Sunday, December 07, 2014
aaaannnnnddddd the pattern continues. Stepped on the scale with a +5 number in front of me. I shouldn't be surprised, I'm not following plan and I'm not exercising, so in reality-what should I expect??? This is the moment where I wish I had a Bob, Jillian, Chris or Heidi to help me break through whatever wall is preventing me from being successful in this journey. I may be a therapist, but I can't psychoanalyze myself.
The more times I start and fail just solidify that this is more of a mental/emotional change rather than a physical one. There is something that fuels choosing a soda over water, a Hershey kiss over cucumbers, sleep and reading over exercise. Now if that/those reasons would present themselves to me so I can address it that would be amazing. No such luck though, gotta do this on my own.
I'll start today with some exercise and I'm wanting to restart my carb cycling. That system works, I just fell off the horse with it. Food is my addiction and so is pop so I can't have any of the bad stuff. I need to detox and quit cold turkey on the stuff because everytime I get a taste it's all over for me. Here goes nothing. My goal is to enter the new year at least 10 pounds down with enough positive momentum behind me to keep it going strong!