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Still and small . . .

Wednesday, February 05, 2014

I was late leaving the office last night and on my way home almost had a "close encounter" with a deer in the worst of ways. Thank goodness I'm saying "almost".

The road I travel is hilly and winding most of the way and very wooded. At 5:30 PM this time of year, it's twilight. Light rain was falling and as I came to the bottom of a curve, I saw two deer jumping across the road. From that distance, they almost looked like dogs but I slowed down anyway. When you see one or two, you can only guess there could be more. Since there was traffic behind me, the situation was tricky and I was more than uncomfortable.

What made it worse is that I was driving my new car. I had driven the same car for 16 years. It was paid for and relatively reliable and that was enough for me. At year end, we decided it was time that the repairs outweighed practicality, so I have this wonderful, new ride. It's so nice I almost feel like I shouldn't be driving it . . . that's just how my mind works. Crazy right?

Anyway, just as I suspected might happen, the third deer jumped out of the ditch only a few feet in front of me and bounded across the road. Since I had already slowed down, I missed it . . . but it was way too close for comfort. My heart felt like it was going to get to the house ahead of me from the adrenalin rush.

As you can imagine, it's all I thought about the rest of the way home. Now this new car just likes to move fast . . . ok, well, I know you're going to make me own some of the responsibility, as well I should, but the speed is so effortless I don't even realize how fast I'm going. Not at all like my other car.

This morning as I was preparing to go out the door once more my mind turned to the virtual "hurricane" that swirls around my life (it's called the family business) . . . and yet I know I'm not alone. There's that "still small voice" that whispers, "I'm with you . . . there is nothing ever to fear".

Why is it that when I try to "cast the whole of my care" they seem to stick to me like indelible ink? Then I'm reminded that my biggest struggle is to enter into peace. That's because entering this peaceful place is like going through the eye of a needle and there's just enough room for you. You have to let go of the cares to get through. Whoa, how is that possible?

Still and small is the voice . . . it's not groping for words either . . . I just need to be more attentive. More than that . . . responsive.

These words weigh so heavy on my heart today that I can't help but believe there is someone else out there that needs to hear this. No matter what dangers are out there, and there are many, I can listen to the "voice" and not be afraid.

Happy trails . . . peace out . . emoticon

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BUNNYCATS 2/25/2014 9:00AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Peace, Love, and Joy! Those close encounters with danger can really shake us up. It can help us realize how truly blessed we are for each moment we are alive. Life is such a miracle! Beautiful blog. Thank you.

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FLORIDASUN 2/10/2014 9:09AM

    Being self employed myself with my hubs for many, many years I know only too well the swirl of the business and the worry that goes with it. I have learned after the loss of our beloved son almost 8 years ago this coming May (has it REALLY been that long) that nothing in this world is worth losing your sanity over.

If you have a husband that loves you and a roof over your head and friends that make you smile...nothing else truly matters. Remembering this gives me much peace in times of turmoil and I hope it gives you peace when your head is swirling as well.

I learned that lesson the hard pass that horrific lesson on is my duty to honor my sweet angel guy, whose loss brought it all home for angel guy, my son. emoticon emoticon

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NISSANGIRL 2/6/2014 7:49AM

    Great blog, so glad u knew that where there is one there usually are more ! I have had several encounters with our Deer friends as well and it does make your heart skip a beat! glad u and the car and deer were ok! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LYNDA522 2/5/2014 10:49PM

    Hi there. Read your blog today and my heart hurt for you. It’s been a crazy day, just really busy, and I haven’t had time to respond to it before now.

I know nearly hitting the deer had to be truly terrifying. Oh my goodness… talk about a close call. A happy ending to a hair-raising incident, I guess… no one hurt. Just shaken. I guess the deer was clueless, lol, that’s probably a good thing.

