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Burnt out. Help Appreciated.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

There are two questions that haunt me. One perplexes me and keeps me in a complete tail spin weight loss wise. The other one is the one that I am more afraid of than anything else in the world.

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Question 1: Why exactly am I doing this?

SparkPeople has three clear pillars of success: nutrition, fitness and motivation. While it's easy to only focus the first two because they are tangible and clearly contribute to weight loss, don't underestimate the third. When you're falling down on diet and nutrition, it's the motivation that reminds you why you started and why you should pick it all back up and try yet again.

There in-lies a problem for me. I've never really thought this whole motivation thing through. I mean, I've thought about it, but never really came up with anything. I'm an accomplishment oriented numbers type of person so just accomplishing something usually keeps me going. But still. I don't have what it takes, motivation-wise, to keep trying to lose weight when I'm tempted or have a bad week.

But let's assume for a second I scrounged and found something to trick myself into being motivated enough(health, physical appearance, etc.). I choked the pounds off and made my goal weight. Alas, the second far more daunting question awaits:

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Question 2: So what?

Yeah, I went there. So what if I lost the weight? Would my life be any better or even different. So what if I'm healthy? Will my friends care about me any more or less. I have a desk job. My boss/company doesn't care if I'm healthy or not (nor should they), as long as I can help contribute to the bottom line.

And so what about my physical appearance? There isn't a human being on this planet who is less interested in being in a relationship than I am. So what if I were the most attractive person in the world. Who would benefit? Again, so what?

The only possible benefit might be a longer life and even that actually being a benefit is up for debate to me. Heck, I have a family member who has made it explicitly clear that my life so far has represented more of an ever increasing problem for them than a blessing. (I don't think harshly toward them. I hate to agree with them, but they are kind of right). My friends are all going to ultimately get married and I'm probably going to end up alone.

Frankly, I would rather only deal with a couple more decades on this planet than have a "long healthy life" (if God would so grant).

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Conclusion:
Basically I'm burnt out on trying to lose weight because I really don't have any really serious motivation to get to my goal. Once I get there, I don't have any real reason to sustain the weight loss.

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Question(s):
So, what motivates you? What is your reason for losing weight? If you're there,what got you there? What has kept you there? What difference will it make for you? What are your thoughts? Any insights are appreciated.

I love my SparkFriends very much. If I have been a blessing to you I consider that an honor worth fighting for, but the other 22-23 hours a day can be a very heavy burden.

  
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AZCUPCAKE 2/27/2010 11:11AM

    Okay, so you are both funny AND intelligent....I can only hope you don't give up on yourself EVER! The world is a better place because you are in it. It is that simple. And if that isn't motivating, I am a total idiot! Seriously, hang in there. I am responding to this blog posting belatedly, but it saddened me that you are struggling with this whole motivation issue. Don't overanalyze when you are tired, down, or feel broken. It is dangerous territory even when we feel strong and well-armed! Just know you are LOVED, even when you don't FEEL like it! emoticon

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HICALGAL 2/20/2010 9:54PM

    you aren't the first nor will you be the last to experience burn out. i've not only burnt out but crashed landed for long periods of time (6 mos, a year, longer)
until i felt ready to attempt to scale mt everest again, cause that's what it felt like most days.

motivation is overated to me. it gets you going but isn't enough to sustain one over a long period of time...especially if there's lots to lose. for me, i needed something more to keep the flame lit. a fitness goal kept me in the game. i know if i had to lose weight for a trip, upcoming event, etc...from experience, it won't happen.

what motivated me...fear....of experiencing obese related problems (heart
attack, stroke, diabetes, blindness, amputations, etc) in my senior years.

what keeps me going...ego and pride....of depending on or being a burden to
anyone...and a fitness goal to strive for, other than weight loss.

what difference has it made in my life...aside from feeling like a million dollars.....high self esteem, feeling worthy, deserving and loveable. when i wake up, i can't wait to get out there and give back what i've gained. happiness, joy, contentment, love...too mushy....that's how i feel.

excess weight not only kept me from my potential but from my true self...not anymore. hope you find your answers because hon...you deserve the best out of life...we all do!

peace out and within! emoticon

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DAMOTIVATION 2/20/2010 1:50PM

    It's hard to describe the "why" except to say that I feel so much better now. For one thing, I am stronger. I have more energy. I feel more like "me" now that I've shed the bad habits and extra weight. I don't feel trapped any more.

