Friday, May 24, 2013
I have finally accepted me as me. I love saying that. Over the past year and a half, lots of personal life crisis' have happened and have put a damper on what most of us call, "losing weight, diets, too fat, too skinny, not pretty enough, etc." Well, that's when I used to call myself fat, no self esteem, don't feel good about myself, etc. These past few months, I've changed my views about myself, although every now and then I have these moments of self doubt and kind of get a little down, which I think is normal at this point in my life, (premenopausal...hormonal...and all that jazz!).
Being healthy and happy is what is most important to me at this point in my life. I read so many blogs daily of how people do the things they do because those things make them feel happy not because they need to lose weight or be thin or whatever. I believe that is where I am finally getting to. "Do what you like, like what you do." by Life Is Good. And I'll add to that, "and feel good during and after it". I do not want society to dictate what weight I should or shouldn't be at or even how I should look, that is my decision to make based on how I feel and what state my health is in. I feel like so many humans worry and stress about those things so much that they are consumed by them day in and day out. That to me is not enjoying life. I quote one of my favorite sayings, "Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, dirty martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOOHOO what a ride!!!"
There may be days where I'm all about fitness stuff, participating in triathlons, running, lifting weights, boxing, zumba'ing, eating good, healthy, whole foods but then again there may be days where I'm taking a day off, no slumpa in my dinka, having a martini, chillin with a glass of wine and a big ole chocolate brownie or just reading a good book. That doesn't mean I'm trying to lose weight or that I'm being lazy, that just means those are the things that make me happy and feel good at that moment and it makes me enjoy life a whole lot more. So today, I feel great, I am happy with myself, I love my life and I feel healthy and strong.
Sunday, February 03, 2013
I am getting back to some normalcy or at least what I think is a bit more normalcy than I've had in awhile. Lots of negative things have happened over the past few months and I'm trying to stay on the positive side of things and not allow those vibes to get me down.
This past week was a good and positive one in my journey to a healthy no injury me AGAIN. Not that I've been unhealthy, just that I've had a few things take me down and having a week like this made me realize that **** happens. You just move on and know that things will get better.
My week started out with some Gentle Ashtanga Vinyasa yoga. My practice went well, even in a room at 85 degrees and jam packed with others trying to get their meditation in peacefully. Tuesday, I'd planned for a swim, however, work got in the way and we had some pretty torrential downpours so I headed home in the hopes I didn't get stuck out there. Wednesday, I went outside my comfort zone and went to a local Zumba class. I'd been to this facility before, only once and left there with a sense of non-urgency to return. It was their first class, very unorganized, unsafe (children running around during class), music was horrible, etc. I decided to give it another try on the advice of a friend and well, it wasn't too bad. Still no babysitter, but there were no kids thankfully. All I cared about was a good cardio workout and I that is exactly what I got. Thursday, I finally accomplished what I'd intended to do for almost a month, I swam. One of the obstacles I knew would be present when I got to the natatorium where I swim was a fact, all swim lanes in the competition pool were being used by swim teams, except for 2 adult swim lap lanes. Thankfully, both were open, so I could get my swim on. Woohoo!!! SCORE!!! I'm starting out slow so I don't hurt anything, although swimming doesn't usually hurt me until I start swimming a lot of laps and then the shoulders become sore. I got in 500 yds of freestyle with 30 seconds rest between each 100, then I did a quick 100 breaststroke. After that, I tried something new, I went over to the lazy river, well I made it not so lazy. I ran several laps with the current which looks easy but if you push it, it's actually kind of challenging. What's even more challenging, I ran against the current. Wow, I felt my heart rate rise and got in 4 laps and that felt like 20 laps. That was hard but I will be doing that quite often!
Friday came around and I decided I needed to take a day off, probably didn't need a day off but since I am just getting back to all of what my body finds so familiar, E-X-E-R-C-I-S-E, I thought it best. So when I woke up Saturday, it was ON! Took DH to his office to pick up his car, came back home, picked up my dog and took him to the groomer. After that, I went over to the grocery store and stocked up on a few things. Then it was ZUMBA time...I came back...LOL! Yes there was a kid running around during class but thankfully she was just going to her mom. I still feel like they need someone watching the kiddos. I may have to suggest that, I think it's a liability if that kid gets hurt or one of the attendees. Oh well, maybe they'll learn. I got a good workout in regardless and left there knowing I was gonna be one sore gal. I got a few more things accomplished after a busy morning then it was time for a movie/date night with my DH. I really love days like this.
