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Time to Re-Motivate

Sunday, January 31, 2010

I got this idea from the ladies on the 50-pound challenge team. I thought it might be a good idea to see what I come up with when I answer these questions...

1. Write all the things you love about yourself (these reasons should apply at your current weight or at your goal weight) And you know what, if you have trouble bragging about yourself, just ask us Spark buddies and we will tell you some of the things we love about you!

Hm..... this is hard for me. Everything that I think about myself is completely negative. I am trying to work on changing that negative self-talk, but it doesn't just happen in a day. So, the things I love about myself.... my hair, my legs and butt. I am a good listener and friend. I am intelligent. Hm... that's about it. Ha.

2. Now that you realize all the positive things about yourself at no matter what weight you are, write down some things you know you could do better or for the first time after you lose the weight. Make these your goals. These are the reasons you want to lose weight. Whether its run a mile, play with your kids longer, or walk into a room and know your sexy.

I know that I can work harder at my weight loss. I am an excuse maker and that is what is bringing me down. I know that I feel amazing after I workout. The energy and endorphins pumping through my body after I run 3-miles is absolutely amazing, but yet when I am at home, contemplating if I really want to workout or not, there is always some excuse. I know that I need to work harder to get down to my goal weight. (125 lbs)

3. Give yourself a timeline. Don't be too hard on yourself, like six months is only a chunk of time if you consider that the average human lifespan is like 77yrs. Stop taking things so seriously and make it a game. Make it one challenge at a time, one month at a time. If you don't follow your timeline exactly, readjust, look back and figure out what areas could've been done better and try again! That's the most important, never give up!

I have given myself 8 months to lose a little over 50 pounds. That equals about 1.5 lbs a week, but I don't want to stress out if that doesn't happen. I need to take my time in order to keep this weight off once and for all.

Well, that did motivate me a little bit more, but it also made me realize that I have a lot of work to do on my self-esteem which makes me a little bit more depressed. It is all just a vicious cycle. Blah. Hm... I think I will go run 3 miles now. Ha.

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    Excellent blog my friend. Your goals are reasonable. I'm wish you all the way! Love, Dawn

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LISALYNN1960 1/31/2010 3:47PM

    Great questions and a great exercise in looking inward! Thanks for sharing.


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DYNAMICDEB53 1/31/2010 1:53PM

    We all have esteem issues I think or we not be here, but that is one thing that is fun to really find good things about ourselves and yes write them down and then think about them and now there are more. Its a challenge, but I know there is so much more you will find.
I really like your plan for this month. regaining self esteem is a real part of this journey and needed.
Yes if you feel down get those endorphins giong, have a fun run and keep the happy feeling.

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EKKING 1/31/2010 12:11PM

    Go run! You'll feel much better. I did my cardio at 8:00 this morning - that's the earliest I have done it since joining SP and I am PUMPED! I think my family is going to kill me because I am so energized and they are still lounging in PJ's.

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Chapter 2- Focus (The Spark)

Monday, January 25, 2010

The second chapter of The Spark really resonated with me after I read it. Someone once told me that the two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why. It really got me thinking about what my purpose is in life and also my deep values.

These were the questions Chris asked:

What truly drives you?

Is there a clash between what you really believe and what you're trying to accomplish?

Are you working each day toward something that really matters to you?

It made me realize that the past 5 years of my life have been a complete run-around. When I turned 18, I went off to college about 5 hours away from home. I was excited to move on with my life. I had always been a very goal-oriented child and teenager. I was a 4.0 student, captain of the swim team and soccer team, plus a member of the honor's society. I always knew that I wanted to do something better. In my own little way, I wanted to change the world.

But, when I left for college, something changed inside of me. I no longer was organized or goal oriented. I hated going to class, basically I hated school in general. I had an extremely hard time making friends, and I didn't get along with any of my roommates. After 2 years at the University of Minnesota, I moved home and worked for a year before attending school here in Madison, Wisconsin. But, up until today, I have just been going through to motions of life. I haven't had any real goals that I have been shooting for. Yes, weight loss is one of them, but I think I was just doing it because I thought I needed to.

My whole outlook has changed. I want to find that old Andrea. I want to find my purpose and work toward that goal. At this moment, there is no purpose, there is no goal. I want that back. I need to spend some time going over what I truly value and believe, what I want out of my life.

It is going to be a deep couple of days, but I will keep you all posted. xoxo!

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DAWNWINS 1/31/2010 8:11AM

    Introspection is a great exercise.
Enjoy your day

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KPACE7 1/26/2010 9:03PM

    You are one step closer to your life's goals. emoticon emoticon

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LISALYNN1960 1/26/2010 8:47PM

    I pray God's blessings on you, Andrea!


