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Saturday, October 08, 2011


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1% down. 6% to go.

Had a gr8 week eating-wise. Had trouble at the beginning of the week tracking because of eating out and stress eating. Tuesday morning, I started going with lighter calorie breakfasts that were extremely filling and my appetite was the most in check it has ever been (I was able to actually eat within my SparkPeople calorie range 3 days. hundreds of calories below the I need to lose7%).

Exercise, on the other hand went well for the first part of the week. Then Wednesday, i did a Kettlebell workout with the correct weights. I'd been previously using heavier weights so i was using only the muscles that could handle the weight and sort of using momentum. When I downgraded the weight, all of the muscles were able to play along with all of the exercises.

suffice it to say i was sore. My chest was so tight, i was having slight problems breathing at times the next day. This morning i finally feel better.

So, over all a success. to lose 14 pounds (7%) this Fall will be a challenge. But 3 days in a row eating within my calorie range? It's doable.

Either way, I'm back in the 100's again.....

and not planning on leaving anytime soon :)

@goodbye130: Thank you for running this challenge. You're an inspiration and a great Sparkfriend.

@you: come visit the lose a pound a week team and join in the fall 7% challenge.

- TD Out!

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STRESSOUTCHICK1 12/11/2012 10:02PM

  you still rock! and I had loads of grrrrrrrrrr emoticon

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STESSOUTCHICK1 10/13/2011 3:30PM

  Still the bomb baby!

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RUNJEWELRUN 10/13/2011 9:34AM

    Way to go !

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STESSOUTCHICK1 10/8/2011 12:36PM

  Your doing great! I don't even know how to count
my caleries. You Rock as always

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    Good luck with your challenge. I also "learned" to downgrade my dumbbells.

Have a lovely weekend.

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Huge First Step

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Yesterday, I joined the Fall 7% revolution that one of my dear sparkfriends (who i love very much) started. im doing weeks 1 and 2 this week (get bmr then try to 500 fewer calories AND do 2 cardio and 2 strength training sessions). The exercise should be easy enough to get this week.

ive calculated my 1 pound per week number. yesterday I went over by about 300 (not sure about some of the calories in some of the food i ate in the evening). I will get better about that. that being said...

I got together with a friend yesterday and we went to the mall. there's a restaurant that we've traditionally eaten at when we go to the mall. when it comes to meal options it is you say......generally the stuff that pre-sparkpeople Trent appreciated far more than he does now.

lots of fried breaded food, cheap carbs/starches (Fiber? Whole Grains? pfft who needs those?). and in case you are worried that you will wake up the morning with extremely low cholesterol, they douse/drown gosh darn near everything in some kind of gravy. really thick gravy. if you are worried that your front fender might fall off the car, i think it can be used as glue once it starts to cool down.

so yeah, biscuits, dumplings, gravy, potatoes and breaded fried foods. Good ol down home cooking. grampy would have been proud...before his first double bypass, anyway.

knowing that this was probably where we'd end up eating, i did some things that i have never ever done in my lifetime.

1) planned out meal possibilities ahead of time.
* went online to check out the caloric damage for the food that i really wanted.
* found out what sides were better options
* figured out how to mitigate the inherent desire to have desert.
* budgeted in the calories for the options, given the caloric intake of the foods eaten during the rest of the day

2) actually ordered and ate a vegetable as a side at a restaurant.
* im trying to get 4 veggies per week (per WEEK not per day). up to 5 starting tomorrow.
* i ordered the 50-80 calorie green beans for a side rather than the steak fries or mac and cheese

3) mitigated desert
* one of the side options was a small apple cobbler type dish. it was 150 calories. i got that so i wouldn't desire the gigantic butter, chocolate and sugar laden desert options. it was still unhealthy, but not nearly as bad as what i would have ordered previously.

4) for the main course, i went with a leaner option. The chicken and dumplings, fried steak or chicken fried chicken would have each run me about 700 calories, but the 6-8 oz plain sirloin was 400-450. It was awful (parlez vous shoe leather) and i knew it would be, but it had iron and protein. Eaten with the greenbeans, i could swallow it.

5) I isolated what i really wanted. There is a potato caserole side that they had that i really like. so i got that (150 calories). everything else had a nutritional motive behind it (even if a mitigating one). I got it and enjoyed it.

the meal came out to 1225 calories, rolls and butter included.

i approximated what my calories would have been if id gotten my usual meal there and with rolls and everything, it would have easily cleared 2000.

I could definitely have picked better foods......

but i defintiely could have done worse.

it was a huge first step (planning options and ordering a plain vegetable as a side when eating out).

- TD Out!

