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Today I Weigh 19...(long dramatic pause)... Part 3

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Goal 195
Last Week: 196.0
This Week: 198.4
(+2.4) I am better than this.

I saw this one coming. My week was over cluttered, as was last weekend. I wasn't able to scrape together the time Sunday and Wednesday to prep lunches. Afterwork activities and get togethers made at home dinner prep not so feasible. I'm actually happy with the number in that my midweek had me slightly over 200.

While today will be a continuation, tomorrow we start a two week rally that will bring me below 195.

Years ago there was a football team that was constantly in contention for the Superbowl championship. Great quarterback, strong coaching, etc.. One year they were running an undefeated season and I remember personally being concerned for them. I was like, "If they don't lose a game, they will be over-confident because they will lose touch with their vulnerability." It's not that they couldn't go undefeated and win the big game, but the risk would be high.

Very late in the season, they had a very high profile network game against a very stunningly average team. This was supposed to have been a "the underdog team comes in riled up but still get squashed" game. I emphasize "supposed to". The underdog team beat them pretty soundly. I'm not a football fan and I didn't know the two teams that well. But from what everyone was saying, it was humiliating for the odds-on-favorite team.

That year they won the Superbowl.

A year or two later, they actually had an undefeated season and made it to the Superbowl against a team that they had barely squeaked by in the regular season. The other team came with their best game. The undefeated team was undefeated no more. I was not surprised.

Please don't misunderstand me, I didn't try to gain this week. I didn't throw the weigh-in. Deep down I was kind of hoping for one of those "Hail Mary" weigh-ins where you wonder if the scale is broken. And yeah, I would have loved for this week to have happened late next month.

At the same time, I needed a sobering loss like this one. As much as it stings.

And yes, I WILL beat myself up...just as that team's coach did when they lost the high profile game. I'm a dude. The "You know you can do better!"/"You're better than that!!!" pep-talk has a strangely beautiful tone when the one who can do better knows it. I don't need a pat on the back to spare my feelings. I need to tell myself the reality that I ate like I did when I was 225 and if I don't smarten up soon, I'll be headed back in that direction.

Bottom Line: I lost a high profile weigh-in this week. I played poorly and underestimated the challenge. I could have and can do far better. I'm better than a 2.4 pound gain.........

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a 195 pound Superbowl to win!!!!

- TD Out!

  
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LEBJKI 8/24/2010 10:07AM

    We have all been there. A gain can definately wake you back up and push to get to that big win. You will win.

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KRITKRIT 8/24/2010 9:41AM

    TD that was absolutely PERFECT!!!! Great, great, great way to look at it!!! I have no doubts you will win your superbowl!!

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TANNERS 8/23/2010 12:16PM

    I so know how you feel!

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LIBBYFITZ 8/21/2010 10:03AM

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BLUEANGELLK 8/21/2010 9:05AM

    Great analogy! I know I have been at 4th and 40 and gotten sacked in a bad way. As great as the "Hail Mary's" are it is sometimes the 2-3 year gains that win the game!!!

May you have a great game this week!

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Today I Weigh 19...(long dramatic pause)... Part 2

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Goal 195
Last Week: 195.8
This Week: 196.0
(+0.2) Meh.

This week I did not eat very well. My exercise has been focused on strength training.

I've also lost about 3-4% of my body weight in 4 weeks. I am a lot leaner than I was 29 pounds ago, so the mad 1-2 pounds a week every week is not something that I'm going to be really demanding of.

The way I see it, if my body needs the time to stabilize or just wants to lose weight more slowly, I say to it, "Take your time". Notice I'm not using roman numerals for the "Part" portion of the blog title this time. "Part CCCLXVIII" might be tough for those who are reading for the first time and aren't very familiar with Roman numerals (myself included)

But make no mistake about it, this week I'm kicking it up a notch. I'm going to go down to 2 super strength training sessions (from three), but I'm going to add 2 hardcore cardio sessions combining the elliptical and the exercise bike (or maybe one of those and a spinning class).

While I am still trying for "191 by 9.11!!". 195 is a huge deal to me. It was the weight I was at when I was at my healthiest. It is the original goal weight I set with Spark People. So that's the focus.

