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True Confessions....(not AGAIN?)

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Okay, those of you who know me….know I am pretty OUT THERE (wacky-wise) and IN-YOUR-FACE HONEST….so this is my confession….lately I’ve been OUT OF CONTROL with my eating. Oh, trust me, I’m staying within my calorie range….BUT WITH THE WRONG FOOD GROUPS! Do you know how fast 1200 calories add up when you are eating homemade chocolate buttercream frosting??????? {{{{Snap}}}} whammy!

I don’t know about you, but as soon as I posted my last BLC24 weight…my subconscious (the little Me’s on my left and right shoulder… visualize them….one in a pearlescent gown with wings looking a bit like a Victoria Secret model and the other wearing a darling strapless form-fitting gown with RED cape and pitchfork) started arguing over me. The little red devilish one said loudly, “Hey Sister, It’s PARTY TIME….RELAX….you are on a break… Whahahahaha” The beautiful one in the pearlescent gown was saying, “Remember what happened during the 23/24 break? We are forming good healthy habits for always, not just for a competition!”

But, I couldn’t hear her.

I listened ONCE AGAIN to the rakish devilish one….and cannot believe I fell for the "OH YOU ARE ON BREAK" crap again. What is the deal with ME not understanding how the weight goes up? I mean really, I’m a reasonably intelligent woman. I know RIGHT from WRONG. I know how to eat right....really I do! SO WHAT IS THE DEAL?

My team decided to stay on the chat thread during the break and keep posting and weighing. Yesterday, I gained….really????? WAKE UP….WAKE UP…..WAKE UP! My life alarm was buzzing and I kept swatting at it, until I realized “HEY WHAT AM I DOING?”


I went to the gym (this is a normal routine for me) and I made a meal plan with healthy, beneficial foods and went to the store.

I feel like a child who has disappointed their parent. I’m the child, my body is my parent. I hear myself saying, “I’ll do better, I promise.”

Thank you for reading my confession. I’m telling you, my Spark Friends, “I’ll realize the error of my ways…I will do better, I promise.”

The consequence for my actions....losing the SAME weight over again. UGH!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

STAY39 4/19/2014 9:03AM

    We all have these ups and downs because it is hard to stay on track and we are not perfect. Just keep on picking yourself up and plugging away in the right direction and it will become easier and easier to stay on course. Don't best yourself up too much! emoticon

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ROCKNP90X 4/18/2014 5:10PM

    Despite your pain, I enjoyed reading your dialog. I have been there myself far too many times. I can so relate. You CAN do it!! You are so much more important than the crap food!

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CIPHER1971 4/18/2014 4:19PM

    I am not hearing that alarm at the moment - I know what I am doing, but I am trying to avoid doing the right thing.

Thanks for the reminder.

Have a great day

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BYEFATNANNY 4/18/2014 11:16AM

    Break's over, on to better things. And by the way, no more breaks, you can do this. emoticon emoticon

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SHARON7464 4/18/2014 10:23AM

    Hit the reset button.... We all have days/weeks that are more challenging than others. emoticon

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MOLLIEJEAN2 4/18/2014 6:26AM

    I think we are all there with you, I know I am. We can overcome that little emoticon voice and start listening to the little emoticon voice. Two more weeks and BLC will start, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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A-NEW-PAULA 4/18/2014 12:23AM

    The way I see it is we have a addiction and from what I understand about addiction is that relapse is part of recovery. Don't let the shame and guilt weigh you down! (No pun intended ha ha) If you learn from it then that is all that matters. It is how we learn, grow, and change. It is all part of the process. We want it to be one easy straight line down and for a few it is and they lose weight and keep it off and that is great but it isn't us! We have a lifetime of habits to undo and relearn! It is going to take a while and it will probably not be pretty but we can do it together!
Progress NOT perfection!!!

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STEPH-KNEE 4/17/2014 11:42PM

    That is so great that you are realizing this NOW and now in 2 more weeks when BLC 25 starts. That is half the battle. I had a gain this week too, and it wasn't a conscious "BLC is over I don't have to try" thing, but it was a subconscious thing. It is so easy to let things slide for any reason, and it just shows BLC is a great motivator for us. We have 2 weeks to at least lose what we gained so we can start BLC 25 at the same weight (or a little lower) than we ended BLC 24. We can do it!! emoticon

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MALAMI518 4/17/2014 8:28PM

    Why does it seem that the "good one" whispers while the "trouble maker" yells? I've had days like that, and I'm sure that I'll have more. It's a lifetime journey, so there will be ups and downs and days off track. As long as you get yourself back to healthier habits and keep working, you will succeed!