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    I am so happy that you're finding yourself as you read THE SPARK. Bright blessings to you my friend. Love, Dawn emoticon

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MAMAKNITSSOCKS 1/25/2010 11:13PM

    Awesome!!! You will find yourself, and I think you'll like you alot!


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TARA925 1/25/2010 5:51PM

    This journey for you is not just about weight loss it's about lifestyle and life goal change. I'm so excited for you and if you need anything along the way, let me know!

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HEATHERL219 1/25/2010 5:25PM

    I am at the same point in my life right now as well. I'm 25 and I have no idea what I've done with the past 7 years, it's been a big run around. We can do this. :) If you need anything along the way, I'm definitely here. :)

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DYNAMICDEB53 1/25/2010 4:27PM

    Yes for mw too reading the Spark had some mark changes. It is a good time to take the time to get what you really want all straightened out in your mind. You will discover new things and know the path you need to follow will be there too.

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ONLY1TAN 1/25/2010 3:11PM

    As I read the Spark I keep making notes to myself. I was on the elliptical today while I was reading so I think that I will have to re-read because I wasn't able to make those notes even though I wanted to soo badly.

You will figure out what you want for your life and you will be set! Remember that your team is here for you during those deep days if you need us!

I keep forgetting that you are from WI! Next time I'm up that way we might just have to meet up and do something fun!

Take care! emoticon

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EKKING 1/25/2010 2:22PM

    That's great! Take a look at your life and figure out what you want! You have your whole life ahead of you after all!

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EA Active- 30 Day Challenge

Saturday, January 23, 2010

My boyfriend bought me the EA Active two days ago. I started it yesterday and decided to do the 30 Day Challenge that they offer. So far, I absolutely love it! In general, I hate strength training. My ADD is too bad to actually go to the gym and take the time out to work out each muscles of my body. The good thing about the EA Active is it tells me what to do! I don't have to plan what I need to workout, I am just going to follow the program and see what it says!

Today, I did some bicep curls, lunges, and some cardio running and tennis. I loved it. It kept me guessing what was coming next and it gave me something to strive for. Plus, I am sore! I did alternating shoulder presses and my shoulders are sore!! I like the feeling of knowing I did a good workout and I am doing something good for my body.

All in all- great investment. Plus, I just bought The Spark today! Super excited to read it! YAY!

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LISALYNN1960 1/25/2010 10:51AM

    Good for you, woman! I have wondered if that program was effective. Might have to get one now! I've been doing the Biggest Loser program for Wii. It is kicking my butt!! I am so sore on the rest days but it feels good. I haven't been sore for awhile! Guess I wasn't doing enough or something.

Glad you are back in the groove! Take care!


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TARA925 1/25/2010 9:39AM

    Great job!!! So excited to hear about your progress :)

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VAMACKGIRL 1/24/2010 4:45PM

    I have that as well, as YES it does rock, I am still trying to hate on Jillian, hahaha. I want to look into Yoga and maybe some dance workouts to mix it up!!! I ordered The Spark last week and I keep running to the mailbox, I am so excited about it too!!
Hang in there, YOU CAN DO IT!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EKKING 1/24/2010 9:28AM

    That's great! Keep us informed as to how it works. The wii system is on my "list" of things to consider and I love to hear anything about any of the games/workouts for it!

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LIFEGENESIS 1/24/2010 1:30AM

    Great job sweetie! Keep rocking it!

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/24/2010 12:58AM

    Yay! Sounds like you had a great day!

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 1/24/2010 12:42AM

    Great job! Your boyfriend gets a gold star for buying you this goody and YOU get a gold star for using it! Keep up the good work my friend. Love ya, Dawn emoticon emoticon

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+ 5 pounds! What?!?!?!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

I went to the gym today, feeling good that I actually got my butt there, but when I stepped on the scale, it had said I gained 5 pounds! 5 pounds!!! I knew that I had at least gained 1 or 2 because I had not been working out and really was not doing well with my eating plan. But 5 pounds?! I am not sure if that is right, but I have to be accountable to myself and say that I now weigh 173 and not 168 like I thought. That is the scale that I always use, so I suppose I will just stick to it.

I guess it just puts the icing on my cake. I am having one of those tumbleweeds days: where one bad things happens, and then another, and continues on and on and on and on. I got my medical bills for my gall bladder surgery, just about fainted. Got a 10 cent raise, but then looked at my medical bills again. And so on and so forth.