Who knows, maybe three times will be the charm. Part 3 next weekend.

- TD Out!

  
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COMPUCATHY 8/19/2010 11:06PM

    Good that you are accepting of the body's limits on weight loss. And you said you're focusing on strength training...so you're building muscle under fat...which weighs more...sooooo...that could also explain fluctuations and small increases when you should be going down. You're doing great! Good luck with Part Three! emoticon emoticon

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HICALGAL 8/19/2010 6:10PM

    a huge congrats for MAINTAINING your loss!!! glad to see you're taking it in stride and not stressing it. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FITGRL124 8/16/2010 9:22PM

    You've come a long way and I think you are doing awesome! emoticon

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CWOMACK138 8/16/2010 8:53AM

    Congrats to you Trent, you've done a fabulous job & are really an inspiration to us all...!!!

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PURPLESPEDCOW 8/15/2010 11:04AM

    sometimes I think our bodies do need time to adjust to a new weight before being able to move on. I like your attitude. I know that you will lose the 4 pounds before 9-11.

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STEELKICKIN 8/14/2010 11:12PM

    Just simply and positively "CHA-CHING!" You've come a long way, baby! Awesome!

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LINDAGRAVEL 8/14/2010 11:04PM

    Way to go trent

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AKELAZ 8/14/2010 7:28PM

    Well TD - sounds like you have so cracked it - you've reached 195 which is emoticon and if you can get to 191 by 911 that will be the icing on the cake but actually YOU are the icing on the cake. You will have the confidence at 195 of knowing you look good at the wedding and your cool personality and wit will carry you through. Everyone with anything about them knows that that is so-o important. It's not all about numbers and pants sizes though they are good too - confirmation of efforts made and battles won. Keep moving on - but don't beat yourself up. Oh yes - and give me lessons emoticon Truly I admire your achievements and your planning and your fortitude. Go TD - you're doing good - very very good emoticon emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 8/14/2010 6:00PM

    So proud of you. I like that you are giving your body time to respond to all of your hard work - it needs it and you deserve it. You will still be awesome on 9/11 regardless of how much you weigh.

And I am sure you will not be denied anything with the amount of sheer dedication you are applying right now. 191 will happen for sure.

Cheers.

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TSEWARD 8/14/2010 5:43PM

    Thank you for your comments, all! Interesting, I was just thinking about your "1xx by m.dd" goals, wondering if I should do the same and thinking I just was not that brave or confident. It takes guts to shout to the world your goals.

I am so proud of you for reaching your goal! You must feel awesome.

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LIBBYFITZ 8/14/2010 10:28AM

    As you said you're body will do it in good time. just keep on keeping on! emoticon

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DIANNED4 8/14/2010 8:35AM

  Great idea, not being demanding of the 1-2 lb loss. With the exercise plans you are incorporating into your life, those inches will drop and your body itself with built up muscle will become a lean-mean-fighting machine. A look in the mirror is worth more than a step on a scale, seeing your transformation from fat to muscle. Keep up the great work!

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AZCUPCAKE 8/14/2010 8:06AM

    WAY TO GO, Trent! You are so focused and disciplined, and your weight in pounds is just ONE definition of how much stronger, leaner, and HEALTHIER you have become. You have completely TRANSFORMED yourself; you have not just "lost weight!"

You are the cover guy for the word WOW! I can see why and HOW your steps towards becoming the best Trent there is has been successful! And by the way, thanks much for NOT using Roman numerals in your blog -- they always made me break out in hives when I had to deal with them on my fourth grade math quizzes one hundred years ago! They can stay in the dark, cobwebby closet forEVER, as far as I am concerned!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Turned the big 5-0!!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

For all of the hype regarding going below 200, hitting 195 and accomplishing the "191 by 9.11!!" self challenge, there has been one important number that I have forgotten about (even having already accomplished it).

Background. . . . .
It was the Summer 2004. I was visiting a college buddy of mine out in his hometown in Colorado. School was out until September and we spent a good few days just hanging around seeing the sites and having a good time.