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AMARILYNH 4/17/2014 5:57PM

    You know one of the other BLC teams has this motto: "This journey is 24/7/365!" I think we should all adopt that motto - we aren't on a diet that has an 'end date' we are on a life long journey. I personally think its ok to have an occasional treat but we do have to watch them - for me, I can have sugar at one meal with no serious consequences, but have it at one meal three days in a row and my cravings return. Its just NOT worth it - I'm in maintenance and it is SOOOOOOO much easier to maintain my weight without those crazy cravings (the ones that urge me to eat though I'm not hungry.)

You have seen the error of your ways - so NOW is the time to turn that around!! Its only been one week - you have two more to mend your ways!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TRUNKJUNK 4/17/2014 2:39PM

I fall into the same trap every BLC break. I have got to learn how to break this vicious cycle. I can type that we shouldn't undo the progress we've accomplished during Round 24 but it's harder to implement it. All we can do is come up with a plan and work on working the plan.


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SIMONEKP 4/17/2014 1:34PM

    get back on track

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DEB62BIE62 4/17/2014 12:30PM

    Right there with you. I've been struggling too. I'm close to my year mark, and it seems like the closer I get, the more I struggle. I was so excited to be on this journey, and I enjoy the way I look, but things have been crashing down on me, and I guess I'm back to the bad eating habits. I'll encourage you, so maybe that will help me to keep accountable.

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BROWNSUGAR2828 4/17/2014 11:33AM

    I'm having the same problem and I will say this to both of us: WE ARE F.B.I. Agents and what is our motto? NO EXCUSES! WE can do this together. We WILL overcome and lose this weight! I have faith - in ALL of us!

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JERSEYGIRL24 4/17/2014 9:31AM

    I could have written this blog many times over, but you said it much better than I. We can do this!!!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 4/17/2014 9:00AM

    emoticon we have all been there trischa love but i guess i should remind you now before it is too late.easter isn´t about eating or food there is a spiritual aspect to it.maybe you can have say 1or 2 tops celerbratery meals(notice i said meals not days!)but the rest of the time you owe it to yourself to stay on track.i know you can do this.what is past is done and behind can´t change that.but what you can change is the here and now and therefore your future.remember the next choice you make is that a choice,your choice and because it is your choice that makes it a powerful make your choices count.also whatever choice you make weather good or bad own can do this love emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Love Letter to Trisia

Sunday, February 16, 2014

February 2014

My Dearest Trisia,

We’ve been together for quite a while now and many Valentine’s Days, but this one is truly special. I want you to know just how much you mean to me and I’ve noticed the positive changes you’ve made in the last year.

I admire you in so many ways, your strength and willpower to change things that would hinder us being together for a long time. When you decided to strengthen our heart and lungs, it spoke volumes of your love for me.

I’ve watched you become more confident in our skin. I marvel at your ability to learn new ways to cook, new exercises and your ability to see them through. You are so important to me and I will love you always,

All my heart,

Your loving Self

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DAS92687 2/17/2014 10:49PM

    emoticon on the new cooking and exercising habits !!
Wishing you much continued success :-)

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TRUNKJUNK 2/17/2014 7:55PM

    I just read your love letter and purely coinicidental that we both started our letter the same way.

Great letter

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STAY39 2/17/2014 12:31PM

    Awesome! Love it! I need to do this myself!

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BYEFATNANNY 2/17/2014 10:12AM

    Excellent! I'm proud of you! emoticon

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MOLLIEJEAN2 2/17/2014 8:31AM

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    Great letter! emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 2/17/2014 1:18AM

    love this love and i too have noticed how you have changed this last year,got more cofident and self are doing great trisha love.keep on keeping on. emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 2/17/2014 12:52AM

    Great job! emoticon

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20 Year Wedding Anniversary!

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

I have started this blog three or four times now and each time I read it before entering the words just don't do this milestone anniversary justice.

We vowed to respect and honor, to trust and love unconditionally and these are the cornerstones of our marriage.

He is the love of my life.

To US!!!! emoticon emoticon

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STAY39 11/13/2013 2:16PM

    I love this! And I totally get it! Congratulations and happy anniversary! You are blessed! emoticon

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BYEFATNANNY 11/13/2013 1:26PM

    Happy Anniversary, 11/11/13 was our 19th wedding anniversary.
Congrats. emoticon

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NHES220 11/13/2013 12:43PM

    Happy Anniversary! Quite the milestone!

