Sunday, January 25, 2009
I'm a longtime Weight Watchers Lifetime member. And I'm struggling. I know I'm not alone.
Almost exactly 10 years ago I attended my first WW meeting. I was 25 years old and I had a worsening obesity problem. Walking through that door was difficult, but as it turned out it was among the very best decisions I have ever made.
I lost 55 lbs and earned myself the coveted Lifetime membership status. But then, like so many Lifetime members before me, I went adrift. I tried to keep going to meetings. I tried to count POINTS on my own. But I just couldn't seem to make myself do it. Still, I got away with it -- my weight stayed more or less stable, maybe 2-4 pounds above goal, for a couple of years.
Then I quit smoking. Oy.
I'm 4-1/2 years smoke-free now and, trust me, I'm grateful (if also a good 15 lbs heavier) for it. After an initial gain, my weight stabilized, but I've had to run a LOT of miles to keep it that way. And even though I know deep down that WW worked for me 10 years ago, for some reason I just can't stick with it to shed the extra weight.
Don't get me wrong. I am grateful to WW. I am still more than 35 lbs lighter than when I first walked through their doors. But that puts me more than 10 lbs above my WW goal of 184, and about 20 lbs. above the "real" goal I had all along: 175.
I am determined to get to the root cause of why that is.