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Weigh-In 07.20.2013: Despite That...

Saturday, July 20, 2013

This week I made three very tough mistakes when grocery shopping.
- Bought a pound of the 85/15% ground beef (usually buy shaved steak with lower fat, but they were out).
- Bought bread
- Bought whole milk yogurt (usually buy skim but didn't pay attention).

I usually use very high fiber cereal as my vehicle for coconut oil. The bread was higher calorie and goes bad faster. I should have put the bread in the refrigerator sooner than I did. The yogurt was tough to eat because I'm not used to it.

These were mistakes that not only wouldn't have hurt me 10-20 pounds ago, they actually would have helped because I would have enjoyed them more and eaten out less (I ate out more back then).

Now, not so much.

By about Wednesday, I had finished off the beef, put the bread in the fridge and was polishing off the yogurt. Believe me, this morning when I go grocery shopping, these mistakes will not be repeated.


This week, I will buy a half a pound of lean roast beef (1-2 ounces a day and it won't go bad). Going back to cereal. I will definitely be more careful when picking up the yogurt.

Despite that...

July 06: 206.2@21 (Last Week of Plateau )
July 13: 204.8@23
July 20: 204.2@21

- Down 0.6 pounds emoticon
- 2 pounds in 2 weeks
- Body fat more reflecting reality (my clothes fit a LOT better than two months ago)
- The plateau is caput
- 4.4 pounds from the 190's
- 9.2 pounds from my goal.

This week I'm absolutely going to kill it (and I have the eating habits to back that statement up). I am really happy with my progress both eating and exercise-wise.

Yeah I admit, I wish I could go back and fix last week, but...

(sirens in the background flare up and start coming towards Trent's apartment)

Uh oh, it's the D.B.Y.S.U. police (*). This is going to be ugly. I'll blog about it Wednesday.

- TD Out!

(*) D.B.Y.S.U. = Don't.Beat.Your.Self.Up.

I find that any time I reflect either a mistake I've made or frustration with a situation, I get several comments about not beating myself up. I get these even when (and especially when) I'm totally not. Like this blog.

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LIFEGENESIS 7/24/2013 11:08AM

    So close to Onederland I can SMELL it! That is sooo cool. Proud of you and proud of you for being able to see the areas where you can improve. Go get 'em tiger! LOL

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READY4CHANGE81 7/21/2013 4:36PM

    awesome job taking the time to reflect and reminding us not to beat ourselves up! SO TRUE!

WAY TO GO on the loss this week!! emoticon

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FITGRL124 7/21/2013 9:02AM

    Trent- you are doing an amazing job! I'm so excited for you!! You're so inspiring to me! I cannot wait to see you reach your goal! EEEK!!!!

Now, if I can just really figure out what's going on with me, I would be on a good path too.

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BYEBYEFAT. 7/20/2013 10:20AM

    I don't know if this is true or not... but I heard that full fat can be better than skim, because taking out fat means they often replace it with sugar. Not sure if this is true or not.. I always have skim milk haha.

Congrats on your week!! You are getting SO CLOSE to goal!

So proud of your dedication throughout it all!

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SCRAP317 7/20/2013 9:58AM

    Good reflection and don't forget your glasses when you go to the grocery this week - ha ha ... congrats on the -0.6!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 7/20/2013 9:56AM

    "This week I'm absolutely going to kill it..." I have the same mindset.

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STFRENCH 7/20/2013 9:26AM

    Ok so there were 3 mistakes, but emoticon for being -0.6lbs and busting the dreaded plateau! emoticon

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"positive" thinking vs. Being Positive

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

I was reading my old economics textbook from college last Friday night (*). In the chapter on economic philosophy, it talked about positive vs. normative economics. The definitions confused me back then.

I figured positive economics was about an economic paradigm that was about making the economy work as best as possible. Where as normative was just "these are the economic concepts. Do A and, ceteris paribus, B will result."

It's actually the opposite. Normative economics evaluates economic policies against the social norms of a subjectively qualitative definition of good and bad.