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MEADSBAY 10/12/2011 8:20PM

    Hloy moly- whilst I have been MIA you have been growing by leaps and bounds, sparksvillewise!
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DEBBICZ 10/4/2011 12:43PM

    Yay Trent!! That is the way to do things. That is real life. We have to be able to go to those places and still eat something. You planning paid off, you got something you liked and enjoyed it. Good for you. That is what I have the hardest time with. I plan but then don't stick to the plan. Way to go! I'm going to follow your lead the next time that I am going out, which is this Friday. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WINACHST 10/4/2011 8:42AM

    emoticon You took that first step and planned what you were going to eat.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 10/3/2011 7:22PM

    I applaud you and the success! Nicely done, nicely done.

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MUNCHIE718 10/3/2011 7:00PM

  Congrats on planning ahead & making healthier choices!

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SCRAP317 10/2/2011 9:21PM

    Good job with the preplanning! you rock!

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STESSOUTCHICK1 10/2/2011 4:34PM

  WOW!!!!!!!! planed a of time. I myself never thought of that.
All I got to say is Yes I defiantly agree you rock.
thank you 4 all your support, and sorry 4 the car. The only
thing i say is we need to pray for those people. They
really dont know Jesus. And that is sad.

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BYEBYEFAT. 10/2/2011 10:23AM


you rock. seriously.

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FITGRL124 10/2/2011 9:23AM

    OMG - who is this Trent? Oh yeah - the lean, healthy, HOT one! emoticon

You did an excellent job at picking out your meal options - and I bet that you still enjoyed your time with your friend! Excellent!

I wish I would have done the same thing yesterday with family - ugh - I haven't even posted by calories. I KNOW it was well into 3000 for the day yesterday. I did not do a great job on day one. emoticon

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Much Closer, Yet No Less Further

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

**Warning: This blog contains expressions of frustration by the blogger. If you are someone who can't handle "negative" feelings/emotions (or feel the need to respond to said feelings/emotions with "Don't beat yourself up", "just move on" or "tomorrow is another day" or use the term "pity party"), please either don't read this or read it and don't respond to it. I won't be offended**

I started on SparkPeople a little over 2 years ago. i was 225 pounds. my goal was 195 pounds.

Last year i hit 199 and assumed that the next four pounds would probably come off within a matter of weeks. I was about 75% correct. I bottomed out at 195.8 and my weight came back on up to about 205. I have since hit this weight 3 times and then drifted back up into the late 190's and early 200's.

It raises some tough questions:
* Will i ever hit 195?
* Why can't i break through 195.8?
* is this really worth it?
* What would late 2000's and early 2010's songs sound like if they were put to POLKA!?

Most importantly
* Why does this frustrate me?

* I'm 50 pounds less than i was just a few short years ago.
* I look great.
* I feel great.
* I'm generally healthy.
* I'm more confident with almost all aspects of my life than even a year ago.
* I'm only 10 or so pounds overweight.

Basically, If two years ago I was where I am now, I would never have joined SparkPeople. Wouldn't have needed to.


* Nutrition-wise: I don't have control over my eating.
There have been one or two weeks where I didn't eat out and kept my sugar intake OK (not great, but typical American). It's not that I'm afraid that I'll never hit my goal.

it's that either I'll slip back up to 240/250 or spend the rest of my life fighting it. I could handle a 210 pound weigh-in if I knew I could control my eating enough to sand it down over 10-15 weeks and not constantly worrying about gradually climbing higher.

* Motivation wise: as a result, even though I'm about 25 pounds closer to my goal, I'm no less stuck at the weight that I'm at than I was stuck at my weight 25, 35 and 45 pounds ago. It's not about where I am, it's where I'm not going. I'm no more in control of my eating now than I was then.

I'm much closer to my goal numerically, yet no less further from freedom......

....and it kills me.

- TD Out.

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MEADSBAY 10/12/2011 8:26PM

I forgot how much I love those links you throw in there!

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RUNJEWELRUN 9/25/2011 8:34PM

    I think you are going to get there, you are just tweaking somethings. Do you believe you will? If you do, then just keep pushing and don't accept any excuses from yourself :)
We are all here for you!

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HICALGAL 9/25/2011 3:40AM

    warning...i can handle anything life dishes out as long as ive got my oh btw..beat yourself up, stay where ur at..the view is good from there, tomorrow is today and did i miss a party?!?!? shayatt!!!

ive had similar questions and this is totally against the 'sensible' way to drop those stubborn few but what the heck..its only for a few days and it talking 'cal deficit'...just sayin

nutrtion/motivation wise..face it, we're addicted to food..the only difference between us and a druggie...our drug is 'necessito'. cravings, temptations will always be there. every day will be a conscious effort to stay the course, some days easier than others but thats life. we wont ever be perfect in this area but who the hell is?!?!?

ive come to accept this part about myself and the inner turmoil gives way to understanding, wisdom and finally peace...again..just sayin. reflecting and questioning... part of the journey. emoticon

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TSEWARD 9/23/2011 10:10AM

    HA!!! THANKYOU! You have started my day with a genuine laugh! I will continue my comment after Weird Al is done singing.
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Ahhh. That was AWESOME! One of my faves is White and Nerdy. Makes me laugh just thinking about it.

