Monday, August 22, 2011
I've been losing and gaining the same 10 lbs for about a year now. It's incredibly frustrating/depressing/(insert downer adjective here) at times, but as I look to the future I am gaining more confidence that the last 'gain' is over, and it's because I'm MENTALLY there.
Every day, several times a day, I think to myself 'I'm going to be thin!' and my body responds with a HUGE smile in my face. Not just a 'ok, that sounds good' kind of smile, but a full on, dimples showing, give a little giggle, cheesy looking smile. Something like this:
It's one of the first things I think when I wake up and I go to bed content with that smile on my face.
Walking through the mall past all the fast food joints, knowing I made a good choice by eating a healthy meal before heading out to where temptation loomed, I was grinning.
Walking past the 'regular' sized clothing stores, knowing I would be shopping there soon, I was grinning.
Even when I bought some plus sized clothes, I was still grinning. Thanks to my efforts I"m looking better in the size I am and feeling more confident (not to mention I got a great deal on them so I can save some $$ for when I can buy smaller sizes - HUGE GRINS THERE!)
I've always been an optimistic person in most aspects of my life, but when it comes to my body image I've always been more along the lines of self-loathing. Finding something to smile about has never come easy. So happy to add 'UNTIL NOW!'