Positive economics on the other hand, takes an economic decision or set of decisions and evaluates what will actually happen. Basically if one implements a policy, with all else staying constant, this will definitely happen. It's positive as in, one can be positive that this will be the outcome. (**)

I see a lot of non-positive "positive" thinking. A lot of "You can do it." to someone who really doesn't know how to (and therefore can't until they figure it out). I used to be this way. I know the hopeless hopefulness of it.

I used to think "positively". "I can do this!", "I just need to do this", "OK I'll just do it", etc.. That never got me to my goal. Why? Because there was something standing in my way that was inherently going to stop me. I had a sugar addiction. The only thing I could truly be positive of was that I would never hit my goal until I addressed that. I kind of knew that, but wasn't willing to fully admit it.

I am now overcoming it. I really can stop eating sugar any time. The days in the last month where I ate more sugar than usual still netted half as much as before. I have the weapons that I know (i.e. am Positive) will knock down my desire to eat sugar.

Heck, except for the last three weeks where my weight has been at a plateau, I've been forcing myself to eat enough food to keep the weight loss at 1-2 pounds per week.

Bottom line, I'm not thinking "positively" that I'm going to hit my goal in the next few months. I'm actually positive that what I am doing will lead to that. Once I get there, I don't "think" that I can maintain my weight. I know for sure, Lord willing and barring medical issues, that I will easily be able to as I continue to eat healthier.

Oh and here's the kicker. When I invariably eat too much at the holidays or summer cookouts and have a few candy bars too much. I just go back to the usual healthy foods that are now a part of my life.

I'm not victorious, I'm free.

I'm not going to succeed and maintain, I'm just going to enjoy my life.

If you are trapped in the "think 'positively'" mentality but are being held back by something that has always hindered you (you what it is), address the hindrance. I beg you. Until you do that, all of the "positive thinking" in the world will keep bringing you down when the hindrance keeps holding you back.

Again, I've been there and know the hopelessness of it. Read some of my older blogs and ideas that all invariable failed. I had a "positive attitude" that I'd win the battle/war, but not the weapons to actually win it. As a result, I almost always lost. When I won, the victory was temporary. Both of those led to hopelessness and eventually me not being on SP for a year and a half.

Don't be "positive". Address what's actually holding you back.

Once you've got that you can be Positive that you'll do as well as you can.

- TD Out!

(*) It's what the cool kids do :)

(**) I know, how does he stay single?

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READY4CHANGE81 7/21/2013 4:38PM

    Great blog!!! emoticon

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SCRAP317 7/20/2013 9:54AM

    "I'm not victorious, I'm free." ME TOO and I LOVE it! I used to think that I would not be able to say that until I reached the final pound lost, but isn't it great to be able to say it now, in the process, because figuring that out is actually what it takes to make it to the goal?

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MY1FAN 7/16/2013 5:19PM

    Great blog. You gave me something to think about.

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RUNJEWELRUN 7/16/2013 12:45PM

    Awesome! Also thinking vs. action.

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FITGRL124 7/16/2013 12:00PM

    Thank you for this blog! You're right. Now if I can only figure out what is holding me back. I've tried for years to figure it out to no avail. Just when I think I know what it is, something else creeps in. :/


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Weigh-In 07.13.2013: Plateau **BUSTED**!! Last Minor Goal **ACHIEVED**!!

Saturday, July 13, 2013

I did an early midweek weigh-in and after three weeks the scale finally moved!

It moved UP....!!

But it MOVED!!!

For the last three weeks my weight has not budged more than a few ounces. I would eat in the calorie range that had been losing me 1-2 pounds a week....205.8. I would eat out twice the day before a midweek (really salty fatty meals)...206.0.

I admit that I kind of enjoyed knowing that my weight wasn't going anywhere. It was like a vacation from eating well. In the comments of my 'plateaus are awesome' blog from last week I got the sense that my SparkFriends weren't sure that I was really that happy about the plateau.

**Believe me, I was.**

Would I have preferred to lose weight? Sure. But seriously... It was three weeks of being able to do whatever I want eating-wise without consequence, knowing that when the scale moved one way or another it was going to be go time.