Look at these improvements! Feel them! Wow. I am so proud of you...HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENTS!!!
* I'm 50 pounds less than i was just a few short years ago.
* I look great.
* I feel great.
* I'm generally healthy.
* I'm more confident with almost all aspects of my life than even a year ago.
* I'm only 10 or so pounds overweight.

I just wanted to take a moment to revel in them with you.

It is funny, I feel the same way. So far, my thought is that there is a reason why I got to my lowest point physically and emotionally.For me the biggest reason is using sweets/food in general to cope with stress and pain. I have come to the conclusion that I will always struggle with this. It will always be there, and I will always need to be vigilant and take deliberate steps to combat it.

I don't mean to say that will be the case for you!! I just wanted to share that the fact you have persevered to where you are now and keep on going is HUGE! and that just because there is still that feeling of still having to struggle with making good food choices does NOT a failure make. You are a success!!!

Hope that wasn't too lame. This is what happens when I make a comment on two cups of coffee first thing in the morning.

Peace out!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 9/22/2011 2:04PM

    I am looking forward to hearing what you come with after you process this question more.
"Most importantly
* Why does this frustrate me?"

"I'm much closer to my goal numerically, yet no less further from freedom......
....and it kills me." ME TOO! It sucks.

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STESSOUTCHICK1 9/21/2011 11:43PM

  I agree with this! I yoyo and I haven't change a thing.
I will loose let say 10 pounds and gain 5 then it will
say that waight 4 ever and a day. I have asked just
about every one what to do and they allways say,well
eat less.
I even said to ones self why don't I just give up.

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FITGRL124 9/21/2011 8:15PM

    Just a thought here but you've learned so much and have come so far - maybe 195 isn't realistic for your body type and frame?

And too - I know what you mean about food. It's just too d*&$ hard sometimes.


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Some changes that need to come to my goals

Saturday, September 10, 2011


* Add 1 vegetable per week every month over the next 2-3 years.
* Current: 4 veggies per week total (per WEEK not per day).
Goal: 21-35 per week (3-5 per day)

* 7x per week.
* Started @ 10 minutes
* Add 1 minute to each session per week
* currently @ 18 minutes per session
* 1 double session per week and 1 day of rest (if I feel that i need it)
Goal: 6 times per week 45 minutes per session

* I roll a 6 sided die for every time i eat a vegetable up to my weekly goal or do an exercise session (up to goal)
* put that many dollars in a tin for a new outfit for when i hit my goal.
Reward: new outfit when I hit 195 (shoes, jeans, t-shirt, etc)


* not changing.
* in october we're up to 5 veggies per week. vegetables don't come naturally to me.

* Once I hit 20 minutes per session (currently @ 18), I will drop the double session and keep the day off.
* on a more qualitative level, i will rotate intense workouts with lighter ones. The day before my rest day will be the "one i make count".
* When it was 10 minutes, the point was to always get as much as I could out of every second, my body is starting to not look forward to exercising.
* The double session was cool/doable when it was 2x10. at 2x18, its a bit much. im working my way up to 36 minutes per day and will get there eventually.

* Next month i will move to a 10 sided die for the days where i both eat a vegetable and workout.
* 2 six sided rolls were cool when it was twice a week. Now im having trouble remembering how many times im supposed to roll and sometimes forget if i have or not.
* one 10 sided roll at the end of the day when ive met my goal is less complicated and easier to remember.
* basically @ the end of each day i roll a die and put the money in the tin.

So that's what's goin on.

thanks 4 reading,

- td out!

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TSEWARD 9/13/2011 11:26PM

    nice idea rolling the dice! rewards are the way to go!!! very ambitious vegetable goals....You are doing awesome!

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SCRAP317 9/11/2011 8:04PM

    Good Luck Trent! You motivate me - thanks for your thoughtful blogs - they make me think! xo

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RUNJEWELRUN 9/11/2011 12:45PM

    You got this!

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STESSOUTCHICK1 9/10/2011 10:31PM

  MY I think I will follow you lead.

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STESSOUTCHICK1 9/10/2011 9:07PM

  Wow Good idea my friend. sorry I say away so long.
I had to start all over with a new name. LOL
it is Stressoutchick1. LOL I need help with
getting started again. need loads of help

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AKELAZ 9/10/2011 10:38AM

    LOVE the detail - all sounds eminently do-able. Good for you. emoticon

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FITGRL124 9/10/2011 10:16AM

    It sounds like you're doing a great job!! Keep it up TD!


