Saturday, March 08, 2014
Good Evening. I have a few extra minutes tonight, so I thought I would do my blog tonight. Seems like on the weekends, I have more time to blog that day, where as on the weeks, I have so much going on at night and I can't get it done.
So, here we are at the beginning of the second week. I did my meal planning, for both my family and myself. I found it really hard, but I am trying to cut the cost back a little from last week. I was thinking maybe if I made it so I was eating the same couple of things for breakfast and lunch and then working off my family's dinner, it would save me time and money. Last week I also made two shopping trips, which is to two stores and then another trip for my family's stuff, that was only one store. This week I planned on one week of stuff. I thought maybe I could shop on Saturdays and meal prep either Saturday or Sunday, whichever works better. Well, things didn't come out the way I planned. I did like saving the extra shopping trip, but I still spend as much money. The one thing I know for sure is that I spent more money on meat than last week. I bought a tri tip steak and a 2 pound bag of shrimp. I think I just need to keep planning on it. Today in the store I was fighting back the guilty feelings, knowing that I am costing our family extra money each week. If anyone has any tips or suggestions let me know. I am not talking a little money, I am talking about $50-60. I also decided that I am not going to worry about it too much at least through this Whole30. I think I will continue to find ways to cut corners. I just feel like if this is going to stop me from binging and having the food addiction I had to battle, the extra money is worth it and I know my husband will not tell me no, he wants me to be happy. But the guilt kicks in a lot anyhow.
A few people have asked me about weighing in and if I am ever planning to. Part of me has thought about it all week, again wondering "How will I gauge how I am doing and if I am making progress or not" It is probably a good thing that my scale is on my Wii and right now all the batteries are taken out of it. I also remind myself that I am not doing this for weight loss, any weight loss I have will be a bonus. I really know I need to lose more weight. I can't weigh almost 190 pounds forever, but I also know if I don't learn to control my food addiction and binge eating disorder, I will end up weighing way more than 190 pounds.
I have battled the scale for years now. Now when I was younger. When I was younger I was aware of the fact that I was overweight through primary school and middle. I knew that I was obese in high school and through most of my 20's, but I didn't really care. I don't remember what exactly kicked my in the butt and made me start caring, but that is when I was when I started WW. At this point, some kind of obsession kicked in. I was first only weighing in once a week. Then I bought a scale and was getting on the day of weigh ins, as if to prepare myself. Then it turned into me weighing in the day after my cheat meal and then it continued til I was weighing in every day, sometimes multiple times a day. I also became obsessed with my eating patterns and weighing in. The day before weigh ins, first I was eating very little. I remember I would eat the lowest amount possible on those days, as well as drinking as little water as possible. Then I started eating the same things on the days before weigh in. Looking back it was crazy. I am feeling so much more at ease now that my goals are not focused on my weight loss and it isn't because I don't want to lose weight or need to lose weight. I have just come to the conclusion that I need to do this in a different manner than I have before. It isn't the focal point anymore. So, that is why I am reporting in about how I feel and all the other things I am noticing, those are my indicators as to how I am doing.
Here is my menu for today!
Breakfast 8am: 3 whole eggs scrambled with onions and spinach. Banana
Lunch 1pm later than I like to eat, but I was shopping and running around. I also went out to eat with the boys before heading to my parents house. I made sure I asked for specific things. I had a Chicken Cobb Salad, with grilled chicken, eggs, bacon, greens, tomatoes and cucumbers. No dressing, no cheese and no croutons.
Snack 4pm: 1 c. strawberries and 1/2 banana lightly mashed together
Dinner 6pm: small kale/cabbage salad with tomatoes, 1/4 avocado and little zucchini. 2 whole eggs with 1/4 c. onions and 1/2 c. sweet potatoes.
I hope everyone is having and continues to have a great weekend!
