Thursday, December 22, 2011
Just wanted to pop in and wish my friends and everyone else a Merry Christmas.
Lord willing you will be seeing more of me in the new year. I went with my family to the McWane Science Center in Birmingham to carry my grandson and saw myself in several mirrors. I hated the way I looked! I am huge! I do not like that at all. I have never been this big in my life. With God's help, I will lose this weight and get into better shape. I was exhausted after spending a few hours walking all over that place. I will feel so much better when I do this. I have recently been reading where there is no such thing as 'willpower'. It is God's power that will help me be the best I can be. I have to stop sabotaging myself by eating unhealthy foods and also by not exercising. I have to stop making excuses. No one can do this but me and my Lord. No one made me this way, but myself. I didn't get this way overnight even though sometimes it seems as if I did, and I know I can not lose this weight overnight.
It is sad when one knows what he/she has to do, but not love himself or herself enough to do anything about it. I know what I have to do, but doing it is another thing all together. I must find an alternative to emotional eating. My emotions have been all over the map during the past few months. I have days where I cry at a drop of a hat. I get irritable over the smallest things, and that is not good. I will be spending more time with Jesus and reading my Bible to overcome this.
Please pray for me during this time. I am tired of being so wishy washy and not taking care of myself. I don't only need a new mindset, but a new heartset. My son is getting married in March, and I don't want to be this fat. Yes, I am morbidly obese according to the doctor. I am tired of seeing those words in my records. I will change: for the better or the worse. It has to be for the better, Lord. Please help me. I need you in the worst way, Lord. I give you my all.
Love you all,
Have a Merry Christmas and enjoy time with family and friends. JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
This is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it! I got up with exercising on my mind. I came into the living room and did nineteen minutes on my Wii Fit Plus. I know, you are saying "That isn't much." It is for me when I haven't exercised is several months. I have to get started sometime, somehow. I know to get to feeling better, I must exercise. I just have to do a little at a time.
I want to ask you all a question. How do you plan your meals? I always have had trouble doing this. I want to plan a month's meals, or at least a week, at a time. That way, I know what we are going to eat and what to buy at the grocery store. Our money is limited, so I don't need to keep going to the grocery store every few days and buying this or that. I need to say, okay, this is what we are eating this week; this is what we need. We have meat. I need to add healthy vegetables and fruit with it. It is hard knowing what to buy and what to do with it to make it tasty and healthy. My problem: I love to eat!!! I am gaining weight, and so is hubby. We aren't losing it.
I want to lose weight and get healthy. I am going to do this. With God's help and the support of my Spark friends, I can do this. I am reading my Bible more lately and plan to continue. I have fallen down so hard on doing this and on going to church. I hate that! I was raised by a preacher, so I know the importance of reading my Bible and attending church. I have failed God and myself. I will get better. :D
I hope all is going well with my spark peeps. I am feeling better. The nose is getting better daily, the toe is improving daily. My fibromylagia seems to be steady as long as I don't do too much at a time. My rheumatologist added 600 mg of Ibuprophen three times a day this month for my arthritis pain. I have felt well enough this week to work on a quilt three days in a row. I plan to work on it some today, too.
Keep me in your prayers and thoughts as we go on this journey together. I will do the same for you. May God bless you all!!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Hello my friends. I am so sorry that I have not been the friend I want and need to be for you all. I have been going through so much this summer, you would not believe. I know, that is not an excuse. Number one, I havenít been working on my weight loss, so I didnít get on here as often. I would for a few minutes, read a blog, spin the wheel, read something motivational, etc. then sign off. I didnít go to my teams or communicate with any spark friends (not much any way), and for that, I apologize. I will try to put what has happened since May in a brief explanation.
May: DH had two cervical vertebrae fused. He has since had a lot of pain, discomfort, difficulty in turning his head, you name it. The month of May also included me getting another year older. We wonít mention that loudly. LOL That all happened after spending a few days with our daughter, SIL, and grandson in Florida. That was the highlight of the month.
June: this month included DH recuperating. I considered changing my Lyrica to Savella when I went to the doctor in July. I was doing some research during this time on the differences between these two medicines. The highlight of this month was Jackson, the grandson, coming and staying with us for 1 Ĺ weeks. My DH turned another year older this month.
July: we took Jackson back home and spent the fourth with them. Love spending time with that baby. I went to see my GP and asked about changing to Savella from Lyrica. He gave me some samples and a prescription. I tried it, but was sick the whole month while taking it. My chest hurt so bad I thought I was having a heart attack or something. I hurt the whole month and was so sick. When I returned in August, I had him put me back on Lyrica. Almost immediately I felt better. Yes, I have the weight gain; yes, I have the swollen hands and feet, but I do not hurt as badly as I did with Savella. So, I guess I hurt without medicine, hurt with medicine, or feel some better and deal with weight gain and swelling.
August: oh man was this a bad month for me! I started out going to have my hearing checked with a local ENT. My hearing is not good, found out my septum needed to be straightened in a bad way, had allergy tests, started giving myself allergy shots, had nasal surgery, and had my yearly checkup. Today is the first Tuesday since that first one in August that I have not been to the doctor. One Tuesday in August, I had two doctorís appointments. Last Tuesday, I had two doctorís appointments. So that brings me to September.
