Tuesday, April 28, 2009
When you set goals, and find that motivation you've been lacking, you should be good to go, right? I thought so too, but even after my last post I've found it really difficult to truly get back into my healthy habits. I found a quote last night that really inspired me: "Every passing minute is a another chance to turn it all around" -Vanilla Sky
The progress I've made is not lost, yes I have not been "on plan". Yes, I forgot to weigh in for two weeks, but I am still here. I am not 265 or 270 again. I am human, I make mistakes, and I am able to turn this around into something positive.
I am going to begin the rest of this week logging my food as best I can. I will try to stop eating when I am no longer hungry, but in my time away, I've fallen back into my gorge thyself mentality. By the beginning of May I will have time to get back on plan, to work out, and give myself the time I deserve to be healthy, happy, and on the right track.
I have been trying to lose weight since Feb. 2007. I was nearly down to my lowest weight and I gave up on myself. I am worth the time it takes to work out, I am worth the extra time to plan out my meals. I am worth the effort of being healthy. I will reach my goal, and I won't give up until I am there. Whether it takes me a year, or more, I will not give up - I am worth it.
Talk to you soon,
Friday, April 10, 2009
I gained this week, and normally I would be really down and feel like "why am I even doing this?" but I don't. For good reason, too! For over a month I have entirely wasted my time, fell off the wagon completely, fell back into old bad habits, forgot my newly formed healthy habits, and I was at a loss, and did not know where to begin again.
This week started off a bit slow, but by Wednesday, I was counting my calories and watching what I ate. Wednesday night I did some Wii Fit and realized in just that month how much my strength and endurance had dwindled. Thursday was a BEAUTIFUL day here, and after taking my cousin to the airport, I decided to head over to a recreation center with a 1.7 mile track around, with tons of hills and such to walk. I had no plan to jog, but I did it! I would say at LEAST 1/3 of the track I jogged, possibly more, even up hills! Then, last night I was on the Wii Fit working out for about 45 minutes, which was awesome. Needless to say I am quite sore today!
I keep saying that eventually I want to be a runner. I've heard so many people for and against it, and maybe once I am at the point where I can run long distances I won't want to be a runner. I really don't know, but it will be a HUGE achievement to me, to be able to run. I always said that I can't yet, my ankles and knees are too weak. Running yesterday was not painless, but it felt amazing to sit in my car and say "you just jogged 1/3 of this track".
So, why am I not upset that I gained this week? Well, my AF is here for one, so I have no clue how accurate the scale really is. I jogged for at least 10 minutes yesterday, and it felt amazing. And finally, I am getting back on track and feel stupendously about it!
Talk to you soon,
Friday, April 03, 2009
So, if you've been watching my page I'll bet you have been wondering not only where I have been, but why my weigh in's have been less than spectacular. I really don't want to sit here and give you a million and one excuses for why I haven't been doing well. I'll try to explain what's been going on in my life, but I am going to say right now: I failed. I let myself down, and I really feel horrible to have wasted an entire month.
So, my last journal entry was for Week 8. Tomorrow is my weigh-in for Week 13! What happened? Well, on March 1 we had my sisters bridal shower. I did well on this day, as far as eating went I didn't eat enough. I was still feeling well, and that week went well as far as my eating, exercise and journal-ing went. At the shower, I got a lot of really great comments about how good I looked, which I loved! Then on March 7th we had my sister's bachelorette party in Baltimore, MD. I am not much of a drinker, in fact I can count on one hand the number of times I've been drunk.. and you can add this night to the list. I consumed a lot of liquid calories, and even had McDonald's on the ride home in our limo-bus. On the 8th we had a brunch, and basically from this day on I haven't journaled much of my food. I didn't really exercise either.
The next weekend we had our St. Patty's parade as well as my Nan's brother passing away, and the weekend after that my great-uncle's funeral. Ever since then my Nan has been over here basically 24/7. She's here now in the other room. I love my Nan, more than words can express, she is so important to me. She loves me, but sometimes she doesn't think of my best interest. She knows what foods I love, and she brings them around me. In moderation I am fine, but when she leaves and I beg her to take the temptation food with her, and she leaves it anyway - well, you can guess what happens.
