Starting Fresh

Thursday, August 18, 2011

this last year has been a doozy.. i've gain 25# back. I'm not 100% sure how this happened, but it has. Have I gotten lazy? Have I really been eating that bad? is it hormones and this woman body getting older? who knows. What I do know, is I've let things get to me, that need not get to me. I've tried to offer to support to others, who in turn, questioned everything I did and made me feel guilty for their failures and then, soon, I got irritable, didn't care and it affected my inspriation, determination and drive. and lately, i want it back, along with the 25# that came along for the ride. a year ago, I loved to get out and run and run, i'd run for miles at a time, now i can barely run one full mile and it just IRKS me.

There is so much that can be said, but what it comes down to, is I'm moving back forward. This person who made me question my efforts and my good results, probably out of what, jealousy? I don't know, I figure needs to move on and find her own path, as i return to the path I was on. I was so close to reaching my goal, and now I have to put forth the effort and get back there again. and i will. without someone questioning why, why, why... who cares why, it works for me and I enjoy exercise and the feeling of empowerment. Maybe i'll have to work hard and push hard to get to the goal I want to reach and that is what I was doing.. once i reach my goal, I believe, then, step back and find the maintenance zone. not til then! and this time, nothing is standing in my path, getting in my way, or getting in my head. this is MY journey.

Tomorrow. Starting Tracy Anderson Metamorphosis videos. very excited for something new. Recently also got a treadmill for the house, so planning on getting some mileage built back up and do the 90 day rotation of the new videos and by December, be at least back to the 140 I was. I HOPE! (or as close to as reasonably possible)

  

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TRWOKER78 8/19/2011 2:07PM

That really is awesome advice Report Inappropriate Comment

CODEMAULER 8/18/2011 11:53PM

Be your own motivation! Don't let others tell you how happy or successful you are (or can be). I heard some great advice from a friend of mine who had a discouraging encounter. "You haven't lost your enthusiasm, Susan, you gave it away to someone else, but it's yours, so take it back." Own your enthusiasm and channel it into something amazing - YOU!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Inner Peace

Monday, March 07, 2011

I need to find some inner peace. I have allowed myself to let too many frustrations creep in. I let things at work just upset and overwhelm me when some of those things I need to learn, maybe are not my business and not my problem. I let things at home get to me and allow myself to just get frustrated at everything these days.

I try to read inspirational passages everyday and write down quotations that seem very inspiring and try to reflect on them.

any other thoughts anyone can share would be greatly helpful. perhaps i should study and understand the concept of meditation and perhaps try to practice some yoga or something. Other than running (which often is very therapeutic to me I need to find something to just get some of this negative energy to dissolve. I feel like it is taking over me.

  

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PLEEBLES 3/10/2011 7:56AM

Don't have any sage advice except to find something else to focus on. sure what that is, only you can make that call. Good luck. Report Inappropriate Comment

TRWOKER78 3/9/2011 8:57PM

that is very cute. and sometimes feels so true. thanks for sharing that. Report Inappropriate Comment

HOPEFULHIPPO 3/9/2011 4:57PM

"I know God can only give me what I can handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much!" ** Mother Theresa ** a little humerous quote for ya. Report Inappropriate Comment

MAYBELLE06 3/8/2011 1:33PM

keep persevering on practicing positiveness, it'll come. It happens to the best of us;) Report Inappropriate Comment

Inner Peace

Monday, March 07, 2011

I need to find some inner peace. I have allowed myself to let too many frustrations creep in. I let things at work just upset and overwhelm me when some of those things I need to learn, maybe are not my business and not my problem. I let things at home get to me and allow myself to just get frustrated at everything these days.

I try to read inspirational passages everyday and write down quotations that seem very important and try to reflect on them.

any other thoughts anyone can share would be greatly helpful. perhaps i should study and understand the concept of meditation and perhaps try to practice some yoga or something. Other than running (which often is very therapeutic to me I need to find something to just get some of this negative energy to dissolve. I feel like it is taking over me.

  

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CODEMAULER 3/7/2011 11:06PM

Make time for yourself and listen to what your thoughts tell you. Just try to relax and "be." Report Inappropriate Comment

Changes to Come

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Every year I say, this will be the year. The year I reach my goal of 130-135. well guess what! I've still not given up. because this year, will be THE YEAR.

