Sunday, April 08, 2012
Lately I have noticed something interesting....I have lost my sweet tooth. There was a time when I had at least 2 or 3 sodas a day and always had sweet snacks in the house and usually bought skittles, star bursts, etc. in the grocery check-out line. However, I was reading an article today on which egg is "better" for you - Cadbury or Reeses - and I realized it has been 7 months since I have had any soda (even diet); I have no sweets in my house (except what I just bought for my nieces/nephews/daughters for Easter) and I haven't even thought about buying any candy in the check-out line. In fact, I more often find myself looking at the nuts, chex mix etc. usually to see the fat count / calories and put it back.
Now, that doesn't mean that I have given up all sweets. We order dessert occasionally when we go out to eat. I even make desserts when we have company over (usually something from Spark that has less sugar and fat than a normal recipe). I still have ice cream (usually Skinny Cow) at least once a week.
The difference is I don''t CRAVE these things any more. I don't think constantly about what we have in the house - our last box of Skinny Cow sat in the freezer for 2 or 3 weeks because I forgot about it. Last night when I was stuffing Easter eggs with candy I didn't even eat a single piece. And last night when my hubby and I split a Cadbury egg, I found that I didn't even enjoy it as much as I used to. It tasted too sweet - which for the old me is saying something!
I'm not sure if resisting the sweets for so long has finally killed the cravings, or if giving up the sugary soda made this possible. I do no that this is one more small change that will help me meet my goal!
Tuesday, March 06, 2012
Someone asked me the other day what are the things that make me proud of myself. Normally I wouldn't have thought I had all that much that had happened recently. Sure, I have a master's degree and a great job. I have 2 beautiful daughters and an absolutely heaven sent husband. But, really those are things that I have had for awhile now. What have I done recently....
I thought and I thought and really it's the littlest things that make me feel the best about myself. For example: this weekend I went the entire weekend without snacking between meals AND I drank my 8 glasses of water both days. Like I said, both of these may sound trivial to many people but to me they mean a huge willpower battle was won.
Yesterday I got stuck at work. My plan was to go to the gym after work, then pick my mom up and go to my 5 year old nephews first ever t-ball game (we call it herd ball at this age) then go home and eat dinner. Well, since I was so late leaving work I almost didn't go - in the past I would have rationalized that I really didn't have time - what good would 15 - 20 minutes do? BUT, yesterday I knocked out that little devil on my shoulder telling me it wasn't a big deal if I didn't go and I went! I did 15 minutes (400+ calories) on this new elliptical trainer (cross between an elliptical and a stair steper) and then I spent 10 minutes learning how to row and signed up as part of a team for a rowing competition next week. I felt SOOOO good when I left the gym. (Take that little devil!)
Today, my little win was simply walking past the candy jar my friend keeps on her desk without taking a piece. Usually I take a piece and one becomes 2 and so on and so on and so on.
BUt, I joined the sugar challenge team and I am trying to avoid sugar at all costs. For me, that's one hour at a time --- but so far I've gone over 48 hours without any candy/sweets/etc...
Little wins over time turn into big changes which will get me to my goal!
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Right before my cruise last week my daughter, SIL and 4 year old niece made the hour and a half trip to our nearest outlet mall. I desperately need new professional clothes for work and I hoped to find some new things to wear on my cruise.
I don't know why I subject myself to these trips because I absolutely HATE shopping for clothes. But, I had put it off for as long as I could, and I was hoping (maybe dreaming, or maybe I was just delusional) that since all the pants that I currently wear to work (size 22) are practically falling off me, that maybe, just maybe the trip would be fun because I would be fitting into a smaller size and would have more, cuter clothes options.
I should have known better. After driving all the way there, we located the outlet mall map and found that there are exactly 2 stores in the entire complex that sell women's sizes. One, Dress Barn is my usually store I shop at although I haven't liked much they have had to offer.
This trip had me reflecting on some of the reasons I hate shopping to begin with (yes. my family say I am adopted and I know as a teenager I was the only girl I knew who didn't like shopping - and that was back before I put on weight).
First - why oh why am I somehow always BETWEEN sizes? How is this even possible that every time I go shopping one size is too big while the next smaller size is just a smidge too tight to be comfortable? I don't get it but yes, this trip was no change. I started with the size 20 pants and they were too loose - they stay up which is better than what I am wearing now, but since I am finally in a place where I am consistently losing 1 - 2 lbs a week (unless I go on a cruise) I don't want to buy something that is already loose because I will have to subject myself to another shopping trip too soon. The size 18's fit everywhere but the waist. I could button them, but they were definitely tight, I have visions of bending over to pick something up and having the button pop and fly across the room and hitting some CAPT or ADM or other such embarrassing thing.
Second - why oh why do manufacturers insist on wide leg pants? I hate them! I already have wide legs I DON"T want to make them look any wider by wearing twice as much fabric around them as I actually need! I see that straight leg pants have come back into fashion yet I can't seem to find any in my size - anywhere. Sigh.....
Third - why do stores think that because I am large I am not professional. If you walk into any chain store at any mall the location and the size of the "women's" department is always in the smallest, most remote corner of the store. And, they never seem to carry business clothes. I work for the military. I am in meetings at different times with high ranking officers and civilians and I need to look like I take my job seriously. It's hard to do when I can't find good business suits that fit and look good. I see suits in the smaller sizes that I think "oh, that is really nice looking - I'd love to wear that to work" but, no chance because the largest size they make it in is a 10.
Fourth, Lane Bryant - supposed to be a store for me. Lately though when I look at what they have put in the window I feel like they are trying to sell sex. Seriously, I know that we are beautiful and sexy regardless of our size - my DH tells me this all the time. BUT, I don't want to wear clothes that practically have my breasts bared to the public along with as much skin as possible. This does NOT make me feel sexy or beautiful. I don't even feel comfortable wearing sleeveless shirts. It's not even that I'm not comfortable in these clothes, for me again it comes back to looking professional. I don't think it is professional for anyone regardless of your size to wear a blouse that leaves little to anyone's imagination.
Finally, on-line shopping. I thought this was going to be the answer for me. I wouldn't have to get up, get dressed, drive to a store, find the "big" sizes and spend hours trying on clothes. I could look at the pictures on-line, have the clothes sent to my house where I can try them on in the comfort of my own home and if I don't like them send them back. Win for me right? Not exactly. In the last two years I have kept maybe a third of the items I have bought on-line. For some reason, many of the things I think look good on-line don't look good on me. More often it is that the quality of what they are selling is just abysmal. Also, you have to pay to ship the items back yourself and some stores charge a restocking fee so it ends up costing more.
So, that is my rant about clothes shopping. I was going to write it after we got back but I didn't have time. If anyone can recommend a place where you buy professional looking business clothes in women's sizes I'd love to know where you go.
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