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Mom's funeral today

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

I never wanted this day to come. I loved her so much. We had so much fun together.

I am happy for Mom that the Lord called her home. Mom had so many things wrong with her body. She just couldn't keep going any more. Now she is in heaven. I imagine she can dance with joy! She is whole and perfect again.

So I never wanted this day to come. Now I am glad it is done. The funeral is over and we made it through. Tomorrow is the service at the cemetary. Then life will go on. I will remember my wonderful mom and how much fun we shared. I thank God for blessing me with such a fine example of how to live your life even when it is ending.

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SEDONACAT 2/14/2013 8:53AM

    Oh Kathy, I am so sorry. You'll feel her presence with you forever.


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MEADSBAY 2/13/2013 8:27PM

    So sorry, Kathy.
Thank you for sharing these amazing photos, though.
Your mom looked exactly the same at the end of her life.
I love how she is waving goodbye in the second one, too.

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LACEEJO11 2/13/2013 12:39AM

    She is beautiful! My sweet Ruby, just passed over as well. She was 93, fought the good fight and loved everyone clear up to the end!! I know what you mean when you say what an example of being a good person!! I know your heart hurts, mine does for Ruby, even tho she was no blood relation....I loved her so much!! I spent every Saturday & Sunday from 9 Am to 9:00pm taking care of her! She was so much FUN!!

I am happy that you are able to share this with us here at SPARK! I am so glad you have many great memories which will help ease your pain. Yes, she is in a better place where there is NO suffering, NO pain, NO heartaches...just beauty, love, heavenly things....JESUS is with her!! How I remember my sweet Ruby now is I believe she is my GUARDIAN ANGEL!! She will remain with me always!!

I am praying for your comfort and peace!

Love & Hugs, LaceEjo11

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SLIMINDOWN31 2/12/2013 10:39PM

    So glad you shared your story about your mom. How comforting to know she is with Jesus.

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Hospice care for Mom

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Mom had another serious bladder infection 10 days ago. This has been her undoing this past year and led to her worsening kidney failure and infections in her bloodstream which resulted in several heart attacks, an infection in her spine and now loss of blood flow to her large intestine. This caused the intestine to die. She is too sick for surgery so the intestine will result in her demise. Mom has not complained through all of this except to tell dad before this last insult to her body that she was ready to go home to heaven.

Mom is out of the hospital and back in the nursing home where she is in familiar surroundings. She has had a burst of energy for the past two days the likes of which she has not had for the past several months. She is lucid and talkative. I am enjoying this precious gift but know it will end soon. Mom still has an infection which will get worse, uncontrolled high blood pressure, severe electrolyte imbalances and has had no food or drink in 10 days. I do not know what today will bring. It is hard to lose her.

I am trying to be strong for my family. I am a nurse so they look to me for explanations. I am the durable power attorney for healthcare so I have to make the decisions or sign the paperwork after discussions with my family. So I teeter back and forth between nurse and daughter. I feel so bad for my dad. He and mom have been married 63 years. He has taken such good care of her. He is a wonderful, loving, patient man and she is such a lucky woman to have him.

So if anyone is reading this, please pray for my mom to pass peacefully, for my family to find strength and peace, and for my father to know he has done his very best and to find a way to live without his fiesty bride and find joy and fulfillment in his remaining years.


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MISSPEACHES3 1/28/2013 6:06PM

May the Lord give you and all of your family peace at this time.

Many blessings to all of you,

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SEDONACAT 1/27/2013 9:04AM

    Kathy, I am so sorry for the pain all of you are going thru as it isn't easy to say goodby to a loved one esp a parent. As a nurse, you are also having to live thru what is going on in her body as it fails. I wish her a peaceful, painless passing and you and your family peace and strength to get thru the grieving process.

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RGEETING 1/26/2013 7:25PM

    Dear Father,

I pray for Kathy and her family tonight... such a difficult valley through which to pass! Yet You are with them. For Kathy's mom, please allow her to travel into eternity with You peacefully. Lessen her pain, if it be Your will.

For Kathy's dad, I ask for special strength, too, for him. I cannot imagine losing my husband of 31 years, so I can't imagine the loss that he feels and will continue to feel in the months and years ahead. Help him to rest completely in Your arms and may You hold him up when he can't stand on his own.

For Kathy, give her wisdom for decisions that need to be made. I know that these are difficult decisions. At the same time, give her time to grieve the upcoming "loss." Encourage her heart. In these days that her mom is more lucid, give the family special memories as they interact with her. Some families tend to fight during these hard times... but I pray that You would unify this family, that they may bear each others' burdens.

Hold them all tight! Be their Light during this dark valley.
In Jesus' name,

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MEADSBAY 1/26/2013 1:40PM

    Oh, I am so sorry, Kathy, that it's time to kiss your dear mother good-bye.