Glad you have that new vehicle. You deserve lovely things, that’s what our heavenly Father wants for us. Good, lovely, beautiful things. I’m sure that’s why Mr. Kitty came into your life……. To enrich a special couple even more than they have experienced already. Soooo…. Don’t feel guilty about that new vehic…. Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy. We got a new to us used Lincoln MKZ about 18 months ago……. Still pinching ourselves, truthfully. Not that having a nice car is that new to us, but we’ve had some ups and downs financially, and the MKZ was a huge step up from what we had, an Avalon ’98! Although the Avalon transmission was better, lol!! Good grief, Toyota does make a good product. ;)

Anyway…. Back to your blog……sorry for the stress in other areas …. Gosh, there is no end to stress, is there? We are always faced with things that stretch us. I’m convinced everyone is being stretched unless their heart has turned to stone … their conscience seared … and they have actually quit living, they’re just existing, while not knowing it. Sad. I’m not judging… just observing. It happens. And who knows how they became that way? A moot point, really. But, back to you, a true sweetheart, I can tell just from our short “friendship” – Hang in there…knowing you are special, and cherished….by your "real" family, including fur members, and, of course, your cyberfriends.

It’s all good…. An annoying phrase sometimes, but I think there’s some truth in it….when we see our lives as a work in progress……… remembering that success is truly a journey, not a destination.


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    Loved the blog and the message. There is danger lurking around every corner but we can't live in fear. We have to proceed with caution and know that things will be as they should be.

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TAICHIDANCER 2/5/2014 6:37PM

    Great blog. I'm glad you are okay and that you can both listen to the voice and not be afraid.

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Pictures of Sylvester!

Sunday, February 02, 2014

As I promised, I was fortunate enough to get a few pics of Sylvester to share so you can see how handsome he is.

It took about 20 minutes and after about 60 pictures I only ended up with a couple that I could use, but at least it gives you an idea what he looks like.

He seems very content to be with us. We are glad he walked into our lives.

Have a great day! emoticon

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MZZCHIEF 2/22/2014 12:48PM

    Love his colors!

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 2/2/2014 8:46PM

    What a beautiful car Sylvester is!! You are so lucky he walked into your life and now has a great home with people who love him.
Blessings and hugs,

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LYNDA522 2/2/2014 3:03PM

    Oh, Sylvester's precious!! So glad you could at least get a couple good pics. I'm very happy for you guys and Mr. Puddytat. ;)

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TAICHIDANCER 2/2/2014 2:23PM

    Sufferin' succotash!

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NISSANGIRL 2/2/2014 2:05PM

    He looks right at home! so glad u found each other! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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STARPESCADO 2/2/2014 1:19PM

    So cute!

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KRAZY4KATZ 2/2/2014 11:49AM

    He's beautiful!

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FISHGUT3 2/2/2014 11:47AM

    still like the pics of your dogs! (a little bit biased)

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    He's a very good looking dude!! You are very lucky he adopted you. LOL. emoticon

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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 2/2/2014 11:37AM

    He's a cutie.

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SIEGRID 2/2/2014 11:15AM

    He seems to be very content!! Glad he has people who love him!!!

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Adopted by a kitty . . .

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Last Sunday, in the middle of the extreme cold that has been affecting the whole country Ms. Kitty showed up. Actually, she was under one of our storage buildings near our house. It's elevated about 6" and she was under it trying to find shelter.

When my DH want outside that morning, she began "yelling" at him. He was afraid she had been injured so he called to her and surprisingly she came to him. Her feet seemed to be tender from the cold but she rolled over as if she wanted to get a belly rub.

No collar or any indication of prior ownership, and continued this "verbal" assault. You could tell she had been trying to survive on her own because the claws on front and back feet were nothing but "stumps". Poor thing . . . it was clear she wasn't going anywhere and was desperately trying to communicate.

How can anyone ignore a suffering animal? We didn't have a cat so he fed her some of our dog food which she ate ravenously. He didn't see any visible signs of injury, only that the bitter cold definitely wasn't doing her any good.

I went out to get my take on the situation. She seemed very friendly and purring profusely as she continued to "talk" to me. "Yelling" really would describe it better. I was very skeptical of Ms. Kitty at that point. So many questions . . . was she healthy or pregnant? Did she belong to someone and how would we ever find her owner? The only thing that was clear at that point is that she needed shelter and food.

We decided to make a make-shift enclosure out of a plastic container to put on the porch with some bedding for her to get in out of the cold. On the south side of the house, there was even some heat gain during the afternoon and she eagerly went into the enclosure to stay warm.

