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2012 First Weigh-in and Motivations

Sunday, January 01, 2012

Starting Weight and BodyFat
* 01.01.2012: 204.0@22%

Goal:
* 12.31.2012: 195.0@15% (or less)

Motivations:
#1 Freedom from sugar addiction
#2 Ability to exercise to the fullest (flexibility)
#3 Be able to wear real suits rather than suit separates
#4 Wear swimming trunks at the beach rather than cargoes and t-shirts this Summer
#5 My SparkFriends (who I love very much)

Game Plan:
To be determined. It will be the first order of business this year.

Have a great 2012

- TD Out!

  
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ARADNE 1/7/2012 10:35AM

    In business, a fast start is very important to having a good year- You're already on top of that.

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DEBBICZ 1/4/2012 3:58PM

    Good goals Trent - I know you'll work them!!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 1/3/2012 1:24PM

    I'm looking forward to seeing your journey unfold and your goal become a reality. If I can help in anyway, please let me know soonest! Until then, I will stand by you and support you the best I can.




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MICHELLESMILES_ 1/3/2012 9:05AM

    Your goals sound great!

You can do it!

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ANEPANALIPTI 1/2/2012 9:03PM

    WOOT WOOT!

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GJERSEYGIRL 1/2/2012 4:55PM

    Your goals are realistic...which is a great first step toward achieving them. I was surprised how much difference it made to simply just write down my goals for 2011 - I essentially achieved them all.

Best wishes for a GREAT 2012! emoticon

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MEADSBAY 1/1/2012 10:00PM

    You can.
You will.
You shall.
I just know it.
This will be the year.
You are doing all the right things.
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FITGRL124 1/1/2012 8:30PM

    Great goals!!! I'm looking forward to a fabulous year! emoticon emoticon

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2011 Final Weigh-in

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Weight@BF%:
01.01.2010: 204.8@21%
12.31.2011: 204.0@22%
(-0.8 Pounds)

Goal: 195.0@15%

Not much of a change, but this year was the year after two solid years of losing about 10 a year. I really am trying to get the last few pounds off at this point.

What concerns me is that my weight has yo-yo’d over the past year. I was down to 195.8 at one point, but again gained the 10 pounds back.

While both parts of my goal are equally important, I believe that getting to 15% bodyfat will drive getting to 195. I blogged about this when my 15% goal actually visited me back in the Fall. Exercise will be pivotal in this upcoming year.

Over the past several weeks, I’ve really formalized what my motivations are in losing the weight, gaining the muscle and burning the fat.

I will post my official first weigh-in for the year tomorrow morning and formally announce my motivation. My next step will be to figure out how to get to the goals.

I really believe that lack of solid motivation is the reason I never really got started this year. I’ll make next year different.

Happy New Year!!

- TD Out!

  
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SCRAP317 12/31/2011 6:19PM

    Happy New Year my friend! Its going to be a fantastic 2012 for both of us!
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FITGRL124 12/31/2011 4:57PM

    Happy New Year!!! Let's make 2012 great!

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Strange Visit 2.4: Apocalyptic Motivation #5

Thursday, December 29, 2011

(Trent sits on the top of a cliff overlooking a vast grey empty wasteland. A combination of smoke and mist slightly obfuscate the view but not the aura. The sky is mid-February gray.

Trent wears a black leather bomber with a black graphic tee underneath, dark grey dungarees with a wallet chain. Biker boots. He’s sporting futuristic shades and a faux-hawk. His face is pale with really dark face paint under his eyes. He gazes over the dark emptiness as the wind whistles ever so quietly but presently.

Trent’s motivation comes up from behind and sits beside him pondering the wasteland in all of its desolation. He wears a long black coat with a hood, black Nehru shirt, black pants and a pair of black leather euro shoes. A necklace with a huge gothic cross hangs off of his neck. His face is painted white with dark colored cracks painted from his eyes down his cheeks. Motivation lights a cigarette and takes a puff.

They both ponder the scene for a moment)

MOTIVATION: Ummmmmmmm…..Why are we here?

TRENT: (ethereal tone of voice): You ask a deep existential question.

MOTIVATION: No, no, you and me now. Why are we sitting here?

TRENT: Oh, that. You mean the wasteland thing.

MOTIVATION: (nods) Yeah.

TRENT: This represents my 5th motivation.

MOTIVATION: Really? Wow, that’s sad. I think you may have watched too much Ghost Whisperer before it jumped the shark.

TRENT: No, my motivation is to move on.

MOTIVATION: Come again?

TRENT: In 2013, I want to have my life back. At the end of next year, I want to be finished. I want freedom. I want SparkPeople to be part of my life, but just that.

MOTIVATION: So your motivation is to be pretty much done with SparkPeople by the end of next year.

TRENT: No, my goal is to be extremely active on SP next year and then once I’ve accomplished my goals, probably at the end of the year, go on only as much as it helps me maintain and allows me to be there for my Spark Friends (Who I love very much and want to be there for).