We went to the local YMCA where my friend was a member to work out. I knew that I had gained a bit of weight, but hadn't weighed myself recently. They had a scale. Mind you this is in a state with a relatively high elevation so gravity isn't as tough as in other areas.

Basically, the scale was going to be far more generous that I was used to.

Even with that particular handicap, I still got the scale to cough up 249 pounds. Yep! 249! This was probably the lowest point of my life health-wise.

I'm sure if I had continued I would have easily come close to 260 at some point. I kept 249 my max. I decided to cut my losses (or gains). I stopped weighing myself at that point.

Today . . . . .
It is now the Summer of 2010. My midweek weigh-in during the week I finally fell below 200, I weighed 199. Exactly 50 pounds gone since six years ago.

I had already lost a chunk of that when I started SP.

Anyone who has lost weight will tell you how it goes far beyond just the physical. At the same time the physical is a big deal when we're talking that much weight.

Earlier this week at the gym I picked up two 25 pound free-weights and did Bicep curls as a symbolic celebration of my 50 pounds gone.

Unlike six years ago, it felt really great to just put the 50 pounds back on the rack and walk away from it when I was done.

It felt really REALLY great.

Wish me a happy 50!

- TD Out!

  
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MPALMER15 8/12/2010 11:27PM

    Happy 5-0!

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HICALGAL 8/11/2010 11:28PM

    congrats on hitting the big 5-0!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AZCUPCAKE 8/11/2010 6:00PM

    Happy 50, TRENT! It was very good for you to pick up that 50 pounds in free weights and FEEL how much less there is of YOU to lug around! Congratulations, these days you can be proud you are the TRENTDREAMER you always knew you were inside!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KRITKRIT 8/11/2010 10:44AM

    TD your attitude, your hard work, your commitment and your results are outstanding. I'm glad to have someone like you on my weight loss team! I hope one day I can be as cool and as neat of a person you are.

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TANNERS 8/11/2010 10:12AM

    TD, I know I have said it many times before, but I am so proud of you! I love your perspective. It often makes me take a second and look at my situation differently. You bring so much inspiration to spark and I don't think you even realize it.

Question though, once you reach your goal. Are you going to post a real picture of the new and improved TD, or are you really part of South Park? LOL

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YOGINI_JACKIE 8/11/2010 9:26AM

    Amazing. Congrats on the big 5-0 (When I first saw the title, I was like there is NO way he is 50 years old, hehehe), and here's to continued success!

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LIBBYFITZ 8/11/2010 8:21AM

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AKELAZ 8/11/2010 6:36AM

    TD - I wish you Happy Everything - including 5-0. emoticon

Your analogy is great emoticon - *just put the 50 pounds back on the rack and walk away from it * LOVE it!

Glad you're feeling as victorious as you actually are. You really do deserve it.
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PUCCIOLA08 8/11/2010 12:20AM

    How WONDERFUL! Way to go!! That's so amazing. When you held the 2 25 lb weights, can you imagine what our poor bodies have to put up with our extra weight? I can;t wait to get mine off for good!! Great job, you are very inspiring! Happy 5-0!!! :D

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PUCCIOLA08 8/11/2010 12:20AM

    How WONDERFUL! Way to go!! That's so amazing. When you held the 2 25 lb weights, can you imagine what our poor bodies have to put up with our extra weight? I can;t wait to get mine off for good!! Great job, you are very inspiring! Happy 5-0!!! :D

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PUCCIOLA08 8/11/2010 12:20AM

    How WONDERFUL! Way to go!! That's so amazing. When you held the 2 25 lb weights, can you imagine what our poor bodies have to put up with our extra weight? I can;t wait to get mine off for good!! Great job, you are very inspiring! Happy 5-0!!! :D

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PUCCIOLA08 8/11/2010 12:20AM

    How WONDERFUL! Way to go!! That's so amazing. When you held the 2 25 lb weights, can you imagine what our poor bodies have to put up with our extra weight? I can;t wait to get mine off for good!! Great job, you are very inspiring! Happy 5-0!!! :D

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LINDAGRAVEL 8/10/2010 10:55PM

    Happy 50th emoticon

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Today I Weigh 19................(long dramatic pause).......

