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Monday, October 06, 2014

Trying to lose weight and be healthy has been and continues to be a constant war for me. I am guessing that my genetics and learned habits through the years have had unending issues with my efforts. I have worked very hard and lost about 50 pounds, but about a year ago, it stalled. This is with me exercising at a high intensity for an hour or more 5-6 days a week for a year and a half and being very focused on healthy eating. With that, I also got terribly burned out on my workout regimen and when spring came, I decided to move it outside where I could enjoy it more.

I signed up for a competative 5K (Boilermaker in Utica, NY) but in my effort to get fast enough to be sure and finish it in the time limit, I started having injury issues and ended up not competing. I slowed down and went back to power walking to deal with my injury. Now, I have gained back about 19 of the 50 pounds I lost.

Yesterday, I did a Color Me Rad with friends and had such a blast. Then, in their excitement they posted pictures. I was mortified with how huge I feel I looked in them. Others tell me it isn't as bad as I see it...but only I know what it should have looked like. In all this I am reminded that throughout all my ups and downs over the past 10 years of trying to be fit and healthy...Sparkpeople has always been there for me. It doesn't judge me, but when I use it properly, it tells me how it is. No sugar coating, but no criticism either. I know I can always use it to get back on track...or stay on track. The resources are there for me at any time.

I know there are people who have joined and lost their weight and maintained it for years and found it truly useful...but for those like me, it is more than useful. It is necessary.

What does my future hold? I have no idea, but I do know this....I am back logging all my food with honesty and hoping I can get my act together at the gym to get the weight I gained back off once again.

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ALOOGOBI 10/6/2014 1:03PM

    Welcome back! Most of us here have fallen off the Spark wagon at least once, so you are in good company. The good news is that you know that you did it once, and you can do it again.

I think keeping track of what you eat and how much you exercise is something everyone has to do, always, unless they want their weight to creep up and up. Some people seem to be able to do this unconsciously, but for me it has to be a deliberate process, and Spark makes that easy.

I wish you great success on your journey! emoticon

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I am accountable

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

I have been up and down so much in the past 6 months it is incredible. After losing my job and starting a new one in May... after getting burned out from 6 days a week at the gym for 1 and a half hours a day (for over a year and a half)... I decided to exercise less, telling myself that 45 minutes 2-3 days would be enough. I decided that tracking my food was no longer necessary since "I know how and what to eat now". But, I was wrong. 2-3 days was not enough. If I don't log, it is too easy to "forget" everything I have consumed throughout the day. And it was too easy to not notice the 20 pounds (of the 50 I had lost) creep back on.

But, the Doctor's scale doesn't lie. And Friday, I found out all those things. I also realize it is my own fault for sliding and that I did (deep down inside) know it was happening but didn't really care enough to stop it.

I have friends and acquaintances who tell me I am an inspiration to them...but I haven't deserved that lately... and I realize that is ok....but the fact that I haven't even inspired myself is more of concern to me.

So here I am. Back logging all my food, even though it takes a lot of effort. And, I am back to every day exercise (whether I like it or not). I must be accountable and true to my goals. Even if I don't lose any weight...I MUST stop gaining what I worked so incredibly hard to lose before. And, just maybe I can get my head in the game and get that gained weight back off.

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JLR080500 9/5/2014 8:57AM

    Good luck!

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MAMASLAW 9/4/2014 10:57PM

    I love you Bonnie......

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NETGYRL 9/2/2014 12:55PM

    Good luck to you! I am in the same boat. I lost a ton of weight and then gained a bunch back. I"m back again to try and stop the slide before I am all the way back to where i started. I totally understand where you are coming from. We CAN do this!

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nose to the grindstone

Tuesday, August 05, 2014

I haven't been on Sparkpeople doing my thing in too long a time. I have been exercising along, at least 3 times per week, but not to the extent that I was last year because I got a bit burned out and needed to get so that I enjoyed it again. I also, have been eating pretty well, but I haven't been tracking my food. And guess what? I have gained back some weight...too. Maybe 10 pound or so. But, fortunately, I haven't fallen completely off the wagon this time. Just kinda dragging my feet in the dust from the back of the wagon. But, this past week, my friend Sharon joined because of MY recommendation. So, I decided in my effort to support her, I better get my butt back in gear here as well. Maybe I can even get the little bit of weight that I have put back on off again and start my descent in weight once again.

