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Trina's Life: Starring Trina

Sunday, May 26, 2013

I was trying to figure out why I have such self loathing sometimes and I came to the realization that I am trying to live up to some strange expectation that I feel people have of me. Does that make sense? I feel like I have always been someone else's sidekick or supporting actor. I have always been someones daughter, someones sister, someones friend, or someones crazy boss, in the story of their life, never the star of Trina's life. I am now going to start starring in my own life. Trina's Life. Starring Trina.

Now if I can just figure out how to do that. I think I might have to start saying "no" sometimes. I might have to ask myself why I am doing things, because it is what I want to do or because it is what other people want me to do, and then only do it if it is for me. The hardest part is to start believing that I am good enough to star in my own life. Logically, I know I am, but that is different than believing it.

So here it goes. Dim the lights. Get comfy. Here is my imperfect, eff'd up, funny, sad, (hopefully a little romantic), real life. Trina's Life. And I am the star.

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BACK2PHAT 5/30/2013 2:17PM

    I know exactly what you mean Trina. I had to stand up for myself and my own sanity and health a few month's back. Now i've just been trying to get in gear to move forward with my journey. It's a struggle when your a people pleaser but enough is enough and giving up on myself or yourself is not an option. You can do this and so will I. Can't wait to see your new future that lies ahead.

emoticon Amy

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DEBORAH2180 5/27/2013 11:04AM

    Yay! Just follow the beats of your drum no matter how silly or goofy that looks! And most importantly, don't be ashamed or embarrassed! You are the star!

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PATJOONWW 5/27/2013 8:47AM

    You are good enough!

Good luck on reaching your goals, and have a great day. emoticonMuch success on your journey! emoticon

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Just a Matter of Time

Monday, April 22, 2013

I have been back for about 4 weeks now and it was pretty easy to get back into the swing of tracking everything. Before if I ate something that was high in calories(like that piece of cake for a co-workers going away party) I would have been discouraged and not wanted to track for the rest of the day. And if I wasn't tracking why not get chicken wings, and have a treat for dessert....You get the idea. This time my whole mindset is different. Maybe because I remember being 60 lbs lighter, running 8 miles, not being winded after a flight of stairs, my joints not hurting at the end of the day. Maybe it is just finally sinking in that it is not realistic that I won't ever have cake again, or wings, or pizza..But what is realistic is that now those are foods that I am not going to have very often. I am going to lose weight. I am going to run again. I am going to fit into all of the smaller clothes I have waiting for me. It may take a year and a half (I hope!), or it may take three years but I have realized it is just a matter of time.

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RX_2_RV 4/24/2013 12:20PM

    Good attitude! A month from now, next Fall, next year, you CAN be closer to your goal and feeling better. It is entirely up to YOU!

Wishing you a lifetime of success!

(fellow Fitbitter)

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HONEYCART07 4/22/2013 5:24PM

    Your so right! It is all just a matter of time and not getting discouraged if we don't make the time table we have set for ourselfs. It is a journey and we have to enjoy it or it won't last. Little changes to make it all happen. You go girl!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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100+ to lose. Trying not to be overwhelmed.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

One of the problems with having 100+ pounds to lose is that it can get VERY overwhelming, especially on those weeks that you only lose 1 or worse 0 pounds. I was very successful a couple of years ago using sparkpeople, but unfortunately I stopped doing the things that made me successful. I am trying to do as many things to put reminders how far I have com, and why I am doing this.
I have a large glass apothecary jar and I purchased colored glass rocks. On my weigh in days I am going to add the number of pounds I lost into the jar, by the time I reach my goal it should be a beautiful centerpiece and only I have to know what it stands for. It will remind me every time I see it how far I have come. And half full it will already be beautiful.
I will HATE it if I have to take stones out of the jar, so I call it my Accountability Apothacary. Corny I know!
Be well, and take care of yourself.


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BUCKEYEMOM8 4/22/2013 5:26PM

  Love your is very inspiring! Good luck on your journey. I need to start working on my own Accountability Apothecary. emoticon

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KARIEWILLIS 4/14/2013 5:31PM

    I think that's an awesome idea. =)

I've lost 128 pounds (still have over 100 to go, started out at 425), and it took over three years. I don't know, if I had thought three years ago that it was going to take three years... would I have been able to keep on going?

So I guess it's best to just focus on doing good things for your body, and trust that the weight will come off, eventually, and if it takes X amount of time, it takes X amount of time.

Anyway, I'm rooting for you. =)

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GREEDY79 4/13/2013 2:40PM

    Great idea.....I think I might have to steal this idea lol. Keep up the hard work and it will pay off!!!! emoticon

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KAREN_NY 4/11/2013 12:01PM

    A lovely idea!!!!

So often we think we need to "stay focused" or "get focused" without thinking about what we focus on. Long story short, I have about 60 lbs to lose, and it took me ages to realize that when I focus on that -- or even on "I have 1-2 lbs to lose this week" -- I mess myself up. I set functional goals for myself instead: to run stronger, and to keep my hip pain at bay. Yes I want that weight loss. Very much. But when I focus on that, I do the things that throw my hip out of whack, and set myself back.

Good luck with your focus.... fix on something that doesn't make you dizzy. :)

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BACK2PHAT 4/10/2013 4:54PM

    That sounds like a wonderful idea Triana. It will be beautiful :)

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SANDYSHORES24 4/10/2013 4:49PM

    That is a really good idea! I too feel overwhelmed by the amount of weight that I need to lose so I have decided to focus on inches rather than pounds. I still need to lose a lot of inches but it is what works for me. emoticon emoticon

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2BFREE2LIVE 4/10/2013 12:05PM

    What a wonderful idea the rocks in the jar. I used pretty paper clips now my paper clip chain is 140 clips long.

You can do this and like you know it is about focusing on one pound at a time and not the overall amount it will be much easier if you set mini goals.
I choose to do five pounds at a time that way it does not feel hard to reach that goal then at the end of the month you will have lost a lot more and add a lot more rocks to your jar.
Best wishes. Sandy

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KKKAREN 4/10/2013 10:58AM

    don't focus on the 100 lbs rather have a goal of 10 lbs at a time. When you lose 10 buy a 10 lb bag of potatoes and carry it around all day. You will quickly see how much of an accomplishment 10 lbs is and then you can lose 10 more. I like you jar idea too!

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SLIMMERJESSE 4/10/2013 10:58AM

    You can really do this; HOWEVER, it will require patience to change lifelong eating habits and there will be times of discouragement. But keep on keeping on during those times; even baby steps get us to goal.

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