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Saturday, June 20, 2009

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SHADOWPUP 6/28/2009 11:35AM

    Congratulations! I stopped in to see how you were doing since it has been awhile - this is terrific news!

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DATAQUEEN 6/20/2009 7:15PM

    Congrats!!!! That is so awesome. Take care of yourself during this!

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This year, and next year, and the one after that, and...

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I have decided that this year, I am going to work on getting healthy and accepting myself as I am. I have been lurking for a while on various FA (fat acceptance) blogs and websites, and I think I'm beginning to get it. I will stop putting off the things I want to do with my life because I'm fat. I will stop thinking "when I lose a size, I can wear that kind of thing" or "when I'm under 200, I'll try hiking/biking/camping/swimming/LIVING!" I'm sick of being unhappy with the person I am.

That said, I am unhealthy. Being unable to enjoy doing the things I love because they hurt is not what I want either. So, my goal, resolution, whatever is to LIVE well and healthily. This means taking more walks with my husband because we enjoy them. This means not getting junk for dinner because it never tastes good enough to make up for how sick it makes us, and it's way too expensive. This means using my YMCA membership because I have suddenly found myself with no friends, and the people there are generally pretty friendly. This means getting my health (not my weight, necessarily) under control so that I can get pregnant, and hopefully introduce my grandpa to one last great-grandbaby before he dies. This means that I will be taking down my weight ticker and hiding my scale, that I will ask my doctor not to tell me my weight (if I can get him to stop blaming everything on it). This means that I will work toward being in the shape I need to be in to run without pain, because the 10 minutes of it before my ankle sprained felt WONDERFUL. And I think this means that I will be refraining from participation in BLC-9. Not because I don't love the people, but because I don't love the demoralization of a bad weigh in (not from the teams or the members, but from my end).

The greatest thing it means, though, is that I will be on my way to actually loving myself. Loving the fact that I'm shy around strangers, but embarrassingly frank after about an hour. Loving that I can play clarinet badly, viola pretty well, and piano a little bit. Loving the fact that I will never be outgoing, even if I'm thin. Loving that I have big, strong bones that have survived everything I've put them through and then some. Loving that my hair is short and brown, but in great condition and growing strong. Loving the fact that I can eat! What I want and when I want. Because, turns out, I'm a pretty healthy eater when I get the junk food and nut-jobs out of my house. Loving the fact that I have a husband who has put up with my weight-loss craziness for a long time, and has always, turns out, supported me being happy. Me being me. And loving that I know no matter what, that no SIZE will ever look as good as HEALTHY feels.

Happy New Year, everyone!!!

Oh! And here's a link to the new public blog I'm starting.

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BIGGIRL2082010 1/1/2009 3:05PM

    Hmm. Seems like you've discovered the best way to truly have a HAPPY New Year! Congratulations!

Here's to a 2009 filled with happiness and lots of FUN!


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AUTUMNFIRE 1/1/2009 11:58AM

    YOU CAN DO IT!!!

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LUVLIVIN 12/31/2008 11:10PM

  Good for you Mrsqriist, you are worth it, and you can succeed at being healthy. Good luck to you this new year. You are right, the scale is only one way to measure how good you are doing.

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KIMBERLYKC1 12/31/2008 8:21PM

    Making a plan is a really good start. Now set yourself some small goals and track them. Things like going to the Y 4 times a week or taking one of those walks with your DH. I wish I could get mine to walk with me but he has issues with one of his legs and it's just not something he wants to do. He is supportive in other ways and that's a great help. If you need any help you know where to find me....YOU GO GIRL!!!!!

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Friday, July 25, 2008

Whew, I am busy this week! Wow. I love being a captain, and I love being back in school, and I am SOSOOOOOO anxious for my husband to get home, but WHEW! I'm struggling to get in my cardio right now since all of my gas is being spent getting to and from the Ed Center (education) on post for the computer lab. The Y is on the other side of town, and the pool on post (and the gym that contains it) is closed for remodeling. My knees can't take as much walking or even elliptical training as they can swimming, so a 20 min walk per day is my max.

Oh, and my fridge's motor burned out (I think) so I'm having to throw out EVERYTHING. Deli meats, fresh meats, veggies, fruits, and all of my frozen stuff. It's at least $200 worth of meat alone, then you add in the biscuits, veggies, fruits, frozen soups and things, that's a lot of money. My apartment won't fix it soon enough since we didn't notice until all of the cold had leaked out of the fridge. Actually, that's probably why it died in the first place, the seal wouldn't seal anymore. If I'd been smart I would have turned the fridge down (temp up) and duct taped the door shut or something, but I wasn't. C'est la vie, I guess. This means I'll have to buy non-refrigerated items in sizes that aren't going to leave leftovers. Meh.

So, how is everyone else? lol emoticon emoticon

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KMKMOM 7/25/2008 9:31PM

    That's a bummer about your fridge. Do you have insurance? If so, that should help cover some of the costs. I hope that the pool and gym open back up again soon. Hang in there!

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DESIRE713 7/25/2008 5:44PM

    That sucks about your fridge! Maybe you could keep a cooler (I know that requires adding ice) for necessary stuff like milk.

Good luck & hope your fridge gets fixed soon!

Shelley ~Silver Sparklers

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Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Aha, only two weeks since my last entry. I'm getting better! Not much else going on right now after all the stuff in the last one, except that my husband may end up in Baghdad. Oh, and my YMCA membership.

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HEALTHYRED 7/14/2008 2:15PM

    Cute new Avatar!

That's cool you've joined a gym!

Have a super week!!

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Spark Break?

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Okay, so exactly one month after my big pledge to get going again, I've missed my requirements for the community team and haven't been around much at all. My computer is officially kaput, I think, it at least won't connect to the internet. I'm using my roommate's and trying to find the money to get a new one for me. I have gotten off to a decent start at UoPhoenix, especially considering computer troubles, and I think I may change my major to psychology rather than business. Business is so general in the first place, and most of an associate's degree is already gen-eds, so I figure I can get some more interesting stuff going to keep me focussed. I am debating taking an official SparkBreak since I already have such limited computer time, and most of it has to be spent on school. I feel like I've let my BLC team down completely, and I'm pretty sure I've been moved to floater anyway.

In other news, it's about 2 more months until my husband is coming home, maybe 3, and I'm going bonkers. I would kill for a hug, lol. Don't ever under-estimate human contact. Biggest thing I miss? Holding hands.

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NATUREPHOTO 6/14/2008 10:44PM

    I can totally emphathize with missing your husband. I could never have handled a long distance marriage. So I'm not really in a position to give advice. But I have found that various senses can increase the memory to where it is almost physical. Try to think of a smell or color or outfit or something that you associate with a particulary vivid hug or hand holding situation. Figure out what smell or other sense is associated with that time and make sure you get exposed to it a lot, close your eyes and remember with all your senses. I'm not good at describing this.

Over the years, I've come to realize that the smell of a gentle rain when outdoor temperatures are at the open window stage triggers very vivid and happy memories of a time early in our marriage when we lived in a tumble down trailer, were dead broke, and were as happy as could be with just each other's company. I can remember our exact height, how it felt to lay my head on his shoulder and for him to rub my back for no reason other than we were happy and content. When DH had gone to Florida about the time of Katrina and I hadn't heard from some of our family, I used that technique for a virtual back rub. It helped a great deal.


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