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Wake up lazy you're fat!

Friday, August 17, 2012

So I went to NJ with my mom and daughter. We were visiting my mom's best friend. We took my 4 year old daughter to Chuck E Cheese for a few hours. I got a booth for us to sit and have lunch at. I sat down and could not fit in the seat. I went into the bathroom and cried. That is when it hit. I have to stop being lazy and get active an watch what I eat. I weighed 225 the day i delieveredy daughter (12/26/2007). I now weigh 240. It has never clicked with me that I was fat and lazy until I could not sit at that booth. I tried moving the seat and everything nope nothing worked. I was truly to fat to sit there. I have never felt so embarrassed in my life. I feel so fat and so lazy...........

  
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RALWINE 8/23/2012 8:02AM

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ELIZABETHDS 8/17/2012 12:25PM

    Just remember - you HAVE fat, but you are NOT fat. Even if you are carrying around more pounds than you'd like, they didn't appear because you're a bad person, because you're lazy, or because of anything other than choices that you made.

Talk to yourself the way you'd talk to your best friend and find positive motivations to keep yourself going, because feeling bad won't carry you all the way to the finish line. emoticon

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CCADIE 8/17/2012 11:52AM

    I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I totally understand how incredibly painful that experience must have been for you. Your future self will look back at that moment as the time when you turned it all around! You can do this!!
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LYNNRODRIGUEZ 8/17/2012 10:09AM

    Imagine how you are gonna feel when you go back and there are inches between your belly and that table. Or better yet, don't go back! Take your daughter hiking and have a picnic with healthy foods so that you are teaching your daughter the right way to eat! Either way, emoticon

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TRACY95 8/17/2012 10:05AM

    Thank you all. I just had no motivation at all prior to this but. I sure do now.

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GOOSIEMOON 8/17/2012 9:54AM

    Try to use that experience to motivate yourself to be the best possible version of yourself. You can do this. emoticon

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MWHITE0527 8/17/2012 9:54AM

    I'm so sorry about your experience! I'd feel terrible :( Good luck on your journey! If you're motivated and you want it bad enough, it'll happen!!! emoticon

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This is it for me.................

Monday, March 19, 2012

So I stepped onto the scale this morning. I felt like i had been losing. Boy oh Boy was I wrong. I am at 239.8 as of this morning. I can not deal with this extra weight any more. i will do this. i will keep it off for good. I need all the help and support i can get but, it will be so worth it.

  
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MISSYV_1501 3/19/2012 4:36PM

    Hey just workout and watch what you eat. Thats what I'm doing. I look at the scale but that number doesn't define what I am capable of. You are going to have good days and bad days. Days that you stay within your calories and days that you don't. Some days you are going to have energy coming out your ears and some days that all you want to do is lay in bed. When you have that crazy energy go and do all the work out you can. 1 day of energy goes to 2 and then 3 and so on. You are not alone and know that we are all here to help along the way.

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TRACY95 3/19/2012 3:52PM

    Thank you. I am hoping to lose 5 lbs in a month I know that is a long time but, i figure that can be my first real goal. Also, to find a partner to keep in touch with and support along the way :

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COOKINGGRANNY 3/19/2012 3:37PM

  Just work on one day at a time, setting small goals that will be easier for you to reach in a shorter time. Remember, baby steps become big steps. emoticon emoticon

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TRACY95 3/19/2012 3:37PM

    I am not measuring. I need to start that TODAY!!I am about 2 weeks before my cycle. I really think its something else because my clothes are fitting better. Its so hard to describe and people have commented that I look like i have lost weight??? Its all so confusing. I feel pretty god. BUt, i know i can do better.

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MRS_PALMER 3/19/2012 3:20PM

    Take it one day at a time, are you staying within your calories? Are you measuring your food? Check your portions, what time of the month is it for you? There are many reasons for it, but you have to remain positive and keep going, the scale will move.

Do you feel stronger, leaner, thinner, heathier? This is what you want, pardon my expression but screw the scale, how do you FEEL? I am right there with you, clothes fit better, but weight is not moving and getting discouraged, know what I did, I stopped getting on the scale and continue doing the right things, I will look at it again in a month or so, but til then I am confident I am being true to myself without the extra pressure! I will help you anytime you need a pep talk, just let me know!

