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I'm not good at dealing with stress

Friday, March 07, 2014

My daughter who is going to college in another state just started having some pretty major health problems about 2.5 weeks ago. She had 6 seizures in the matter of a couple days (none prior) and was taken to the hospital where they said she has white matter on her brain. They released her under the conditions with agreement from the college that she would never be alone and could not do things like drive or her job duties as a swim instructor/lifeguard. They then set her up an appointment with a doctor for a week and a half later. Well last Wednesday she woke up thinking it was Monday and was rushed back to the hospital where they did some more tests. She was released after a few hours and was told that amnesia can sometimes "just happen". What?? Okay, Mamma mode is telling me with all her symptoms and things happening it has to be related!
She finally had her appointment this Wednesday and was now referred to a cardiologist because now they think it is her heart. They said she has an irregular heartbeat and has to wear a monitor until her visit with a prominent cardiologist in Chicago this coming week. They said her heart gets really slow at times and could be cutting off the blood flow to her brain in turn causing the seizures. She has had 2 more seizures since the episode of having 6 within a few days and both have been at night when she is sleeping. I would think that the doctors would be handling her situation a little more seriously but I know I am more anxious because she is my daughter.
Needless to say I have been eating out of control, not exercising and in general not really taking good care of myself because of the worry and stress. Anyone else been through anything similar?

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GREGGWEISBROD 3/14/2014 7:25PM

    That sounds horrifying! :( So sorry to hear that you find yourself in such a heavy life circumstance.

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MEXGAL1 3/9/2014 5:45PM

    my heart is breaking for you! You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I do hope you get some answers soon! Don't worry about your diet but try to eat healthy so that you can be strong.

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DNJEN471 3/7/2014 11:09PM

    That is terrifying! I know you're worried. But be strong for her. She's probably really scared too. I know whenever I've gone through anything medically, all I want is my mom. emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 3/7/2014 9:05PM

    Oh my! HUGS and prayers. So sorry.

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TWESTEN1 3/7/2014 7:23PM

    Oh hunny, I'm so sorry. That sounds scary & I can understand why you are so stressed. I sure do hope that they figure out what is going on SOON so that they can fix the problem. Until then I'll keep you both in my prayers. As for your stress eating I agree with what TRIXYMAHOGANY said.... don't add more stress on yourself by worrying about diet, but don't go overboard either where it can bring you down. We're all here for you. Sending hugs & prayers your way. Please keep us updated.

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    Sorry to hear that about your daughter! Hopefully you can find answers soon. What a frustrating, helpless, feeling. Praying for you and your daughter! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KALISWALKER 3/7/2014 4:51PM

    Sorry to hear your daughter is having to deal with it. I hope the doctors diagnosis it quickly.

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    My older sister had a blood vessel in her brain that was detached and would spurt blood into her brain, causing seizures. She had to wait a while to get accurately diagnosed and then it was months and months before she could get the treatment. Brain problems are really tricky.

I hope your daughter will be okay. Don't worry so much about your diet, just try to remember that food cannot make your daughter well and could make you UNWELL, and your daughter needs you right now.

I hope everything turns out alright.

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Food Journaling

Friday, February 21, 2014

I incorporated food journaling into my fitness routine February 1st. My goal with this is to teach myself how much 1200-1500 healthful calories a day is. After having eaten a pretty consistent diet of whole foods in January I was still curious as to whether or not I was in the recommended daily range. 21 days into my journaling I am a much wiser and more calorie and health conscience person.

Portion control is my friend :)

I have learned that some foods like corn that I would have naturally considered a low calorie vegetable is actually a moderately high-calorie grain (90 calories per 1/3 cob). Through my journaling and research I am much more conscience about what types of foods I am putting into my body and I feel so much better knowing for certain I am keeping within my daily range. I have also cut most all processed and chemically laden foods from my diet. No more "fat free" or "low fat" sh*t storm foods for me either!