September: Last Tuesday was my third ďafter surgeryĒ checkup at the ENT. At 8 AM I had a podiatrist appointment. This was the second one with him in a week. He had diagnosed a wart growing under my baby toe on my left foot. I had this growth for about a year and my GP was not sure what it was. He had removed it with a scalpel, but it grew back. I was scheduled to return on the sixth to have it removed. First, I was given several shots to numb my toe. Then, the doc used a scalpel and removed the wart. I didnít feel anything but pressure, which was good. Then he froze the place for several minutes. Even though he used a cone to guide the spray, it ran down onto the top of my toe and down part of the top of my foot. By the evening of Wednesday, I had a large blister all over my baby toe and the top of my foot where it had sprayed. I have had a rough week with this blistered area and the bottom of my toe. It is painful and even burns up my leg. I am scheduled to return on Tuesday of next week to have treatment again. I donít know if I can handle it again especially that soon. I even rescheduled my rheumatology appointment because I did not feel up to walking the distance I had to walk to get to his office. So I go to the RA doc on Monday and the podiatrist on Tuesday. I am beginning to dislike Tuesdays. LOL I wonder why?
Well, with all that said, where does this leave me? Tired. I want to lose my weight, but I must get myself in the mindset to be successful. As soon as my foot gets well, I plan to begin working out again. I have really been slack on this. I have got to get myself in better shape where I can do things with my grandson and any future grandchildren that may be in Godís plans. Not just for that, but for myself. I need to love myself enough to make changes in my life that are best for me. I am setting a goal to lose ten pounds by Thanksgiving. Hopefully, this will happen sooner, but at least by then. I have read some great success stories in the past two days that have given me encouragement and excitement to start working on my goals of getting healthy again. Please keep me in your prayers.
Love to all!
Sunday, July 03, 2011
I just want to say hello and wish everyone a Happy Fourth!!! I want everyone to stay safe and have fun. We are in Ocala visiting the daughter and her family and we brought the wonderful grandson home from visiting with us.
When we get home, I plan on getting back on track especially with exercising. Technically, I have not exercised since April. I know. That isn't good. I lost my focus again. I have to say, though, that since I have gotten off the Lyrica and was put on Savella, I lost some of the weight I gained with the Lyrica. I have had a difficult time switching medicine. Now the main side effect I am dealing with is the sweating profusely. I can just move a little and it is like someone poured a bucket of water over my head. I hate it!!!! I guess I will learn to deal with that eventually. I am feeling better, though. That is good, I think. Now if I can just get my chest to stop bothering me, I will be mucho better. I am learning that I really need to start my exercising at even a more intense or time level. I don't like doing a little bit and getting winded, or feeling exhausted. I thank God for being alive and able to do what I can.
I want to get into my quilting more than I have been. For so long, I haven't felt up to doing much of anything. I really want to be able to quilt long enough to make some rag quilts and try to sell them. I need to make some money and that is the easiest way I think I could do it. Any ideas quilters?
I am wonderfully made by God and I love Him so much. He has blessed me with a wonderful husband and two great children, son-in-law and grandson who is a light in my life. I enjoyed having Jackson visit with us. He is growing up so fast and is so smart! He amazes me everyday. By the way, we went to the "Save the Marion Theatre" here in Ocala and they had a costume contest. He dressed up in his Bumblebee costume and won the contest! They had Bumblebee camero there. He got so much attention! He didn't know what to think. It was so exciting! His picture was all over the front page of the newspaper and this one I save off the paper's website.
Have a blessed weekend and a safe one. Hope all is doing well. God Bless You.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Hello to all my friends and future friends! I just want to let you all know I love you and am wishing you a blessed Thursday. I am thankful for being alive another day. I am having some trials and have fallen off track, but as I read God's word and a devotional by Gini Andrews from Psalms where David begged for mercy and forgiveness, I feel that I can make it. If David, who committed adultery and was forgiven, Peter denied Christ three times, and still did such wonderful works for God, then I can be forgiven and become even stronger in Christ. Non-Christians feel that Christians have an easy life and are always winners. Because of these misleading slogans and beliefs, when we fail, we think we are useless. We, as Christians, must rise up out of that belief and be witnesses for what God can do for us, in us, and with us. We become stronger when we fall if we come to God for mercy and forgiveness. Instead of becoming bitter and negative, and wallow in our failure, we are to stand strong and get back up and continue our journey.
I am so thankful that God showed me this lesson today. I get so discouraged at times. I get mad at myself because I am so weak. I have to learn to lean on Him in my times of weakness. I want to encourage you to read Psalms 51:1-19, John 18:15-27, 21:15-17, and Acts 9:1-6, 15-16 and read what I learned today. It was what I needed and I hope it blesses you as much as it did me.
As far as my DH goes, he is doing well. He is still having some voice and swallowing issues, but that will improve with time. I am thankful all went well with his surgery and it is over! I just have to drive everywhere for a while. I don't like to drive! LOL Have a blessed day everyone! Thank you Riva for giving me the push to write this.
Love to all,
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