Wednesday, February 13, 2013
I am really not a fan of my doctor. She wants me to lose weight and expects me to, but doesn't actually give me any of the resource or support that I need to succeed. I feel like she is judging me and I don't feel comfortable talking to her. I have had two appointments with her in the past week (because it is impossible to get things done over the phone) and I don't feel any further ahead than I was before had.
In the fall I told her that I was having trouble with my knee and that it was really hurting me. She basically said that I just need to walk more. I took her advice and have been walking one day a week (in addition to my aerobics videos). My knee continued to hurt, in fact, it got worse. She told me again, I need to walk more.
After I insisted that we actually examine the problem, she ordered an xray and found arthritis. Her solution, walk more. I am not sure if it will help or not, but it seems to make it worse. I am going to keep walking, because I want to lose weight, but it can be pretty painful sometimes.
I am really frustrated.
Monday, February 11, 2013
It has taken about a year, but I have slowly worked on eating better. In June 2012 I lost ten pounds and I was able to keep it off the whole rest of the year! I know that this is because I have learned to eat better. It is not always perfect, and sometimes I still over eat, but I know a lot more about nutrition and I am very familiar with proper portion sizing.
The thing that I struggle with now, is moving more. My goal this week is to workout every day for ten mins! It seems like so much right now, but I think it is very doable. Last week I got some SP workout Dvds and I hope that they will make it easier for me to get a 10 min workout in every day.
When I have gotten more fit, I hope to add other goals. Here are some examples so that I remember them later.
In the past, I have enjoyed group classes and I would like to take one. Examples that interest me are dance, yoga, zumba, and pilates.
I would like to work with a trainer. I have some interest in crossfit.
I would like to run a mile, and then I would like to run a 5k.
I would like to be able to do a pull up, something that I have NEVER been able to do.
I would like to hold a plank for 2 mins.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
In my sparkcoach training session today, Sparkguy talked about the over arching goal for weight loss. This really touched me. It is so true. I don't want to lose weight, just to lose it. There are larger, more important reasons for me to lose weight and get healthy again. I have a few of them written down in my daily planner.
The most exciting reason that I want to get in better shape this year is because I am planning to travel in November. My best friend and I are going to Peru. I want to be healthy when I travel. I want to be able to walk all day and not feel sick/tired. I want to be able to move freely without pain. Also, I want to fit more comfortably in the airplane seat. Lastly, I want to surprise my friend with my weight loss because last time that we saw each other she commented that I had gained so much. This goal is very exciting for me. I am looking forward to traveling which is something that I have always loved to do, but haven't done in many years.
The most important reason that I want to be healthier is my future. I want to have kids very badly. I want to be healthy so that I can get pregnant and give birth to a healthy baby. When I have kids, I want to be a good role model for them. I want to help them learn to be active and eat well. I also want to be able to actively play with my kids. I want to live a long life so that I can be there to support my kids as they grow up. Also, I have a little nephew. He is three years old this month and he is so important to me. I want to be a good role model for him too. I want to be able to run and play with him and be there for him.
In September I was diagnosed as pre-diabetic. I have been doing research about type 2 diabetes and I have learned that my weight is a large contributor. I was also diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome. I know that losing weight will help be to control the symptoms of both of these health issues. Losing weight now could even reverse both of them. My doctor has been pushing me to start with a goal of just 10% of my body weight (25 lbs). I can do this!
I also want to be a good role model for my husband. He is overweight too and I think he sees his weight as something that can never change (I know I have felt that way before). I hope that if he sees changes in me, he might be more motivated to make changes in his own life.
I am almost 30 and I don't want to keep going through my life this way. I want to feel good in my body. I want to be healthy and have energy. I want to fit back into the clothes that are in that box under my bed. I want to feel confident and ready for the prime of my life, not washed up and drained before my time!
I am ready to making lasting changes because these things are really important to me. I am not just trying to lose weight. I am losing weight for these reasons. What a great coaching session, I feel ready to take on the world!
Monday, January 21, 2013
On Thursday I started getting sick. It was pretty rough. I went to the Dr. and found out that I have bronchitis (for the second time this winter). At the end of August I quit smoking (after ten years) and I think that my lungs are pretty sensitive while trying to heal. So if I get a tiny cold, it develops into bronchitis.
Everything that I have read says that it is not great to work out when you have congestion in your head and chest. For this reason, I have not done any workouts since Wednesday of last week. Also, I tend to eat more than usual when I am sick. On the other hand, I eat really healthy food and extra vitamins when I am sick.
Basically, I want to give my body what it needs to recover and not add extra stress. I feel guilty about it but I don't think that I should. I think the guilt is from some old thinking that I am not allowed or able to take care of myself. I am going to slowly get myself back on track over the next two weeks. I am not going to weigh myself again until Feb 4th. I think this will give myself time to work back up to where I was and not punish myself when the scale doesn't show a loss.
Over the next two weeks I will work back up to my 4 workouts/week and try to realign my calorie goals. I think this is a solid, gradual plan that is healthy and attainable.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
My sparkcoach program today was about finding external motivators other than the scale. I think this is a really important thing for me to think about. I know from past experience that even if I do everything I should do to meet my goals, some weeks I will not lose. I also know that these weeks make me feel pretty crummy. But why should they!? If I know that I am doing all that I need to do, a number on the scale should not ruin my efforts! Sometimes my body will not respond the way that I want it to, but if I just keep to my program I will eventually see results.
Noticing how my clothes fit, how I feel about myself, my energy level, my productivity and motivation, and my ability to try new things are all great ways to measure my success when the scale does not say what I want to hear. I know that little efforts add up over time. I just need to do the next thing that will help me succeed each day until I meet my goals.
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