I guess I feel a bit more in control. At least about some things. I do get bored and back track on occasion, but achieving a healthy state of being and living in a more balanced fashion does feel so much better than where I was stuck before.

Think about how you are contributing to the "quality" of your life (rather than its duration). Our bodies can either serve or limit us as we age. Vanity aside, I want to be able to "go" and "do" for as long as possible. Figure this is my investment to make now.

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TOOTERFISH 2/20/2010 10:10AM

    Weight loss will not 'fix' anything other than your weight.

If you have a problem with self-esteem, you will still have a problem with self-esteem, unless that is being worked on too.

Life wont magically be better, funner, cooler, happier just by achieving weightloss... unless those goals are also strived for.

You want a better life, plan and work at it.
want more fun? add activities that Are fun to your life
more happiness -- well, define that, and do things to make you happy.

Goals are ever changing - Up until this moment (or slightly before you decided to write your blog) weightloss Was your goal.
and you Have achieved a certain amount of success with this focus --
now it appears you are saying Why? What for? because somewhere in your thoughts you HAVE reached your planned goals (even if it isnt the 195 pounds of your tracker)
You know what a lowering on the scale feels like. You know what getting into smaller, uber cool jeans feels like. You know how it feels to have better control of your eating, and overcoming tempting situations... you've celebrated these successes (Woot! Go You!) You were at those Wahoo Parties, 'cause you were the guest of honor.
so what's next?

I cant answer that for you -- but it would be something like... what Havent you experienced? (and please excuse my ignorance, i havent read all your blogs -- so this is coming from nowhere)
Have you ever felt what it's like to train for and finish a race?
Have you ever felt what it is like to create then execute a weightlifting regimen?
Have you ever felt what it's like to climb to the top of a very tall place and open your arms to the wind and sun?
What's the next Hoorah party you want to attend?

All those 'have you's' will have to be specific to you -- and whether those are things You want to accomplish. And depending on what you choose -- they can tie into the standing goal of getting to the ultimate number on your tracker (which you havent felt yet.)

Let your dreams guide you to What's next? Let your heart tell you What for? When you know, you wont be asking Why? Cause you'll be planning for your next Party.

Hugs and peace to you
-Toot

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MARENAMOO 2/20/2010 9:23AM

    What motivates me. I am ashamed of how I look and I avoid friends and social situations because of it. I am not that overweight and I know I am giving it too much power but still it takes up a lot of space in my brain and it keeps telling my brain - "brain, this weight is because you are worthless and we - each pound - are only confirming it by making you look worthless". Then I let everything else confirm that. So a comment from family, a poorly cooked meal, housework or paperwork that is left undone - keeps pounding it on the poor brain - worthless.

So I am sending a different message to my brain. Let's try some healthy living and see how you feel about yourself in a week or month. Some small strides to a much bigger goal than just weight loss. The goal is a fundamental shift in viewpoint.

I think this is what you need - a shift in viewpoint - the problem is you don't see the worth in that shift. Yet.. But who knows what a few pounds lost and a healthier body will bring. Maybe nothing but a longer life but it may bring something more worthwhile and you won't know unless you stick it out.

I think each person has value and something to contribute. The work and goal is digging down and finding it - even in ourselves. So stick it out and see how you feel then.

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MARENAMOO 2/20/2010 9:23AM

    What motivates me. I am ashamed of how I look and I avoid friends and social situations because of it. I am not that overweight and I know I am giving it too much power but still it takes up a lot of space in my brain and it keeps telling my brain - "brain, this weight is because you are worthless and we - each pound - are only confirming it by making you look worthless". Then I let everything else confirm that. So a comment from family, a poorly cooked meal, housework or paperwork that is left undone - keeps pounding it on the poor brain - worthless.

So I am sending a different message to my brain. Let's try some healthy living and see how you feel about yourself in a week or month. Some small strides to a much bigger goal than just weight loss. The goal is a fundamental shift in viewpoint.

I think this is what you need - a shift in viewpoint - the problem is you don't see the worth in that shift. Yet.. But who knows what a few pounds lost and a healthier body will bring. Maybe nothing but a longer life but it may bring something more worthwhile and you won't know unless you stick it out.

I think each person has value and something to contribute. The work and goal is digging down and finding it - even in ourselves. So stick it out and see how you feel then.