So when the scale had me at 207 earlier this week, I was like #sweet!!!. (#gotime)

Though I had a burger and fries for lunch Thursday, I did not eat out yesterday. Which brings me to today:


June 22: 205.4@22 (Plateau Week I)
June 29: 206.0@22 (Plateau Week II)
July 06: 206.2@21 (Plateau Week III)
July 13: .......(Drum Roll)..........


- Down 1.4 pounds
- Reached my last minor milestone (below 205)
- 5.0 pounds away from 199.x
- 9.8 pounds away from my goal weight

My body fat shot up, but it almost always does when I lose weight, especially the first in awhile. Don't worry, I didn't plan on doing another Comp-In blog anytime soon once the weight started falling again. I probably will when I hit 195.


Nothing dramatic here. Just going to re-introduce the foods that got me to 206. The ones that helped me knock down my sugar cravings.

Probably going to up the ante on exercise. I've been slacking a bit and my mental game has been a bit off.

July 24 marks my 3 year anniversary of the last time I first went under 200. I don't think that that's going to happen by next week or the week after, but we'll see.

August 21 marks my 4 year anniversary of being on SparkPeople. I want 195 for one of the surrounding Saturdays. 10 pounds in 6 weeks is tough, but has never seemed more possible/doable.

- TD out!

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    Woo hoo! The plateau needed to be busted to help you lose the weight. Great job! You are so super close to your goal weight. Can't wait to see you get there!


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PICKIE98 7/15/2013 12:05PM

    You are a hop,skip and a jump from your goal and your trunks!! How about standing on a board and paddling across the pond? Surfer dude? That is a workout!!
You have given this a lot of thought, just go with your gut!! No punintended, your gut feelings are always right!!

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RUNJEWELRUN 7/15/2013 11:43AM

    Way to go :)

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SCRAP317 7/13/2013 10:01AM

    Excellent work!

"10 pounds in 6 weeks is tough, but has never seemed more possible/doable." It is definitely doable. Hit the cardio/strength circuit and go back to the coconut oil/spices you were doing and I betcha it will happen - if not darn close!

"Probably going to up the ante on exercise. I've been slacking a bit and my mental game has been a bit off." Yep, you need to get your head back in the exercise game if you are going to make that July 24th goal. Read some spark articles on fitness - I just read one this morning "How to make yourself workout when its dark out" it had some tips on getting up in the morning and getting the exercise done. Or if you are an afternoon/evening exerciser you can set your cellphone reminder to pop up a couple of times during the day with different messages to yourself about your goal and get pumped up for it.

The naturo told me this week to never mix sugar with fats/proteins - make sure its an hour between either way. Eat desserts for breakfast or early afternoon on their own. You could give that a try? I'm trying it out today with afternoon cocktails because alcohol always makes the scale go up for me so she said to go super low fat on the day I want to have a drink or dessert - so here goes - I'll let you know how it works for me. Crossing my fingers the scale doesn't move the other way again! XO

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MEADSBAY 7/13/2013 8:26AM

    Plateaus may be our bodies way of learning how to maintain.
A break is always good, too.
I'll be heading south this week for 10 days and plan on taking a vacation from tracking.
I am holding steady at -6 since starting the 5:2 fasting.

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So....Why NOT go to the beach!?

Thursday, July 11, 2013

A few years ago, when I was almost at my goal weight. I wrote a blog about visiting friends.

It talked about how I enjoyed being able to keep up with the activities that they and their kids were involved in. On the flip side I also talked about how when my friends decided to go to the local swimming pool, I not so gracefully bowed out. Really didn't want to go bare-chested in swim trunks.

I decided this year to strive for a huge vacation involving the beach next year and have started training to do so. The goal is to build muscle and tone up. I blogged about it and asked for destination recommendations.

A dear SparkFriend, all of whom I love very much, politely and respectfully asked me a really tough question. One whose answer has always been part of my life, but that I've never really addressed and put on the table for discussion. I really appreciate my friend for asking. So here it is.