Weren't your parents so lucky to have found each other and had such a long happy life together? emoticon

And to have a caring daughter to help them through the end of their lives.

My sweet little mama rallied those last few days, as well- she knew she was dying but was so thrilled that so many of her children finally came to visit her- she was ready to die.

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BEESPARKLE 1/26/2013 9:47AM

    I will pray for sure. Consider it done. That the Lord will take her.

My parents died at 95 and 96 from the nursing home. My Mom had Alzheimer's and my dad had demensia. They were married 70 years.

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Trying a different approach-WW

Saturday, January 12, 2013

I joined Weight Watchers at work for 12 weeks. I think I need some good old fashioned peer pressure to use to my advantage. The person I eat lunch with joined and she needs to lose 100 pounds. I figured that I could help her by being a diet buddy. After giving this a little more thought, I realized that I would benefit too. I am making a conscious decision to use the trackers on WW instead of the ones here for now due to time constraints and the health of my eyes. Too much computer time is really hard on my eyes. So my plan is to keep in touch with my Spark Friends on this site while taking a break from the tracking here. I will continue to track my weight here. I really need this kick in the pants.

My FIL has moved in with us and continues to buy donuts, cookies, chips etc. I have to resort to bigger measures right now before I end up looking liKe the Michelin Man.

I really hope I can do this. This approach is really out of my comfort zone. I want to be a positive influence on my coworker and above all, a healthy me. So I won't be spending quite as much time on SP but I will still be here!


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MISSPEACHES3 1/13/2013 8:57PM

You can do this. Twelve weeks is nothing. It will go by so fast.

Please stop by to keep us updated on your progress.

We will help you celebrate your victories, no matter the size.

Best of luck to you and your co-worker.

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MEADSBAY 1/13/2013 12:39PM

    It is really great if you have someone who is working on the same goals as you.
Any way you can speak to your FIL about support-
or about your entire family's healthy eating?

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KYLIESCHELLE 1/12/2013 8:39PM

    Best wishes with your new WW endeavor. You can do it! Remember SP friends are here if you need some virtual support.


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RGEETING 1/12/2013 7:22PM

    Glad you're able to access the WW through your work... I think that having a buddy - in flesh and blood that you can see and that can see you (not just through the computer... where we can virtually hide anything we want - like sparking while eating the 2nd chocolate bar of the day...) is an asset. May you enjoy the accountability and I'm sure you have wisdom to add.

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SEDONACAT 1/12/2013 6:24PM

    Oh,'ve got to lock your FIL up and not let him go to the store. LOL That's got to be really hard for you. I do fine IF it's not in the house but I was raided to not waste food since there were 5 kids in the family. I have to keep it out of the house. Good luck!!


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FITKAT62 1/12/2013 6:09PM

    Your FIL sounds exactly like my DH. He brought home pepperoni and bacon pizza for supper today. Good luck with WW.

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ABERLAINE 1/12/2013 5:19PM

    Good luck at WW! I realized a few months ago that I needed some accountability for my eating, so I joined a local TOPS Club. I'm still yo-yoing, but my ups are smaller than my downs.

I've also started recording my food here on SP. If I'm honest with myself, it helps me eat more reasonably.

Give your FIL a place to put his snacks and consider it private. If he wants to share, kindly refuse.

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ESTHERW50 1/12/2013 3:52PM

    Congratulations on living up to your SP name by trying to keep going with something new. I used WW for a while and found it to be a good and effective system. It's really all about lifestyle, whether on SP or WW; we are fighting an obese, inactive, self-destructive culture. I wish you all the best on this next phase of your journey.

I want to support and encourage you to set some limits with your FIL. It may not be worth the emotional energy right now, but you do get to set the standards in your own home. We went through similar experiences when my terminally ill Dad moved into our home. There needs to be mutual respect. You deserve it girl!!


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Sunday, November 11, 2012

I spent the weekend with my mom and dad. We celebrated their 85th birthdays. Dad and I were able to get mom out of the nursing home on Friday and Saturday. Today she did not feel well enough to go to church. At least we were able to spend some good quality time together. I don't know when I will be able to get to visit them again. 200 miles gets pretty far during the winter. Whenever I leave them I know it will possibly be the last time I see one of them.

I logged my food this weekend even though I did not worry about my choices. Hubby and I went to the grocery store right after I got back home. I stocked up on frozen entrees that I will eat for breakfast and dinner. At work I will eat soup and whole grain bread for lunch unless there is a healthy entree that catches my eye. This week I will focus on eating healthy and exercising. I am hoping that exercising will be easier now that I got my hip injected. We'll see first thing in the morning!