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SANDKARMA 2/20/2010 9:09AM

    You are doing this for you. Not your friends, your family, your future girlfriend, the world. For you. To honor yourself by feeding your body healthy, nutritious food. To exercise that body so that it runs well. It might help to consider the journey instead of the destination. Yes, one day you will reach your goal weight. Then you will have another goal and that goal will be to continue to live the best life that you can, by making healthy choices for yourself. I know that in my life the healthier I am, the happier I am. As you get older you will appreciate your body and what it can do for you much more, believe me!

So, to answer your rhetorical questions of who benefits, you will. You will feel better and look better. So when you do look in the mirror the person looking back at you will smile and say "thanks for taking such good care of me!".

I hope this helps a little.......

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MSEMMASNANA 2/20/2010 9:00AM

  Well, the most important reason I think is that you are responsible for yourself and valuing oneself is key to motivation. If I am worth it than it is important to be doing this. It is far easier to give in to mindless eating with a disregard for what I am putting in my mouth. Today is the first day of the rest of your life, treat yourself as a valuable asset to this world, you know you are. emoticon

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My pants WILL fall off!!

Monday, February 15, 2010

OK, so when one wonders where one should wander for only the worst dietary advice from the most nationally/internatioally renoun paranoid person, one need wander no further than...........Kevin!!!

That's right Kevin Trudeau. Author of a series of books that "THEY" don't want you to know about. You know, "They". Those evil doctors and pharmacists. Yeah, I notice none of his homeopathic advice involves tin foil being worn over one's cranium. "They" probably made him forget to mention that one.

That being said, I have a weekly ritual where I go to the library and take out a random diet book, usually trying to find one even more stupid than the previous week's find. I flirt with the poor librarian who is checking me out (checking me out from a "letting me take out book" perspective, not actually "checking me out"). I joke as I bring each passing book to the counter that there is "NO way that this could POSSIBLY fail". The librarians usually get a chuckle out of it. I Haven't been maced yet

So I happened accross Kevin's "Natural Cures "THEY" Don't want you to know about" (Updated Edition: 5c0r3!). In it, he has a product recommendation for Organic , Unrefined, Virgin Coconut Oil. He calls it a weight loss secret. shhh. Regarding it, he says the following:

"Oh, and here is a major side effect: If you are overweight, you will probably lose ten pounds!"
(yup, with an exclamation point. You know he's serious.)

But Wait, there's More!!!

"When I started taking this within three days all of my pants were falling off. This happenned in just three days. I didn't get on the scale, so I don't know how much weight I lost, but all of my pants were falling off. They were all too big in just three days. I couldn't believe it. Try it then write me with your success story"
(p. 453)

Well there you go:
* Kevin: 1
* "They": nada

So, of course, I've bought the coconut oil and have started putting it on my toast twice a day instead of butter. Don't tell "They".

While part of me is really excited at the prospect, another part of me is afraid. What if it doesn't work? What if my pants just continue not falling off me!!??

Even that doesn't scare me half as much as when I follow Dr. Kevin's fiat to write him my "success" story. The IM session might go really poorly:

(imagination sequence begins)
TD: zup dude
KT: nomuch dawg
TD: pntz no fall!!1
KT: ??
TD: i trid the ccoil n my pants didnt fall
KT: OMG ur a tard
TD: imnot a trd, ur a taRD
KT: sthu ur stupid
TD: u suk
KT: oya? ur suxor 2d m4x0r!!!!!11
TD: =:P
KT: wutevr!!
TD: ...
KT: lol
TD: lol :D
TD: bff?
KT: sur d00d
TD: ok by
KT: l8r
(imagination sequence ends)

I'm sorry you had to witness that.

Wish me luck....unless you're "They" (if you're "They", b3..... j34lou5!!!)

-TD out

  
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SWOMIC 3/1/2010 6:55PM

    lol, emoticon

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TSEWARD 2/17/2010 6:03PM

    I love it! I think I say that every time I read one of your blogs, but it bears repeating.

I too revel in picking out a new diet book each time I go to the library. Except I would always cringe and want to disappear...especially when I took out the 'binge eating' book. I don't know who hires our local librarians, but they are all waifs. Delicate, fine boned, soft spoken, and worse than all of that...really nice. There are a few regular folk i have known for a while that I could check out a book on pooh and not feel weird. Oh to approach life with such a sense of humor!