Q: " So I ask this - with love and affection and NO judgment - are you working on the mental side of this issue? Yup, 10 lbs CAN/WILL make a difference in your physical appearance but I have to wonder, is there something else going on that's stopping you from really enjoying beach time now? "

A: My thoughts:

I'm not really a beach person.

I live near a few "beaches". These are ponds or rivers with little areas of sand where local moms would bring their kids. Single people are allowed but not really welcomed. There's nothing really there for me. When I go to them it's in the evening after everyone has gone home and I can exercise, walk or just sit on the beach and reflect.

The real beaches are a few hours away clustered near the city. They have huge populations of single people. Lots of great restaurants within walking distance. I enjoy going there and people watching and taking in the shops and restaurants. At the same time, most young single people there are in way, way Way WAY better shape than I am. Those who go shirtless have the body to back up doing so.

40-45 year old husbands and wives with a couple of kids get a pass in this regard. Single people around my age, both male and female absolutely don't. No one will make comments or snicker. Yes, there are young single people who look worse than I do. At the same time...

**Metaphorically, when I'm at these beaches I feel like the guy who showed up to the black tie affair wearing a nice pair of slacks, a blazer and a tie. I don't look bad, but I certainly don't fit in. I don't take solace that others also don't make the grade**

For me, being on the beach itself doesn't offer a lot besides sun-bathing and walking. I can walk with cargoes and a t-shirt and a tanned body doesn't do me much good if I look flabby and have a paunch.

I don't have that group of friends whose center of activity is the beach. My friends aren't physically active so a game of ultimate Frisbee or volleyball on a beach trip wouldn't be a big enough deal to make the trip to play.

If I go to the actual beach itself it's to see and be seen. My sense is if I lived or grew up closer to the beach, it would be more part of the fabric of my life. My friends and I would go there enough so that it either wouldn't bother me to be in a pair of swim trunks in public or I would have put in the time at the weight room to make the point moot.

I would either be at peace with my physical appearance or have fixed it.

There are malls and parks near where I live. Walking around in jeans and a t-shirt, I am proud of my appearance. I am very proud of my weight loss. I look a lot better than I did 4-5 years ago. From a see and be seen perspective, I am proud enough to show up at the beach itself (even if I don't lose the t-shirt).

By next year, I will own the black tux.

- TD Out!

p.s. Again, thanks to the friend who asked the tough question. I really appreciate it.

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TEENY_BIKINI 7/11/2013 9:54PM


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    I love that your friend posed that question for you and had you do a little self reflecting. I grew up about 20 minutes from the beach so I can't understand your situation. I go with a bunch of friends though who all look better than me but I don't care. I'm sure everyone's too busy thinking about their bathing suit wedgies or wondering how sand got in there to care what I look like. I'm too busy having a blast to spare a 2nd thought about the guy in slacks and a tie at the beach, lol. For me I think it's all a mind game. The more you do it, the more you feel comfortable. They now have things like co-ed naked yoga to make people comfortable in their bodies and comfortable with nudity. That is just too much for me but I like the idea behind it. This is the body we are in, lets appreciate it and care for it and love it and be comfortable with it.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 7/11/2013 2:33PM


Asked and Answered. "I'm not really a beach person." Well done friend!

"From a see and be seen perspective, I am proud enough to show up at the beach itself (even if I don't lose the t-shirt)." He11 yea!

On a personal note: I had to go through the same mental exercise about running vs. walking. I "thought" I wanted to be a runner. I ran a 5K and then I kept pushing myself to keep running. After I really dug in and thought about I decided I don't really have that passion and I was merely trying to be like everyone else. Hey, look at me ... I'm a chubby runner - watch me go. It wasn't for me. I prefer walking ... really fast but I no longer *dream* of being a runner.