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1MANKNEY 11/13/2012 6:14PM

    Glad you were able to spend some quality time with your parents. We spent almost every weekend taking the 2 hour trip to visit my mother in law in the year before she passed. We were happy that we had done it and didn't have to cope with any regrets.


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MEADSBAY 11/13/2012 12:46PM

    You will never regret seeing them as often as possible towards the end of their lives.
Hope the injection (steroid?) helps.

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FUZZIEBEAR3 11/13/2012 10:13AM

    Hope your hip is feeling better! I didn't do so well eating this weekend either. But I tracked what I could remember, and now I just do better this week.

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SEDONACAT 11/12/2012 6:54PM

    I hope the weather will allow you a visit for the holidays. I really know how hard it is for you. My Dad just had to go to a nursing home since we moved to Florida in April. West Virginia is SUCH a long drive. When I left there after a visit last month, I had a very heavy feeling because like you, I just don't know when (or if) I will see him again.
Hugs and prayers!


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RGEETING 11/12/2012 2:58PM

    Glad you had this time with your parents!
Glad you tracked... I missed doing it this weekend... no computer Thur-Sat (I know, I could write it down... poor excuse) and had all three grandkids from Friday afternoon to Sunday afternoon...

Glad you got the knee injection! Hope it's feeling better and you're able to exercise this week... I need to, as well. I can definitely feel the difference in my pain and agility levels due to lack of exercise... yuck! I hate being back here again... except that I carry 44 lbs less now... ANYWAY, enough whining on my part!

Have a great healthy eating and exercising week!!!

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NANCYPAT1 11/11/2012 5:58PM

    What a treat to have both your parents to celebrate with together.

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Trying again and feeling blessed--parents and grandkids

Tuesday, November 06, 2012

I am trying to get back on the weight loss track again. I have logged every bite for the last three days now. I have been over my calorie limit each day. Ouch.....reality hurts. I start out fine with breakfast and lunch and then overdo at dinner. I hope to do better tomorrow. This weekend will be a challenge because I will be out of town visiting my parents and eating restaurant food. I will try my best although I know that emotional eating will be a challenge.

This month marks my parents' 85th birthdays. Earlier this year we almost lost mom to several strokes and heart attacks. She is in a nursing home now and fortunately doing better; however, her memory is poor. I am blessed that she still remembers me. I pray she has a good weekend while I am there. My dad is such a devoted husband. He visits mom 3 times a day and makes sure she eats. We talk on the phone every night I am so lucky at age 54 to still have both of my parents!

This picture was taken a year ago before mom got sick.

We went to my grandson's 5th birthday party on Saturday. That sounds so wonderful! When he was born with major problems he almost died.

Over the past five years we have shared so many tears, surgeries, nights in the hospital, kisses, songs, I love you's, dances, prayers, sign language, and I wouldn't trade any of it for a minute! He is a wonderful little boy with an infectious laugh who has taught me so much about living life with joy and without complaint. He is the strongest person I know. He is learning to use a computer to communicate. He is adapting well to using it.

The computerized voice was music to my ears! I pray that JD continues to live, love, laugh, and learn.

I also feel blessed that my granddaughter is back home with my son after her mom abandoned her. I am so proud that she is on the honor roll at school despite all she has been through. She is a beautiful, sweet girl.

Thank you God for putting all of them in my life!!!

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1MANKNEY 11/13/2012 6:17PM

    Grand children are such a great thing! I love all 34 of mine even when they drive me crazy (short drive)! emoticon

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FUZZIEBEAR3 11/8/2012 11:07AM

    Very sweet. Blessings to you and your family. emoticon

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SEDONACAT 11/7/2012 9:36AM

    I always knew you were a special person. I'm very happy that your mom made it and remembers you. Been there a few yrs ago. Hugs to you! emoticon

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MISSPEACHES3 11/7/2012 5:46AM

    Hi Kathy,
This blog is wonderful news.

Love all of the pictures. Your Mom and Dad are beautiful. What a blessing to have them around.

Your grandson and granddaughter are such a blessing, not only for you, but for all of your family.

Thanks for sharing your family with all of us here on Spark. We ( I ) have shared in your pains and celebrated your joys with all that your family has been through.

Enjoy your visit and don't worry about food on this visit. Enjoy the time you spend with your precious family.

Blessing, today and always,

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RGEETING 11/6/2012 11:25PM

    Welcome to being back on "track"... me, too... I've been logging almost a week now... still need to get my water and exercise back in gear!

You truly are blessed, as am I!

Both my hubby's and my parents have passed. So glad to hear that your mom is doing better! What a sweet hubby she has (and dad you have!)

So glad, too, to hear about your grandchildren!

Thanks for sharing and for the pics, too!

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MEADSBAY 11/6/2012 8:59PM

    You are blessed!
Live your best life every day and don't sweat the small stuff.

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