Saturday, August 21, 2010
Last Week: 196.0
This Week: 198.4
(+2.4) I am better than this.
I saw this one coming. My week was over cluttered, as was last weekend. I wasn't able to scrape together the time Sunday and Wednesday to prep lunches. Afterwork activities and get togethers made at home dinner prep not so feasible. I'm actually happy with the number in that my midweek had me slightly over 200.
While today will be a continuation, tomorrow we start a two week rally that will bring me below 195.
Years ago there was a football team that was constantly in contention for the Superbowl championship. Great quarterback, strong coaching, etc.. One year they were running an undefeated season and I remember personally being concerned for them. I was like, "If they don't lose a game, they will be over-confident because they will lose touch with their vulnerability." It's not that they couldn't go undefeated and win the big game, but the risk would be high.
Very late in the season, they had a very high profile network game against a very stunningly average team. This was supposed to have been a "the underdog team comes in riled up but still get squashed" game. I emphasize "supposed to". The underdog team beat them pretty soundly. I'm not a football fan and I didn't know the two teams that well. But from what everyone was saying, it was humiliating for the odds-on-favorite team.
That year they won the Superbowl.
A year or two later, they actually had an undefeated season and made it to the Superbowl against a team that they had barely squeaked by in the regular season. The other team came with their best game. The undefeated team was undefeated no more. I was not surprised.
Please don't misunderstand me, I didn't try to gain this week. I didn't throw the weigh-in. Deep down I was kind of hoping for one of those "Hail Mary" weigh-ins where you wonder if the scale is broken. And yeah, I would have loved for this week to have happened late next month.
At the same time, I needed a sobering loss like this one. As much as it stings.
And yes, I WILL beat myself up...just as that team's coach did when they lost the high profile game. I'm a dude. The "You know you can do better!"/"You're better than that!!!" pep-talk has a strangely beautiful tone when the one who can do better knows it. I don't need a pat on the back to spare my feelings. I need to tell myself the reality that I ate like I did when I was 225 and if I don't smarten up soon, I'll be headed back in that direction.
Bottom Line: I lost a high profile weigh-in this week. I played poorly and underestimated the challenge. I could have and can do far better. I'm better than a 2.4 pound gain.........
Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a 195 pound Superbowl to win!!!!
- TD Out!
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
There have been several great things that have changed in my life physically and emotionally over the past year:
* Increased self-confidence
* Ability to do exercises that used to totally wind me or leave me in great pain.
* Increased attention from the ladies (w00t!!11)
* The ability to beat Don Flamenco in 15 SECONDS!!!!
But I say that one of the more simple-joy benefits, though, has been something that is so simple that "simple people" who are really simple are now called "Whatever Trent is about to say" people (until Trent actually says it, of course)
When I was 225-250 pounds...
It was always about dressing well. The right shirt/tie/jacket combo. Looking well put together. One of the keys was creating vertical lines to hide/de-emphasize my weight. Sports jackets and dark colored sweater vests usually took care of that
Pants were also all about dark colors that would hide what I looked like physically. Wore the Jeans loose and at the waist to de-emphasize the gut. Sure, I would try to find clothes that looked modern , but most of them were too small, so I would buy them for "when I lost the weight"
It was all defensive in nature. I wanted to draw attention to the clothes and combinations, not my physical appearance. I wanted to hide my body behind good fashion sense.
Jeans and t-shirt? No, that look was for thin people.
Dressing for the weekends? Mostly dark colored sweaters or anything that would hide the gut.
**Basically it was about "dressing well", not "looking good" **
(looking good was totally not "in the cards", "on the table", "in the table" OR "on the cards")
Now that I'm 190-205 pounds...
I now buy clothes that make me look good. I still wear sports jackets and vests sometimes, but not very often(usually when it's cool out). More so because it goes well with whatever else I'm wearing.
I don't hide behind vertical lines. I wear just a button front shirt and trousers in the office.
On Weekends: Instead of, "Will this hide/de-emphasize my weight problem", I ask, "Will this make me look attractive to to potential first/second dates (or go with something else I have that already does)"
Since I don't really have a gut that hangs over my belt any more, my jeans wear slightly below the waist and shout, "This is a kid who has a good core and leg workout routine.
* Skinny jeans? No.
* Safe fat jeans? No way, Jose.
* Modern wash jeans that look smokin' hot and rockin' cool on me? Amassing a small army of them.
Jeans and t-shirt? Wear them to the mall with pride on weekends.
** Basically, it's now about wearing clothes that make me look good, not about hiding my body neck down.
Bottom Line: Getting dressed is no longer about hiding a body I'm ashamed of. It's about adorning a body that I'm very proud of.
When it comes to the thought of dressing myself to look attractive, I've gone from "Why bother" to "Why waste?"
Thank you, SparkPeople!
- TD Out!!
p.s. I guess that they are now called "Getting Dressed People". Hmmmm....
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