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One week

Wednesday, April 06, 2011

I have been at this now for just about a week. I have been tracking every piece of food and drink that goes into my mouth. I went over my calories just two days. I feel so much better and I noticed a big change is that I am not eating all night long while I am watching tv. I feel some what better and know that keeping it up will help me feel A LOT better. I put on a pair of jeans saturday that I could not even button the week before. When i put them on this time they were loose and very easily buttoned. Everyone on this site is awesome and so great with encouragement and support.

  
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SPECKLESANNE12 10/14/2011 1:46PM

    Way to go this is all just one step at a time. Make a change and do it consistently until it's routine then pick another change.

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JUDITH1654 4/7/2011 8:53AM

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TRACY95 4/6/2011 4:12PM

    I sit at a desk all day long as well so that is another hard thing for me. ALthough i am trying to get all healthy snacks and not bring change with me for the vending machines. So far so good. Weeknds are horrible for me even more so when i don't have my daughter. ALl i want to do is eat and be on the couch. Not fun at all. I am working to change that though.

That is right one step at a time and we will change it

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SHASUE29 4/6/2011 3:20PM

    I'm a huge snacker....well, used to be. I sit at a desk all day, so it is too easy to eat and eat all day long. Then I would snack at night, and real bad on the weekends. And snacking is ok, if it is something healthy. I need to be better prepared for the weekends. I need to stay busy. Not just sit in the lazy boy and watch tv!

Just remember, one step at a time. :-) With the weather getting nicer, it will be nice to go on some good, long walks!

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TRACY95 4/6/2011 9:51AM

    Thank you. Mindless snacking at night was always what I did. It seemed like from the time my daughter is in bed and asleep i was snacking until I went to bed. I am so glad that habit is changing.

Thanks for your comment

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SPRING1973 4/6/2011 9:47AM

    Good job... especially paying attention to how you feel when you aren't mindlessly snacking.

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So depressed and Fed up. THIS IS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, March 28, 2011

So i stepped on the scale this morning and I thought i was just going to break down and cry. I am at my highest weight ever. I did not even weigh this much when i was 9 months pregnant with my daughter. I feel horrible. I look horrible. I have gained almost 15 pounds in a month. It has been going up, up and away. I am ready for a change. I have been writing things down as i eat them. I printed out some food diaries to have with me at all times so i can write down every single thing. I walk at night with my daughter for about a half hour. I am going to start using my Biggest Loser for the Wii again and hoping that nights when we get home late or the weather is bad that i can do one of my work out dvd's. I am not sleeping well at all and have not been for about 5 or 6 months now. IT has gotten worse since my grandfather passed away in February. I want a better life for me and my daughter. She is 3 and i feel bad because i can't do all things i want to with her and play with her like i want to. I notice myself out of breath and have a hard time breathing after a few minutes of playing with her. I am so fed up with myself and am determined to do this. I NEED THIS! I WANT THIS!

  
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WOLFKITTY 4/13/2011 2:01PM

    Fed up and YOU'RE DONE!! Go for it, girlie!
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TRACY95 3/29/2011 1:53PM

    I will have to check that article out about the sleep/stress. I have heard that before. I think that is a major issue for me right now. I will get better with this and i will do this.

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JUDITH1654 3/29/2011 1:22PM

    It's funny you should mention the lack of sleep and weight gain - I just read an article on SP which talked about stress and lack of sleep preventing progress in weight loss. Sometimes, we can't help the current situation we find ourselves in and we just have to muddle through it, but keep hanging in there! Eventually, you'll be able to come out on the other side.

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TRACY95 3/29/2011 8:03AM

    Hi MATTISYNSMOMMY

Thank you! Yes the loss has really taken a toll on me that is for sure. My grandfather was the father figure that was missing from my life. Yes you are so right it has to be for me first and foremost and i think that is what i have the hardest time with. YAY!!! that is so awesome for you :) Your doing awesome. I think i try to do to much at first and i fizzle out i feel over whelmed or something. I try to jump and go as fast as i can and i know that is not the right way. I want it to stay off and not come back any more. Yes the healthier snacks are what i am trying for this week. and then when used to that i will change something else. Increase my exercise and what i do for exercise. Yes i think the vent yesterday really helped. I have never done that before. I am one to keep everything inside and not vent or complain about anything. It felt good though to vent for sure. Its nice seeing that others understand and don't put you down for venting.

Thanks again every one for all of the encouragement and support.