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Goal 191 by 9.11!!
Last Week: 197.6
This Week: 195.8
(-1.8) Less than a pound from my 195 goal Yay!!

This past month has been really great weight-loss wise!
(Quick recap)
7/10: 202.8 (End of the "Bowling for Soup" days. I'll blog about this)

7/17: 201.4 (200.2 next days re-weigh)

7/24: 198.2 (Broke 200!)

7/31: 197.6 (Stayed under 200!)

8/07: 195.8

My goal when first starting SparkPeople was and still really is 195. Yes I have my 191 by 9.11 goal!! That is about trying again to meet a deadline goal. I set a goal some months back on that I quit on (195 by 5.29). Even if I don't make 191, I will not quit. I will not give up.

Heck, even if make the goal, I will probably go back up to 195 and not care if that's what my body would like.

Unlike all of my other goals which have been being in a new 5 pound range, this one is not about being below 195 (194.6/194.8). 195.0 or less is the goal and I am possibly a week away from it. This week I am going to continue:
* Eating out as little as possible
* Avoiding products High Fructose Corn Syrup (eating the versions with regular sugar)
* Heavy weight workouts
* 2-4 fruits per day

I may actually buy some vegetables this week. Probably not though. The weight workout, and the no eating out/HFCS thing are major changes. I'm going to stick to what I'm doing for now and hope that the trend continues.

Have a great weekend!!

- TD Out!

  
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KRITKRIT 8/10/2010 11:37AM

    TD Im so freaking proud of you! .8 .8 .8 away from your initial goal!!!!!!!

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HICALGAL 8/9/2010 7:09PM

    as i'm reading your blog...i'm feeling proud of you, smiling and in my heart...shouting WTG TRENT!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BYEBYEFAT. 8/8/2010 4:22PM

    Congrats! how exciting to be basically at your goal!! thats so awesome. :) and im interested to see if the "bowling for soup" blog is related to the band haha.

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COMPUCATHY 8/7/2010 10:41PM

    Keep doing what you're doing...it's working...and allowing those changes to get ingrained and become more of a habit will have the lasting effect...so you don't have to "do this again" in a few weeks. emoticon emoticon

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EYESOFERIN 8/7/2010 4:50PM

    Good progress! It's great that you are willing to be so honest with yourself, and that's got to be a big part of why you are seeing such progress. Keep it up!

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TANNERS 8/7/2010 10:06AM

    "I may actually buy some vegetables this week. Probably not though."

Love the honesty! So often we tell ourselves that we are going to do something when deep down we know it won't happen.

Keep up the great work TD! You rock!!

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YOGINI_JACKIE 8/7/2010 10:02AM

    Glad you're doing so well! Enjoy your weekend!

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T-ROY0019 8/7/2010 9:50AM

  Congratulations on the progress. I too have a goal set for September, mine is the 25th though and I want to be at 185lbs, now I'm at 194. Good luck

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From "Why Bother?" to "Why Waste?"

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

There have been several great things that have changed in my life physically and emotionally over the past year:
* Increased self-confidence
* Ability to do exercises that used to totally wind me or leave me in great pain.
* Increased attention from the ladies (w00t!!11)
* The ability to beat Don Flamenco in 15 SECONDS!!!!
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kx3tRs8IGno

But I say that one of the more simple-joy benefits, though, has been something that is so simple that "simple people" who are really simple are now called "Whatever Trent is about to say" people (until Trent actually says it, of course)

Getting Dressed:

When I was 225-250 pounds...
It was always about dressing well. The right shirt/tie/jacket combo. Looking well put together. One of the keys was creating vertical lines to hide/de-emphasize my weight. Sports jackets and dark colored sweater vests usually took care of that

Pants were also all about dark colors that would hide what I looked like physically. Wore the Jeans loose and at the waist to de-emphasize the gut. Sure, I would try to find clothes that looked modern , but most of them were too small, so I would buy them for "when I lost the weight"

It was all defensive in nature. I wanted to draw attention to the clothes and combinations, not my physical appearance. I wanted to hide my body behind good fashion sense.