Saturday, March 08, 2014
I can't believe it has been a week now. I must say I am still skeptical over the changes I feel. I keep thinking that I am feeling so empowered and amazing because I just started this journey and I am still pumped about it....but usually I struggle starting on day 3. But I do find myself wondering if the walls will come crashing down any moment. It just seems too easy. Here are some amazing things I have already experienced:
I don't think about food as often...it feels like every day I think about it less. I had that day where I fought off desires of binging with the nuts. Since then I haven't thought much about it. I fought off taking bites, licks and tastes of foods during the first few days, but now I think about it far less. Sometimes I make my son a sandwich and realize afterwards that it never occurred to me to lick the knife clean of peanut butter. I don't miss the sugary stuff or the grains anywhere near as much as I thought I would. And for any of the guys reading this post, you may want to skip the rest of this paragraph and go to the next point, but I know some of my girls will like to hear it....I usually binge on sweet stuff the week before my period....it never occurred to me I was starting the Whole30 at the same time as that week....I haven't had any of those issues this month. I don't feel as bloated as I usually do and didn't get the soreness and tiredness that usually goes along with it.
I have a sustained amount of energy all day long. I don't feel full of energy one minute and then like I could sleep for days the next.
I swear my skin is starting to change. It seems smoother and clearer.
My nails are stronger and growing faster than they have in the past.
It is hard to judge my soreness levels since this week I am still babying my knee and now sigh....I keep feeling twinges in my shoulder, which means I pulled that again too, but on the soreness levels, my feet are hurting far less, as are my other joints.
I FEEL AMAZING!
I do think that a lot of this easiness comes from the fact that I wasn't constantly overloading my system with sugar and grains anyhow, unless I was binging and then I was shoving them down my mouth. And I keep thinking that is going to happen again, that I will taste one bite and be spiraling again, which may happen, which is probably why this program lasts 30 days.
And if anyone is thinking about starting to do a Whole30 my two biggest pieces of advice are:
Read It Starts with Food, not only does it tell you what to do, it tells you why. That is always key for me. Anyone can tell me "Stop eating grains, they are not good for your stomach" but I just blew it off, when I read why and how these things effected my body and my brain, it made things so much easier to accept.
Meal Prep! This was key for me. Last weekend, I went shopping and then came home and I cooked chicken, hard boiled 18 eggs, browned turkey sausage, made a whole batch of Pizza Soup, precooked turkey burgers, sautéed onions and peppers and roasted a huge batch of sweet potatoes. It made preparing my meals a lot easier all week long. If I don't have those veggies sautéed for breakfast, I would never pull out the pan every day and do some for my eggs. This week I learned what I need more and less of and will be doing more meal prep tomorrow.
So, here is my day 7 menu!
Breakfast 830am: I had to wait til after the blood work for my breakfast.....I was starving! I had 3 whole eggs scrambled with spinach and onion. Banana
Lunch 1pm: Also a bit thrown off with having to do some prep when I got home from picking up Samuel and being out of my house all day. I was not starving, but was ready to eat. I had 2 whole scrambled eggs, 3/4 c. sweet potatoes, 1/4 c. sautéed onions. 3/4 c. strawberries and 1/2 banana, mashed together....yummmmmmm
Snack 430pm: time got away from me and I wasn't starving and knew dinner was in an hour an a half but could tell if I didn't eat something I would start picking at stuff....and that could get ugly...so I had a few carrot sticks and a handful of grape tomatoes
Dinner 6pm: Chicken Cobb Salad made by me, which would compare to anything I could order out to dinner! 5-6 oz. chicken, lots and lots of greens, cucumbers, tomatoes, zucchini, red peppers, 2 slices turkey bacon, 1 whole hard boiled egg, 1/4 avocado....oh my yummmmmmm
Friday, March 07, 2014
Sorry so late today, I had a lot to do this morning starting with how everyone wants to start their day.....blood work. After that I visited with a friend and then did some errands. Came back, my little one convinced me to bake cupcakes, made dinner in the crockpot and did some cleaning, so here is the update from yesterday!
Another day in the bag! So excited. A couple of things I noticed yesterday. The first couple of days I realized how many little bites, licks and tastes I take through the day. I was amazed actually and it was really hard to be mindful of what I was doing as I went through the day. Today I noticed that I don't have to think about it as much. It hasn't really dawned on me much already. I also must say that I am not the hugest fan of Girl Scout cookies, but they are in my house right now...five boxes....two of thin mints, one trefoil, one berry and one....the ONLY one that matters.... Samoas!!! AHHHHHHHHHH.....well I put them up on my top shelf, so I can't reach them really, it's an effort. Then when my son got home, they are his cookies, I asked him if he could push them back (since the 13 year old is almost 6 feet tall he can do stuff like that....) so I couldn't even see them. Today he went and had one and I realized I totally forgot that they were up there! Which made me realize that even though I am still thinking about food A LOT, it isn't as much as it used to be. Many times even when I think about it, it quickly leaves my mind just as quickly as it came into my mind. That is huge for me. Even when I was on game when I was losing weight, this was still something I struggled with. There were days that I constantly thought about food. Many days that it lead to serious binges, over and over, throughout the day. So, I hope that this trend continues.
