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What IS that?

Saturday, May 26, 2012

so i keep having this crashing fatigue, sore large muscles, like my biceps, my shins ache, and i can barely walk without wanting to lay down and cry. so, what is that???? i can't exercise, i dont have the energy. i'm going to bed earlier every night...last night it was 9 pm!! any thoughts????

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MSGRANNYMAE 12/23/2013 10:14PM


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LORI1132 5/26/2012 2:38PM

    I would definitely see a doctor. Best of luck to you. Be sure to review medications with a health professional to double check on side effects or interactions.

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AZMOMXTWO 5/26/2012 11:04AM

  I have no idea I would go see a Doctor

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only worse from here

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

we're sorta poor...i mean, we pay our bills, and we manage. we have what we need. we can't take vacation or anything like that but i don't care. we don't take the car on frivolous trips; just to grocery shop and to work. our fun is a ride on the motorcycle. but in a few months, we're going to be losing about $600 a month plus my medical. that's gonna make this worse for sure. not really sure how we're gonna manage, and i'm really scared. i pray alot.
i wonder how many other people have such things to worry over.

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SLIMMERJESSE 5/22/2012 9:31PM

    It's very tough out here for many of us. SP is kinda a LALA land where everyone seems happy happy. But the reality plays behind the scenes.

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MILLISMA 5/22/2012 9:21PM

    So sorry! Will keep you in my prayers. emoticon

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LINDA! 5/22/2012 8:08PM


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SETAGOAL1 5/22/2012 8:00PM

    You have not given up on yourself. You now know you are the only one that can make it happen for you.

You have the power to succeed or fail.

You have chosen to succeed.

Few baby steps complete a long journey

Writing is progress!!!

Janet- emoticon

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FLUTTERFLI 5/22/2012 7:46PM

    Your not alone TICKELBEE, DH lost his job 4 yrs. ago, on unemployment 3yrs., ran it, no income for 3 months, then he finally got called the week before Christmas for a maintenance job at a hotel. Thank God. Pay isn't much more then enemployment was and no benefits, I had to have OR 2 yrs. ago, I got some fiancial aide from the hospital, took 2 yrs. to get the rest paid off. We've been struggling ever since. I know I worry so much and I'm scard to death at times too. We don't take vacations or trips and other stuff either. We've had a camper for about 20 yrs. now and when DH lost his job, we thought we'd have to sale it and quit camping, at least till things improved. Well we started camp hosting at the campground we've gone to for about 30 yrs, it's free camping and firewood We have several jobs to do, but we love it. It's harder now DH is working cause I'm there most of the time by myself. But we want to keep our foot in the door so not to lose senority. Our son lost his job 3 weeks after DH. He fianlly found a job the week before Christmas last yrs. They have a 2 1/2 yr. old beautiful little girl . She has been such a joy !!!
l tell ya' one thing, we need to learn how to not to worry so much, so if you do, please let me know. ; } People don't realize how much worring does to our bodies. It makes us sick !!! We have to learn to take a day at a time, like you said pray a lot, Put ourselves in God's hands. And never give up hope !!! We'll all get through these rough times. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.
Good luck to all of you !
Love ya', Flutterfli emoticon

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CHUM48 5/22/2012 7:20PM

    I did at one time, began working at one situation at a time and now I'm free

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....and just where did you get your doctor of psychiatry degree, might i ask???

Thursday, May 17, 2012

i have been going through some awful bad times, and have not been coping at all. i have blacked out once. i know i am not right. i agreed to seek counsel. well, i went to see the dr, and got prescribed a regimen of drugs...then i saw a counseler ONCE so far. now everyone thinks i should be whistling dicie out my vajaja!! it doesn't work like that. and all the things i have wrong with me, guess what, you do too!!! some of what's wrong with me IS you...i internalize everything...i'm a part time caregiver to my mom, and part time to our grandson.
our daughter is divorced and gets no child support. hubby's on disability. i have to fake hips, i've been battling clinical depression for a few years now...so GET OFF MY BACK , LEAVE ME ALONE, AND LET ME AT LEAST TRY TO LEARN TO COPE. OKAY??????

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CJBAGGINS 5/17/2012 11:31PM

    Oh, man, sometimes people should mind their business, eh?

I always think that a complicated situation needs a complicated solution, not a pat three second one, that supposedly applies to everyone. Life doesn't work that way!

Hang in there. Continue with your treatment, and your return to wellness at your own pace!


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It's all just my opinion....

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

so, here i am wondering who would have ever thought they'd be having to consider the political circus we are about to ..... i mean, i'm conservative. i believe abortion is wrong, marriage between gays can't exist, free speech is not a felony, and we don't have a real leader for our country. i understand that gays want some kind of way to include their loved one in their choices, but i just can't call that a marriage. i don't think my tax dollars should pay for abortions. i want to be proud of who i vote for. so i don't think i can vote. no, it just my opinion, but it hurts.

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MARY58ELIZABETH 5/16/2012 9:40PM

  We all have a right to vote, pick the person who's choices are the closest to yours, and VOTE! We all should be heard, Its our right and privilege as Americans.

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BARCLE 5/16/2012 9:19PM

    and while we may not all agree with each other's opinions I think it's great that we're free to express them emoticon

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A winner, a quitter, & a liar...

Saturday, April 14, 2012

since september, 2007, i've been logging into Sparkpeople. The first goal was for our 35th anniversary on Hawaii. I weighed 259 pounds...In june of '08 when we flew to Hawaii, i weighed 206#. I felt like a winner on the way to something special. When we returned home, we found out our youngest daughter was filing for divorce from her husband for using drugs. A little boy was involved, our grandson, and we, meaning, I lost it. I quit worrying about weight loss, and started to worry about our daughter and grandson. They moved in with us. There were lots of arguments and stresses. Soon, but what really seemed like an eternity, they found a place to live. She had moved on and had met a really nice man to build a relationship with...we thought, but he turned out to be on 'medical marijuana' for his RA, and she just couldn't live with it. He was gone. Now she has a 'good' partner, and a best friend that we've known forever, and he has no secrets.
But all this sent me into a clinical depression, i trust no one, i hate my life, and i hate people. Other than that, I'm ok. During this time I gained again, going up to 239#. It made me sick. So back I came to SP and soon i was down to 211. But the depression and meds and emotional eating have me now 12 pounds heavier, again. Will it never end? i have
an appt with a psychiatrist on Tuesday. Maybe i do need help coping with all my issues,
i've been lying to myself that i don't. and lying on sparkpeople, because my tracker still says 211, and i've refused to change it!! I'll let you know how it goes......

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CATHOLICCORGI 4/14/2012 6:01PM

    There is a lot on your plate, my friend! Too much for you to try to handle alone. Getting help is a smart move! I hope you will continue to let your SparkFriends know what is going on with you. We WILL support you!
When you admit you have a problem, you are on your way to solving it!
I'm at my wits end with dealing with a DH who has had strokes, and it is like living with a 5 year old. Sometimes you just get to the point where you want to stop the world and get off. It may not be rational or possible...
I admit that Sparking IS helping me cope better. Just being accountable to myself and having some sense of normalcy here on SP helps.
Take it one day at a time! One step at a time!
I will remember you in my prayers!
We can rise above our circumtances! The only time we fail is when we fail to get up and start over again. You start over where you are at this moment. Forgive yourself. What has happened up to this moment is done and over with.
There IS light above the darkness... just because we do not see it for the clouds hanging over us right now, does not mean it isn't real.
You are a strong woman to be able to seek help when you need it!
Be proud of yourself! Taking care of YOU is the most important thing you can do!
Keep Sparking!
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