Jeans and t-shirt? No, that look was for thin people.

Dressing for the weekends? Mostly dark colored sweaters or anything that would hide the gut.

**Basically it was about "dressing well", not "looking good" **
(looking good was totally not "in the cards", "on the table", "in the table" OR "on the cards")

Now that I'm 190-205 pounds...

I now buy clothes that make me look good. I still wear sports jackets and vests sometimes, but not very often(usually when it's cool out). More so because it goes well with whatever else I'm wearing.

I don't hide behind vertical lines. I wear just a button front shirt and trousers in the office.

On Weekends: Instead of, "Will this hide/de-emphasize my weight problem", I ask, "Will this make me look attractive to to potential first/second dates (or go with something else I have that already does)"

Since I don't really have a gut that hangs over my belt any more, my jeans wear slightly below the waist and shout, "This is a kid who has a good core and leg workout routine.

* Skinny jeans? No.
* Safe fat jeans? No way, Jose.
* Modern wash jeans that look smokin' hot and rockin' cool on me? Amassing a small army of them.

Jeans and t-shirt? Wear them to the mall with pride on weekends.

** Basically, it's now about wearing clothes that make me look good, not about hiding my body neck down.

Bottom Line: Getting dressed is no longer about hiding a body I'm ashamed of. It's about adorning a body that I'm very proud of.

When it comes to the thought of dressing myself to look attractive, I've gone from "Why bother" to "Why waste?"

Thank you, SparkPeople!

- TD Out!!

p.s. I guess that they are now called "Getting Dressed People". Hmmmm....

  
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AZCUPCAKE 8/9/2010 9:00PM

    So proud of you!!! So happy!!!! Congrats on your new clothing choices, but SUPER congrats on the way you FEEL in them since you look so HOT in them! YAY! emoticon emoticon

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MARYMAC45 8/6/2010 7:32PM

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TEENY_BIKINI 8/6/2010 6:49PM

    Look at you - ladies man. That is freaking awesomeness. I am happy for you. It must feel good :) You know, I never knew men thought about vertical lines, etc. Totally fascinating. And isn't it good to feel good in clothes - it is amazing how this detail in life takes on a new meaning.... Sweet freedom - but in the form of nice pair of jeans.

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Enjoy those jeans - you've certainly earned them. Cheers.

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STARGLADE 8/5/2010 11:24PM

    Yes.

That's all. Simple. Just YES.

WTG, you.


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-JENSSPARK- 8/5/2010 12:54PM

    A big YAY for jeans and t-shirts! Something that's so simple yet so elusive for so many of us.

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CALLIKIA 8/5/2010 8:57AM

    "Getting dressed is no longer about hiding a body I'm ashamed of. It's about adorning a body that I'm very proud of."

*love* that! Glad to see that you're really taking pride in the work you've put into this. Keep adorning that body you're proud of! I'm sure the ladies are taking some serious notice! *wink wink*

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EPIPHANYANGEL 8/4/2010 5:05PM

    emoticonto all you have achieved. emoticon

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HICALGAL 8/4/2010 3:45PM

    i can so relate to the 'why bother' days, especially knowing i was NOT the clothes i wore!! never want to go there again! these days it's (at the risk of sounding sooo vain) 'damn i look good!" and working on 'damn i look freaken hot!" ;););)

as much as i'm into clothes being rockin' cool and smokin' hot...it's always what's under all the fluff that leaves 'the' lasting impression...and confidence is soooo sexy!!...;) rock on with your sexiness! emoticon emoticon


ps..thanks for checking in. just more bad days than good...all part of the 3 Ls...letting go, loving and living. (((hugs)))

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KRITKRIT 8/4/2010 12:54PM

    "Will this make me look attractive to to potential first/second dates (or go with something else I have that already does)"

BOW CHICKA BOW BOW!!!!!!!

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TANNERS 8/3/2010 9:59PM

    I'm so glad to see you enjoying your success that you have worked so hard for!! Keep it up and relish in it.. I'm so happy for you!!

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