Motivation #5 is to enjoy life more off-line. I’m looking for balance.
The goal is 195 pounds @ 15% body fat.
The game plan is the same as for every other goal.

At the end of next year, I want to have more of an active social life, I want to be more active possibly in a sport or running/triathlon club. Spend more time with friends. Attend more social functions and get togethers.

I need SparkPeople more than ever now. If I succeed in my goals this upcoming year, I’m not sure how relevant it will be for me to spend the time that I have been in 2013. I don’t know.

MOTIVATION: We’ll see.

TRENT: Yeah. If I still have work to do, obviously I’ll continue.

MOTIVATION: Makes sense. (Pauses) Ummmm….Trent?

TRENT: Yeah?

MOTIVATION: Why did we need to come out here to have this conversation?

TRENT: I dunno, seemed like a cool idea. I don’t get to wear this jacket nearly as much as I’d like.

MOTIVATION: Gotcha. Let’s head back and get your final weigh-in and blog for 2011 done.

(Trent and Trent’s Motivation get up and head back down the cliff toward Trent’s apartment).

(To be continued)

  
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MEADSBAY 12/29/2011 9:05PM

    hahahaha-
I was wondering the same thing- why you had to go to that empty wasteland.
2012 will be a great new year for us, my friend.

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FITGRL124 12/29/2011 8:12PM

    Awesome job on #5!!! I read today in my HEALTH magazine that the best way to focus on a new year is to think to the year after!!! Funny that's exactly what you are saying! emoticon

I am so looking forward to 2013 with you!! We are going to get to our goals and then we'll be ROCKIN' my friend! ROCKIN'

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JITZUROE 12/29/2011 6:10PM

    Wow.
Totally on another topic (sorry), have you ever heard of the novel Pattern Recognition by William Dobson? Your writing style TOTALLY made me think of it. Very intriguing book, check it out.
And now back to the blog.
I like it. Although I wonder if you were sitting next to Morpheus, trying to decide which pill to choose ... (red?)

I did reach my goal weight a few months ago, and actually found myself to be Sparking more. I hope the same happens when you reach your goal. : )

Bren

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SCRAP317 12/29/2011 5:31PM

    Yay, I'm the first comment - nice job on #5 Trent! I totally get what you are saying about 2013 - I want that too - I want to be there for my friends but I want to be so wrapped up in awesome social experiences that I use it for checking in on them and getting myself on track as needed. Right now, I'm with you - consumed with Spark and all that I need to focus on to get control and get healthy. Cheers to both of us getting to the point of reaping the benefits of our efforts! emoticon xo

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Blog Update: Motivation #4

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

The following is excerpted from a blog post of mine from earlier this year (postscripts excluded). Updates at the end.

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Pity Party Blog I: Not Well Suited For...
(Originally posted Thursday, June 02, 2011)

**Warning: This blog contains the expression of frustration on the part of the blogger. If you are someone who responds to any expression of frustration or "negative" emotion by...
- using the term "pity party" (or some other such emotion-is-bad phrase)
- trying to get the person to realize that they shouldn't be frustrated
- using over-used deflections like "don't beat yourself up", "tomorrow is another day", or "just move on"...
then please either don't read or read and don't comment**


My vacation overall was good. It really was. I got to see my friends and their family in their new home. Their oldest child is growing up so fast. I overate, but had healthy snacks on hand. Given how little I ate out except for the traveling days, I still may actually lose weight this week.

There were two moments involving my weight and health that stuck out (one good and one bad).

The first night the family was hanging around outside playing. They live on a cul de sac with three houses facing a nice rounded end of the street (safe play area for ball and bike). the youngest is "getting into soccer". Basically, he kicks the ball and the adult playing with him kicks it back toward him. Both parties have to chase the ball as needed.

After about 10-15 minutes of this I realized that I was:
* enjoying the light exercise of chasing the ball
* not winded
* not feeling any knee pain.
I would have been 1 for 3 at best when I first started SparkPeople. For all I have read about some of my SparkFriends' goals of wanting to play with/keep up with their children or nieces/nephews, I finally get it. It felt gr8, a nsv!

and then (cue other shoe to drop)......

First thing the next morning (shoe drops), mommy proposes going to the swimming pool (crowd goes nuts)!
"You did bring swimming trunks, right?"
"Not exactly"
"Oh, well you can probably borrow..."

It was bad enough having to sit the two of them down 10 minutes later and explain/admit to them, "No, I really don't want to be seen in public wearing a pair of swimming trunks". But the looks on the childrens' faces followed by the long drawn out" whyyyyyyyyyy" when their parents had to break the news that "Mr. Trent" wouldn't, in fact, be coming with them...............yeah, not exactly a high point in my life.

(rant)
D*rn it, the whole point of losing the now over 50 pounds was so that I WOULDN'T hate the way I looked. I'm almost 195. I'm supposed to be enjoying FREEDOM to NOT still feeling like the stinking fat kid (yes, even @ the swimming pool)

And isn't this supposed to be something that guys aren't supposed to worry about!? Ugh.