I have had a bad cold all week, haven't been to work since Monday, and ankle surgery was postponed. I haven't had much energy to waste on being disappointed...trying to get better first.

Maybe I SHOULD start getting a flu shot...might be something to it after all.

Sending you safety pins and a really cool pair of spongebob squarepants to wear, so when your pants fall off you will be styling!
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YOGINI_JACKIE 2/16/2010 8:06AM

    First of all, I was laughing so hard at this image of you approaching the circulation desk. You have a real knack for writing, so hopefully it's something you do as part of your job or for fun. Otherwise, I am expecting you to publish your memoirs one day, hehe.

I actually have heard good things about coconut products, but I am always skeptical about claims that you will drop 10 pounds overnight. But here's to your experiment!

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HICALGAL 2/15/2010 11:15PM

    i heard of ccoil years ago by vegan drs on a radio prog. an example of a wife cooking with it and hub lost weight. never tried...2 good 2b true...but you may have just switched me over. interesting to see if "were falling" continues.

keep up the humorousity! emoticon

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DAMOTIVATION 2/15/2010 10:12PM

    This post is screaming for a rousing rendition of "Pants on the Ground" -- however, I will not go there.

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BURGHGIRL 2/15/2010 9:36PM

    I am dyin.....funny sh!t man. Good luck with the oil ;-)

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SROBBINS02 2/15/2010 8:11PM

    Dude. Or my duck. I don't think we have Kevin here, but I wish we did... we just have an annoying shouty lady called Gillian McKeith who likes mung beans faaaar too much. And I don't know about pants, or trousers as they are properly known emoticon but I do know that you rock my socks.

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BILBY4 2/15/2010 8:00PM

    Haha! I'm a habitual picker-through of the bargain bins outside bookstores...methinks diet fad books just go straight from factory to remainder and never actually touch the shelves! Amazingly crazy advice out there. The last book I saw claimed exercise was bad for you and would harm your weight-loss efforts...wth?
Good ol' Kevin! If he was Australian we probably woulda made him Prime Minister by now.
Great blog.
Alan

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STLRZGRRL 2/15/2010 7:20PM

    Let me no when ur pnts fll off...

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And the Countdown Begins: 14 Pounds to Go

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Last Week: 210.8
This Week: 209.0

I am 14 pounds away from my goal. It's becoming even more real. It's gone from "Wow, I'm actually losing weight" to "Wow, I'm not all that far from my goal" to "Wow, it's just a matter of time".

I've found a good kickboxing class to add to my Pilates class. I'm going to slowly build up a good repertoire of fitness classes.

I've started upping my walking, which means I'm hungry more and eating more (and by proxy, my weight loss may slow a bit). Boy, I remember when this used to bother me.

Now it's like, "dude, I've changed my routine so I'm going to be hungrier. Meh"

To paraphrase Garfield Arbuckle: "They say in times like this you should fight eating more. I say, "Why fight an old friend?".

I'm going to focus on upping my fruit consumption and lean protein to offset the calories. If not, I'll just ride it out. "Whatever", I say. This is freedom

Have a great weekend!!

  
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HICALGAL 2/15/2010 5:59AM

    14 lbs from goal?? enjoy the ride...victory is sweet! emoticon

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DKAB55 2/13/2010 10:29AM

    I'm excited for you and a little envious as well; I cannot imagine what it's going to feel like when I'm 14 lbs away from my goal...
I agree whole heartedly with the comments below, you are a motivating example of the power of positive thinking....or the "upward spiral".
Take care my friend,
Deni


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TSEWARD 2/13/2010 8:44AM

    Great 'tude, man. You are on a roll. I watched the boy band, it was fun. A coworker came up behind me and said "what are you watching? Where did you find that?" I think he was a mite jealous he didn't have a cool boy band to watch......

I enjoyed your blog yesterday as well. You are a motivating example of the power of positive thinking....or the "upward spiral".

Always enjoy your suggestions and apply them with glee. You are a great help and encouragement!

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YOGINI_JACKIE 2/13/2010 8:26AM

    Love it. It's so awesome that you're so close. And nice work spicing up the fitness routine. I LOVE kickboxing--it's a great way to take out your aggression when you're having a crummy day. Definitely keep us updated on how it goes.

Keep it up!

