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Moving my body, pushing it and giving my all...

Thursday, January 31, 2013

my mood,
the way I feel about myself,
my self esteem,
my self worth,
my freedom,
my shine,
my spirit,
my responsibility,
my happiness,
my activity,
my joy,
the amount I can give to others,
the way I see others,
my friendliness,
my attitude towards life, towards people around me,
my positivity,
my optimism,
my strength,
my energy,
my power,
my sleep (thanks Laura ;) )
my dedication,
the way I view things in my life,
the way I eat,
my kindness,
the connection to my inner self,
the love for myself,
the love for life and
the love for the whole universe with everything in it.
to say it with one word:

Now one very good question: Why oh why keep I forgetting this?!?!?! Actually it is so easy it is unbelievable I keep slipping back to my lazy old habits - unbelievable!

Suggestions anyone???

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VW_STEPH 1/30/2014 3:06PM

    Great blog! And so true... I think we ALL forget so easily how great eating right & exercising makes us FEEL.
I've said many times to my friends - that feeling after a great workout and working hard... why can't we bottle it?!?!

Motivation goes up and down. I try to remind myself how good it does feel... and I try to remind myself I have a choice. What do I really want? And I need to have more ups than downs.

Hope you're doing okay. :)

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TXGIRL78666 9/7/2013 6:56PM

    SO TRUE! I have the same amnesia when it comes to working out. Thanks for the reminders!!!

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VW_STEPH 2/3/2013 12:56PM

    GREAT blog! Gosh... I could do with saving this to favourites - because I too forget all these wonderful things that moving more and WORKING OUT does for me!

Good to see you around! :) I spent most of 2012 up and down too... But I've been back Sparking with a bang for the whole of January! Hope to keep it up!
How are you doing?

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SCHNOOTIE 2/2/2013 11:35AM

    Absolutely great blog post, dear!!!! I agree that printing this out and putting it in plain sight, and even one for your wallet would be fantastic. Heck, it inspired me, and I don't even know you!!
Hugs and much success to you!

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RLLRKAT 2/1/2013 12:17PM

    Printed! Posting all around! Thanks!

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LABRATIAM 2/1/2013 7:07AM

    HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE has a great idea about posting this for each of us to see everyday.


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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/31/2013 7:05PM

    I think you need to print this out and put it on your bathroom mirror so you can see it everyday. I think this is a great reminder of why we ALL need to do this.

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LAWANDMUSIC 1/31/2013 6:37PM

    Oh, my. I LOVE your list of effects. Thanks for sharing.

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JENNIK2 1/31/2013 3:17PM

    I'm still struggling too. I've made myself a list of 15 things to do everyday, and having that seems to give me a little motivation. A workout buddy or a Spark team challenge is great too!

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Same old, same old...

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

It's been over a year now since my last blog entry. My weight hasn't changed much. It is still the same old, same old cycle of being active and watching my diet for some time, loosing some pounds and getting back to where I started from. My belly is so huge...I am aware of this cycle and it leaves me tired and frustrated. Showing me again, that I am not consistent and loose my motivation and focus once getting started.
I keep telling myself that I just haven't found my 'right' way, but it sounds like an excuse for not putting enough effort into myself. This is not me pitying myself, I just need to get this down on 'paper'.
Since July last year I am meditating once a week in a fantastic meditation group. The teacher is great and she inspires me a lot. Some things have changed since then. I am much calmer, I laugh more easily and my emotions don't swap me off my feet as much anymore than they used to. Also, during the day I feel much more connected to myself. These are small changes, sometimes I am not even sure if it is just a momentary thing which changes back to same old, same old. But somehow I have this feeling that this small seed is preparing to grow. All it needs is mindfulness.
Be good to yourselves, blessings,

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KIBBLE55 1/22/2013 6:10AM

    Oh what a familar tale you tell - YO YO boy is a name ive given myself I have lost 50lbs on 3 occasions and each time put it and more back on. There is no one or anything to blame its the way I am - food is my comfort banket (dont drink or smoke) my emotional shield - it gives me a good feeling that is until I wake up and be brave enough to step back on a scale.

The answer is simple - there isn't one for everybody, you have to find your way, it sounds to me that with teh meditation you are more in control with your emotions and this should help you noy take refue in food.

I wish you all the very best of luck and happiness.


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Today's WO

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Today's Hot Mess WO really got my respect already before the start. Something inside of me didn't want to begin with this thing. When I saw it's design I knew this would be a hard one...only to find out afterwards that these 5 rounds are only the first part. OMG - everything all over again - backwards.
Well, I sort of promised to me that I would be doing workouts on a regular basis because it makes me feel good and builds up my confidence - all I need for my first conference at the end of this month. So I started, always in my mind that there is a great possibility that I would quit. But I made it. It took me 66 mins. BUT I DID IT!
Nevertheless, I will watch the effects of this wo carefully since there are some exercises I am not sure are good for my body. Like the first one - the get ups - were hard on my knees. I will pay more attention to what my body tells me and substitute exercises when I think it is necessary.

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

emoticon Mi

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VYVIENN 10/15/2011 11:44AM

    Get ups ARE tough, no doubt about it! And it's a smart decision to see if you react badly to any exercises and then substitute something else. I've found on occasion (especially on these count-up/count-down workouts) that I start straining my neck, no matter how careful I am about it.