What good is being the Hottest Loser.....if he's not even hot enough to wear a swimsuit at the swimming pool!!??

Don't get me wrong, I really like the way I look in jeans and t-shirt. I am very healthy and am enjoying the benefits of better health. This just kind of pushed the limit and broke me, I guess.
(end of rant)

As I drove to the gym, after they left for the pool, I made a vow to myself. Next year is rematch. If I don't go back and visit them and go to the pool with them, I will plan to go to a beach. And yes, by Jove (whoever Jove is), I will have the body to wear a swimsuit.....

...and I will.

- TD Out.

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Updates:
* Motivation #4: To feel comfortable enough to wear a pair of swimming trunks at the beach or pool when hanging around with friends. No more “whyyyyyyyyyy”s

* Goal: 15% Body Fat and a toned midsection

* Game plan: Cardio, strength training, core training, and focus on abs.

  
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KT-NICHOLS-13 12/28/2011 11:41PM

    I'm loving your inner reflections & explorations! I hope this exploring is helping you move forward toward your truth and happiness.

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MEADSBAY 12/27/2011 8:47PM

    Dang!
I know exactly how you feel and it's not fun.

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FITGRL124 12/27/2011 7:55PM

    You are getting through this TD! I'm so proud of you!

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SCRAP317 12/27/2011 5:44PM

    Nice - your motivation list is getting longer! I'm glad to know men go through that mental break down too. xo

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ARADNE 12/27/2011 5:19PM

    I think it's fair for men to worry about their bodies in public too, especially with how much macho-ism exists 'out there'.

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Strange Visit 2.3: Motivation #3

Sunday, December 25, 2011

(Knock on door, Trent opens and motivation walks in wearing a contemporary high stanced black suit, a wrinkled modern-fit shirt unbuttoned at the top and loosened tie)

MOTIVATION: Hi Trent!

TRENT: I hate you.

MOTIVATION: Why?

TRENT: I know exactly what you’re doing.

MOTIVATION: …And that is…..

TRENT: The suit. You know my situation

MOTIVATION: Yes, I do. Your SparkFriends don’t, though. Inform them.

TRENT: OK. (walks over to computer. Starts blogging)

When I was in really good shape my first year out of college, I bought two suits. I was a few pounds overweight, but proportioned like a typical American. A size 44 right off of the rack fit perfectly, both the jacket and the pants. Suits usually have a 6” drop (the difference between the jacket size and pants size). A size 44 suit comes with size 38 pants.

When I gained the 50+ pounds, I was forced to buy suit separates and sizes far larger than I cared for (size 46 Jacket and 42” pants). I dreamed that someday when I lost the weight, I would once again be able to buy a regular suit. Not separates.

A few weeks ago, I needed a suit for a special occasion. While my jacket size is now a snug 42”. The pants had to be a 38” waist. 36” pants are still way too tight and a 44 jacket looks big on me. It annoys me.

- TD Out!

(finishes blog)

MOTIVATION: OK, so whats the goal, motivation and game plan.

TRENT: The goal remains the same. 15% bodyfat. The motivation, one of them anyway, is to buy an actual suit rather than separates. The game plan is to burn fat and build muscle.

New Years Eve 2013 is now only 372 days away. Next year is going to be my year health-wise. Lord willing, I will go to a New Years eve party either rocking a modern fit size 42 suit or be able to if the dress-code deems said attire inappropriate. I’ll wear the suit on the last non-jeans day at the office (or another occasion) if the later is the case.

Motivation #3: To be able to wear regular suits instead of separates.

Barney Stinson, watch out. There’s going to be a new player in the suit game!

MOTIVATION: Cool beans, sounds like you’re on this one.

TRENT: I’ve got a couple other related goals and motivations which I will blog about this week.

MOTIVATION: Excellent! Happy New Year, both this upcoming one and the next.

TRENT: Thanks, You too.

(Motivation leaves apartment)

  
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FITGRL124 12/26/2011 11:17AM

    I have the upmost confidence that in 2012 for your 2013 New Year's Eve - that you will be in a complete suit not separates.

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SCRAP317 12/26/2011 8:12AM

    Barney Stinson will have nothing on you, my friend! Motivation #3 is almost in the bag! xo

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MEADSBAY 12/25/2011 8:44PM

    It's funny how some things just matter to some of us.
If buying a complete suit is important to you, I have utter confidence that you will reach your goal.
15% body fat is an admirable goal, as well.
Bring on 2012!
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JITZUROE 12/25/2011 8:05PM

    Yeah!!!!! You'll get that suit -bought as 1 entire suit of course- sooner than you know it! Ok, just be sure that you don't get some horrendous purple velvet suit like John Cusack did in Serendipity... You'll look like a magician. : )))

Merry Christmas Trent!
Bren

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