Friday, March 08, 2013
I made a wonderful discovery a few mornings ago. As I was changing for the day, I noticed that my stomach actually had (small) definition! I have never had muscle definition anywhere, much less my stomach! I was so proud of myself, and amazed that I was actually seeing results. My scale has been LOCKED at 163 for the past month. This has been my standard weight most of my life, and I realized I have reached a plateau I need to push through.
I also have a wedding in a few weeks and I need to maintain my weight so I still fit the dress. After this, I plan on pushing through this weight block and keep moving towards my weight goal! I'm happy to see that my body is making other healthy changes, even though the scale may stay the same. I'm also maintaining healthy eating habits and regular exercise.
I've been using Jillian Michael's 30-Day Shred. I have been using it as she recommends (not the company) and taking 1-2 days break each week to let my muscles rest and heal. Right now it's a good level for me. I am challenged, I feel my muscles growing every week, and I haven't had any injuries/pains/overkill days. So for now, I'm sticking with this, and seeing what other muscles start to develop :)
I'm happy to say that for the first time in my life, I am consistently happy with who I am and how I look. It's taken a long time to get here, but I'm happy I finally have!
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
January has been a crazy month for me. I started out by getting very sick with the horrendous flu that is sweeping the country. That knocked me out for almost 3 weeks. I'm just now starting to ease back into my old routines, but I'm still sluggish. I missed New Years, my 30th birthday and fell behind on my dissertation work.
In the first week of the flu, I had no appetite, and ate about one can of soup a day. I lost five pounds. Although this helped my weight loss journey, this is never how I want to lose weight. On top of that, I've skimped on my workout routine due to being sick. I haven't been counting calories.
But now I'm back. My flu has faded, deadlines are approaching and it is time to get life back on track. It's always been difficult for me to recuperate after a blow (whether physical-getting sick, or emotional-the dread of deadlines), but I'm working on this.
Again, I am not happy with how I had my most recent weight drop, but I have experienced some benefits. I now fit into the gorgeous bridesmaid dress I get to wear for a good friend's wedding at the end of March. I am now on track with my weight loss goals and, in fact, have to try to maintain my weight for the next few weeks so that said dress still fits for the wedding! I'm halfway through my weight-loss journey (but just starting my health journey), and for the first time in over a year my BMI is in the normal range. A few very good accomplishments.
Over the next few weeks I want to focus on getting back on track. I hope to be kind to myself, because I know this won't be easy. Starting a new and different project has always be easy for me, it's the maintenance that always gets me in the end. I also want to look at the barriers that get in my way. I know that the flu can't be avoided, but what could I have done in those weeks to stay more on track, rather than completely derailing and ignoring my health and school goals? What can I do in the future to anticipate other derailments, or to hop back on when the inevitable bumps of life get in the way? I am my own worst enemy. It is not ignorance, lack of motivation, or lack of ability that stops me from succeeding. It is my need to be perfect and please others. If I don't complete something at absolute perfection, or if I feel I haven't lived up to the impossible standards I imagine others to have for me, I feel crushed and defeated. I feel worthless and undeserving of success and happiness. I lose any confidence I had built, along with momentum and my thoughts are occupied with my shame and worthlessness. This is my life struggle-learning to believe in myself. It won't come easy, but I've made strides over my life and will continue working on it. All I can do is be patient with myself and keep moving towards health. That's all we can ever ask of ourselves-do what we can, with what we have.
Good luck to everyone on their own health journeys, I know we all have obstacles!
Thursday, December 20, 2012
I've had some ups and downs this week. After consistent weight loss every week for a month, I gained a pound. I know the score, sometimes building muscle can do this, sometimes this is just what happens some weeks, etc etc etc. It still sucks to see the scale go up after weeks of progress.
So I've been focusing on other positives. Like how I can run faster on the elliptical and I feel less like I'm dying (I still feel a little bit like I'm dying). How I've kept up good habits for four weeks. How my body feels stronger, and strength exercises are easier to do (my limbs only feel like jelly half the time!)
I have also realized that I have to be serious about this process if I want to actually lose the weight. Every time I cheat-don't log my calories or food accurately, sneak extra food, pick unhealthy foods that stick within my range over healthy foods-it shows on the scale and in how my body feels. It's like those times when mom tells you some words of wisdom, but you don't want to listen because you think you can do it your own way. Well, it always comes back to bite you in the butt. The only way to lose weight and be healthy really is to work out, eat healthy, and stay in your ranges. Yes, mom, I heard you!
Keep'n on striving!
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Spending the weekend in the Twin Cities. This type of trip usually involves lots of overindulgences in food. This weekend, while I haven't strictly stuck to healthy foods, my family has gone "halfsies" on each entree we've eaten. So, rather than overeating and having 4 portions of leftovers to forget about and throw away later, we each had a light meal and saved the pain of bellyaches! Today we also only had a late breakfast and an early dinner. One good step and great to have the support of my family.
And while I haven't stuck entirely within my daily recommendations, I have stuck with documenting my foods so I can see the damage!
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
This week I was able to fit into my skinny jeans. Not the jeans that are the size I eventually want to be, but a pair of skinny jeans I bought last year (before I gained a bunch of weight) so that I could wear boots without all that awkward scrunching. After losing 8 pounds, I am able to fit into them! To celebrate, I'm wearing some cute boots.
ALSO, I went in to be fitted for a bridesmaid dress for a wedding I'm in next spring. I had tried it on a few months ago when the bride was still deciding which dress to pick. When I tried it on again today, I was pleasantly surprised to find that I had gone down a whole dress size! Just one more small victory on my path to health.
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