My week ended today with a smile on my face and sore muscles. I love the feel of sore muscles with no injuries and the happiness knowing I accomplished everything I set out to do at the beginning of the week. Today couldn't have been any better. Slept in a couple of hrs, fixed a healthy omelet for breakfast with my DH, took dog to dogpark, had lunch on a patio with friends (ate a salmon salad) and ended the evening watching the superbowl.
I love my life sometimes!!!
Saturday, November 03, 2012
Sometimes one realizes itís time to listen to your body and folks around you. My stubbornness fell to the wayside and I finally had to make a drastic decision; at least it is for me. With this reoccurrence of severe sciatica and now 2 herniated discs in my lower back, messed up knee, etc., I have to put on hold as of late my current workouts of power boxing, jazzercise (I went back to this because I felt I could make it low impact and it was safeÖthat didnít work out so well), and my most of all love of running. I believe and have known since 2008 after my last Olympic distance triathlon that it was inevitable that I do something about it. I tried so hard to overcome this injury and just let it fester but that didnít go over so well either. I did go through physical therapy (which was a no-go) and a couple of epidural steroid injections that year and the ESIís helped but only masked the underlying issue I was having. At that time, I only had one bulging disc and sciatica.
After those treatments I had that sense of false hope and I actually felt great so I just continued on as if nothing was wrong. Iíd have some pain here and there but nothing a little ice, heating pad and ibuprofen wouldnít heal. I guess now I am paying for it. I am now in the debt of those who kept telling me to do something about it and as much as I hate to admit it, I shouldíve listened to all of those little angels and you all know who you are. I have not completely stopped but I have reassessed my situation. I have to do things that do not compress my spine extensively for now. I am still working out hard but this time under the direction of my chiropractor, doing much needed and modified workouts. Of course, for me I have to feel the burn, the sweat but this time not the pain (although Iím gluten for punishment)! So what Iím incorporating into my weekly workouts is all out powerwalking, Gentle Ashtanga Vinyasa yoga, modified versions of Shaun Tís Insanity and lots of strength training at my own little homemade gym.
At the moment, these workouts are working for me. I feel since Iíve buckled down a bit and created my own workouts, I am tending to be a little easier on myself. My biggest fear doing this though, is that my tendencies are to eat things I shouldnít. I know better and will continue to work on clean eating with a sweet indulgence every now and then. Of course, my body picked a good time of the year to act up. On the positive side, I can take things a little easier as thereís not much going on in the world of what I enjoy most and that is triathlon. The negative side to all of this is that itís nearing the holidays and what does that mean? Office goodies being brought in during the week, office parties with lots of goodies around, family time with even more goodies around and wellÖyou get the picture Iím trying to create here. I will overcome this by just making good choices as always but not deprive myself of enjoying some sweet indulgences here and there.
So there you have it. I am moving ahead in just a bit of a different direction, "FOR NOW" but things will be changing and I will blog about that sometime this week. Stayed tuned and stay healthy!
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Remember the blog I wrote in regards to, "it's a sign"....well, the sign that I spoke of was the meeting with a new triathlon coach last Saturday that never happened. I was a little disappointed when I just happened to pull up my email while sitting at a light on my way to the Starbucks where we were going to have our meeting. There it was, the thing I dreaded, she cancelled on me! Gracie was not happy at all but thankfully I hadn't gotten but only 10 min from my house when I read it.
At least it wasn't a complete cancellation never to be rescheduled. She claimed she ran some miles that AM and was in a little pain and needed to get home for some meds. I guess I should give her the benefit of the doubt and probably empathize with her a bit as well, since I've been there done that. However, at that moment, I was...hmmmm....shall we say PO'd! I did exactly the opposite of what I'd said in my blog about not getting my hopes up. Well, I got my hopes up and BAM...they were shot down in that very moment.
It's okay now, I've gotten over it, just needed to vent a bit. She emailed me back to reschedule after she returns from the San Francisco Nike's womens race this weekend. Once again, I will not get my hopes up. I will wait for her to email me. I have till January 2013 to start preparing so it's all good!
Thanks for listening on the 10/11/12 day!
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