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Today is the new tomorrow

Monday, September 05, 2011

These past couple of weeks I ate poorly. Lots of commitments that involved eating out. Yesterday I ate out for both lunch and dinner. Both large meals, lots of salt, and large desert for dinner. I knew that the scale would probably not say 195, but rather over 200. I was right.

One of the things that frustrates me more than pretty much everything are platitudes. Sayings that are overused to the point that they don’t mean anything:
* “just move on”
* “ok, so you had a bad day, we all do”
* “don’t beat yourself up” (especially funny/annoying when im not)

They all attempt to minimize the frustration, provide false hope and in reality demoralize the person who is struggling

(they do me, at least. Tho ive never seen any one ever respond to one of these with, “thank you. You’re right I can kick 10-50 years of awful eating habits by just ‘moving on’. Ill stop beating myself up now. Thank goodness i just had a bad day!”).

The main one that has frustrated/hurt more than the rest of them was, “tomorrow is another day”

It annoyed me because tomorrow never really was any different. I couldn’t stop eating. I’d try setting a goal and would last 3 days and then id fall back into the same old routine. Always getting reassurances that tomorrow would be another day….

Only to have it be the same day as the previous.

After these past two weeks of just not having much control over life combined with a lot of stress and drama, I woke up this morning and prepared myself a really healthy breakfast (2 kiwis, 1c plain non-fat yogurt, 2T walnuts).

Not because I wanted to do penance for the bad eating

Not because I wanted to “get back on track” or “back on the wagon”.

Not because I want to weigh 195 next week so I can throw myself a blog celebration party.

It was because my body was craving healthy food. I really have not enjoyed eating out. The food tastes weak. My stomach really hurt afterwards. I want a day of freedom where I get to cook lean proteins, drink lean dairy and prep some not-so-convenient whole grain dishes that will make me feel healthy again.

Not because I hate where I am and how I feel.

Rather because I want to feel like I felt two weeks ago.

After so many tomorrows that weren’t really different days……

…This one is.

TD out!

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JEAN111766 9/13/2011 3:14PM

    Wow!!! It is so "nice" to share these frustrations with other people... I can so totally relate to your blog... although at the moment, I am still in the "tomorrow is another day phase"... I need to get back to exercising regularly but time has not been on my side... and therefore my eating habits have been sucking the life out of me. Thanks so much for putting this into a blog... I know what I need to do, now I just need to do it!!!

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SCRAP317 9/13/2011 12:36PM

    Love, love, love this blog Trent. I feel the same way - and that says alot about us! My body does crave healthy foods and my body also punishes me when I dont' give it healthy foods. I'm glad about that. And you are right, the things that are most inconvient to prepare tend to be the ones we skip - we must put in the time - our bodies are worth it!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 9/9/2011 2:00PM

    Truth be told, I keep coming back to this blog and reading it - almost daily. Yet, four days later I've yet to post a comment . . .
Your list of overused sayings are on my top 10 list as well. In fact, much of this blog must have been written after you had a look see inside my brain, FOR REAL!

Love the ending and hope it still holds true four days later . . . "After so many tomorrows that weren�t really different days�� �This one is."


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CROOKEDLETTER 9/6/2011 11:13PM

    I hope that you get the free time soon to cook up some good tasting, good for you food. It is interesting how your body starts craving the good food.

One of things I've notice today as I was eating a carrot is that because I've cut sugar way down, the carrot tastes sweet. Cutting down on sugar means my taste buds are experiencing an expanded, more nuanced range of flavors than before. Which also means that foods that are overloaded in sugar or salt or too much fat (I love me some butter but don't like food drowned in it), essentially most restaurant food, just doesn't taste as good.

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RUNJEWELRUN 9/6/2011 2:10PM

    It takes time. I have been listening to a lot of podcasts. One that I really like is called Cut The Fat weightloss podcast.
Love ya!

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FITGRL124 9/5/2011 4:38PM

    I think the healthy foods are what you're craving. It sucks when you have obligations with friends/family that involve eating out in a restaurant. I had the same problem on Sat. But I woke up on Sunday and wanted a healthy omelet. Isn't it such an awesome feeling? Your breakfast sounds like it was delish!

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KARBA29 9/5/2011 10:27AM

    Thanks for your comment on my entry - after reading this - I feel like I could have written it. It is especially frustrating b/c I am surrounded by people who dont have a weight problem and don't really understand how hard it is. Someone once said to me " When you are hungry, just have a big glass of water. That will fill you up". I almost choked at that one. Good luck today and " just move on"... LOL

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AKELAZ 9/5/2011 10:16AM

    Pretty well rendered me speechless (which is not easy) - particularly that I have to agree about useless platitudes.

Dare I whisper that it sounds like you're becoming disenchanted with eating-out - or even eating-in on unhealthy stuff - and more appreciative of healthier foods? That must surely count as a step forward.


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