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TRACY95 3/29/2011 7:57AM

    Thanks CHRYS13! That is what i have to keep telling myself. one day and one step at a time. I think a big problem is I weigh myself every single day. True the victories need to be celebrated but, it seems that i have not had any to celebrate yet! In time I will. I know I will. I am on vacation the week of April 24th and that is my first goal. I would like to lose 8-10 pounds by then. Thank you all for cheering me :)


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TRACY95 3/29/2011 7:54AM

    Thanks DKELLEY35. I keep telling myself I can do this and I will do this. I know it will take time. I just tell myself that i Can't quit. I need to keep moving along. It will get better I know it will.





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MATTISYNSMOMMY 3/28/2011 10:51PM

    Hello! I am sorry to hear that you have been feeling that way. A loss in the family can put a serious damper on things. Just remember that you need to do it for you first and foremost. I am not currently at my heaviest and I am thankful for that but it has been a rough ride losing what bit that I have. Just keep reminding yourself that you are worth it and that you deserve to be completely happy. Baby steps is the way to go, I have been doing baby steps & after I feel that I am accomplishing one I add in something else. Whether it be healthier snacks, an extra 5-10 minutes of exercise. Every little bit helps & just do one small step at a time. It takes time to do this and keep on, when you feel down come on here & write about how you're feeling. Venting feelings helps me out a lot, more than I could imagine. You're not in this journey alone, reach out to someone anyone who can be supportive. I hope that things look up very soon for you and trust me it will happen, it's a process and not an easy one either. Take care. emoticon

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CHRYS13 3/28/2011 7:12PM

    Take it one day at a time....one step at a time....and don't forget to celebrate your victories! Set achievable goals, and not too many all at once. I know you will do this as we're all cheering for you!
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DKELLEY35 3/28/2011 7:07PM

    You can do this , now is the time to be strong and fight for yourself. you are worth the effort. Stick with what you are doing , tracking, and exercising, try for only healthy snacks and just keep moving. keep on Sparking.

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TRACY95 3/28/2011 2:58PM

    I had been keeping it in for a while and was finally fed up and typed it out. I am glad I am not the only one going through this and that someone else knows how i feel. That makes me feel better. I hear you. Snacking is my major problem. I do the same thing snack all the time even when i am not hungry. I have not tackled my closet yet. I know that nothing fits me. I just bought a pair of jeans this weekend and I said this is insane i have two dressers and a HUGE walk in closet full of clothes that i can't wear. I will lose weight and i will get into those clothes again. I will be 34 On october 14th. I will be in my jeans that I really enjoy. Two sizes smaller. I am setting small goals i think i set some goals to high and i fail Good I am so glad that someone is joining me on this journey. We can do this and WE WILL DO THIS



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TRACY95 3/28/2011 2:57PM

    I had been keeping it in for a while and was finally fed up and typed it out. I am glad I am not the only one going through this and that someone else knows how i feel. That makes me feel better. I hear you. Snacking is my major problem. I do the same thing snack all the time even when i am not hungry. I have not tackled my closet yet. I know that nothing fits me. I just bought a pair of jeans this weekend and I said this is insane i have two dressers and a HUGE walk in closet full of clothes that i can't wear. I will lose weight and i will get into those clothes again. I will be 34 On october 14th. I will be in my jeans that I really enjoy. Two sizes smaller. I am setting small goals i think i set some goals to high and i fail Good I am so glad that someone is joining me on this journey. We can do this and WE WILL DO THIS



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MSWISDOM 3/28/2011 2:43PM

    Thanks for sharing. I can relate to you so much. I too am heavier now that at 9 months with either one of my kids. I too Had enough. I've been working out, but the snacking is still a problem(especially because i'm not hungry). I cleaned out my closet and have 16 pairs of jeans that I cannot get into....That's enough for me. I'll be 41 on August 10th and I'm going to get into those jeans by then.....hook or crook that's what I', going to do. So i'm with you on your journey....Let's do this!

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TRACY95 3/28/2011 2:21PM

    Thanks! I am so fed up with it and the gaining constantly is driving me insane. I have to do this I need to do this. I want to feel better and be a better mother (more active) for my daughter.

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MLLEMULLIGAN 3/28/2011 2:20PM

    You seem determined!! Of course the road will get tough every now and but you gotta hold on tight to that wagon! :)

Good luck on your journey!!
Hope you will feel better soon!

Cheers!

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