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Fell off Wagon big time

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Ever since our Thanksgiving dinner (Canada) I have been totally binging, always hungry, eating whatever I want (which included copious amounts of desserts, chips and other carbs from hosting dinner parties twice this week) , and now I am up 6lbs from last week and feeling like utter crap. :( I hate this all-or-nothing thinking!!!!

I was trying to do a lower carb plan before, which may have inflated the loss before due to water release....but it still is a big blow when I eat carbs again and have the scale spring back with a vengeance. Perhaps I should stop doing that. Heh. The initial weight loss is so addicting though from low carb plans!!

I know I shouldn't be doing anything that I am not able to commit to long term, so I think I need to come to terms with the fact that in my life, especially being a vegetarian, carbs happen. Perhaps instead I should focus on the good, complex carbs - whole grains etc. and try to just cut out the processed stuff and sugar.

As I began to tell myself that I am going to start over, and get it right this time, I remembered some sage advice I saw once..."Its time to stop starting over, and to just keep going".....Its so true. Its a journey, and I am going to have times where I mess up....and I just have to pick myself up and keep going. "Starting over" tends to set me up for failure, as there is always an end to the streak. This time I'll just keep on going.

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BEVSMOSS 11/13/2011 9:37AM


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    I think you're right. Carbs are impossible to avoid, so focusing on complex carbs would be better, but don't be too hard on yourself if the simple carbs slip in there a little. My mantra is not to totally deprive myself. When you try to tell yourself you have to stay away from something your mind automatically shifts into "But I want it!" mode. You're probably better to allow yourself to have just a little of what it is you want and just make sure that you don't go overboard. I have always been the type to try to deprive myself of all the bad things I know I shouldn't have, but in the end I always have given in and gone way overboard. This time around I'm just trying to make sure I record what I eat and stay within my calorie budget for the day. So far it is working great and the bonus is that because I am enjoying what I want (or a healthier makeover of it), the crazy cravings are pretty much gone.
Just keep on going, like you said and you'll get where you want to be. emoticon

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NETGYRL 10/18/2011 11:37AM

    I really like that philosophy. No starting over! Just get up and get moving. 3 months from now this 6 lbs won't mean anything. No looking back. You can do it!

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PICKIE98 10/18/2011 10:33AM

    I think your wagon ran over my butt!! Carbs are so hard to wean from!! I started numbering my food as I prepare it,, veggies are always eaten first to fill me up,, water too..

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DEBJAE 10/18/2011 10:05AM

    That's a great way to think, just keep going! I've got some scrapes & bruises from falling off my own wagon a time or two...I just dust myself off and 'keep going'!

You might as well focus on what's ahead than what's behind!

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Hungry at the Mall

Saturday, October 01, 2011

That was a bad idea to go to the mall hungry. I went to the food court and everything seemed appetizing and I feasted my eyes on my nemesis - Taco Bell. As I went to the line and looked at my old faithful - Taco Supreme Combo with Fries Supreme I thought.......it will taste good for about 5 minutes then I will feel guilt for the rest of the night and the scale will show it in the morning. So I walked right past it and grabbed a Diet Coke on the way home so I wouldnt feel so hungry and had dinner when I got back!!!! It took so much willpower to walk away but i did it and it feels soooooooo good!!!!!! It sets the tone for things to come and keeps the momentum going - if I can resist my favorite fast food joint when I am hungry, I can do this once and for all!!!

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PICKIE98 10/18/2011 10:33AM

    W_O_W!! You are a strong person!!

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JOJOBEE318 10/1/2011 9:37PM

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Good job! I'm not sure I would have had the willpower!

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    Awesome job! I hate going to the mall when I'm hungry too. And of course Taco Bell is one of my faves too. Good job resisting the temptation! emoticon

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FWBLONDIE 10/1/2011 1:04PM

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Nice job!!! its amazing how walking away makes you feel so strong and powerful!!! nothing could possibly taste as good as that felt!!! keep up the great work!

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104 reasons to lose 104 pounds

Thursday, September 22, 2011

I have been seeing several of these posts lately, so I decided to compile my own reasons why I am on this journey to lose 104 lbs.

