Friday, March 12, 2010
I used to be obsessed. I was obsessed with the scale and I was obsessed with my BMI. In fact, every time I lost a little bit of weight, I would go online and check to see if my BMI was getting any closer to 'normal'. It was so frustrating to see that I was still 'overweight' according to my BMI. Meanwhile, I weighed in the 160's and was wearing size 8 jeans. Why did I let that dumb number get to me? Better yet, why did I let that dumb number cause me to gain all the weight back that I had lost to get into the 160's and those size 8 jeans? That was almost four years ago. Four years ago, I lost 40 pounds, was exercising, eating well, and felt great. But all I wanted was to get that BMI down to 'normal'. Instead I gained all the weight back and last year at this time, found myself weighing over 200 pounds and wearing size 14-16 pants. I didn't even bother to look at my BMI then.
I knew I needed to get the weight off again, but how would I ever get to be a 'normal' weight?? That is when I found Spark People last April. I just realized this week, almost one year later, that yes I lost have lost almost 40 pounds and yes, I am wearing those size 8 jeans again, but this time, I really couldn't care less what my BMI is. I mean yea, I have an idea what the number is and, yea, I know the weight I need to be 'normal', but that really doesn't matter. Now I know my body and I know that I may never get to 'normal'. I know that just maybe, my normal is different from the BMI 'normal.' I may never get to 'normal' , but that doesn't matter because I am fit...and oh yea, I wear size 8 jeans.