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The Shirt Just Doesn't Fit Anymore

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

While at my first job out of college, I bought four new dress shirts (all neutrals):
* plain white
* dark grey textured pattern
* light grey micro houndstooth
* Black (really cool texture/material. At least a couple female co-workers felt the need to come up and feel it when I first started wearing it).

As all four shirts gradually faded in the elbows, I tried to replace them with exact/almost exact replicas. In late 2007, when I was hovering around 240 pounds, I finally found a light grey hound's tooth shirt just like my old one (except it had a button collar). I was psyched. Yeah, it wore a bit large on me, but hey, it was the shirt I was looking for.

Two years and minus 25 pounds later, it is no longer "a bit large on me". Frankly it looks ridiculous. Big, puffy and awkward (Like when the younger "freshman math club" brother borrows his older "senior captain of the football team" brother's shirt). Too much material, it just doesn't fit. While I have gotten rid of some of my larger clothes, they have all ultimately been thrown/given away because they were wearing out.

This is my first "fat" piece of clothing that I am getting rid of because, well, it's just plain too big. I guess I could get it tailored, but honestly gray is not a friendly neutral in shirt form (It's never gotten much wear). There are a couple more pieces on their way, but this shirt is definitely the first casualty of a SparkPeople success story in the making.

-TD out

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SROBBINS02 12/9/2009 1:00PM

    Yay! Now you'll just have to get you some hot hot black silk shirts and let the laydeez stroke them instead emoticon

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MEADSBAY 12/9/2009 10:05AM

I've gotten rid of a lot of things but some of my really comfy clothes I still wear just around the house.
I'm retired!
My sister caught me at home the other day and said- look in the mirror- you look ridiculous!

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Let's Review, Shall We? (Please Please read)

Sunday, December 06, 2009


Recently, I hit my 10 pound milestone. I give thanks to my friends who have supported me whenever I've needed it and to SparkPeople itself for doing what it does (and, of course, God for providing!). Much love to all of you.

Below are links to the three blogs I've written that I wish everyone could get a chance to read. All three of them came from realizations that I had about myself, my life and my thought process.

They are the realizations that have brought me success and have changed my life. I hope that they change yours. Please PLEASE allow me to share them with you.
Bad Day:


Self Loathing:


Have a great week,

-TD Out

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TSEWARD 12/6/2009 9:19PM

    Hey there! Loved your review. I hadn't yet read the first two. I can really relate to them all, and I appreciate the reminder to examine what we did/ate on a good day and compare it to what we eat on a bad day. I have not been doing this...I will start right away. I get uncontrollable urges to eat things like icecream, etc. if I don't have any fat. I use PB too, and sometimes full fat salad dressing. If we are not satisfied, we won't stick with it.

And Hot Dog are you a Wallace and Grommit fan, or is it just chance that you used that for your image? I love Wallace and Grommit. Yes I am a grown up, but the work that goes into the claymation is unbelievable, and the expressions on their faces say more than words can.

I am hoping you hang around after you reach your goals. You are a treasure trove of insight for the rest of us. Hope you have a great week.

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10 Pounds........GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, December 05, 2009

Starting Weight: 225.0
Last weeks weight: 215.2 (total loss: 9.8)
This morning's weight 214.4 (total loss 10.6)
Usually I am reluctant to talk about being below a certain milestone weight unless I've been below it for a few weeks. At this point, however, the weight loss has become steady. I know that I will continue to go down each week, maybe with an exception or two.

I have a goal weight of 209.8 by the end of the year. I know my BMR, the calories for almost all foods I eat regularly. Below are my strategies for the next 3-4 weeks:

* Core work: Build muscles in abs/lower back etc. This area is mostly untapped muscle-wise
* Higher calorie-burning cardio workouts (bye exercise bikes, hello eliptical)
* Increased focus on eating less than 2600 calories/day (I've been doing this 3-4 days per week. Going forward, I'm shooting for 5-6)

Bottom Line: 209.8 by 12/31 will be a close shave, but I can definitely do it

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TSEWARD 12/5/2009 10:41PM

    Congratulations! It sounds like you have gained such confidence in your ability to keep working toward your goals! I envy you....I have lost that and I want it back! thanks for stopping by to say hi. I have had a rough week, but show me the man with no shoes and I'll show you the man without feet...I haven't had any tragedies. Just too much to do, too little time. Somehow I have got to plan ahead so this doesn't happen again. I have never gone a whole week without tracking, and making a concious effort to reach specific goals each day. I just couldn't do it this week. Even if I do run out of time to visit sparkpeople, in the future I would like to somehow maintain sanity, feel in control of my day, and jot down my goals/nutrition on paper until I can get to a computer.

Sorry for grumping. I haven't blogged in a week either so I have been saving it all up. We really enjoy reading of your success! It is like a breath of fresh air. You are doing awesome!

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 12/5/2009 9:24PM

    YEAH!! Congrats on your loss!!

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LABONTE01 12/5/2009 3:48PM

    Great job - keep on doing whatever you are doing, it's sure working! emoticon emoticon

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MEADSBAY 12/5/2009 2:27PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
That is SO awesome!