My 104 reasons why I am going to lose 104 lbs (and keep it off):
1. Because I am worth it.
2. Because I deserve to have more energy.
3. To feel more attractive
4. To prove to myself that I can achieve goals I set.
5. To use this accomplishment as momentum for reaching other goals I have
6. To increase my self-esteem that has been damaged through years of self-neglect.
7. To have more energy to play with my baby boy
8. To be a good example for my son
9. To keep up with my husband
10. To have more energy/less pain if I am to become pregnant again
11. To never be confused with being pregnant AGAIN when I am not!
12. To feel comfortable changing at the gym and not wanting to hide
14. To not be so red-faced while working out at the gym
15. So I like what I see in the mirror
16. To not feel self conscious eating anything in front of people other than a salad!!
17. So I like getting my picture taken again!
18. So I donít feel the need to do the Fat Girl Angle Shot again!
19. So I donít feel like I have to hide behind someone when getting my picture taken
20. So I donít have to keep untagging photos that friends post of me on Facebook that I feel are unflattering (most of them!!)
21. So I am not shocked when I see pics of myself thinking ďhow did I let myself go like that?Ē
22. So I can weigh less than my husband. Much less.
23. So people can pick me up off the ground (hugs etc.) and I donít have to feel self-conscious
24. So my husband can pick me up easily for other indoor activities ;)
25. So I can feel comfortable wearing a super sexy costume for Halloween 2012.
26. So I can wear sexy outfits when going out dancing
27. So I can shock the heck out of people I havenít seen in a while.
28. So I can shock the heck out of/inspire strangers who think I must have always been thin
29. So I can say I LOST 104 FLIPPING POUNDS!!
30. To feel proud of myself
31. For my husband to feel proud of his smoking hot wife ;)
32. So I can be an inspiration to others
33. So I can be an inspiration to myself
34. So I can eat more (at the maintenance level).
35. So I can wear a bikini for the first time EVER!
36. So I donít feel self conscious at the beach on holidays
37. Because muscle definition is sexy, and you canít see it under fat.
38. For the sheer joy of weighing what I did in high school.
39. To be able to shop in regular stores again!
40. To not have people inspect my cart while grocery shopping
41. To not worry about going into Dairy Queen once in a while!
42. So I am not discriminated against based on weight
43. I donít want to be the fattest one in the room
44. I donít want to feel self conscious grabbing a bite to eat at a cocktail party
45. I want to have my body as a temple.
46. I want to live more actively, which is harder to do when obese
47. To give Ďem something to talk about.
48. To love being nekkid!!
49. To not have to keep pulling down my flipping shirt while exercising in fear of *gasp* people seeing my belly
50. To finally let go of all that emotional baggage that precipitated the weight gain in the first place.
51. To finally put myself first.
53. To not have to wear bike shorts underneath skirts
54. To not have to worry about wearing spanx or other control garments
55. To give a big figurative F U to those former dates who rejected me because I wasnt thin enough for them.
56. I want to be a MILF.
57. To not have weight related aches and pains anymore
58. To be able to run easier (heck do many things easier)
59. To not be out of breath when hiking or climbing stairs
60. To have an easier time in heels
61. To shop for clothes I actually like, not what fits and hides fat
62. I want to wear colours and patterns, not just black!
63. I want to be able to wear shorts.
64. My heart will thank me
65. My lungs will thank me
66. I want heads to turn at the gym
67. I just want to turn heads period.
68. To not having to worry about the dreaded weigh in at the Dr. office
69. Because I have collarbones and I want to see them!
70. Because I am tired of having just ďa pretty faceĒ as they say
71. I want to wear a half-top.
72. I want to feel sexy, not frumpy.
73. To never worry about the asking my weight for rockclimbing etc
74. To stop putting a pillow in front of my belly to hide it when sitting down!
75. To be able to do more yoga moves because the fat isnít in the way
76. To be able to get into other interesting positions in the bedroom ;)
77. To not feel self conscious taking the elevator
78. To not feel self conscious eating popcorn at the movies if I feel like it
79. To prove I donít need to belong to any proprietary group to lose weight.
80. To feel fine sharing how much I weigh
81. To have ďafterĒ photos and display them proudly
82. To feel good wearing a thong
83. To love my side profile for the first time ever.
84. To feel more womanly
85. To be able to wear knee high boots and have them zip up.
86. To not feel held back from doing things because of my weight.
87. To wear clingy clothing!
88. To feel unstoppable
89. To not wish I had her figureÖ.I HAVE her figure!
90. To have a normal BMI
91. To not cringe at the facebook friend request of an old high school buddy, due to my weight gain since then
92. To be the best person I can be!
93. To not always be on the lookout for friends taking pics because they need to get my ďbestĒ angle
94. To not be the odd one out in pics with all my frikkin skinny friends!!
95. To feel strong
96. To feel more in control of my life
97. To feel comfortable in my own skin
98. To realize my full potential
99. To look younger
100. To feel younger
101. To be done with fat rolls
102. To wear strapless dresses/tops without worrying about ďspillageĒ
103. To feel more comfortable being the centre of attention

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IFATFIRST77 9/30/2011 11:36PM

    What a cool idea! Great blog !
Keep kickin butt !!! emoticon
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    AWESOME! I have to wait a while to do my reasons, otherwise my blog would take about an hour to read (too many pounds!!!)

Great list...Wishing you much success on reaching those goals!! emoticon

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JORDANA84 9/27/2011 3:44PM

    I can't wait to do this when I reach a milestone! Awesome job so far

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SPARROWDIVER 9/23/2011 1:49PM

    Great post, great reasons! I've been working on one myself after seeing several others, and mine is 104 as well!

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GIRL*IN*MOTION 9/22/2011 5:03PM

  all awesome reasons! I know you'll check every single one OFF the list and feel proud doing so! Keep up the great work.

