Sunday, April 01, 2012
**Note: March was an awful month. A lot of really bad stuff went down, the fallout of which I am still dealing with. I may blog about it in the next few weeks as I process it all. This blog has nothing to do with that**
When I was 240 pounds the GAP finally started putting out relaxed fit jeans with washes that didn’t scream “45 year old Dad driving a minivan/mowing the lawn”. They were rock-washed. They looked really cool. I bought two pair of 40” ones which I rotated heavily.
Also at that time I bought four pair of 38” jeans that were too small that I knew would fit me “someday”. These were the jeans back in late 2009 and throughout 2010 that I wrote victory blogs about being finally able to wear as I hit 210-215 (When I was first on SparkPeople).
As my weight dipped into the early 20Xs, the 38” jeans were still wearable, but a lot of the 36” cargoes and khakis started fitting better. The loosest of the 38s was as painful to wear as the two 40” ones. Two words: flappy and saggy.
I now have three stacks of casual pants in my closet.
-The 38” jeans
-The 36” khakis/cargoes with one pair of tan jeans
-The 36” “regular fit” jeans
The third are mostly regular fit jeans that wear slightly below the waist. When I tried this fit on before starting SparkPeople I looked like a meatball on toothpicks (even in 38”). Bought them when I first hit 200, thinking that they would someday fit well when I started exercising.
As I have finally gotten a regular routine (kettlebells, Pilates and Bootcamp), I’ve noticed that the 38” jeans are now again way too loose. Haven’t lost much weight but am definitely getting leaner. Yesterday I noticed that one of the regular fit jeans was (wait for it) a pair of dark-washed modern Old Navy jeans (Old Navy is owned by the GAP).
I was like, “could these actually fit?” I tried them on and, yes, they did! Yes, they needed to stretch when I first put them on. And yes, ironically, the legs are actually tight despite the waist fitting right. But I now own another “new” pair of jeans with 2 or three more pair soon to fit well.
I guess it’s time to go to PACSUN, AE or Aero and get some 34” ones.
I guess I’ll never learn ;)
- TD Out!
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
I had it all planned out. I was going to do my first kettlebell workout outdoors today.
There's a park near where I live that has a small pond with a sandy "Beach" area. I was going to do a 45 minute walk around the pond and a kettlebell workout by the water. It was going to be a cool relaxing workout with some sense of what's to come this summer when I am going there early in the morning to workout and soak in some rays.
Given that the kettlebells at home are only 20 and 25 pounds, I knew that I was going to have to make Monday the hard core day. All out on all exercises. I did .87 miles in 10 minutes on the elliptical and then did basically the 30 and 35 pound bells for all but one exercise. I left the gym with no apologies.
Yesterday, I went to do cardio and wasn't feeling it. I got to the 12 minute mark hoping to be in the zone and I wasn't. I figured that I needed a rest day.
This morning I woke up with the sniffles.
A couple days ago, I started introducing foods into my diet that I've read kill off candida yeast in the body. It's part of an attempt to fight my sugar cravings. An article that I read online indicated that when candida starts dying off the body develops symptoms similar to a cold/flu (referred to in the article as a candida kill-off).
At the same time, I've been going heavy on the vitamin C foods.
My colds usually come on like gang-busters last a day and a half and then quickly go away. This would lead me to believe that I probably don't have a cold. The one time I've had a cold when I was regularly eating fruits, however, the cold came on slowly and lingered for a week. Maybe that is what this is.
So I don't know if I have a cold or am dealing with some initial symptoms of the foods that will help me with the sugar addiction. I actually feel good enough to exercise, but am not going to do a kettelbell workout. If this is a cold, I will be very sorry if I do a kettlebell workout.
I'll probably hit the park and walk around the pond.
- TD Out!
Sunday, March 04, 2012
Ah, I remember it like it was just a few years ago. I was third year student at University. I was in a class that I really liked and was really passionate about. It was a keystone required class for my major. For the rest of the kids in the class…not so much. It was a requirement.
Being as active as I was annoyed several of my classmates. One of them (his name was Matt) admitted toward the end that when he first came into the class their first impression of me was, “What is wrong with that guy?” We became friends when I gave him some tips to avoid a major stink-bomb class/professor.
I had a presentation that I had to do as part of my academic track that no one else had to do. I came up with the idea to have the class fill out an anonymous survey, analyze the data and present the findings. The professor liked the idea. When I indicated that he should probably pass it out without an introduction, he asked “why not you?”
I replied, “Because they hate my guts.”
My prof thought about it for a second and nodded in agreement.
Two weeks later I gave a 20 minute presentation in front of the class, holding the surveys that they had filled out two weeks previous. I prepped for about five hours the prior night and earlier in the day, with the help of my dear college sweetheart so the presentation was polished.
It went extremely well.
Later that night I was at the student center chilling with my gf and a buddy when Matt came over. I was like “Hey Matt!”, and introduced him to my bff and gf (and told him how much she had helped with prepping the presentation).
He smiled, shook his head almost in complete disbelief of the study/presentation, looked my gf right in the eyes and said, “He’s going to be, like, the CEO of *3 second thoughtful pause* the country someday”
I’ll be honest with you, I’m not actually the CEO of anything at this point. I’m definitely not the CEO of the country (though I haven’t checked my email recently). That doesn’t bother me though.
What frustrates me is the lack of drive that I’ve had these past few years. I’ve settled for mediocrity which I never allowed on the table back then. I had swagger. I had drive. I had a goal. I had determination.
I had sort of a fantastic attitude of fighting for what I wanted/desired of life. I accepted setbacks as just that. Mediocrity was for those who wanted it. You can have the “Brass Ring” I want gold/platinum one.
I need another mountain to climb, another trophy, another mission, another….I don’t know what.
I think that that’s what’s been missing since graduation. And that needs to change. It may or may not have anything to do with my weight loss, but my health can probably help me. I don’t know how, but we’ll see.
CEOs need a vision, maybe that’s what I need to establish/solidify. The country certainly isn’t going to “CEO” itself, if you know what I mean (*).
- TD Out!
(*) It's OK if you don't. I doubt that he does either.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
One of my motivations this year is to go to the beach and not wear my usual t-shirt and cargoes deal. You know, actually wear a pair of swimming trunks. The means to that involves more than just eating well. Exercise is definitely important, specifically, strength and muscle building exercises. Kettlebells have been the exercise of the month.
Two weeks ago I wrote a blog about how I finally got an "official" body fat measurement of 21%. It has been 22% for a while. On that weigh-in, my scale uncharacteristically gave me different readings. My scale measures actual pounds to the 0.2 pounds, but rounds the bodyfat to the nearest full %.
I weigh myself 2-3 times and take whatever weight comes up two out of three times. The body fat % is almost always the same for all two or three measurements.
Two weeks ago it was two out of three (21%, 22%, 21%). The past two weeks I have been scoring a consistent 21%.
Next week, as I embark upon a new set of kettlebell exercises and go heavier on spinning, I hope to knock the body fat percentage down to 20% by eom March.
1998 is going to be a gr8 year
- TD Out!
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