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Saturday, March 22, 2014

So, it has been a real long time since I have posted. I gained a lot of my weight back since I quit smoking on August 7th. I am trying to get back on track. I am in the process of filing for divorce. My husband has been lying to me, seems the entire 15 year relationship was based on lies. He is having identical twin girls with the girl he kept telling me was just a friend & roommate. I am hurt more than I can explaine. I loved him so much, but now I have no respect for him. His mission has been to hurt me. He will see it is the biggest mistake of his life & he can't come back here! I'm on a mission of taking care of my kids & myself.

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KAILYNSTAR 4/4/2014 2:30PM

    That's so disappointing for you. I cannot imagine the hurt you have gone through and are still going through.

Nothing worse than to be lied to for years. My heart breaks for you.

You're strong though. It's like you finally made a decision on what you are going to do and you're sticking with it. I think it crazy the girl got pregnant, knowing that he is not trustworthy. Once a cheater...always a cheater.

You have to get back on track with the weight loss. Get out and move more. Walk further and eat things that are better for you. I know it's hard, but there has to be something for you in this whole picture of life.

Don't let the things that you have done for yourself make you sabotage what you know you can achieve.

I hope things get better for you.

I really do.

Take care.

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MJRVIC2000 3/22/2014 7:54AM

    It is no secret what God can do. What He has done for others, he'll do for YOU! God Bless YOU! Vic.

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Reached a set back

Friday, October 18, 2013

I have reached a set back. I gained 25 pounds. I am upset, but it makes me even more determined. I have quit smoking. Had my last cigarette August 7th. I kept my promise to my son. Our van was repossessed on September 18th because their father decided since he only used the van every other weekend when he had his visitation w/ the kids he didn't want to pay for it. So the kids & I have been walking to school to take my son, & to my daughter's bus stop for head start. My sister has given me her vehicle until holloween. I told the kids if it is not raining we will be walking to save money on gas & to get exercise. To top everything off he stopped paying on the house last December. I am also taking college courses on line to get my bachelors degree in business admin./health care management. That got all messed up when the so called husband got his tax money back. Working on fixing it. He also got himself fired so I have not gotten my child support. He got a new job, but said it is part time, although it is 4 10 hour shifts. I do believe that is full time. He also said it is union so he gets paid more. I will be taking him back to court for child support since it was reduced because he was providing health insurance. This entire thing sucks. I just need to get back on track w/ my weight loss. My clothes are getting tight, & I got rid of my big clothes. I can do this.
I am going to start a spark streak of exercising & eating in calorie range for seven days in a row. I got this!

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KAILYNSTAR 10/19/2013 7:01PM

    This is so unbelievable.

I just don't know what to think about this whole situation.

I actually told my husband what happened in your past with your husband and mentioned that he quit paying for the van and the house. He looked at me and shook his head. All he said was, "Not paying for a room for his kids."

I'm so sorry things are not good nor right about anything. My heart hurts for you and your children. This is awful.

I have to say, you taking that course is the best news in the whole blog. Make sure you pass and then apply or drop of resumes to every place that will accept your training.

I do hope your children are fine. I know there were weight issues for your son.

Your children are your strength. They look to you for guidance and support and most of all love and hope.

As for your so called's amazing that he is throwing his credit rating out the window. It is amazing he is not doing anything for the children. (You thought you were being selfish).

Take care of yourself. Be well.

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PRAIRIECROCUS 10/19/2013 1:37AM

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CSYOUNG1952 10/18/2013 9:58PM

    Sorry to hear your having so many problems. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.


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I canít change my past but this is my chance to change my future.

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Life is Good

Thursday, August 15, 2013

My son has been sick with a summer cold. He is feeling a bit better and went back to swimming lessons yesterday. Today he told me he moved up to level 2. I am so proud of him. I am proud of myself as well, I have not had a cigarette in a week. It is hard, but I am fighting it. I have been very moody, and even emotional. I walked to church with the kids Sunday, and went walking last night and this afternoon. I also did a 10 minute Kettle Worx fat burning workout the other day, and will do it again today as soon as I am done posting. I am trying to exercise to keep my mind off of wanting a cigarette. I also want one more when my so called husband comes arounds and puts me down. I am bettering my life and he does not like that. Oh freaking well!
Well I need to go and get my workout done, my son is bugging me to do it.

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KAILYNSTAR 8/21/2013 6:37PM

    It's great that you are prevailing with the not smoking thing. I'm proud of your efforts. I know it's a hard road to go down.

I really wish there was something that I could say about your husband. He must really like the idea of being 'better' by either his looks or independence of you. So that he feels better of himself by putting you down.

It is so nice to know, that you are doing something about that. By being more confident of yourself and doing something instead of moping around and being sorry for yourself.

I think you're awesome!

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FAVALL 8/15/2013 2:33PM

    Have fun working out! It always boosts my mood and keeps me on the right track for my goals, regardless of the negative noise around me. Look forward to the feel good endorphine rush after the workout. MMMMMMMMMMM!

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It's been a long time.....

Friday, August 09, 2013

I have been dealing with a lot of things since my last post. I have started on line college for my bachelors in Business admin./ Healthcare management. I am also trying to get a divorce because I am sick of the lies, and treating me like crap. 14 years together meant nothing to him when that manly girl came along. Oh well. My four and five year old kids have had very busy summers, having to take them places and my school work has kept me so busy. I hve not been working out, but now my sons doctor sais he needs to lose weight so we are working out together, well sort of. I work out a bit more then him. I have gained 13 pounds, which upset me greatly but I have no one to blame but myself. It felt good to do the 4 mile with boosted walking today. I need to try to do this everyday. I have also tried to quit smoking again, had my last cigarette Wednesday night. I am moody, but that should go away with time, I just hope I do not gain weight like most people do when they quit.
Well I need to go to finish my sons birthday cake for his party tomorrow and work on my school work.

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KAILYNSTAR 8/9/2013 4:47PM

    I was wondering how you were doing. I'm glad you are getting back on track with getting fit. As for gaining weight while quitting cousin told me, it had to do with the fact that she was always putting things in her mouth. (Since she didn't have the cigarette anymore). Also, she was told to change her habit of what she did when she would have a smoke. To change the routine. So, instead of having cream and sugar in her coffee, she took it black, so then she didn't think she needed to have a cigarette after she had a coffee.

Just some things I thought might be helpful for you.

Have a good weekend and I hope things get better for you as the days go by.

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GARDENQE2 8/9/2013 11:42AM

    Congratulations on quitting smoking...that is the hardest thing to do!
It's great to see you taking control of your life! emoticon

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New Start

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

My new start has begun. I start on line classes on Sunday April 7th formy bachelors degree in Business admi./Health care management. I am nervouse and excited. When I finish and get my degree a whole new worl of opportunities will open up for me. Being a single mom I need to set a good example for my children regardless what their father is doing. I am over him. It hurts sometimes, but I am able to push past that and say "I am worth way more then that"! I am blessed every day with my kids, and the opportunities that have opened for me.

God Bless everyone today and always!

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MARYBETH4884 4/3/2013 7:57PM

    Good for you!

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DAZZEEDOO 4/3/2013 3:54PM

    emoticon Attitude!
Have a Great Day!

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