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YOYOMATT 2/13/2010 8:11AM

  You're right - why fight the hunger? The better shape you're in the more your body requires a good amount of fuel for the day. Trainers will tell you that world class athletes eat A LOT of food. It's just a) what they eat and b) how much of the bad the eat. Athletes don't eat like mice. They eat a lot of protein and carbs. Those are the things people "dieting" tend to avoid but really they're great for you if you're working out and in shape.

Congrats to being on the right path! Good luck hitting goal.

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IMFIT4ME 2/13/2010 8:04AM

    WAY TO GO!!! this is VERY exciting news!!! Here I am - CHEERING YOU ON - ALL THE WAY!!! YOU CAN DO THIS THING!!



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The Power of Negative Thinking (Part II): Slacking

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

I am racking my brain for an actual goal that I have met since starting SparkPeople that has been more than a two day affair and frankly nothing is coming to me. Let's recap:
* I gained weight my first week on SP.
* Spent 7 weeks trying to lose a grand total of .6 pounds to get below 220. Several times saying "This is the week". Went under for 1 week and then immediately flew back above for three.
* Have given up chocolate at least 3 times. still eating it.
* Decided to lose 10 pounds in 10 weeks on a challenge. Didn't lose 10 pounds. Not even close.
* I set a 1 month goal to eat Cheetos every day and I even screwed that up. Yes, you read that right: I wasn't even motivated enough to eat Cheetos.

Yet somehow I'm losing weight. Selah.

Being a young 2000's slacker type male, I'm constantly surrounded by other slacker broheim type rlfs. It turns out that much of the advice that they've given me both explicitly and implicitly is actually what works. It's advice that I am going to start taking.

You see, there are three motivators for a slacker:
1) A rigid program/safe situation: When I was in college, I played a c**pload of video games. There were certain ones that I could beat with my eyes closed. If I had an exam, I crammed for it. I made sure that I got the grade, but I put as little actual effort as possible to do so. I certainly wasn't going to sacrifice my free time anymore than necessary. I attended lectures and took notes so I didn't have to read the text books (Hint: the books don't write the exams)

One of my friends was an artist who often had to spend 6 in class hours per class and many more outside for projects. a mutual friend of ours was all like "you work so much harder than him." and I was like, "dude, not even close".

I wanted to graduate with top honors from college and I figured out how to do it with as little effort as humanly possible (I was a B- student in high school). It drove certain profs nuts, but give the dreamer his due. I graduated with said honors. I knew the system. I worked the system. I politicked when necessary. I made it so.

2) Only if it feels good: I had a friend in the early/mid 2000's who just couldn't hold a job even if it had handles and was handcuffed to him. He hated work. Lived in his parent's basement (I can only aspire to such slackerdom. I cried when watching "Failure to Launch". SJP is still cute, imho). Not the early-to-bed... type.

Yet, up until a recent ankle injury he was 6'0" and weighed 165 pounds. Why? Because he likes (no loves) to run. Unlike employment, it took a doctor's orders to keep him from running. In the last 3 years, he actually found a line of work that he really likes. It is fulfilling to him. It's now something that keeps him spiritually alive.

3) Nowhere to go but down: You see when failure is free it's an easy price to pay. When I was 249 pounds, pretty much any token healthy thing I did was a step in the right direction.

Another slacker friend of mine was telling me about some New Year's resolutions that he made. He mentioned no concrete goals and a very loose program. I started giving him advice on how to set goals and how to set reasonable expectations. He patiently waited until I was done and said "Oh, I'm not really bothered if I don't actually achieve the goal". Truly revolutionary. He's lost quite a bit of weight with relatively little effort.

Conclusion:
For me, it comes down to 2 with a little bit of 3. There is no rigid program with a minimal performance yield like in college. I need to find what I naturally enjoy doing and (as I've been doing) try stuff and fail at it until I stumble across something that works. Implement and repeat the process.

It comes down to motivation. I'm going to find healthy foods that I enjoy eating and fitness classes that I enjoy taking. No more "I'm going to lose x pounds by random date". No more, "what if I fail?". Remember, a ship at the bottom of the ocean can't sink.

All slackers, if you're with me stand up and shout.

(slackers look at Trent apathetically)

Alright, slackers if you're with me stare at me apathetically and say "dude" or "meh"

(slackers mumble and continue to look at TD with blank facial expressions. An occasional "meh" is uttered)

I think we've had another breakthrough!!