Well, you guessed it, we decided to go out to get supplies for "kitty". What else could we do? Such a nice kitty after all. We made a spot in the workshop for her complete with an igloo that she took to right away. No visible health problems and used the cat box regularly.

Because of her size, I was afraid she was going to have kittens. I'm going out of town next week and didn't think I was going to have the time to take her to the Vet till I got back. She had become much calmer knowing she had a warm place to stay at night and regular food.

Yesterday, I just couldn't take not knowing if she was going to have a litter of kittens while I was gone and decided I had to take her to the Vet. She traveled well in the car with little "complaining" and was very calm while waiting our turn to be seen.

The first thing they did was scan her for a micro-chip after they heard my story and found none. When our turn to see the doc finally came, I relayed the story once again and let her out of the carrier for the vet to examine her.

Well, "Ms. Kitty is Mr. Kitty" and he is already neutered! OMG I am so happy. He pranced and purred the whole time he was with the Doc. He weighs in at 12.7 pounds. Doc guesses he's around a year old. After being wormed and receiving shots, I took him home very relieved we weren't going to have kittens.

He is mostly black with medium length fur, with white markings on his feet with glorious long white whiskers. Quite a handsome fellow although a little un-kept at the moment. Nothing that a little proper diet and shelter won't take care of. Not to mention regular love and care.

I have always wanted a "Sylvester" cat and honestly, he adopted us, so that shall be his name. How "purrfect" is that (sorry for the corn . . . I couldn't help myself)? I don't have any pictures yet, but I'll post some soon. I'm a happy girl . . . emoticon

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FLORIDASUN 2/10/2014 8:51AM

    AWHHHHHH best spark story EVA! Being a big soft hearted cat lover myself I just smiled through your entire story. Sylvester's middle name should be 'Lucky' because lucky he is that he found you instead of some cold hearted meanie who wouldn't have cared a whit about his fate. I really don't GET cat haters? emoticon An animal is an animal after all...and most all of them I consider to be our angels just hanging out with us wearing their little fur suits. What else would love us so unconditionally flaws and all. Cats may be a little more reserved than dogs in showing it but love us...they do! We lost our sweet Keanu last summer...broke my heart in a million pieces..he lived to the ripe old age of 18 and now he's with his momma cat and our beautiful son Josh.

God bless you and your sweet soft beautiful heart! emoticon

You can see my beautiful Keanu and his momma cat Chin Chin on my pic page. Two absolutely AWESOME (Alaskan Snow Cats) I miss them to this very day and always will! emoticon emoticon

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LYNDA522 1/27/2014 8:13PM

    What a great story! So enjoyed it. We've been adopted by a cat too, years ago. The (then) girls named him Waffles, of all things. We just kept a straight face and rolled w it. Best cat we ever had. Congratulations on your new family member! So happy for all of you. emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 1/26/2014 10:47PM

    I really love people who have to help a needy animal. It sounds like he found a good home. I can't wait for pictures! Bless you!!

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FOREVER27 1/26/2014 4:37PM

    What a great story! Thanks for sharing! emoticon emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 1/26/2014 3:45PM

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emoticon on the new addition to your family!!! Enjoy your "Sylvester".
Continued blessings and hugs,

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STARPESCADO 1/25/2014 11:49PM

    That's so awesome that you rescued a Kitty in this crazy weather!

Good for you! & the Kitty!

Best of luck to you with him - Huggies!

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FIT4MEIN2013 1/25/2014 9:54PM

    Pictures! I have 2 Tuxedo cats, 1 a short-hair male, the other a long hair female rad-a-muffin. I love Tuxedo cats!

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JANETTEB553 1/25/2014 7:23PM

    emoticon good to know cats are cared for.. emoticon

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NISSANGIRL 1/25/2014 2:24PM

    emoticon emoticon on the new addition! glad he has found a wonderful home! and Great Blog! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 1/25/2014 11:03AM

    Great story. Brings back fond memories of how we got one of our cats years ago. We opened the front door one day. This ball of fur came racing in, jumped up on the couch, laid down, and started purring. Of course he never left.

