Wednesday, October 02, 2013
Went for pre-op on Monday and found out that I am going to have to be on a 800 calorie diet until surgery. Last night I had my "last supper". Steak, potato, salad, yeast rolls, broccoli, chocolate silk pie. It was all delicious and I came away from the table with my bulging, tight as a tick, full tummy. I felt a sense of relief. This could possible be the last time I feel this way.
At the same moment I felt overwhelmed. I say I am ready to do this. I have been getting prepared, getting educated about all this for over 6 months now. I am feeling sad at the same time...like I am breaking up with a dear companion who has helped me through many struggles but we both know that this was not meant to last and one of us would have to leave the other eventually.
So goodbyes were said and I am now sipping my water as I write this entry. The count down begins.