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SROBBINS02 12/5/2009 1:24PM

    Well done! emoticon

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BIKERCHICK74 12/5/2009 11:08AM

    YOU ROCK !!!!!

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REINVENTLAURA 12/5/2009 10:53AM

    Congrats on 10 pounds being gone!

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IMFIT4ME 12/5/2009 10:05AM

    wow- your incredible!! your doing very good- but I like your attitude behind it- confident and assured, and driven! I can feel your motivation!!! love that!!

send some my way! LOL! I read you help people! maybe you can help me fine tune LOL!!! (I am totally being serious too...)


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Left O-Town

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

** Warning: This is not a blog about boy bands. This really is all or nothing **

I Hulu'd the biggest loser tonight. I watched week 10 (last week on the ranch). One of the two challenges had to do with questions regarding obesity and finances. Several of the questions had to with the "cost of obesity" both individually and nationally.

It was weird. I've been obese for most of the 00s. Throughout the decade, I've heard the statistics about obesity and how it costs the individual in opportunities/wages and how it costs the country millions in health care. While for the most part, I've been not too far above the obesity line, there was always that tiny little voice in my head saying/whispering "That's you. You're part of the problem". This of course accompanied by the perfunctory "You're a failure".

For the last 3 week's weigh-ins, I've been below the obesity bmi and moving further from it. My bmr is higher. My eating has been the healthiest since, well, ever.

Tonight hearing the same statistics regarding obesity for the first time as a non-obese person was sobering. It was almost like moving out of a crime ridden area and listening to the local news reports on the car radio on the way to the new house. Same initial shame/frustrated reaction followed by a "wait a minute that's not me anymore. I don't live there. I've moved out!"

I understand that I still have a long long way to go before I reach an actual healthy weight, but each day I realize more the freedom that I'm living. The radio signal is starting to fade. Thank you, SparkPeople!

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MEADSBAY 12/4/2009 12:01AM

    I had the same sort of experience in my thinking.
I always felt resentful and never really accepted the OBESE tag.
Now I feel like I have shed my skin and joined the 'only' overweight crowd.
I recently changed my goal to reach the normal weight group.
I'm half way there.


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SROBBINS02 12/3/2009 5:06PM

    Dammit, I thought you were going to start singing Liquid Dreams. Ahem.

Whoooo success! High five! (Can you tell I was a cheerleader? Yes we have them occasionally in the UK too, and I wore my old cheerleading shirt to the gym tonight, I was well cool.) I totally agree- I don't think ANYTHING was as hard as writing on my spark page intro '...and I'm obese', nor ANYTHING as gratifying as seeing that BMI marker change from obese. That word has such negative connotations, as you say- and there's a lot of guilt tied up in being one of the epidemic, one of the 'bad' people. Which is crazy, cause those bad feelings can keep people from doing good things, like making steps to change- as they already think of themselves as failures. Argh! Drives me mental.

Cool! Glad to hear you're doing well on the food front. How are the fruits and veggie portions going?


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Totally Didn't Notice...

Sunday, November 29, 2009

It's weird(audience: What's weird?). I'm glad you asked.

A goal that I've had for two years has been to be below 220 for 3 straight weeks. I was stuck at 220/221 for seven weeks straight. Went below for one week, then went back above.

It seems like since I've realized that a bad day can just be one bad day, I've actually stopped obsessing about my weight. I feel so confident that I'm going to meet my year end goal that not only are potential setbacks not scaring me, but I'm not even noticing milestones.

The last two weeks I've been at 216.x. This week was 215.2. I actually made the three week below 220 goal and I just noticed this now. This morning, a day after my weigh-in, I realized that I am .2 pounds from my 10 pound milestone. This totally didn't register yesterday.

Now that I know my activity adjusted BMR, am exercising regularly and eating a relatively healthy amount of calories, I feel free. I'm not worrying about my weight, I'm feeling more free to help others who are having a tough day. Heck, I even feel like of I were to miss my 209.8 end of year goal, it probably wouldn't bother me too much (not that I won't fight for it until the end). I'll get there eventually and figure out what's slowing the weight loss.

Bottom Line: My weight doesn't own me anymore.

- TD out

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SROBBINS02 11/30/2009 9:18PM

    Haha! Brilliant, you're doing so well you didn't even notice you'd *made the 3 week below 220 goal*. Personally, I think that's when you know something's not just a fad, it's how you live... what do you think homey? (am still feeling gangsta. You get me?)

And yeah, I did ask the question at the top of the blog. So I'm a good member of the audience, so sue me. emoticon


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PHOXYM 11/30/2009 4:49PM

    Well Mister IMHO I think that you need to take a little bit of your focus off of the rest of us and apply that to yourself!!! Way to go and I am hella proud of you!! emoticon

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MIMODOK 11/29/2009 9:28PM

    That's the perfect attitude to have. It's not about the numbers, it's about the making the journey to a healthier lifestyle. It's about making a commitment to yourself and achieving an extraordinary goal. Also, the best kind of leadership is leadership by example. You are improving the lives of the people closest to you even if they aren't aware of it.

Ten pounds is a lot! Keep it up!

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