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 2/25/2014 11:15AM

    So true.

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CINDYTW 2/22/2014 7:17PM

  emoticon emoticon on the chemical sh*t storm! So true!

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KALISWALKER 2/22/2014 2:35PM

    Great blog!

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  One thing I had to give up was Diet Coke. I loved it! But things with high sodium retain water and the fake sugar is horrible for you. I get what you mean about diet and low fat lol. Sometimes when we start losing weight we go for that stuff without knowing any better and then start feeling like crap. Loved your blog! Made me laugh too ahhahhah

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DNJEN471 2/21/2014 8:52PM

    Funny and emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 2/21/2014 8:36PM

    Good girl! You know, those "low fat" "lite" or "fat free" foods really do rankle me! For heavens sake they add sugar and salt to boost the flavors. Can you say ADDICTING!!! Solution to me is I make my own simple vinaigarettes and that suites me just fine! I know the ingredients, I know it will be tasty and I know it will be in the right portion too.

HUGS and continued success. Gotta agree with the 3 ingredient rule and if I can't pronounce the name of the ingredient, it isn't going in my body!

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GETSTRONGRRR 2/21/2014 8:18PM

    Smart move! We switched to eating clean a few years ago....only buy stuff along the perimeter of the grocery store....don't go down the aisles and don't eat anything with more than 3 ingredients in the label!

Good luck....stay strong!

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Taking Responsibility

Monday, January 06, 2014

**********One of the main reasons that I have been overweight for 10 + years is because I am a self sabotager and procrastinator.************
Ouch! It really hurts to say that! The truth is the only person who has been getting in my way of living a healthy and happy life is ME! I have been my biggest enemy, my worst critic and in general someone who I have come to dislike. Ouch, again!
I bought into my negative self talk so that I didn't have to live up to ANYTHING! I have believed all the negative lies like I'm not good enough, not worth enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough.....the list goes on for miles. Sure I have had people put me down just like everyone else has but it was ultimately up to me if I bought into their BS. And so many things factor into that equation anyways; Do they know me? Do they love or care about me? Do they want what's best for me? I have decided if the answer is no then their negativity has no validity. Besides that I criticize myself much more harshly than anyone ever could. True story!
So when I am working out I am now consciously blocking out my negative self talk. Things like "you're never going to make it" "you're too fat to be working out" "you're too tired to finish" are just a few of the million self defeating comments I make to myself. Quite frankly I am an A-hole! If anyone talked to me like I talk to myself I would hate them. So a harder question is why have I allowed this of myself for so long? Unfortunately it all comes down to having not loved or cared enough about myself to tell myself to "SHUT UP". Well guess what? The negative peanut gallery in my head is being shushed out and I hope with commitment and time I learn to talk to myself with love, understanding and determination.
As for my procrastination issues I have made a pact with myself to have my first big workout of the day done before noon. I know giving myself rules and guidelines is the only way I can successfully implement exercise into my daily routine. If I don't then I lollygag around all day knowing I have to EVENTUALLY exercise but not making it a priority and usually not getting to it. For all my fellow procrastinators you know exactly what I'm talking about!

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RAPUNZEL910 2/22/2014 10:36AM

    Great blog! I love your background photo, I was just there yesterday!

Keep up your good work!

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WEIGHTLISS 1/13/2014 1:14AM

    I couldn't have said it better myself! Very well put!
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and so on, and so forth, and what have you.......

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KRISKECK 1/12/2014 10:42PM

    Good work recognizing that negative voice and self-talk and shutting it down! Love yourself and be kind to yourself! It's possible to do that while pushing yourself to be the best you fact, it's necessary. If you don't love yourself and believe in yourself, you will not be able to do it. And you seem like you're on the right path.



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JDBENNING 1/7/2014 9:16AM

    You can do it!!!

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KALISWALKER 1/6/2014 8:17PM

    Only you can make you a winner! You will do it!

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