoulders and arms ACHE from P90X yesterday. I did the plyometrics today, and I'm so WORN OUT! Every time I stand up my whole lower half shakes and I start laughing. It's an adrenaline/endorphin high I guess or something, but I can't stop giggling. My housemate keeps asking me what's wrong, laughing at my laughing.
Anyway, I love this stuff. Again, did kinda sissy. I definitely took about 1.5 minutes of extra break, but I got off the ground for every jump. Lol, sometimes it was maybe two inches, but always off the ground, and in the beginning it was much better. Made it all the way through, which I'm proud of.
I'm so glad I got this. Haha, I may not be saying this in a week, after I go through each DVD and work the whole body, but for now, I love it.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
As outlined in a previous blog, I was twitchy all day. It never went away. Even sitting there, trying to visit with my grams and moms, I couldn't chill out. Foot tapping, hand rubbing, getting up to pace around. No, I was not on crack. Just twitchy.
Finally got home, and finally decided to do the first day of P90x.
I freaking loved it. Totally satisfied. Honestly, I couldn't do all of it. What I did do of it, I did in the sissy version (e.g. using a chair for pull-ups since I can't do a single one unaided, or mostly doing modified push-ups). But I loved it. Definitely this first week though is going to teach my body how to move appropriately. These are all variations of exercises I know, but are different enough that my body doesn't automatically fall into pattern. And then to keep pushing past what I normally would've thought was my exhaustion point, I need to learn how to focus my energy into the muscles involved.
I was supposed to be working on my chest (which push-ups will do definitely) but those muscles don't feel worked thoroughly. I definitely think I wasn't dropping down far enough. The failing point was my triceps, to help push me back up. My triceps have always been sissy. But, I'll get better. I wouldn't have thought I could do nearly 100 pushups, even modified, before this, and I'm sure I'll be amazed at what I can do after I'm done with the program.
But my stress level is way less now. Even if the chicken I'm cooking turns out abysmal, I'm okay with that, because my male roommate will eat it anyway. He's good that way. I feel totally chill, and I think I'll be able to sleep deep tonight. The hot shower afterwards was amazing too. Everything is just good right now.
Anyway, I'm glad I got this started, and I'm excited to continue and see where it takes me.
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
I so don't want to be cooped up at work any longer, shopping for the cheapest motel rates for the inordinant amount of travel that my boss and I have to be taking over the next couple of months. I want to exercise! My lungs and nose are finally clear enough for me to do something I think, and I am so sick and tired of my jiggly butt!
Something needs to change, and it's not going to happen without exercise. I DREAM of a nice, firm bootay, and I never seem to have the time to pursue it. Grr....
There are 3.5 hours left to the work day. I have so much stuff to do, because we have a staff meeting Friday, which means no real work to be done that day. But I just don't want to be here! I need a vacation again I guess. A real one, where I go someplace. It's only been a couple months since my last one, but I feel the need again. I will be going to Phoenix, AZ in a week, and Washington D.C. a few weeks after that, for work. D.C. at least should provide me with the opportunity to take a bit of extra time and visit with friends. But for the moment, I'm going mad without being able to exercise. I need the stress relief that goes with it. Grr....
Literally, my skin feels like it's crawling I'm so twitchy. Not pleased.
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