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TIGER_LILY_613 11/13/2013 11:51AM

    Happy Anniversary ! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TAARON69 11/13/2013 9:41AM

    emoticon to you and the love of your life!

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MATTEROFHEART 11/13/2013 9:21AM

    Happy Anniversary!

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DISKATDREAMER 11/13/2013 8:36AM

    Happy 20th Anniversary!

emoticon May you be as happy today as you were on your wedding day!

Hope you are doing something extra special for this happy occasion.


Comment edited on: 11/13/2013 8:38:55 AM

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TATTER3 11/13/2013 6:35AM

    Congrats! Great thing to post.

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MARYBETH4884 11/13/2013 6:13AM

    Congratulations! This is quite an accomplishment! May you have many many more!

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WAY2GOCAT 11/13/2013 5:00AM

    Happy 20th Anniversary! emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 11/13/2013 1:28AM

    i think this is a great job and does justice to you both.hope it was a good one and emoticon here´s to many more emoticon

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JIACOLO 11/12/2013 10:58PM

    Happy Anniversary!

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VICTORY WILL BE MINE....(whahahahaha!)

Thursday, November 07, 2013

November 7, 2013 Day 4 of Phase One DASH Diet

I have been in a slump, pause or whatever you want to call it since I lost the 8 pounds in one week last round. It was as if my fat self was saying, "Ha, this is just a way did you really lose 8 pounds in one week." My new soon-to-be-healthier self didn't fight hard enough and so the old fat self won. And there I was in the on-again off-again saga that I have become so familiar with. However,

I’m tired of the “Groundhog Day” (movie) scenario of my life. I decided to take control (AGAIN) and began the D.A.S.H Diet Phase One 14 day (again). I started it on Monday, November 4 and am on day 4 today. It’s amazing what I did remember of this phase one and how easy it was to go right back to it. Why, oh Why, did I lose sight of what I wanted?????

Last time I treated this phase one as the kick start I needed to stabilize my metabolism and get the toxins out of my body. I made it the entire 14 days without any cheat and I felt great. So what happened?

The old fat self reared it’s ugly negative head and started berating me. My new soon-to-be-healthy self listened instead of telling it to SHUT UP! And….I’m starting it over again. I got so close to Onederland and then self-sabotage set in. I haven’t been in Onederland for so long, why didn’t I keep going? What is holding me back from success?

These are the issues that I am journaling about and trying to fix. These are the issues that if not corrected will keep me from my goals every time.

I took another step toward victory…I begin with a personal trainer next week to mix things up and with the DASH I am going to PLOW through this pause, slump, stall or whatever you want to call it and COME OUT ON THE OTHER SIDE.

VICTORY will be mine! You just stay tuned and see!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 11/8/2013 6:58PM

    love the new profile photo love.i know you will get there love and i will be staying tuned and waiting for the virtual party when you get to one der land.notice i said when not if.there is no doubt in my mind that you will get there. emoticon

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TATTER3 11/7/2013 9:54PM

    Just keep Sparkin'!!

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TRUNKJUNK 11/7/2013 8:20PM

    Tree yes you will have Victory because you're a Viking.

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MNDEBBIE1 11/7/2013 7:45PM

    I am in you corner cheering you on. You can do it.


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STAY39 11/7/2013 2:00PM

    Love this go-getter attitude! Pack your bags- you are entering Onderland for sure! Can't you just taste it! emoticon emoticon

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AMARILYNH 11/7/2013 1:24PM

    Don't beat yourself up - you are doing it NOW and that's all that counts! Weight loss is NOT easy - we have to keep our head as well as our body in the game!! You can do it - just keep your goals in front of you EVERY day - that's what it takes!! emoticon emoticon

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Thursday, October 31, 2013

Hello Spark WORLD.... I feel compelled to do a full confession.

I have been so "out-of-it" lax this BLC round and am ashamed that my weight loss hasn't been higher. But, I haven't gained it back, just pausing. HA HA Ha, just lazy more like it!

Last night we decided go home for Thanksgiving. That means the CRITICAL FAMILY EYES will be upon me. Yes, it's true I've lost 25-30 pounds since they saw me last but I WANT MORE. I WANT THEIR EYES TO POP OUT OF THEIR HEADS (gruesome, but fitting for HALLOWEEN).