Maybe this sleep-deprivation is really starting to catch up to me. I try and try to sleep. I lay in bed for hours, then I get up and read or do homework to make me tired, but that doesn't work. I am just unsure of what to do anymore. I am being a Debbie Downer. I know and I am kicking myself in the butt simultaneously to writing this, but I just needing a venting session. I guess working harder, getting some sleep, and just keep on keeping on is my plan.

But 5 pounds?! Ugh.

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EKKING 1/23/2010 8:58PM

    Everyone has nice sound ideas you should listen to. I will add and hope that no one comes and bites off my head. When I feel insomnia-ish, I take a Tylenol PM. My doctor as well as my 80 year old grandparents doctor both said no problem, non habit forming, etc. etc. After all, it's just tylenol, with a little something to help you sleep. I take it about an hour before I need to be asleep and I'm out. The BEST sleep ever. Now I only use this a few times a year, on nights where my body aches and I know the ache or thoughts that are running through my head are going to keep me up. But it helps. As long as you have enough time to get 8 hours of sleep. So that's my non diet, non Yoga, non healthy advise! Please - no one yell at me. I'm saying for when you really can't catch up and need to.

I swear I haven't seen anyone losing weight this week. Seems TOM hits you and your SP friends at the same time. Ignore the scale. And make sure you are weighing in at the SAME time, in the SAME clothes on the SAME scale, or forget it! I weighed in at home one day a half hour after I saw a number I wasn't entirely happy with and, BOOM, half hour later, it was a whole pound lighter. Who knows. Crazy stuff.

Calm down. Remember that if you continue to eat well and exercise that it will all catch up in the long run. We all have bad weeks, bad days. I bet if you weigh in again in 2 days, it will say something entirely different.

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HAS_SPIRIT 1/22/2010 10:39PM

    I've been increasing my exercise and really watching my food...sometimes I think I have too much to eat, but this is what the PT tells me I need...I went up a bit too. I don't get it and it is very frustrating...I really wanted to be in the 160's by now and I am still stuck where I am. I was talking with the PT today about sleep also because I had literally no energy today...I could only push myself half as much as I do for him. He suggested going to Vitamin Cottage or Whole Foods and get some melanomin (sp?) He said it is an herbal relaxer and it is the stuff our brain produces right when you just started falling asleep. I haven't checked into it yet any further, but just wanted to bring it up to you...maybe it would relax you enough to get some sleep. Me, I came home and took a 4 hour nap and feel so much better...but I will need to stay up at least most the night to finish school work. I'll let you know if I give the stuff a try or if I learn more about it.

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MARINEMAMA 1/22/2010 6:41PM

    a lot of great ideas below...I am just sending u emoticon

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SLKIDDER 1/22/2010 1:27PM

    Since I started working out regularly last fall (started with 15 minutes a day and have worked up to around 45 minutes) I have never slept better. I used to take forever to go to sleep. Now I just fall asleep when my head hits the pillow. Maybe it would help to add more, shorter workouts to your days?

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 1/22/2010 11:19AM

    I have 2 suggestions and they help one another. 1. Keep going to the gym. If you can't get to the gym, workout at home. The exercise will help with relieving tension and stress, will elevate your moods AND will help you feel more tired and able to sleep. 2. SLEEP. Now, I have insomnia so I am completely familiar with NOT sleeping. The exercise will help, also try putting on some soft (maybe new age) music while you sleep, make sure it's dark enough, perhaps even a warm drink before bed (a nice herbal tea or maybe a SF hot chocolate). I honestly believe that the sleep is a big key. Exercise and sleep will help relieve your stress, help you FEEL more upbeat and cut those calories. Don't forget to track your food, fitness and WATER. Love ya, Dawn emoticon

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LISSA1976 1/21/2010 9:02PM

    I just had a suggestion I wanted to toss your way. I used to have real problems sleeping. What helped me was a DVD I found that was Yoga for stress. My brain just doesn't shut off sometimes. The DVD is only a half hour long and is at like a pre-beginner level. But after I do it, I am so relaxed I am yawning and my eyes are tired. I don't dare do it when I wake up in the mornings. ;) It is by Suzanne Deason and is available on Amazon, even as a download.

I am sure alot of the gain is related to stress. The body gets out of whack when we go into that mode. So if you can find a way to release it, the 5 pounds will drop off in no time. Just remember to stay away from the computer an hour before bed time. Something about the flicker of the screen makes the brain take a while to "reset" and return to it's normal patterns. Good luck to you.

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LISALYNN1960 1/21/2010 8:27PM



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KPACE7 1/21/2010 7:54PM

    Keep your eye on the prize. I have those times when my body grabs every calorie I take in and doesn't let go. Your body will catch up with your efforts. emoticon emoticon

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LEAVES1026 1/21/2010 6:37PM

    I'm currently having the same experience. I'm up 5 pounds in a short amount of time. But I know it's a combination of stress, lack of sleep, bad eating habits (as in, not consistent, late at night, not at all, then a lot). I think it will probably come back down once this time has passed. Just try to stay positive and take care of yourself!