I think a big key to me enjoying this so far is that I am really enjoying my foods. Many times I have a hard time picking what to eat, I have so many yummy things I want to combine. Next week I am actually planning on making that easier on me and sticking to the same things for breakfasts and lunches and then different dinners each night. Each week I will try a new recipe as well, that way I can keep building my choices of food. I just won't buy the ingredients in bulk and prep it, I will just try one new lunch and one new breakfast. I tend to fall into a trend, I eat the same things over and over. I think that even though I never recognized it, I think I was bored. Since I started Sparkpeople, about 20 months ago, I have probably eaten the same things for breakfasts and lunches about 80% of the time! I still even like the things, but I think it is more because I didn't take the time to go look for other things. Or if I did, I think I became overwhelmed with choices. I think that doing Whole30 and having less choices actually works to my benefit, I have less to think about when I am planning meals.
I also like the way the four meals is working for me, even though one of them is more of a snack, but it still has stopped me from grazing on other foods in between meals. Once in awhile when I do, I grab carrot sticks or grape tomatoes. I haven't had a nut since my last run in with them, and I did baggie them up, so I could have a serving for my snack if I wanted.
So, here is what I ate yesterday!
Breakfast 7am: 2 whole eggs, 1/2 c. sweet potatoes, 1/4 c. turkey sausage, 1/4 c. sautéed onions and peppers
Snack 11am: 1/2 c. sweet potatoes and 1 small apple cooked together
Lunch 230pm: small green salad with grape tomatoes, a turkey burger with a fried egg on top
Dinner 6pm: a small green salad with 1 whole hard boiled egg and 1 hard boiled egg white, 1/2 medium spaghetti squash with meat tomato sauce. Banana
Thursday, March 06, 2014
I can't believe I am through Day 5. I found a time line online to how you should be feeling on certain days of the program and so far I can't say I have any of them feelings/symptoms they are talking about. I also look at 2 days ahead since the 2 days before I officially started, I did 90% of my eating as a trial run to see how I could do. I still think that is because I wasn't loading grains and sugars into my diet on a normal day. Those binge days are a different story.
So, I think having the four meals is going to work for me. I don't want to eat as much, and notice I say the word WANT, that is exactly what it is, it is not a NEED when I was eating those seeds/nuts. So, I think I will continue with this plan. My hunger has a weird pattern, though upon thinking about it, maybe not really and I hope that this new schedule will help that. The first few days when I was eating three meals, I was going 5-6 hours between breakfast and lunch and I honestly never felt hungry. Then I would eat lunch and then around 3pm I wanted to eat. By 4 if I hadn't eaten, I would be feeling hungry. Then I had the desire to pick all night long. The two days that I added in the snack, that desire was much less. I think it was because I was fueling myself more. I think I would go too long in the morning, then when my body finally got something to eat, it would metabolize it pretty quickly, because it was hungry and I don't recognize it. For me nothing is ever cemented in stone, I am always up for changing things around.
As for my husband joining me, I am not sure that will happen yet. I think I am going to ask him to just do breakfast and dinners for now. He was miserable when he came home and he hadn't even really started, but was thinking about trying and tried to make choices, but it was too hard for him. I am going to discuss it with him tomorrow night before I plan. Maybe if I can scale him back, in a few months, he can try it full force. My daughter never mentioned it again after this morning. It is hard concept to take on as a younger person I think. Especially when she wasn't raised eating the worst foods, but not the best foods either.
Breakfast 7am: 2 whole eggs, 3/4 c. sweet potatoes, 1/4 c. sautéed onions and peppers, all mixed together. YUMMMM
Snack 11am (my day was thrown off a bit due to my doctors appointment for my knee) small package of pistachios, it was 80 calories so I am assuming that is probably the serving size?
