Tuesday, October 23, 2012
(Trent parks in front of the store gets out of car walks toward store entrance)
Voice in TD’s head: Going to buy some new jeans, eh.
Voice: Really stylish ones for when you hit goal or ones to hold you over until you get there?
TD: You heard me. Neither.
Voice: I don’t follow
TD: What’s not to follow? I’m going to buy a pair of jeans that looks good on me and on me now.
(Trent enters store)
Voice: Um, you have four pairs of fat jeans that you’re getting by with.
Voice: So, you already own them. You’re going to lose a massive amount of weight in the next few months. Just wear them until you can fit into your thin ones again.
TD: Why? I want a new pair of jeans.
Voice: But you won’t need them in a few weeks.
TD: I don’t technically need them now. The four are looking worn. Heck I just had to take another pair out of circulation. I’m replacing those.
(Trent arrives at jeans section and grabs a pair of 38x32 jeans and looks them over)
Voice: You’re serious.
Voice: OK, Stop right there.
Voice: Some of your happiest, most victorious blogs have been about not having to wear 38x32 jeans anymore. You’ve been calling 38x32 jeans “Fat jeans”. Why are you doing this to yourself?
TD: (inquisitively) Doing what to myself, pray tell?
Voice: You know…….
TD: No, please. Say it. I dare you.
Voice: ….You’re admitting defeat!!
TD: (nods) Yup, now we’re getting somewhere. Actually, I’m not. I’m buying a new pair of jeans. I’m buying a pair of jeans that I like. A pair of jeans that will fit me well and look good on me.
Look, I liked being 210-215 pounds a lot better when I was on the downswing, weight-wise. I admit that. I refer to 38x32 jeans as “fat jeans” because I wore them when I was overweight. But hey, I’m 8 pounds away from obesity. The cold hard fact is that I am fat.
At the same time, I looked good back last time I was this weight and I look good now. I had swagger/confidence. I was dating someone who appreciated my physical appearance. The 6-8 pairs of jeans/khakis I wore were new and great looking back then. They’re not anymore. The four pairs that are still wearable are faded, dated, worn and just not attractive.
If these new jeans I buy today go back into the closet after three months then so be it. I’ll wear them if I gain the weight back in the future. Yes, it may happen. Hope it doesn’t, but it may.
I didn’t leave the house wearing ratty, worn out jeans two years ago. Why should I settle for doing so now. It’s time to move on.
Voice: Oh, I see….(pauses)…..sooooooo…
Voice: You going with the faded blue rock washed ones or the plain navy ones?
Trent: The faded ones. They’ll go better with two jackets I wear most. I may come back for the others though.
Voice: Sounds like a plan.
(Trent picks up the pair of rock washed 38x32 jeans and starts walking toward the front of the store)