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NWESCH24 1/25/2014 11:02AM

    You have totally made my day!!! Being a "cat" person, I just don't get why people put them out. We have a person down the block who, with her own money, fixes any feral she can catch, feeds and waters them, and leaves the garage open enough so they can get in, but no other animal can. Unfortunately, there is another person who loves kittens, takes them in, has them fixed, but then says, oh, they didn't get along with the other cat; it got out and never came back, etc. I personally have one outdoor stray cat. For reasons too long to go into here, I could not bring it in at the time. What we did was buy it a house, get it a bed, feed, water, fix, and love it. Cody is 8 years old. She comes "home" every night, gets into bed and we cover her with old towels. I'll get up in the morning and she's still snug in bed, warm and ready to eat, drink, then go on with her day. We had Cognac adopt us a few years ago. This was one of the kittens that the kitten lover tossed out. We took care of him the same way and unfortunately, I don't believe he was vaccinated and we lost him. Now we have this other sweet thing that is fixed, but we have no idea what its sex is. We feed and water it, and it takes off. Friendly, but skittish.

You and your DH are wonderful loving people and you made my day. Look forward to seeing picture of Sylvester!!!

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Travel days are "hard" days . . .

Wednesday, December 04, 2013

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday. I just returned from a trip to visit my parents yesterday. I thought I would avoid some holiday travelers by flying on Tuesday but it seems there were plenty of others that thought the same thing. With weather systems to contend with and people on the move, it was still crowded in the airports. People carrying their pets in little bags and young families flying with small children all contributed to the congestion as we all tried to find our way home.

At the end of my flight to Atlanta, I still had a 4 hour drive to get home. It was a miserable rainy rush hour through the heart of the city. Not to worry though because I had some unexpected company.

After a year, I am still learning things about my Android tablet (which I love). I have a book app that if I turn on a certain option will "read aloud". Perfect for my otherwise solitary drive home as the drizzly darkness started to close in. Feeling warm and safe in my little car, I was accompanied by the "talking book" as I started the last leg of my journey.

My first impression was it seemed a little "robotic" and took a some getting used to. The voice is "female" and delivers rather like an old typewriter in a very steady rhythmic cadence. No expression about the text whatever. Imagine that . . . the words I heard touched me to the core, without the aid of any voice inflections.

In a nutshell, the book explored how we tend to find hiding places for ourselves where we are "comfortable". We do, or do not, or this or that or work for this degree or not work because . . . you fill in the blank . . . then we will feel like we are good enough for everyone else, and along the way somewhere, good enough for ourselves too . . . constantly striving to support others because if I don't perform, nobody else will, and well . . . I just have to do this. Performing to be comfortable, and afraid if we don't.

Then the author suggested, "It's not about what you should "do". . . for rightness . . . as much as "What do you believe?". You know, I really love that. I will be the first to admit I'm more of a "doer" than anything else. I'm learning new skills though . . . and performance doesn't have to be one of them.

It isn't that I'm going to stop "doing" the things I do. The point is, this reality allows me the "joy" of doing instead of the "burden of proof". Everything in life translates into joyful giving of oneself in the best possible way . . . . no matter what I'm are doing . . no matter how messed up someone else is . . . in the middle of chaos, I have hope to share.

I mess up (failing forward is more the truth . . . )? I'll try again from what I have learned. The only time you loose is when you quit trying, or when you keep doing more because that's how you "prove" you're good enough.

The graceful powerful words reminded me of my foundational beliefs. I can't seem to hear them enough and always refreshed when I hear them again. In a world where performance is rewarded from the time we start school till retirement, it's healing to feel the warmth of acceptance . . . on any level you might be at the time.

Yes, travel days are really tough, but by the time I finally got home, my feet hardly touched the ground . . . I wish the same for you this holiday season.

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Love, Jan

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LYNDA522 2/2/2014 3:23PM

    Well, honestly, galpal, when you put your blog on you sure have something to say. I loved the depth and insights of this article. So much truth here... A great and enriching read.


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DANCINGGRAM 12/10/2013 10:24AM

    Interesting all the way around. Thank you!

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WATERMELLEN 12/8/2013 7:30PM

    That "good enough" theme seems to be floating in the airwaves this time of the year. Sounds like a bit of an epiphany: so nice to hear from you on my page.