2010 turned out to be a very emotional year. Not the best year at all, but a lot of lessons to be learned from it.

for so long I've worked at trying to get this "baby" weight off. OK. officially now, 5 years later, can't call it baby weight, so we'll call it marriage weight. LOL. My hubby and I just celebrated our 6 year wedding annivesary in February, and have been together for 8 years total.

2009 and into 2010 I had maintained a healthy 140-143 average. I was very happy there, but still trying to get past that 140 and get to 130. fighting those obvious last 10#. then things just started going south. My marriage was having problems, I then attempted to commit suicide. that guilt and emotional roller coaster affected me for too long. my mood went way south, my energy and everything just suddenly seemed to not be there anymore. and slowly the weight crept back on. by the end of 2010 i was back in the 150s and that was something more of an irritation to me. Between the rocky marriage, the mental issues, then work started getting all crazy, it was just like I didn't know which way to go.

as I entered into 2011, I tried so heartedly to get back to square one and get everything into control again. finally as we are moving into March I am starting to feel like myself again. I'm starting to get back into the swing of my workouts and loving the feeling I get from it and slowly the scale is starting to move back down.

yes, this year will be the year. Everyday I try to read some sort of positive quote or affirmation, or passage. something to help center my mind.

Yes. this year, will be THE YEAR.

  

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MAYBELLE06 3/6/2011 1:45PM

Geez, I am so sorry to hear what a tough time you have been having. But you are doing the best thing by getting back into your workouts and focusing on you and your goals. I know when you are down and out working out is the last thing you want to be doing but it does lift your spirits and fight depression, so good on you. The only way to reach your goals is to never give up and you're on your way! I hope life is better for you now and also want you to know that you can talk/write to me about anything at anytime. Sometimes it helps to vent even if it is just in writing. This is "YOUR YEAR!" for sure. Report Inappropriate Comment

DUFFYDYER 3/6/2011 7:05AM

Keep that positive energy flowing and make sure you're taking care of your mental and physical health! Report Inappropriate Comment

calling fitness fanatics/runners

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

so... to all my fitness fanatics out there... so why is it, while running, I'm in the groove, feel like I'm keeping a good pace.. moving right along, suddenly, i get a shooting pain in my right neck and shoulder. often under my right rib also. something to be concerned about? once I stop and walk and get my HR back down, it goes away, but..... getting back to my pace after that sucks.. wish i knew what the heck!

  

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TRIGRAMPS 9/4/2010 8:59AM

Have you been fitted for shoes? Google Map where you are and search for nearby "Running Shoes." They will do a gait analysis, either on a treadmill or on the ground, look at the wear on your current running shoes, and put you on an electronic gizmo that measures your foot and arch. Based on that info, they will bring out 3 or 4 selections, one of which will feel wonderful. However, they will probably bring out the top of the line, so be prepared, once you've found a brand that you like, to ask if there is anything cheaper that has the same benefits. I wear Mizuno's and like the middle of the line much better than the top of the line. You'll need to spend around $100, but the comfort is well worth it. Report Inappropriate Comment

MAYBELLE06 9/3/2010 8:53PM

This happens to me alot during my runs and is a constant aching during some or all of the run. I always chalked it up to always running with my dog and injuring my shoulder when he pulls. He passed away over a year ago but I still get the ache, not always and probably on longer or speed runs when my form gets sloppy. I don't know if you do anything that puts constant pull on your arm or not but I hope this helps and you can figure it out. Keep up the great work! Report Inappropriate Comment

TRWOKER78 8/25/2010 9:24AM

hmm. I didn't think about favoring one side. I don't think I do, but could be possible. and Yes, I Use and HRM and usually HR is around the high 170s. Report Inappropriate Comment

MANDORA3 8/25/2010 6:52AM

are you favoring one side of your body? It could even be just how you are breathing...do you have a HRM that keeps a pretty accurate reading of your heart rate? Just a few thoughts. Report Inappropriate Comment

CODEMAULER 8/25/2010 6:41AM

I wish I had some ideas to suggest. You may wish to consult a trainer or even a Dr.? Running with pain is no good. Report Inappropriate Comment