Sunday, May 11, 2008
**This is my baby on her 21st birthday this past March**
Mother's day always makes me a little melancholy. I never had the relationship with my mother that I should have had, I miss her in my life even though she is still living. Through a series of events, she does not keep in contact with me at her choice. I have forgiven anything that she may have said or done to hurt me and the ball is in her court.
At 17, I came to live with my Nana, my Daddy's mother. She was the mother I needed. We had a great relationship. I could talk to her. I could cry in front of her, we shared a lot. I felt like I was such a disappointment to her when I got pregnant while going to college and she reassured me it was okay. She said " Well it would take an idiot to know you were not sleeping with Ricky" . Then she went on to say, "Well it runs in the family" Well I knew mother was pregnant when she married my stepfather but Nana let it out of the bag she and my dad also were with my brother when they married. Well I felt better and knew it would be more accepted. I have not been a perfect mother but I feel I did a pretty good job. MY daughter turned out pretty good. She is my only child and I cherish her. She is my joy. I tell kids all the time when they say bad things about their parents..."You may not agree with what they say or do but generally it is because they don't want you to make the same mistakes they have made" There are so many out there who do not have their mother's who wish they still did and there are some whose children do not treat their mothers right. Today, being my Nana has been gone for about 5 years and I do not have a relationship with the woman who gave birth to me, I gave my neighbor lady a hanging plant for Mother's day figuring her kids would forget her (I was right) She was so touched and kept kissing me. One hand washes the other.. she is always making me stuff to eat and I do the same. She is a great lady and I am glad I could make her day..
For all of you out there whether your "children" are human babies or furry babies, Happy Mother's Day!