My mom and I have been talking about her moving in with us, and my first thought was "Oh no, she can't- I'll gain so much weight!" How selfish am I? I am proud to say that today I did well with her. We got Arby's for lunch, and normally my meal would consist of a medium or large roast beef sandwich, a large curly fry, and a large soda. I had a Jr. Roast Beef, Small Curly Fry and some Crystal Light! I haven't binged or eaten anything off-plan today, I just finished WATP, and yesterday I did Core. (Although at night I did eat a little bit more than I would have liked).
This blog is long. I realize that, but I needed to come clean, to admit where I've been, what I've been doing, and how I plan on fixing it. April will NOT be a wasted month. I WILL overcome my obstacles, and I WILL regain control. I wanted to be 235 for Jillian's wedding, and while I do not believe I will get there, I am going to do my best to get down to where I can before then. My dress is fitting well, by the way.
I will weigh-in tomorrow before class. I doubt it will be great, but I will weigh-in regardless, and move on from there. I feel horrible about March, but considering what happened I am surprised I didn't gain more.
Talk to you soon,
Saturday, February 28, 2009
This week has been hectic, again. I didn't even get a chance to weigh-in on Friday, only measure, so I am using my weight from Thursday. I woke up at 9:30 for my 9:00 class. Yeah. This week hasn't been all bad though, and one of the greatest things, my fiancÚ got a job! He starts on Monday, and we couldn't be more happy for him!
Tomorrow is my sister's Bridal Shower, so I have been pretty busy with that. Plus, I had a huge proposal due in my English class, and today was the only day I've had to work on it. Okay, rant over.
This week marked two months on plan. I planned to lose 1.5 pounds a week, and by that measurement I should be at 258 to be exactly on track. Even if you count my starting weight at 265, I should be at 253 to be on schedule. I weighed in this week at 246.8 which is down 1.7 from last week, and means I am 11.2 ahead of schedule! (Or 6.2 depending).
This month I have gone down a whopping 1.2 on my BMI! I've lost 6.7 pounds this month, and this week alone I lost another inch in my arms, bringing my monthly total down to 3 3/4. I went down in every section. This week my BF% stayed the same, but over the course of this month, it went down .8 which I am happy about, and my h2o went up .3 which isn't much, but I guess its better than nothing.
This week I did a total of 265 min. of workout, which is 50 minutes more than last week. I haven't worked out yet tonight, but plan to still. I don't know how to calculate how much I burn when I do core, but I do figure out when I do WATP, and go for walks. This week I burned 1610 PLUS calories, and I am ecstatic! One day I did cleaning, and walk away the pounds together, and another day I did core secrets and walked with my cousin.
I am feeling great, and look forward to next week. On Monday I go for my Sister's wedding dress fitting, and have to take my bridesmaid gown. This will be the first time trying it on since I've lost weight- wish me luck!
See you next week,
Monday, February 23, 2009
This is late, I know, and I apologize for that.
I weighed in on the 20th, and was down to 248.5 which is a loss of 2.6, and I am really happy. I have been so busy with school lately, and behind on all of my work, but last week was a very productive week for me, weight-loss wise.
I worked out everyday, and had a total of 205 minutes when I was finished. So far this week, I went for a 45 minute walk on Saturday, and took Sunday off, and I just finished a 40 minute total body workout with my core secrets.
I do not know why, but the BMI calculator I used was off, so last week my BMI was off, I am not sure if I just didn't have my correct height in there, or not. My BMI on the 20th was 44, my BF% was down .5 from week 6, and my h2o was up .3. I was really surprised to see that I lost TWO and 3/4 inches in my arms. I've been using weights in my core secrets, along with when I walk away the pounds with Leslie Sansone, so it is understandable, but I am blown away with those numbers!
On Day 46, I made a delicious Taco Salad which I edited some, and it was filling, and very healthy, and only 262 calories.
This weekend I did not go up in weight, nor did I go down, but I was eating a lot of carbohydrates, which is something I know I need to work on. Also, with a diminishing supply of my health food, I have found it difficult to fix things for lunch, and snack. I hope that my current money situation betters soon.
It helps that my Mom is trying to lose weight also, though, because she isn't buying junk food any more.
I am really happy with my progress, and I am ready to start a new week. I've been on-plan for 52 days, and I am really happy with myself for that.
See you next week!
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