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JITZUROE 7/11/2013 12:08PM

    Hey, Cary Grant worked a tux OFTEN and he was an uber fit George Clooney of a guy. I vote for the tux, and wear it until it falls apart!
No, but really, I understand how you feel.
Also, you already know that you cannot let anyone push their dreams and affinities on you, as you have your own. If you don't dig the beach, just don't. But you certainly aren't the type of person to ditch your pals because if that. You'd find something else to do while there aside from getting sand in your eyes and messing with those Elvis sideburns : )
I've had friends who used to get miffed at me for not wanting to make scary homemade wrapping paper (guess you can tell my opinion of that one) or attend Tupperware parties at their house and get tipsy at 11:00 AM (sorry, I like to keep some of my money doll!).
You are amazing for the human being you are, and that encompasses the things that you find passion in, as well as being the friend and family member you are to others when spending time with them.
How you spend that time is your choice (well, most of the time. Sometimes you need to grin and bear it through a d@mn baby shower. Ugh!).
If you'd rather strut your stuff (in that tux) at the mall or at the park and enjoy yourself completely, then do it! You should be proud. You have come a long way!

Bottom line- you could be mentally prepped for a day at the beach-on the sand, taking in some sun. Totally. You've earned it!


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Comp-In 07.06.2013: Two Out Of Three!!

Saturday, July 06, 2013

This is not, I repeat, NOT (note the all caps for emphasis) a weigh-in blog. This is a Comp-In blog (focusing on Body Fat %)

If you're looking for a weigh-in blog, many others are still posting them. If you're really picky about seeing one of my personal weigh-in blogs, I strongly recommend going into my blog archives. This one is one of my personal faves:

Seriously, someone with the SparkHandle SPIFFYCAT commented on it. How awesome is that!?


I have been experiencing a plateau for the past two weeks. Given that I usually post weigh-in blogs, I figured that my Saturday readership would plummet after 3-4 weeks of me whining about not losing weight (or worse, me bragging about being able to eat whatever I want and not gain).

so instead of posting my numbers in 2xx.x@yy%, I'm making the bold move of posting my BODY FAT FIRST (Mua hahahahahaHAHAHAHAHA). yy@2xx.xlbs


Goal: 21% Body fat by end of July

June 29__22@206.0lbs (First Comp-in)
July 06__21@206.2lbs (-1%)

Mission acomplished-ish. My first comp reading had me at 22%. "OK", I thought, "maybe next week". Then the second said 21%. I was, like, "OK, that's weird. Lets go for a third time." And the third came up 21%!!!! WhaAAAAAT!!?? Two out of three wins the match.

I've been working my lower body really hard between walking, Pilates and leg workouts. I know that's what moves the body fat percentage downward on my scale. Not neglecting upper-body, but not giving it the huge focus that I have been

While I'm realistic that this plateau may still have a few more weeks in it, I'm going back to my 2000-2400 calorie range to get to 195. My body reflects a 1% drop in body fat (or at least a two-thirds of one). While I can't wait to start losing wight again and hit 199.x and 195.0. I'm going for 21% three out of three next week.

Time for my morning walk. The body fat isn't going to burn itself!

Thanks for reading.

- TD Out!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 7/9/2013 12:43PM

    This blog made me smile and giggle out loud a bit. Not that it was funny HA-HA but just a positive spin on life and your journey totally made it happen for me. Nicely done friend, nicely done!

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SCRAP317 7/8/2013 9:38AM

    NICE! Keep it up! And keep working those large muscle groups too! 21% on a 2/3 - I'd take that in a heartbeat! XO

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JITZUROE 7/7/2013 1:24PM

    Good for you!!!! You know that body fat % is most important. Seems those leg workouts ARE doing the trick. So awesome that you know what works for you!

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FITGRL124 7/6/2013 5:29PM

    GREAT job!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

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MEADSBAY 7/6/2013 1:19PM

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BYEBYEFAT. 7/6/2013 10:19AM

    AWESOME!! I'm assuming your scale calculates your body fat percentage as well as your weight? I think I may need to invest in a body fat percentage scale! (mine scale is kinda iffy anyway) Then there might be less disappointment if the scale isn't moving but I have another way to track to see if i'm gaining fat or not! I have total faith that you will hit 3/3 next week :D I can't wait to see!! emoticon

oh P.s.. thanks for not rubbing in the fact that you can maintain and eat whatever you want emoticon

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