Which means I have 26 days to get more FAT off and TONE and SHAPE my body MORE. Since this trip will include seeing my all-critical mother, it would be fitting to be in those Levi 515's that I can't button, while sporting a close-fit top rather than a plus size tent! Plus it's cold back home and that means more clothes than I normally wear, which of course adds to the bulk.

So there you have it, this morning I decided ENOUGH IS ENOUGH and I'm going to strictly go back to phase one and eliminate the processed foods. That seems to be where my downfall begins. I know some don't agree with eliminating foods that are triggers, but in my PERSONAL CASE, they have to be eliminated. I can't just have ONE....because ONE turns into TWO, THREE, FOUR, etc. I know where my faults lie and to bust through to the other side, this must be done.

I should be able to lose the belly fat and strengthen more of me in 26 days. I'm not saying that will be the ultimate goal, but I have to get off my butt and DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS PAUSE. This will be with no pills, surgeries, or wacky recipes, just good old fashioned sweat and, of course, tears.

The reason I am writing this is because I need your support and encouragement. I'm out here and sometimes I don't feel the LOVE! Sometimes my team just skips over my posts, so I'm taking my plea to the ENTIRE SPARK WORLD.


Okay, I'm ready.....................................

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EVER-HOPEFUL 11/10/2013 4:16AM

    oh trisha love.sorry you feel you are not getting the support from our team and as you know my computer has been down so am behind in my blog catching up and somehow when catching up on the blogs yesturday oversaw this tell me love how can i help?how can i be more supportive ?my love you have even if you haven´t picked up on it lately it is there .let me know how better to share iot with you.know i am here for youtake care and keep smiling.hugs,karen emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HMJ5053 11/7/2013 9:23PM

    Sorry to hear that you are not finding the support you need from your team.

First, remember that you are doing this for yourself. You don't have to please anyone but yourself. I think that if you work hard on the exercise and eating you will feel fantastic about yourself by Thanksgiving, no matter what the scale shows. Feeling confident, proud and strong will make you shine far more than any amount that shows on the scale. Hold your head up high and be proud of what you have accomplished. emoticon

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NAYPOOIE 11/7/2013 6:47PM

    Why on earth would anyone tell you not to avoid your trigger foods? Just to make it harder? Insane.

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AMBERLICIOUS88 11/4/2013 4:44PM

    Ah the ever present critical! I know ALL about that. Good luck sweetie, you got this!

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KAREN608 10/31/2013 10:34PM

    Sorry your family is critical, but I know if you hunker down, you'll be more toned ... and remember to do it for YOU, as that is only one day.

I think I'd get a spanx girdle like thing too and squish myself even smaller on T day too just to really freak them out with smallness. It'd have to be a full body thing and a compression shirt for the arms like runners/biker's use. I mean if you really want to shock them! Of course I am sneakier than most.

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MATTEROFHEART 10/31/2013 10:05PM

    What a great incentive to stay on track! I recently saw some of my family members who haven't seen me in months and it was so much fun to see their reaction to my weight loss!

I know exactly what you mean about the trigger foods! I am the same way! It is easier to not eat it all, than to try to stop once I start!

Good luck on your goals!!!

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TATTER3 10/31/2013 7:57PM

    Keep Sparkin'!!!

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NHES220 10/31/2013 12:24PM

    Good for you, that is some motivation! You have time to make some real progress!

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STAY39 10/31/2013 11:28AM

    I have so much to say. First of all you are funny and I love this blog. Second, I am sorry you have such a critical family. That is really lousy! Third, this is not the first I've heard someone say the BLC team ignores their posts. That is disheartening because from what I understand you put a lot in to those teams when you join. Anyway, Fourth and most importantly- their eyes WILL be popping out of their heads!!! I think you have already lost enough to cause this reaction but what great motivation to lose even more! How about 5 more pounds by thanksgiving? That is my goal and I am working hard! You can do it too! You will get in those jeans and walk in with your head held high! In fact, shop for a new tight outfit too, maybe something with a belt to highlight that waist. NO BULKY CLOTHING!! You've got this girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BYEFATNANNY 10/31/2013 11:28AM

    Good ol' hard Exercise and remember it gets easier the more you do. I suggest intervals and good ol' healthy eating. You know what to do, think of the reward at the end. By the way your mother sounds like mine was. Good luck, you can and will do this. emoticon emoticon

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MARYBETH4884 10/31/2013 10:28AM

    You can truly accomplish a lot in 26 day if you put your mind to it! Good luck!

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