Great job, though, you tough cookie!! emoticon

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Emotions and their effect....

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Today was a day.... Things at work are - as always - stressful and having to get my brain involved in 2 projects and other things is really messing with my good mood. So, today I finished a presentation in a hurry and didn't have the time to look it over again and then I held it in front of my working group and - oh boy - I could tell by their wasn't a good one.... Since it is not the most loving environment in my working group this really upset me. REALLY upset me!

I have the tendency to always think that I am not good enough, that I am not doing a great job - even though my feedback always tells me different. But not in this job - I don't know what this is...Usually, when I do things I do them right. But somehow I have this feeling that my job and I don't match...Well, enough whining about my job. This is for another time.

Actually another thing made me write this post. I try to pay attention to my emotions and the actions I take afterwards. After my presentation I felt so frustrated, I felt rejected by the others, I felt stupid, unworthy, not loved, alone - and scared, yes, some part inside me was scared. Not nice! I felt like crying at the same time I was thinking - well, very childish - you are a grown up woman - you feel like crying because you messed up one presentation??? Ok, no crying for me. But my inner child wanted - I won.

Since I skipped my lunch for finishing this stupid thing I had a coffee with a friend later on and when she ordered food I couldn't resist. I didn't want to! The last days I am fine with my eating, I notice when I am full, I stop eating, I cook healthy meals with veggies being the major component and keeping grains out of my diet. And guess what I ordered??? Pasta with cream sauce!!!! YES, jackpot for me!!! I chose but I was aware that I did and I know why I did - so this is ok with me. Then the pasta came and the taste was - well, they didn't taste bad because they didn't taste at salt, no acidity - no mouthwatering delicious yummy meal. And 6 tiny shrimps in it. I didn't want to make a fuzz with the waitress so I ate that stuff and with every bite I thought - don't eat it it doesn't taste good. And I returned half of the plate. And this is new to me! I just stopped eating. Same thing this morning. Just stopped.

When I am in the above mentioned emotional mood I also get this craving for cigarettes. Horrible! But instead of doing so I thought: get home, do a WO and then you can smoke - Sure I was NOT going to smoke after a WO. And how I didn't want to workout!!! But I did!

So I guess the day wasn't so bad after all.

Hope I wasn't whining too much ;) Take care everyone, Hugs Mi

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  What is great is that you were able to distance yourself from the situation enough to analyze your emotions. So important!

You sound like you deal with what I do - perfectionism. You have an idea of how things should be, and when they don't occur per plan, you shut down. Or you just attack yourself. (I would NEVER say to a friend the things I say in my internal dialogue.)

I am suffering at my job right now, too. I've charged myself with either making strides to improve things, or get the heck out.

Good luck to you!!

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TRUELYMI 10/14/2011 3:45AM

    Usually I give myself a hard time when I feel this way but lately I am trying to accept that this is the way I feel in these situations and that this is just a reaction I learned a long time ago. So I look at what is happening to my, trying to analyze where the feelings are coming from, which part of me feels like this and looking at it from my grown point of view. Sometimes I can calm myself and view situations more relaxed. So I guess, every little step is a little victory for me. And I know they will all add up ;)

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NEWNAC304 10/13/2011 10:43PM

    I can relate to everythign you said. When things don't go righrt for me at work I end up in tears. I try to tell myself not to cry but it doesn't work. I also crave comfort foods when I'm upset. I'm a former smoker so I can relate to wanting a cigarette too. I think you did an awesome job of not eating thoe whole plate of food and then making yourself do a workout. Congrats! I hope things get better for you at work.

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After WO face ;)

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Since last weekend I am on vacation! And I needed it so badly! My parents moved way up into the north of Germany some time ago and travelling there takes me approx. 9 hours. So I don't get to drop by too often an use my vacations to visit.
And now, here I am. Usually, when I get here I start eating like crazy - this always happens when I change location...after a week I start adapting to my new environment and get back to normal eating habits. Here it is always a special task since we have some eating issues in our family - we are all quite a bit overweight and when we meet, we eat. Away too much and always too high in calories.
But that's for another time. Quite a long introduction...I know.

I actually wanted to say that I am proud that I am sticking to a fit and active lifestyle and this makes me very happy! I don't watch my food too much, but I am trying to fit healthy and clean meals in - it works ok for me ;)
AND I am sticking to my BR workouts!!!!! Not every day, but every other day and that makes me proud!
To proof this here's my after WO face (Bad girl WO) - thanks BLUEFIRESTORM for the great idea ;)

Afterwards I felt like having a nice, neat, clean, healthy breakfast which even my dad liked!

That's it from here for now, take care, be happy and keep on rockin'
emoticon Mi

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VW_STEPH 9/17/2011 2:46PM

    AWESOME looking breakfast- that looks seriously YUMMY!!! AND your post-workout face is totally badass, you look fabulous!!! And you look like you totally just whooped your butt hehe go girl!! xxx

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SULFABABY 9/14/2011 9:43PM

    Way to go, friend! :) You have so much to be proud of, and I'm proud to be your Spark friend. *steals a tomato*

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