And yes: we all need to take more joy in being, struggle less to prove ourselves with "doing"!

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    I hate to travel on holidays. It is always challenging. My mom and grandma uses talking books a lot and really liked them. I've never tried them.

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IUHRYTR 12/6/2013 6:42AM

    Gave me insights I never had before and has me thinking about my hiding places. -- Lou

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MILMOM2000NEW 12/5/2013 8:47AM

    Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't have a tablet but have a droid. Wonder if I have that feature too. That sounds SO amazing! Traveling is so hard, eating wise and just being alone, but how cool that would be to have someone reading while you're driving!

Blessings to you this Christmas season! :)

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WATERONE 12/5/2013 7:14AM

    emoticon Sounds like an excellent book. What was the title?

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IMLOCOLINDA 12/5/2013 6:42AM

    emoticon I love the books on tape. Yours had some great points we could all take to heart. What was the name of the "book" you were listening to?

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And so we live . . .

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Ok, so I know it has been over a year since my last blog. You're right thinking I must have fallen off the face of the earth.

I've been like a voyeur though, always lurking around somewhere. No, seriously, I feel like I've gone through the eye of a needle and it's true what they say, whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Out of brokenness comes amazing things. Now I can use the lessons I've learned and understand that even negatives have a purpose. They have brought me to my moment of truth. Don't you think that's rare?

The story behind what I just said has changed me from the inside out. That's really the only way you can be changed anyway . . and I feel like I'm sitting on an active volcano getting ready to blow.

It's all good . .. I'm good . . .getting better all the time. So much to share. Love all you attentive SP buddies. You're the best, always stopping by my little place in cyber space. Hey look at that .. I made a rhyme.

Hope you are blessed and loving life. You deserve it you know. . . emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LYNDA522 2/2/2014 3:16PM

    Wow. Another blog of yours I like. There's a pattern here that I'm a-likin'. ;)

Your words weigh 10 lbs. Trials can be hell but when we can find the lesson in them, it makes the ride easier. Life really is agony and ecstasy, both. Thanks for your candor. Your blogs do brighten my day. (So, when is the next one? Hint hint.)

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IRON_RESOLVE 12/3/2013 4:18PM

    Perhaps it is our age, or the number of years we have been in the same relationship, or the age of our kids... I don't know, but I am in the exact same place you find yourself.
But we learn to stand in our own truth, and face everything. Strength is garnered from that alone.

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IUHRYTR 10/17/2013 10:51PM

    It has been nice seeing your status updates and now your blog message. Life sidetracks all of us at times and causing us to deal with things other than SP. Yeah, believe that. emoticon But most come back eventually to enjoy the support and encouragement we receive from our emoticons, like you! emoticon -- Lou

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 10/16/2013 8:27AM

    emoticon So happy to see you again!!!
Prayers, blessings and hugs to you as you continue your healthy lifestyle not only in fitness and nutrition but always in faith!!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 10/11/2013 9:43PM

    It sounds like you have experienced some challenges and I hope they are behind you and you are coming out of the valley. I'm looking forward to catching up with you. I sent a prayer for you. emoticon

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FIT4MEIN2013 10/11/2013 11:58AM

    emoticon As you know, your Sparkpeeps will support you in everything, whether fitness related or not! emoticon

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VALERIEMAHA 10/11/2013 8:06AM

    Waking up this morning, I smile. Twenty-four brand new hours are before me. I vow to live fully in each moment and look at all beings with eyes of compassion.
-- Thich Nhat Hanh

Good morning!

What a treat to have YOUR presence among us once again!

Part 1: Life

The reticent volcano keeps
His never slumbering plan;
Confided are his projects pink
To no precarious man.

If nature will not tell the tale
Jehovah told to her,
Can human nature not survive
Without a listener?

Admonished by her buckled lips
Let every babbler be.
The only secret people keep
Is Immortality.

-- Emily Dickinson

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JRDIAMOND4 10/10/2013 7:17PM

    So glad you are OK! Life can be a bit rocky at times. You are among the few that learn lessons from the negative and remain positive. Kudos!!
I pray the volcano erupts in a good way emoticon

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SUNSHINE192DAY 10/10/2013 5:34PM

    Glad you're back!

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