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TREADIN4BSP 8/7/2014 11:50AM

    yes, Sharon! We CAN!!!!

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MAMASLAW 8/5/2014 5:24PM

    Love you Bonnie you are an inspiration to me.
We can do this!

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Muddy trail to my goals

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

I haven't blogged in a while because I haven't had anything I needed to tell myself. But, today I do. I have been back actively trying to lose weight and become a happier, healthier, and more energetic me for more than a year now. I had pretty good success losing weight through a good portion of the year, but the last 3 months have been tough. I still exercise at a high intensity 5-6 days per week and eat much healthier than I ever did before. But, I have been stuck at my current weight. I am not stressing too much over it because I did lose a good amount and am happier and healthier... but I want to do better. Since Christmas, I have struggled...not eating AS WELL (but still pretty well) and I missed a few workouts here and there (but did not fall off the wagon entirely). Last week I exercised 3 days instead of 6 and on those 3 days I really hated it. I was in a bad mood and had things on my mind that were bothering me to do with work and family. But, I knew I wasn't going to give up and I needed to push through it. Which I did. This week has started out much better. I had a good workout yesterday and again today. My mood is better and I am not worried anymore about slipping resolve. I am back at it at a decent intensity. This has proven to me that I really have changed my life. This is the longest stretch of committed exercise and healthy eating that I have ever sustained. I am proud of what I have accomplished and while I hope to still lose another 20-30 pounds...I am not going to worry too much if I don't. As long as I keep trying and maintain my new lifestyle.

The title Muddy Trail refers to the fact that when you are walking on a muddy trail, you may slip occasionally and sometimes you get stuck in the slows you down. But, you can't just sit down on a muddy trail and give must work at it and get to your destination....and that is what I intend to do.

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FRANCESCANAZ 1/26/2014 8:34AM

    Good analogy. I feel the same way. since before Christmas not so good, but I'm going to emoticon

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WIFE49 1/21/2014 11:37AM

    Good for you. emoticon emoticon

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Treating a Sweet 16 Hangover

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

This weekend was one of those overly emotional times in a mom's life that can and does lead to unhealthy choices. In my case, it was my youngest daughter turning 16. She had rsvp's from 20 teens who were going to be at our house. She wanted home made mac and cheese and pizza and chips etc. We got gourmet cupcakes (2 dozen). It was all great and good because I had planned my eating for the entire week with the knowledge that I would enjoy a cupcake as well as pizza and a little mac and cheese. What I didn't plan for was only 15 people showing up and there being a ton of left overs. emoticon

I froze the pizza and we had the mac and cheese for dinner again the next night. The cupcakes have been a small issue for me, but not too bad. Did I mention that my dear MIL dropped off an entire Birthday Cake as well? emoticon . The cake is still sitting on our dining room table (3 days later) unopened. I don't know what to do with it. I know if I cut in to it, I will end up nibbling on it until it is gone. My daughter doesn't seem to want any of it and my husband hasn't touched it either. But, I have done too well to open that "can of worms". So, it may end up in the garbage.

Anyway, this all leads me to my title. Sunday was the party and Monday I had to clean up and deal with all the leftover food. I truly felt like I was hung over. I should have gone to the gym and done a good workout...I would have felt so much better, but I didn't and ended up feeling down in the dumps all day. But on Tuesday, I picked myself up and got back to the gym and felt 200% better. I have no desire to eat the leftover cake....and while I will always want to eat the leftover pizza in the freezer.... I don't desire it enough to take it out and heat it up. I am feeling stronger and happier as the week goes on. emoticon

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1FEISTYMAMA 11/13/2013 4:54PM

    emoticon Isn't it funny how exercise can actually make us feel good? For so many years, controlling the food was way easier than getting in exercise. Now that I've stuck with exercise for a while I finally understand the idea of enjoying it. KUDOS to you for 1) seeing an obstacle coming, 2) planning for said obstacle, 3) loving your child enough to take on that obstacle for her, 4) getting back in the saddle so to speak!! You ROCK!!!

As for the unwanted cake.....take it to work or have hubby take it to work. Co-workers usually appreciate those things immensely. Let someone else worry about the extra calories. LOL

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RODGRODMEDFLOD 11/13/2013 11:23AM

    Sounds like you were successful in resisting temptation. I bring leftovers like that to work and just put them in the kitchen. People help themselves and I get rid of my achilles heel.

Happy birthday to your sweet 16 year old!


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