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Picking myself back up....

Monday, August 01, 2011

- and dusting myself off.

I did 5 miles today, and WOO HOO it felt great! This is a HUGE thing for me, because I haven't done 5 miles since last year in the fall.

The winters where I live hit me pretty hard and this last one was among the worst. I gained back the 60 pounds I lost last year, and all the bad habits (that I thought were gone forever) fell right back into place.

Someone recently blogged (I'm sorry I forgot who it was...) that they were not starting over, they were continuing on. It was very inspiring and I feel the same way. I have been overweight since childhood, and this battle will probably be one that will never be over. But I am not disheartened- a healthy lifestyle does not appear overnight, and weight does not EVER melt off. As long as I keep going, I know that I will make it to a healthier me.

I will be seeing my doctor in September this year, so that we can get a plan in place for the winter. I would like to encourage anyone that is not doing well emotionally or mentally to seek help. Last winter I thought I would be bothering my doctor, and that I was not worth her time. I thought my symptoms were pathetic and minor. I was embarrassed that I could not pull it together. It was during those dark days when my sister said something to me that stuck: "maybe the feeling of not being worth it, is enough in itself to get some help."

So, fall down seven times, get up eight. My goal this year is to get back in shape for another 8k run, and to beat my time last year!


I Did An 8K!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

After waking up at 4:00 AM, I was not sure it was going to be feasible. I was really tired, and very nervous. My first race, and I did not have a clue what to expect.

When I arrived, the first thing I noticed was that everybody was so skinny! AGH, I felt like an eyesore. They were all wearing fancy spandex with reflectors, special running sweaters, and fancy headgear (Its really cold here already). I was wearing my yoga pants and a hoodie I've had since high school.

I started last, and that's how I finished (and that's how I planned it). I jogged the whole time, and didn't walk once. I had some nice company almost the whole way, an older lady that kept a walking pace along to my jog. I was actually quite frustrated by that, but it was really nice to have someone to talk to.

Overall I think it went great, and I did an awesome job, especially for someone who couldn't find pants that fit in the plus size store last Christmas. Now, I can do 8k! I wonder how good my time will be next year??

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ALLICATT 10/18/2010 12:46AM

    Congratulations! What a great accomplishment! I just started running this past June and can't get past a 5k on my treadmill. I'm still to nervous to run in a race. You should be very proud!

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PHYL220 10/17/2010 8:53PM

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EJHESS1 10/17/2010 8:30PM

    what type of clothes does not make a runner, what your time is does not make a runner, a runner is all a mindset and attitude. If you believe you are a runner then you are.

Great job on the race, keep the focus.

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GETDONE 10/17/2010 8:28PM

    emoticonSUCCESS HOW SWEET IT IS---AN 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW

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DAWNFIRE72 10/17/2010 8:13PM

    emoticon who cares where you finished you did an 8K. I have not been able to jog more than about 4K. So you are WAY ahead of me.

Just think next year you can do even better. emoticon

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DAIZYSTARLITE 10/17/2010 8:00PM

    WOW great job!!

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Update - Long Overdue

Friday, October 08, 2010

October 16 is the big day, and its fast approaching. I have been training for this 8k, and I am getting quite nervous!

Up until a few weeks ago, I thought I could do it in my sleep. Then I hit a wall - and the wall pushed back. I had to backtrack in my 8k training series because I was finding I could not keep up! It has been quite disappointing...

After several weeks of terrible, ugly, disgusting runs, I had one of the best ever. Last night, it seemed like everything was perfect. The sky was clear, every star was bright. Not too cold, not too hot, and I could keep up just fine with the pace. Its still week 3 of my 8k program, but I think now there is a good chance I can make it (have been doing 5-6k consistently for months).

Also something amazing has happened. The scale moved! After being stuck in the 270's for six months, I think its safe to say that I am now in the 260's. Woo hoo! The peasants rejoice!

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DAWNFIRE72 10/9/2010 10:52AM

    emoticon On both the running and the weight loss. I am positive you can do that 8K and it sounds like you have been training and working for it and I hope to hear all about your 8K after the 16th. emoticon and you are emoticon

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MRKTGCHICK 10/8/2010 3:04PM

    emoticon Congratulations on the weight loss and good luck with your run tomorrow! You can do it!

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STLOUISWOMAN 10/8/2010 2:38PM

    Congratulations - both on your weight loss & your running. I'm sure you will do great.


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I turned down Johnny Depp

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

It was intense. Gently caressing the tops of my shoulders and my neck, I could feel his body heat, he was so close to me. He wanted me badly. Effortlessly I said, "No. I am married." as I walked away and left him there.

That was my dream last night. I know I have been feeling pretty good about myself lately but to dream up Johnny Depp wanting me, is a whole new level. LOL! I tell you, my husband is one lucky dude!

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KUDLBNY 8/18/2010 7:13AM

    LMAO!!! emoticon

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LISSAKAY77 8/17/2010 2:30PM

    Wow...turning down Johnny Depp....that would be a very tough decision for me...especially in dreamstate! That's some awesome willpower girl!!

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CARTONIFIED 8/17/2010 1:57PM

    LMAO. this is awesome.

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25NEXTYEAR 8/17/2010 12:50PM

    Hahaha I love it :) I am surprised you were faithful in your dreams...I usually wake up feeling quite guily, as I seem to have no willpower in the dreamstate!! haha

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5k done!

Friday, August 06, 2010

I wish I had eloquent words and witty lines to write a super read like other blogs, but its just not me. I want to tell a thrilling tale of how I wrestled with highway 303 and won, with the wind at my back and the morning sunrise on my shoulders, and a deer spotting in the last kilometer. (all true by the way...)

I just want to say I have completed a goal, I did 5k. I don't really know if others would call me a runner, but today I do. I took all 277 pounds of my fabulous self and completed 5k. It was at lightning SNAIL speed, an average of 10 minutes per kilometer. But I did it.

I thought to myself, while stretching afterward, I guess this means there is only an incredible amount of room to improve on my time and speed! It only gets better from here.

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DAWNFIRE72 8/14/2010 9:16PM

    emoticon I'd call you a runner because you've completed a 5K run/jog where as I have only ever managed to jog about 2.5K if I'm lucky and that only once.

Keep going and you will definatly improve on time and endurance.

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POLSONSWIFE 8/13/2010 8:12PM

    You inspired me today!

I ran my first 5k back in May after about 8 weeks of training. I've kept up with jogging each week, but haven't attempted a 5k since. So today, I hit the treadmill at the gym instead of doing my regular run outside and didn't stop until I had made that 5k again. I needed that extra challenge!

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STARDUSTD 8/9/2010 12:33AM

  Awesome job! It doesn't matter how fast you did it; it just matters that you did it!!

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GETFIT2LIVE 8/9/2010 12:05AM

    Awesome--YOU DID IT! That's what matters the most; you set a goal and you reached it! It doesn't matter whether you run a sub-10 minute mile or a 10 minute kilometer; you ran a 5K! Do you know how many people never ever even ATTEMPT to do that? Do not sell yourself short in any way. Revel in the accomplishment, pat yourself on the back, and feel free to brag a little; you earned the right!
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JILLSMYTH 8/6/2010 10:31AM

  emoticon Just fantastic. Go you!

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    Yup, that's right. You've set a baseline for yourself to beat. The fun is just beginning, I assure you.

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DGIBSON61 8/6/2010 9:02AM

  Great job. I bet you didn't think you could do it before. Keep trucking and you will see your time improve again and again.

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