Thursday, September 16, 2010
Last night I realized what a Joy it was to be able to exercise.
It was sheer pleasure to be able to move my body to the best of my ability following along the exercise DVD.
I came to the conclusion that I have many people who support my efforts to exercise. First of all my husband, my spark friends. I also consider My Exercise Instructors to be part of my team like Leslie Sampson, Richard Simmons, Cathe, Stephanie Huckelbee, Amy Bento, Jari Love, Deniese Austin, and many others. They all want me to SUCEED !!! I included them on my Sucess Team since I have their videos.
Multiple Sclerosis makes exercising much more of a challenge for me due to weakness, fatigue, and lack of coordination, muscle control and many other reasons. In the last year I have overcome paralysis, inability to roll over, or get out of a chair by myself. I was floppy like a rag doll. So exercise is a challenge. It has left me with permanent left side weakness and foot drop and numerous other serious issues.
I choose to not let it ruin my life and to FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT for my ability to walk, run, and heal my life. I will not willingly roll over and let it steal my abilities.
I realized either I can choose to Dread exercise like I have for years or take control of my attitude and choose to find it JOYFUL. I choose JOY !!! Exercising allows me to TAKE CHARGE of my LIFE, my HEALTH, and my response to LIFE. Exercise rewards me by retraining my neuropathways which gives me the precious gift of being able to walk.
What kind of attitude will you have towards exercising?
Yesterday I completed PowerfitBack, Biceps, and Thighs. I can't say enough how this series of DVD's are helping me get back into shape. They are made for beginners, yet they are challenging for me. It encourages me to exercise daily as it is short and sweet and is something that I CAN DO !!! It came with assorted resistance bands. Yesterday I was able to use a stronger resistance band. I also did Gorgeous Core's Metabolism Bootcamp. Both DVD's have exercises that help with balance training along with some cardio and strength or toning type exercises.
I have learned to FOCUS ON MY ABILITIES not my disability.
Everyday I have taken time to put me first and create time to exercise even when I don't feel like it. I learned to have JOY rather than think of it as a burden or it's too hard. Viewing it differently makes it easier to get it done.
The paradime shift has resulted in me loosing five pounds. I was 188 and am down to 183. I have accepted that I may never be as strong and coordinated as others without disabilities. Now I FOCUS ON WHAT I CAN DO.
I modify to the best of my ability and if I just can't do the exercise I will substitute something else to fit in the time like marching in place until the dvd goes to something that I am able to do. I just KEEP on MOVING and TRYING hoping that one day I wil be able to do the exercises as well as they do.
It has been a Rewarding beginning. I am a slow looser which I will admit to being. I know one day little at a time I will Make my dreams come through.
I believe the biggest thing that has affected my workouts besides my attitude or paradigm shift is finally getting approved for provigil. It seems to give me just enough energy to get things done around the house. It helps to uplift my mood and give me HOPE !!!
My next goal is to pull out the recipe books and get back into cooking. Something that was too exhausting for me to do. I have cut out some new tasty looking recipes out of fitness magazines and hung them on the frig door to try out.
The house is looking cleaner and more organized as the medication gives me energy to move a bit. I am not hyper and I still get fatigued, but it makes a major difference in my life.
The medication makes it feel like I can move my body y legs and arms don't feel as heavy and fatigued, something that I lived with on a daily basis. It has also worked on lightening up the cognitive fog. It hasn't removed it, but it does give me hope that maybe my brain will have a chance to heal. I think that has to do with the uplifting part. It feels like my arms and legs aren't quite as heavy with the medication. It felt like my limbs each had a 100 pound weight attached that you could not take off. You just had to make it through the day the best you could with weights attached.
To those who are trying to get Provigil approved, I found out some important bits of information to help you acquire it.
Blue Cross is my insurance and Medco is the medication part of it. My first denial letter said that it was only approved for sleep disorders. My second letter had a couple of new items added. It is approved for treatment of depression related fatigue and night shift differential disorder or something like that. I worked night shift for years as a nurse. I also have been struggling with depression due to my increased worsening of my symptoms due to multiple sclerosis. I didn't tell the doctor as I did not want to go on antidepressants. I also was very ashamed of admitting to them that it was getting more difficult to control my emotions. It does damage the happiness center of you brain. A non-technical term.
In the past I took antidepressants when a doctor said I was depressed even though I did not feel depressed. I was in pain and when they can't figure out what is wrong with you they stick a label on you to satisfy themselves. The medications made me feel like I was going crazy. I went on a spending spree, slept even more, gained lots of weight, made me feel nauseated and suicidal. The did not work what so ever.
Medco pharmacist's said it is important to tell what meds. you tried for energy. I also listed dietary changes such as raw food and juicing, being a vegetarian. I had already taken one medication for energy which put me to sleep.
I also listed the antidepressants I had tried and the side effects that they gave me. I gave all this info. to the doctor and his nurse was able to write an appeal letter. Since I had tried the provigil on my own I was able to report the medication worked for me. Which was included on the report, along with how much I sleep. Together all this information worked saving me the expense of getting a sleep study which was their next requirement.
I hope this will inspire those of you who have challenges such as Multiple sclerosis or other illness to fight for coverage of their medications.
I hope this information helps others to fight for whatever medications they may need but have been rejected by their insurance.