Lunch 230pm: mashed 1/4 avocado mixed into chicken chunks, about 4 oz. and a whole mango and about a 1 c. kale chips MORE YUMMMMMM
Dinner 545pm: big green salad with 8-10 grape tomatoes, 1/4 zucchini, 1/4 red pepper, 1 whole hard boiled egg, 1/2 c. roasted broccoli and 5-6 oz of grilled chicken
Wednesday, March 05, 2014
Good afternoon, it was a busy morning today. I woke up, got a quick upper body workout in, showered, got myself and Samuel feed and ready to leave all to see James left his lunch money and binder (for every single class) in my hallway. We ran the binder over, dropped Samuel off, picked up my order of Girl Scout cookies (which I don't really like anyhow, thank goodness since I ordered 5 boxes from my soon to be niece and then my husband told me he ordered 4 boxes from his clients daughter) After that I went to my appointment for my knee. The doctor turned and twisted me around and says that I most likely have torn and pulls in my tendons and ligaments around my front knee area, even though I feel the pain and tightness in the back. He put me on some anti inflammatory meds and said to call next week. I am not allowed on the treadmill, no running or walking. No cardio. So, I was kinda prepared for that anyhow, and already made a schedule for the next few days with all upper body work, I will just extend it and see what he says next week. He says that if there isn't a significant change, I will be referred to an orthopedic. If I am getting better, we will keep in touch and possibly another week of rest, depends on how the meds work. I am going to follow the orders. I don't want to make this worse. It does leave my half training up in the air, but I am not going to think about that until I need to and then I will go from there.
So, I had a really good day yesterday! I decided no nuts or seeds and did fine. I didn't really think about them too much and I wasn't tempted to eat even one or two as I was putting them in to the portion baggies. I will see how today goes. I also changed things up a bit yesterday. I decided since the time of day that I mostly start picking at foods is in between lunch and dinner that I would have a snack from now on. That probably helped the nut/seed situation as well. I decided that depending on my day I will use that technique or I will eat at 7am, 11am, 3pm and 6pm.
I also noticed some changes, though I have no clue if they are related to the diet or not. My skin is more clear, though a bit dryer than normal. My nails are growing quickly and the whites are so white. I am not bursting with energy, but I am not lagging around like I was a week ago. There were days in the past month or two that I would get up, get James off to school and have no motivation to get anything done and honestly felt like going back to bed. I am ready for bed when I go, though I still have to read to fall asleep. I am getting extra sleep already though as well since I decided to put Samuel to bed earlier, which gives me an earlier bed time as well. So, it could be both. I am pretty sure the nail and skin clearness is due to the diet though.
Lastly, I have convinced my hubby to join me in the Whole30. He will start this weekend. I am glad that he is giving it a try since he is 40 and already on a heart medication, but there is no one clear indicator as to why he had the blockage in his artery. All his numbers came back great when they were done. My daughter asked about it as well, but I directed her to the website. I know that she may have a hard time right now. She is crazy busy with school and a fairly picky eater. I told her to read the webpage and be open to new foods and she will have to eat meats. I suggested maybe she cut back on her grains and sugars for now and then maybe try this when her new schedule for work and school settles in. She already has a lot of anxiety, probably not a good pair with the Whole30. Plus she will blame me when she is miserable.
So, here was what I had yesterday for my meals!
Breakfast 7am: 3 eggs scrambled with onions, peppers and spinach. Banana
Lunch: 1230pm: big green salad with tomatoes, peppers, zucchini, cucumbers and grilled chicken and avocado.
Snack 3pm: 1/2 c. sweet potatoes sautéed with a small apple
Dinner 530pm: turkey burger with fried egg, sautéed onions, tomato and avocado. smaller side salad with mostly greens, few tomatoes and cucumbers.
I really, really, really miss my night time snack. I never ate a huge amount of foods or if I had air popped popcorn I did probably eat more than I needed, but it was usually when we watched a movie or show and I just wanted that snacky experience of eating with the show. Last night I actually felt sad after dinner that I was done eating for the day! That was just weird. I couldn't wait to go to bed so I could get up and eat again! Again I thought that was weird too. I know it will probably take a long time for this to become a habit that I don't notice anymore.
I hope everyone has a great day!
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