  
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HICALGAL 2/13/2010 5:49AM

    this is one time, i have nothing to say (i'm thinking out loud) as i am not a slacker...BUT i am your supporter...so with that thought going thru my mind...congrats on another breakthrough! emoticon

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SROBBINS02 2/11/2010 8:11PM

    Dude! (But I always greet you like that. Not that I'm a slacker. Um, yeah. Meh.) Quit being so hard on yourself... you may not be down every single day, and you may not have sworn totally off chocolate (seriously, what sane person does that, really?) but you've moved downwards. You're wearing your hot jeans. It's happening. Meh to rigid rules, and bring on slackerdom :)

Slackers unite! (or... be too lazy to do so, but be generally welcoming to the idea of being vaguely against hard work and rigidity) emoticon

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DKAB55 2/10/2010 8:50PM

    "Dude" I understand your plight...and this really scares me!
I've grabbed on to your tail wind and along for the same journey...this makes more sense to me; not all Oleg Cassini's are created equal. We all need to find what works for us...not a one size fit's all thing; if that were the case we'd all be tall bronze beauties!
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The Cassinis Fit!! (Update)

Monday, February 08, 2010

Original post: Saturday, November 14, 2009
(Update at End)
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Two years ago when I was 20 pounds heavier, I bought two pair of Oleg Cassini jeans. Yeah, I called good ol' Oleg and ordered me some. The conversation might have gone something like the following:

(imagination sequence begins)
Oleg: (picks up phone )Hello?
TD: Oleg! Baby! Wassup!?
Oleg: Hi loser, what do you want?
TD: I need Jeans and I need them hasta la chop-chop-snap-snap.
Oleg: OK, let me get your measurements. What's your waist?
TD: 38
Oleg: (snickers)Is that in inches or feet?
TD: Oh, Ha ha. You're funny. Inches.
Oleg: Wow, what are you going to do? Stop eating for two years straight?
TD: Shut up, man! I can fit into that. Just send them when you're done.
Oleg: OK. Say, what's that chomping noise? Are you eating baco...
(TD slams phone down)
(imagination sequence ends)

Yeah, that's exactly how my purchase went (*1).

So anyway, suffice it to say neither pair fit. One had the faded-front look with a 7 for all mankind type design on the back pocket. The other was a pair of the pointy flapped back pockets with a metal button. The former was so tight, my back almost went into spasms after 30 seconds. The later simply wouldn't close even with gut totally sucked in. I chose not to return them because I figured that they would fit on that someday when I finally lost enough weight.

Well, two years and 20 pounds later, I am proud to say that I wore the faded-front pair all day today and they felt good. I even wore them outside of the house. I am really excited. I have a new pair of jeans and they look really cool. Anyway, don't ask me why I felt the need to share this (*2).

- TD out
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(*1) Or maybe I found them cheap at Marshall's. Definitely one of the two.

(*2) Oh, OK, you can ask. No big deal. I may not have a great answer though.


** Update: I wore the other pair, the ones with the flapped back pockets yesterday. They don't fit great, but I think it's more the general fit of the jean than the waist. My sense is even if I lost another 10 pounds, they will still fit awkwardly. **

  
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SCORBITT 2/10/2010 9:48AM

    congrats, its so great to get into what you want!!

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YOGINI_JACKIE 2/9/2010 9:12PM

    Awesome.....love the blog, and what an achievement! Just keep rockin it! :)

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DMOMMYOF3 2/9/2010 2:20PM

    thats great! way to go

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BESSHAILE 2/9/2010 6:47AM

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Oh that is SUCH a reward! Congratulations!!!

And you can just call up o'l oleg and tell him Yah Yah PBBBBT.

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TSEWARD 2/8/2010 11:12PM

    Ah! Fitting into a favorite and previously unattainable pair of jeans..Sweet Victory!
congrats on your hard work paying off. thank you for your suggestions on overcoming sugar. focusing on adding good stuff instead of taking away sugar is much more positive. And one small step at a time. Why must I always fall back into "all or nothing" thinking?

You have made such progress. What a great day celebrating in your spiffy AND comfortable jeans. Definitely a 10 day.

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DKAB55 2/8/2010 7:07PM

    You got me laughing so hard that I lost my breath!

Seriously, write a book you're funnier than Erma Bombeck and Steven Right.
Love to read your blogs!

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SROBBINS02 2/8/2010 6:38PM

    Yay good for you!! Fitting into goal items is SUCH an achievement emoticon

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SHRINKING_MOMMA 2/8/2010 6:08PM

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