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DYNAMICDEB53 1/21/2010 5:08PM

    Ok, first you are just too busy and I am sure that with not sleeping you are like on a roll the wrong way. STRESS is not being a friend, keeping you from sleeping and effecting your weight. You do need try to relax a nice bath or maybe some light yoga just to relax before bedtime. Right now you need to focus on just one thing to help you and that should be your sleep, the others will start to fall into place.
If this goes on a lot longer you night need to talk to a Dr or nurse, something else might and I mean just might be going on.
Take care and keep breathing.

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QUEST4CHANGE 1/21/2010 4:08PM

  Oh Ouch! Looks like stress is making you sleepless! Swear, that should only happen from happy making things like falling in love!!! LOL!

emoticon emoticon emoticonit always bums me too. R U close to pms time? I zoomed up 10 lbs in 10 days. It was a mind blower. Came back down 9, so 1 of it was from the dang pizza I ate when I was upset!

emoticonOk, destress ideas for sleep. get up, take hot bubblebath, fresh jammies. turn on light, write down what's bugging you or the brilliant idea so you can get it out of your system & forget it. turn on soft radio music and lay still/listen so you are resting even if not sleeping. the doc on tv suggested counting backwards from 300 in multiples of 3. takes concentration but is so boring you fall asleep. Personally I prefer thinking about the happy making things/times in my life... but that doesn't work as well if I'm having strong negative emotion. Usually I have to do something to decompress the negative emotion.... hence the writing it down part...

emoticonhang in!

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FOXYROXY13 1/21/2010 4:02PM

    don't worry about it ^_^ it could just be water retention or something. just keep working hard and that 5 pounds will be gone in no time

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ROCKIN_LIFE 1/21/2010 4:01PM


First, haha. I know I shouldn't laugh, but Debbie Downer? Hilarious! Second, it seems you have a lot of stuff on your plate right now. Don't beat yourself up for 5 pounds. The old you may have given up, but to the new you, it's just an excuse to work harder! Keep kicking butt and hopefully it will fall off!


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Sleep Deprived

Monday, January 18, 2010

I don't even have an excuse as to why I have not been sleeping. I get home from work at 9:00 in the morning and then I lay down, but I never actually fall into a deep sleep. Rather, a thrash around and have crazy dreams. Now these are not pleasant dreams, but rather horrific nightmares that get me all up in a bundle. I wake up sweating and terrified that my nightmare actually happened.

This is new. I have always been a good sleeper, ever since I was a baby (as my mom tells me! So much better than my brother emoticon) So, I am not sure what to do. Maybe I should go see the Doc, but at the same time, all the Doc ever does it put me on meds and sleeping meds are the last thing I want to take.

Maybe something like yoga or meditation to get my body relaxed will help. All I know is need some sleep and I need it soon! It makes my days (and working out) hell!

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HAS_SPIRIT 1/20/2010 7:18PM

    I am usually notorious for not sleeping well...most the times I wake up every other hour and if I have had 3-4 hours, then I can't get back to sleep. I am really bad because I usually keep the TV on during the night and sometimes I think it hinders me. But in the last week or so, even though the TV is still on, I have been sleeping so much better. I don't know if it has anything to do with working out consistently with the PT or what, but actually I have had a few mornings that I don't even want to get up because I have slept so sound. At one time I was on meds, but they didn't do much for me and I really don't like to take them. I hope it gets better, because those nasty dreams can be very disrupting.

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LISALYNN1960 1/19/2010 2:44PM

    That stinks!!! No sleep is a huge problem! I assume that you work nights? When I worked that shift years ago I never slept right. Felt completely exhausted and ill the entire 5 years or so that I was on that crazy schedule. Of course, having 3 small children at home didn't help the sleep pattern any either. I feel for ya!

I would try to stay away from the meds - Rx or OTC - if I were you. I think they just make it worse over time. Exercise, yoga, stretching before bed... those kinds of things might help. Hope you get it worked out! No sleep PLUS nightmares is a recipe for an unhappy and unhealthy camper.


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CIANNER 1/18/2010 11:24PM

    I can relate. I was having the same problem a couple years ago. Not getting enough sleep makes everything worse.

I went online and found some suggestions as far as do's and don'ts I incorporated them into my lifestyle and now I'm sleeping good (no drugs). I've found exercising enough to relieve my stress (but not immediately before bed) really helps.

Good luck to you!! emoticon

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