Tuesday, April 15, 2014
So working really hard to find the right balance in my life. Still doing my cardio Monday to Friday most weeks (I do hit snooze every once in a while) and weight training Tuesdays and Friday afternoons. And I learned a lot from the last "diet" I did, both about myself and my body.
So now finding how to work it all in, stay on track, but not be afraid to let go once in while, without punishing myself after and feeling so guilty I stress and then binge.
Definitely a delicate balance, sigh
But I kept some of the stuff from the fast metabolism one, but I cut down a lot on the bread even if it was gluten free, I found on that diet I was depending on it way too much the 5 of 7 days I could have it. I also brought back my morning shakes most mornings because they really were a good boost of veggies and fruits and I liked them. And overall I am feeling really good. I also started drinking tea again, cause I was missing it those 28 days on that diet, I find it soothes me and often makes me stop craving other stuff if I try a tea first.
So this weekend is Easter weekend, and I am heading out with some friends for some fun and indulgence in the city for the full 4 days. Super pumped as work has been extremely stressful of late, so I so need a few days away from it all. Now my challenge is again finding balance, I am trying to get it in my head that its ok to hit my favorite Chinese Bakery the one day and have 2 treats and not beat myself up over it, but just hit the one day and try to stay on track most of the rest of our meals out, as much as I can eating out. I think i will bring my little blender with me to try to still do my morning shakes before heading out, to calm hunger a bit. And well if I do gain a pound or two, I am learning to let it go, and do better the following week,
I need this trip, I deserve this trip, and in moderation I am so going to enjoy this trip!
So cheers to week ahead, hope all your Easters are wonderful, and that you are finding balance in your own lives while succeeding with your own goals!
Still love this one, TEE HEE HEE
Monday, April 07, 2014
so I finished the 4 weeks of this diet, overall weight loss was 5 pounds although only 3 were net. SO was it amazing no, but for a pump wearing diabetic 5 pounds in a month is pretty good, I am sure someone who doesn't inject insulin all day would have much more success. It does take a lot of planning though, prepping your entire meals for the day including snacks so you can always stay in the right zone depending on day.
SO I won't continue it exactly but I will be moving forward with pieces of it for sure, it taught me a lot about what my body needs and my own mind over matter.
I'm still as usual pouting over my slow weight lose, but last week my trainer had me wear a 20 pound vest while do my circuit of weights etc, and holy crap it was hard, so yes its taken me 9 months to lose 26 pounds but I don't want it back.
So my journey continues, its slower than I expected when I started this 9 months ago, but I do feel healthier and more energetic, and I know I can make it happen!
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
So those two dinner with friend nights.alcohol drinking ended the week as it began, not good. However I managed to stay the same so no lose but no gain either. And i had a doctors appt yesterday and my weight was the same on her scale as my home scale, so whoop whoop, not sure why that is so much more exciting than the home scale but it somehow is, lol.
Week 3 is underway, into day 3 and so far so good, I am sticking to it the best I can. Always amazes me though how much I crave certain things when told i cant have them. There is no reason to be hungry on this meal plan, the amount of food is more than i was eating before, but the two days of the week I can;t have bread or fruit its all i can think of! Or the days i cant have almond butter, I crave it to the extreme. It is truly making me realize just how much our minds control us and not always in a positive way.
That being said I am focusing on the positives from this meal plan, my body seems to be regulating better than its been in a while, my hair has been feeling and looking great, and I have had the energy to really push through some harder workouts at the gym, so even if the weight isn't leaving the way I'd hoped I do feel better!
Oh and my 6 am spin class on Tuesdays got cancelled this week, well cancelled for now as they are short instructors, so upset about that, i was finally getting in the grove of it, so now I have to try to get it in on Thursday mornings, but I am often out of town Thursdays as I do my overnight trips Wednesdays.
Anyway i am feeling better, and I know eventually its going to happen, just keep moving one day at a time!
Friday, March 21, 2014
So for some reason this week is much harder, not sure why exactly but I have been having a tough time fighting cravings. Trying to stick with things as much as possible but now i have 2 dinners planned tonight and tomorrow night so i know i wont be following all the "rules", here's hoping for the best.
Did I mention I really hate dieting? uggghh What happened to the 18 year old that could eat almost anything??
Sorry on a bit of a pity party this week I think, for some reason more emotional and sensitive than usual, perhaps the reason for not doing so well on the diet this week, damn emotional eating.
But seriously i am having on of those days where it takes me everything not to throw in the towel. A friend told me a story she heard from a guy I used to date, while we were at the gym this morning, he told her things didn't work out because of my weight, and damn it hurt. Not that it was anything serious with the guy but it still sucks to hear yeah hey you were just too fat.
So I am wallowing a bit, thinking how unfair it is that I am so much more active than I was a year ago, and I eat so much healthier than i used to, so why is it not just falling off?? Why cant just once something come easy. I want to be just the cute girl, not the cute fat girl for a change, sigh.
So anyway I apologize SP peeps for my vent but somehow i kind of treat this like a journal sometimes, helps me clear my head and commit to moving on and moving forward since I am telling it to someone that I will.
So I will eat correctly and healthy all day today and tomorrow, and splurge a little at dinner each night, of and a couple glasses of wine. But I still hit the gym every day except one this week, and that day reminded me how different my attitude is when I don't go, so a new commitment not to turn off the alarm again. SO the fitness part I have nailed.
Back to focusing on the eating part, I know I can do this, I will keep trying, I will try not to be jealous of those who seem to be doing it so much quicker and easier, and I will remember no matter what size that I am truly a great person.
Monday, March 17, 2014
OK so week one was not too bad, was not hungry and although had a few cravings I think they were more from boredom than hunger.
Days 5 and 6 went well, although days 5-7 were spent on the road. The first two days I did great, packed breakfast, lunch and snacks and stuck to it. Dinners i ate out but made some pretty good choices overall. Passed up popcorn on Friday at the movies, that was huge, watching a movie without popcorn is super tough, but no corn allowed on this diet.
Day 7 however was a total bust. I was pms'ing and in the car all day, didn't screw up just once, I ate like crap all day.
But onward to week 2. I promise to give it my best effort for a full 28 days before making any judgments.
End of week 1 I am down 3 pounds overall, but only 1 net pound as the first two I had gained back the week before starting in my own wonderful self sabotage mode.
On a positive, I had my best jog ever this morning, 25 mins straight, 2.5 miles, not super fast but I was super proud!
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