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CRYSTAL8488 9/22/2011 4:51PM

    These are a lot of great reasons! You can do this!! Best wishes for you on your journey. emoticon


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Food Train Derailment and recovery.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

I was doing so well with my eating, and the scale was moving and things were wonderful until Saturday, when I celebrated my friends birthday and went off plan with food and alcohol, which led to Sunday and Monday also being food disasters, with the mindset of "well i blew it, might as go full on off the wagon", but feeling upset with myself for continuing to eat like that.

Luckily last night I had a fleeting sense of reason and told myself to STOP!!! One slip up doesnt have to mean a total derailment, and to get back on plan. I also made myself track what I ate yesterday. Over 3500 calories!! Ugh. It did feel better though to face the music and to get back on track.

I really wish I could get to the bottom of what causes that dysfunctional thought process which leads to destructive behaviour so maybe I could stop it in its tracks. Is it a way of punishing myself for a slip up knowing I will feel horribly for it?? I just dont know. There is clearly no logic to it.

I DO know that I am really glad that it only lasted a few days and that I am back on the wagon now. I am up 3 lbs from Saturday morning but hopefully that is mostly just water from all the sodium I consumed. Ugh. Perhaps being more gentle with myself when I make a slip-up food wise will prevent this from happening again. I hope so.

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RICHILA 9/13/2011 1:03PM

    Picking yourself up and brushing yourself off so you can keep going is real life. Good for you for stopping those destructive habits and getting back to healthy habits again. emoticon

Spark On! We Got This!

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People need to mind their business!

Monday, August 16, 2010

This is going to get ranty.

My husband and I celebrated our 1st anniversary recently and it seems like pressure is on from everyone to have a baby now. Questions from everyone - when when when?

Yes, we have been trying, no its not happening yet, yes I have gone to the Dr. and really....I dont like talking about it with people!! But thats not the worst part....3 weeks ago, one of the NUNS comes up to me after church with a brilliant smile and says "oh, you look like you have some news!!!".....and just this past sunday another lady asked me if I was just gaining weight or if there is a baby in there!!! I am actually LIGHTER than I was last year.......maybe it is distributed differently........but thats besides the point.....SOME PEOPLE JUST HAVE NOOOO TACT!!! If I had some news to share, I WOULD BE THE ONE TO OFFER THE INFORMATION!!!!!!!!!

Trying not to feel like a big blimp, but I must say, that was a big blow to the self-esteem for me. I am tired of feeling like this.

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SAVINGHANNAH 9/18/2011 9:43AM

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TIMETOGETTHIN 9/4/2011 11:41PM

    Hmmmm - they must have known something - cause the next month I was!!! :)

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    How RUDE! I wonder, if you flipped the question back to one of those nuns, would she change her habit? LOL

Hang in there, never mind the busybodies - and WORK, you're gorgeous!

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TIMETOGETTHIN 8/16/2010 10:12PM

    Thanks for the words of encouragement all! I will try to make their hurtful words fuel something positive - like a change once and for all so nobody will mistake me for pregnant again!!

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2QUILTS4ME 8/16/2010 7:53PM

    I am sorry too!! It is too bad that some people are so ignorant. Even though you try not to think about it, it is bothersome. I had the other problem. I went into a maternity shop when I was pregnant and the the salesgirl said "Well are you pregnant?" In other words she thought I was just all round overweight!! They are out there and we just have to consider the source and move on, as hurtful as it is. We are all pulling for you!!!

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LIMASTAR 8/16/2010 7:06PM

  It's no ones business but yours!! When & if you want children is a very personal decision and should be made by you & hubby, not by the church members, family, friends or even strangers.

Whatever happens hope it's by your choice.

Happy Monday.

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BARBARA-C 8/16/2010 5:07PM

    Please don't let them get to you...don't succumb to the ignorance of others, and you're absolutely right, people should mind their own business! Don't stress over the whole thing...everything will happen when it's MEANT to happen. He has a plan for all of us, and maybe His plan for you is to be healthy first, in order to bring a healthy child into the world.

Just try and do what I do (even though it CAN be hard sometimes). Take the negative and ignorant comments with a grain of salt and amplify in your mind all of the positive ones!!

Don't let them sabotage your progress!! Like a NUN in my school always used to say..."empty vessels make the most noise!"

You're doing GREAT! Keep up the good work!



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MEL_UNRAU 8/16/2010 5:02PM

    OH NO!!! I am so sorry! That is so incredibly insensitive. We get all the time "when are you going to have another one?" Because, since I have had some issues with my ovaries in the past, we were told that it would be "next to impossible" for me to conceive, we started trying for our son on our honeymoon. Six weeks later... I was pregnant! Who knew?! Now everyone assumes that we want a big family and they don't understand why I don't want a second child.

Anyway, I am sorry and I hope that you are able to conceive when you are ready... and everyone who is rude and pushy can go fly a kite!!!

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